Chapter 14 Chapter Fourteen

The Buddhist scriptures say: "Everything can't be taken away, only karma will go with you."One day, when I leave the dust, I can't take it away.But all karmic debts, no matter how many lives you have experienced, will always follow closely. A few strokes can tell the vicissitudes of life of a person.And that hard process needs to be borne by oneself.Sanmao always believed that the love disaster she experienced in this life must be the karmic debt of her previous life.This seemingly free-spirited and casual woman actually has times when she can't afford to be hurt. There were a lot of guests in the cafe that day, and there was a man who shared a table with Sanmao.It was this thin man with long hair and trendy and messy clothes that brought Sanmao an emotional disaster.

He is a down-and-out painter. Out of love for art, Sanmao went to his studio.The painter's paintings are really not great works of art.But Sanmao loved it very much, and thought that every painting was a masterpiece.She felt that one day, Maxima would meet Bole who appreciates him. A down-and-out artist meets a talented woman who admires him by chance, and he must be grateful.He felt that Sanmao was the goddess sent by God to save his soul, and he was willing to devote his life to creating for her.The emotional Sanmao and the impulsive Sanmao agreed to the painter's marriage proposal inexplicably.The star coffee house witnessed their hasty love.

The family did not approve of the marriage between San Mao and the painter. They always felt that the character of the painter was not correct enough. They believed that San Mao could fall in love first, and they should not talk about marriage with him so soon.Stubborn Sanmao never listens to other people's persuasion emotionally.She fell under the gu of love and art, she said that as long as two people love each other, all problems will be solved. Maybe we don't understand why Sanmao just gave himself up to the painter when he rejected José, the Japanese boyfriend, the German boyfriend, and the courtship of so many people.Is she really in love so hard to hold on?Or is she just trying to fulfill art?This woman who lives for the soul, we never know how her journey of life will be completed.

It's a pity that things backfired. The painter who promised her a forever vow had already had a wife.He is a veritable love liar, he used art to deceive Sanmao's sympathy.In order to calm things down, Sanmao's father, Chen Siqing, gave the painter a large sum of money, hoping to resolve the unfortunate tragedy of his daughter as soon as possible. Losing love, Sanmao is heartbroken.Sanmao blamed himself even more for hurting his parents.For several months, Sanmao was devastated, and her heart was broken, full of frustration and despair.And the parents, in order to save this daughter, poured out all their love and warded off the ups and downs.For the sake of her parents, Sanmao wakes up, forgets that cursed love, and starts a new life.

What happened to Sanmao is really sad.Fate didn't intend to play tricks on her, it's just that the casual Sanmao accidentally went astray.Many years later, she said that if you lose your horse, you will know it is not a blessing, and it can be regarded as tolerance for the rough life.But your tolerance may not be able to exchange for the kindness of the years.Time is like a gentle and sharp challenger. In the end, we surrender without a fight. Chen Siqing, who loves sports, encourages Sanmao to play tennis in order to let his daughter get out of the emotional haze as soon as possible. He hopes that Sanmao, who has suffered all kinds of twists and turns, can bathe in the sun and live a splendid life in the new world.Little did he know that the situation he created with his heart still had a catastrophe waiting for this talented woman who was troubled by many disasters.

Sanmao and her father met a German teacher together.The German teacher was forty-five years old, tall, straight, and gentle.Sanmao had several exchanges with the German teacher, and he was gentle and considerate to her, meticulous in every detail.After that, this mature middle-aged man developed a heart of admiration for the charming and charming San Mao. With him, Sanmao felt peace and tranquility that she had never had before.He never seems to use words to express anything, but he can always show his affection when getting along.In his heart, he knew that this young woman had been hurt emotionally.He hoped to gradually heal the scars hidden deep in her heart with tender feelings.

There is a tacit understanding between Sanmao and him that can only be conveyed in words but cannot be understood.She felt that he was a man who had experienced the world and knew how to love.When getting along with him, Sanmao feels that there is no need to take risks, and there is no need to worry about emotional betrayal.Maybe the days are a bit dull, but the tranquility is like autumn water.Sanmao, who used to be obsessed with wandering, now longs for a stable life.Stay together with a man who is worth relying on. One day, Sanmao and the German teacher were walking under the starry sky.He stopped suddenly and said to Sanmao: "Shall we get married?" His words were gentle and his expression was solemn.

"Okay." Sanmao agreed to him naturally and calmly without thinking.Maybe Sanmao is too tired. She has walked the road of emotion for too long and with too many twists and turns.She didn't want to give herself the slightest chance to indulge, she was willing to stop for this young man.At least for this moment, she has no regrets. This German teacher who has experienced emotions has moistened his eyes.I never thought that at this age, I could still find a young and talented woman like a flower.Their love finally has a destination. Maybe many people don't understand why Sanmao can fall in love with someone again in such a short time after just ending a relationship.How could her heart accommodate endless emotions.Perhaps, she herself didn't understand why God gave her such a sentimental heart.It is because of her sensibility that so many shocking articles are written.

Sanmao once said that the eternal story of articles cannot be picked up by a small person like her.She writes to please her parents, and it is also her own interest, making a record of her personal life.But she herself is a legend, her emotions, and the places she walked have become the yearning of many people for a lifetime. She is destined to be a legend, and a legend must pay a price.The lovers were full of joy to print their business cards, hoping to put their names together, just like Bing Dilian and Lian Lizhi, without saying goodbye.They deliberately chose the material of the veneer, with Chinese on one side and German on the other side.

I agreed to pick it up after half a month.But seventeen years later, Sanmao recalled the incident and said: "I haven't picked up that box of business cards until today." , Lao and Yan fly apart and never meet each other. There is nothing more painful in the world than parting from life and death.That night, the German teacher, who was usually in good health, suddenly died of a heart attack.This man who made her willing to marry had just left.He died in her arms without leaving any words, so that in this life, as long as she closes her eyes, she will remember that sad scene. Life and death, gathering and scattering, true and false, like a drama.Perhaps this overly tortuous play allowed the extraordinary Sanmao to play the leading role.But who knows, after acting out this life and death, whether she will be able to walk out peacefully.If it's a play, Sanmao's participation in the play is too real.When she saw her loved one being nailed into a coffin, her heart was filled with blood and tears.

Love turns out to be a bureau, when you give everything, it leaves no way out for you.Sanmao could no longer forgive God for the jokes she had played on her, and several relationships exhausted her.Not long after the German teacher passed away, Sanmao chose to commit suicide by taking medicine in a heartbroken mood.Fortunately, there was no danger, and Sanmao survived the catastrophe and returned to the world. This woman always chooses to end herself in an extreme way.Seemingly firm and proud, she has been cowardly evading, and she surrendered.Let yourself die like autumn leaves, maybe you can end all the pain.But her mission has not been completed, and there is a long period of happiness that will make up for all her past misfortunes. After the pain, Sanmao found herself on the verge of death.Later, she dug a hole in her heart and buried the German teacher deeply.His death left an eternal memory in San Mao's heart.Maybe he wasn't good enough, maybe they wouldn't be so happy after marriage.But he died in Sanmao's arms, giving love a sad beauty. For Sanmao, Taipei is not really a peaceful place.She gave her most beautiful years and true love to this beautiful island.But the humiliation, the past of autism, and the grief of losing her beloved made her unbearable to look back on.Perhaps her life is doomed to wander, and only by walking can she find peace. Sanmao thought of Spain, that free and unrestrained country.There, her emotional wounds were healed, and she regained her confidence and happiness.Dreaming back at midnight, she began to think about that country, the little white house, pastoral songs, and the endless vineyards.You can smoke there, hold a wine bag, and exchange glasses with others. Be a butterfly, a butterfly flying across the sea, keep yourself away from pain, and find freedom and passion.Maybe one day, she will fall down on the journey, maybe one day, she will bury herself with her own hands.All of this is not important. Packing her bags, her parents weren't as worried as they were when she first left home.Instead, I hope that she can change her environment, forget the tragic experience of more than a year, and live happily and strong.It turns out that to love deeply is to let go. There is a kind of person who is only suitable for wandering.Only when you are far away from your homeland can you be full of spring breeze.Sanmao is such a person, and walking has become her belief in this life.Farewell to Taipei, this passionate and talented woman, without delay, chooses to set off and choose to wander.