Chapter 10 Chapter 10 Spring Breeze Changes Face

The beautiful scenery is always far away.Because of that strange land that has never been traveled before, there are unknown mountains and rivers, unknown encounters, and unknown fates.For many people, the distance is a temptation and a challenge to life.But the place called home, but you need to go through the vicissitudes of life before you can meet it. Sanmao said that she ran all over the world to escape her emotions.For her, traveling far is not a belief, and there is not much temptation. She just wants to forget and exile.Until later, the scenery in the distance healed the scars in San Mao's heart.Just like that, she walked out of the small world of narrow emotions and had the enthusiasm to travel all over the world.

On the day Sanmao left home, he put a five-dollar bill in his pocket and a seven-hundred-dollar money order.This amount of money is really not much for a girl who is alone in the world.When she left, she didn't shed tears, she just hoped to leave her smile to her parents and this homeland she was nostalgic for.She just went there resolutely, never turning back, even though her mother fell on the railing crying, she didn't turn around and wave. She didn't dare to look back, she was afraid that after turning around, the eyes of her parents would break her fragile will.Until she crossed the sea of ​​clouds and flew over the mountains of Mu Xue, she still shed tears after all.But San Mao's heart was still in a state of confusion, she didn't even know how she came to this situation.There is no chance to turn back the emotional road that has been broken by hand.The drifting journey starts here.

It's like a beautiful mistake, if there is no slack when I was young, how can I have the freedom and ease of being forgotten by thousands of miles of wind and sand in the future.The first love set the stage for Sanmao's life, making this woman the most beautiful scenery in the desert.How many people, because of her, have the courage to go out of the small world, go to distant places to pursue their dreams, and experience hardships.How many people, because of her, fell in love with the story of the Sahara and the fireworks billowing in the world of mortals. Is it different after all, I always want to be an idler who looks down on falling flowers, and listen to other people's stories together with the time in the corner.I am also willing to exchange my youth for a bright face, so that I can avoid the distant mountains and rivers, and omit the joys and sorrows of separation and reunion.Then, when you get old, it might be a kind of happiness to live on simple memories.

Madrid, Spain.Sanmao will study at the Department of Philosophy at the University of Madrid for two years.Spain may not be a country with a very famous name, but many people are fascinated by its style.At that time, many artists went to Paris, the romantic capital of art, or to Japan, to catch a feast of cherry blossoms. Why did Sanmao choose to go to Spain? According to her own account, she was deeply moved when she heard a Spanish classical guitar record by chance when she was in college.In her heart, she longed for the wild, romantic, simple and beautiful paradise, with small white houses, donkeys, pastoral songs, and endless vineyards.

Sanmao came to Spain because of this emotion. She hoped that this place could change her pale life.She had to forget that front, cut off the rope of love, and love her noble self again in this strange place. Later, Sanmao's first love, Shu Fan, became the general manager of TTV Culture Company.Although he has intersected with culture all his life, he has too little time to write quietly.And Sanmao walked and wrote all the way, and her talent and name far surpassed the talents of the Cultural Institute back then. The process and ending given to everyone by fate cannot be changed.The two clouds that once met did not separate, but became strangers.One used to go with the flow and gain peace.One spent half his life wandering in exchange for a story.Many years later, Sanmao and Shu Fan still maintain a gentle friendship.After all, Sanmao gave him the most beautiful and initial emotions in life.After all, because of this miss, Sanmao's life really started.

Shu Fan once said that during the past 20 years, a man and a woman were married, and the two once lived across the street.Only once at the entrance of the alley, I met Sanmao with other people in the literary and art circles.So close to each other, they have never met again.Sanmao also said: "Emotion is just a promise in memory. It is difficult to say anything other than talking about the past." Therefore, some people have no need to meet each other for the rest of their lives. Tang Dynasty man Du Fu wrote in a poem: "Life does not meet each other, but it moves like participating in business. Tomorrow is separated by mountains, and the world is boundless." The world's gathering and parting, parting and reuniting, are normal, and some are forever, which is really an accident.You see, how many old things are still there, but new people have been replaced.If it is forgotten, the front edge will be wiped off, and it will be written off.If you remember, just think of it casually.

When she first arrived in Spain, this foreign girl with a broken heart had no friends or a language barrier, only loneliness was always with her.But she is still grateful, because this strange environment blurred her memory and made her forget the people and things far away in Taipei.But what she couldn't let go of was family affection.Writing letters seemed to be all she relied on when she first went to Spain. In a strange country, the days also become long.She wrote letters to her family, not talking about loneliness or bitterness.During the day, you can still feel the enthusiastic and unrestrained lifestyle of the Spaniards.But at night, that kind of nostalgia and the remnants of first love will penetrate into her bones and blood, causing her unbearable pain.But she has to endure this pain, because she already knows that sadness is a necessary journey when she chooses a far away place.

Once, time was a swordsman, slaughtering her love.Now, time has become a good medicine to heal her old wounds.A year later, this lonely and indifferent girl was infected with the madness and casualness of the Spanish nation.I finally believe that the environment can change a person subtly.No matter how stubborn and determined you are, you will eventually be wet by the wind and rain and stained with dust by the years. In fact, in her bones, she is warm and wild, beautiful and sad.Gradually, she became Madrid, an unfettered butterfly flying freely.She started sitting in cafés, dancing, hitchhiking, and listening to operettas.She also learned to smoke and fell in love with drinking.This does not mean that Sanmao is no longer that innocent woman.It can only be said that she finally walked out of the closed cage and knew how to enjoy life and cherish life.A person, as long as his heart is clear, can be clean and dust-free despite the vicissitudes of the world.

Sanmao once wrote: "At the College of University City in Madrid, there is no limit to the wine on the table when you drive back to the dormitory at noon every day for lunch. In that country, people who only drink white water can say that there is no wine. Most people don't drink it either. Strong alcohol, but healthy red wine and white wine are what priests, nuns, and even children drink. It is this natural environment that makes me learn to drink, and I enjoy it without getting tired, and I won’t get drunk.” For this reason, Sanmao also bought a wine bag. Her love for wine comes from Spain.In the days to come, whether you drink it or not, you must fill it up with wine, so that the wine bag will not dry up.But later, when the landscape changed, Sanmao always wanted to buy a bottle of good wine to soak the wine bag, but he lost his mood, and he couldn't find wine with the taste of Spain.Things that should have been used for a lifetime are just so thirsty day by day.

All things need nourishment to be spiritual.The same is true for people's thoughts and emotions. If they are not taken care of, one day they will lose their color and change their appearance.Today's Sanmao is charming, free and easy, comfortable, and wild. The girl who was autistic and dropped out of school ten years ago has already seemed like a lifetime away.She no longer felt melancholy about losing her love, and even thanked Shu Fan for giving her that beautiful memory. If Shu Fan hadn't rejected San Mao back then, perhaps she would have already married a woman at this time.But Sanmao, who has a flamboyant personality, rich emotions, and regards words as his life, is willing to give up the pursuit of his life, do a nine-to-five job every day, and live an ordinary life?Love is different from marriage. At this time, Sanmao still lacks life experience, and she is not yet able to support a family.Or in other words, once her life is finalized, who will continue to write that legendary life for her?

Sanmao seemed to be a homeless person from birth, so when she embarked on the journey, she felt that life could be lived like this.She can no longer be a quiet and gentle woman, facing a quiet window, holding a plain pen, and writing thin thoughts.She needs to feel the beauty of life in exile, like a lone goose, flying high and staying at will. Sanmao fell in love with traveling, she went to Paris, Munich, Rome, Amsterdam... She didn't ask for travel expenses from her family, she said: "It's very simple, eat white bread, drink tap water, enough to live!" She is brave and firm , not afraid of wind and rain and poverty, and regard human feelings as the most precious wealth in the world. Suddenly, I felt that the past years were just a long dream.She cannot repeat the same mistakes, she must constantly change directions and find stories.Drink a pot of heartbroken wine, watch a rain that has lost interest, and sing a heart-piercing song.Just don't love someone easily, don't make the same mistake again. Fate, sometimes more stubborn than people, but also determined.When the fate is over, it is not allowed whether you are willing or not.When fate comes, I don't ask you if you need it.There are always so many wrong encounters at the wrong time.Some people parted ways after joining hands for a journey, and some people never left after going through thousands of rivers and mountains. Sanmao didn't know that in this foreign country, there was a person who was born for her.If there is no loss in the past, there will be no gain in the future.People say fate is doomed, but which one really belongs to you? You in the end of the world, and me in the end of the world, are all weeds in the world.Let me ask, who is Luohua?Who is running water?Who is the passerby?Who is the returnee?