Chapter 17 Chapter 17 Journey to the Desert

One sand is one world, one flower is one heaven.The most beautiful thing in the world is the vegetation and forests, the dust on the mountains and rocks, and the mist in the lake and sea.One thing counts, one dust counts one calamity, all living beings hold one mind. In the prosperous and prosperous age, we are all walking alone.Carrying a dream that refuses to wake up, and some white lies, so hastily, rush to the agreed front, and taste the taste of life.A floating life, a few journeys of mountains and rivers, until the twilight merges and the smoke and clouds wind up, it is considered that the journey of this life is about to end.

Sanmao, a stubborn woman who is determined to go her own way, knows that life is short and should not be wasted arbitrarily.So she can't wait to go to the desert, although in the eyes of others, her desert trip is disillusioned and self-exiled.But Sanmao never cared about other people's opinions, even if she looked around and saw that she was the only one in the wilderness, she had no regrets. But there was one person who packed his bags silently, went to the desert first, and found a job in a phosphate rock company.He was eager to settle down, just to wait for Sanmao to come and take good care of her.This person is Jose.For the sake of love, he is willing to give up his ideals and go to the desert to endure the hardships and hardships.

When Sanmao received a letter from Jose from the desert, she was moved to tears by his deep emotion.She had already decided in her heart that she would wander the world with him for the rest of her life.But Sanmao still wrote back and said: "You really don't have to go to the desert to suffer for me, and even if I go, I will travel around most of the time, and I won't be able to see you often—" "I think very clearly, to keep you by my side, I have to marry you, otherwise my heart will never be able to reduce this painful feeling. Shall we get married in the desert in summer? I will wait for you in the desert. "Jose's reply made San Mao no longer have any worries. She ended all the trivial matters in Madrid and did not say goodbye to anyone.Before leaving, she left letters and rent to the three Spanish girlfriends who rented the house together, and just like that, she ran to the unknown desert that filled her with longing.

At the beginning, Sanmao went to the desert only for himself, but after a long time, it was for Hexi again.In her half life, she has drifted through many countries and seen too many customs and customs. She was moved and deeply influenced by them.But she still can't stay in a fixed place, completely leave her heart.She is such a woman, she always seems to be separated from all sentient beings, and she does many things that she can't explain in words. Sanmao got off the plane and came to a small town called Ayong.The Sahara Desert, the lover in the dream, Sanmao met it for the first time, and wrote a beautiful sentence: "I looked up, and there was a lonely wind whimpering on the endless yellow sand. The sky is high, and the earth It is deep, majestic and quiet. It is dusk, and the setting sun dyes the desert red with blood, which is terrifying and terrifying. The climate is almost early winter, and under the mood of looking forward to the scorching sun, the land turns into a poetic desolation. "

I hope this desert can forgive her for being late, and accommodate her dreams with a broad mind.She met Jose who had been separated for three months.For three months, Sanmao looked at Jose who was eroded by wind and sand.His hair and beard were covered with yellow dust, his lips were chapped, and his hands were rough.Sanmao was amazed that the desert could change a person into such a appearance in such a short period of time. Her heart throbbed, and this land made her feel uncontrollably.Jose said to her: "Your desert, now you are in its arms." Yes, Sanmao is in the arms of the desert, this lonely and desolate land, do you remember the love you had with her in the previous life?She understands that what the desert brings to her will be a major test, not the ideal romance.

Because she had to live in this desolate environment.As long as I think that in a few months, my long black hair will be covered with wind and dust; my beautiful face will be blown dry and cracked by the wind, I can't help feeling a little melancholy.But Sanmao did not hesitate. For her, the meaning of life lies in the process of pursuing dreams, and the rest can be ignored. Jose rented a house in the small town of Ayong.After walking for forty minutes, Sanmao finally saw the smoke and the family.Beside the road, there are dozens of large tents riddled with holes and huts made of tin. There are a few dromedary camels and herds of goats in the sand.This world, like a fantasy, brought Sanmao a strange sense of familiarity.

In the wind came the laughter of some little girls playing, and the barren desert instantly became alive and interesting.It was the little laughter and wisps of smoke that moved San Mao's heart tenderly.Sanmao has always believed that living freely and following one's inclinations is spiritual civilization. "Life is thriving in such a remote and poor place. It is not struggling to survive. For the residents of the desert, their birth, old age, sickness and death here seem to be so natural. I watched Those rising fireworks, I feel they are almost graceful in serenity." The lonely Sanmao, the rough Sanmao, the tough Sanmao, deep in her heart, there is always a piece of moist and gentle soil, planted with endless vegetation all year round.And she is like the most vital grass in the desert, infecting all living beings with her enthusiasm and elegance, bringing our souls to the desert, and letting our hearts bet on the desolate station.Don't ask if one day, whether you can come out safe and sound.

The last small house with oblong arches in a row of houses is Sanmao's home in the Sahara Desert.Here, there is almost no human habitation, only the vast sky and wavy sandy valleys.The violent wind kept blowing her hair and long skirt.If it was in the picture, Sanmao would probably remember this beautiful and desolate segment forever, but at this moment, what she has to face is real life. Putting down his heavy luggage, He Xi hugged her from behind: "Our first home, I will carry you in, and you will be my wife from now on." In San Mao's heart, she never loved him passionately, But with him, there is a flat and profound feeling.This feeling also made her feel happy and comfortable.After going through too many separations and separations, she seems to understand that true love is not romantic love, but a stable fleeting time.

This is a humble residence with large and small rooms, a corridor that can be walked in a few steps, a kitchen the size of four newspaper tiles, and a small bathroom.The concrete floor is uneven, and there are dark gray hollow brick walls.There was a small bare light bulb hanging from it, and the wires were covered with dense flies.There is also a gap in the corner, and the wind keeps pouring into it.Turning on the faucet, a few drops of thick green liquid flowed out, but there was no drop of water. The only gratification is that Hexi bought a ewe and raised it with the landlord's, so that there will be fresh milk to drink in the future.Looking at the roof that seemed to be collapsing, Sanmao asked about the rent—10,000, about NT$7,000, excluding water and electricity.Jose almost didn't dare to ask San Mao's first impression of this place, but San Mao felt that it was good to have a place to settle down.This shabby house is waiting for them to decorate carefully.

They need to go to town to buy some groceries and simply settle down.Starting from home to the town, there are sandy fields, cemeteries, and gasoline stations along the way.The area where Sanmao lives is called the cemetery area.When it got dark, I saw the lights of the town.In this wild town, two or three streets covered everything—the bank, the city hall, the courthouse, the post office, as well as the hotel and the cinema.However, all these buildings are like mirages in the wind and sand, so weak and empty. They went into the grocery store and bought a tiny refrigerator, a frozen chicken, a gas stove, a blanket.There is really no room for Sanmao to choose the products here.Thinking of the simple and gloomy home again, Sanmao is not in the mood to dress up much.She only has a kind of peace of mind that once she comes, she can live her life.

When Sanmao and Jose were friends before, they used money together.Now that they are not married, she should also bear some financial responsibility.So when paying, Sanmao opened the pillow case that he carried with him, and there was a large stack of money inside.It turned out that Sanmao and her mother had a common habit of hiding valuables and money in pillows. After paying the money and walking out of the store, Jose asked Sanmao how he got so much money.In fact, the money was given by Sanmao's father before she came to the desert.The father knew that her stubborn daughter would encounter many difficulties if she wanted to go on a desert trip alone.He not only gave San Mao spiritual support, but also gave her financial support.If there is a kind of love in this world that is the most selfless and sincere, it is the love of parents. Jose looked at the money and felt displeased. "Your coming to the Sahara is just a matter of superficial stubbornness and inner romance, and you will soon hate it. You have so much money, you will not live like others." This is Jose's sarcasm to Sanmao He believed that Sanmao's trip to the Sahara was just a short trip, and when the trip was over, he would quit his job and leave here with her. Because of Jose's words, Sanmao felt cold.After so many years of acquaintance, so many years of wandering alone, Jose would actually regard her as a worthless vain woman because of this little money.But Sanmao didn't speak. She didn't want to argue with Hexi or care about anything when he made many sacrifices for her.She felt that her future life would prove to her her affection for the Sahara, her inner tenacity and principles of life. Maybe that wasn't Jose's original intention, he just thought that, as a man, he should bear everything.He told Sanmao that the money should be deposited in the bank, and all their expenses in the future will be based on the salary he earned.Life may be difficult, but it can be lived anyway.Sanmao can't do much for Jose, she is willing and must maintain his pride. On the first night in the desert, Sanmao was curled up in a sleeping bag, while Jose was wrapped in a thin blanket.In the near-zero temperature, the couple in distress spread a piece of canvas from a tent on the concrete floor and stayed frozen until dawn. That night, Sanmao looked at He Xi who was not sleeping soundly beside him.Looking back on the past, I have waited stubbornly for many years, and now I have paid without asking for rewards.Sanmao felt that no matter how much he couldn't bear it, he couldn't let him down.Maybe she should be satisfied, with parents who love her, a man who is willing to die for her, and come to the Sahara in her dream.This life is really not in vain. She is not a greedy woman.With a belief, a touch, and a responsibility, she should also go on strong.Tomorrow, tomorrow, she and this man will go to the court in Ayong town to apply for marriage.From then on, she was his bride, a beautiful and happy bride.