Chapter 21 Chapter Twenty

As autumn goes and winter comes, as time goes by, the psychological uneasiness is gradually diluted.I think, maybe Chang Tianli is getting married soon and doesn't have time to take revenge, or because she is getting married soon, she doesn't want to make trouble anymore.In short, the fierce battle that I had been carefully preparing for did not come.My date with Yuan Yilin, after a one-month hiatus at the beginning, has also resumed.It's just that we have become more confidential and careful, and of course the number of appointments has also decreased and decreased.The reduction in the number of appointments is like a lingering gust of wind at sea, blowing our mutual passion like a full sail, and the sharp sword of revenge hinted by Chang Tianli above our heads is even more important for our date. Added an indescribable thrill.From each other, we have rediscovered the fulcrum of emotion and the source of passion.

Just like food is a kind of support for people to live, if people enjoy the cooked food, they can live.The same goes for sex.After making love, people enjoy it, and then they can love each other.I don't know whether this word comes from the free translation of dolove in English, or there is such a saying in ancient China.Just from my interaction with Yuan Yilin, I have truly experienced the exactness and verisimilitude of this word in describing the intercourse between husband and wife.Since we recognized our non-husband and wife relationship with each other, we have hidden our conscience and moral uneasiness and guilt deeply in our hearts.In this context, we pay more attention to the true love between us and the spiritual sacrifices caused by our inability to combine, which not only makes our hearts of guilt for betraying our families gain psychologically balance, and allows us to be proud of the sacrifices we made for each other.In this sense, our relationship should not be condemned by morality, but should have a noble quality.

The days are getting shorter and shorter, and often around 5:30 in the afternoon, the sun plunges into the mountains from the end of the western sky.Maybe it's because the night is getting longer, and the fear of guarding against Chang Tianli is getting weaker and weaker, so my appointments with Yuan Yilin began to increase.Under the cover of night, we often just get together for two or three hours on the grounds of entertainment or business trips to express our lovesickness, and sometimes we spend the night in that house. On a snowy night, the entire night sky and the ground became brighter because of the snow. The crowds of pedestrians shrank their necks and shuttled back and forth in the misty snow and fog. The scene was like a TV screen with a bad signal.At about seven o'clock I had arrived at the house by taxi.I'm confident that I'm safe. Not only am I well-packed, but I don't even see any suspicious people around me when I take a taxi.

I just took off my coat and mask when the lock on the door rang.Yuan Yilin walked to the center of the living room with several packed lunch boxes.It is said that many rich men have concubines. I don't know if I count, but no matter what kind of role it is, I recognize it.I love him, love his devotion to me, love his cherishment of me as a half-aged lady, and love his pity for me... There is a Chinese saying that "a man dies for a confidant, and a woman is for a man who pleases herself." In such a situation, am I just "tolerating" him, I almost have the determination to die for him.

There is a piece of beautiful music in the room, which is the theme song "when a man loves a woman" of the movie "Men Loves a Woman".In fact, we enjoyed this classic movie together on our second date.The film tells the story of a man who loves his alcoholic lover deeply, and although this woman also loves her husband and family deeply, she cannot give him a complete love and family because of her uncontrollable alcoholism.In the contradictory love and life, they are entangled and entangled in the pain of love... This song is written by the famous singer Michael?Bowton sang, he sang with full emotion and heartbreaking sadness, the inner helplessness of a loving man and his hoarse cry for his lover.I don't know if it's the movie or the song that aroused Yuan Yilin's emotional resonance, or sang his helpless love for the woman who hurt him in his youth, he always played this song over and over again many times A song that forgetfully recalls the distant youthful years.Then we'll dance, hug and love to the sad melody of this song.

It was a beautiful night full of passion.Snowflakes are fluttering outside the window, and the house is full of affection.We are like two boys and girls swimming in love, absorbing the juice of love from each other's body and soul, and experiencing the ultimate state of love.I have always believed that crazy love belongs to young people. I never expected that after the years of youth, an old woman with a haggard body and mind can still glow with such bright passion; , After experiencing the hardships of life again and again, such a crazy love can also be born in a heart that has experienced vicissitudes.Up to this point, I stared at Yuan Yilin's face beaming with love, and really wanted to pray aloud, thank God!

Good times always fly by so fast. After I finished taking a shower, it was already past ten o'clock at night.At this time, Yuan Yilin had just entered the bathroom to take a shower.In my loose cotton pajamas, I listened contentedly to soft, soft music on the stereo while I straightened my damp hair.At this time, there was a sudden and urgent bell in the hall. I suddenly stopped what I was doing, like an animal in a dangerous situation, holding my breath, vigilantly sniffing out all kinds of abnormal movements around me.After the second doorbell rang, I started to move quietly, walked to the door, and looked out through the peephole, just in time to see the deformed face and body of a man and a woman.

I didn't speak, and the doorbell rang again.Then, a man's voice came: Excuse me, is anyone in the house?We check the gas pipes.There is a leak in the gas pipe here.We urgently need to find out. What I didn't expect was such an answer!Almost everyone knows the dangers of gas.Because of this reason, I put all the doubts that had just arisen in my heart behind me at once.Almost without thinking, I focused all my attention on the gas that the people outside the door were talking about, and pulled open the anti-theft door. I was holding the doorknob with my hand, and suddenly I was dumbfounded, like the cold door next to me, I lost consciousness and consciousness!

In front of the door stood Yuan Yilin's wife Liang Fengting, her face almost touching mine.And behind her, two black figures disappeared at the bend of the stairs in a flash. When I regained my senses, the first thing I felt was the cold air on Liang Fengting's body.She was like an iceman who had drilled out of an ice cave, exuding a refreshing chill all over her body.And her hand, like an ice cube, is in the middle of my neck, clutching my collar tightly. I was pushed in by grabbing my pajamas, and was violently pushed to the ground in the center of the living room.I lay on my side, clearly seeing my two legs protruding from the hem of the rolled up pajamas, looking healthy and clean in the warm light of the living room."When a man loves woman" just started playing on the stereo, and the hoarse male voice was singing "when a man loves woman..." as I was familiar with.I haven't had time to react to Liang Fengting, my mind is still immersed in a dazed state, trying to think about how the man and woman who checked the gas pipe became Yuan Yilin's wife, and how Yuan Yilin's wife knew about this place.

When the pain in my body finally woke me up, Yuan Yilin's wife was kicking me with her high-heeled leather boots.I saw that my pajamas with small blue flowers on a white background had been covered with yellow mud, and my bare legs had been kicked beyond recognition.I finally cried, not because of the pain in my body, but because of Liang Fengting's insults: Steal people to support Han!shameless!shameless! This is the first time I have seen such an old prostitute! ... Maybe it was because her scolding touched my heartache or scar. I suddenly felt very ashamed and helpless, and felt that I had no power to refute.I really don't know, am I robbing someone else's husband?Am I being shameless by doing this?Am I an old whore?When these questions kept flooding into my mind with Liang Fengting's insults, I could only shed tears of humiliation and asked my soul over and over again in my heart.

Liang Fengting didn't stop swearing and kicking because of my tears and non-resistance.In my feeling, she is more like a desperate mother beast, it seems that all the power of revenge in her body has been gathered at this moment, gathered at her feet.She kicked me desperately, from one foot to two feet, her body almost jumped up.Kicked by the high heels and pointed toes, I lay on the ground like a puddle of mud under her feet, trampled powerless to fight back. I don't know how long it took, it seemed that when the song on the stereo was about to end, Yuan Yilin finally appeared in front of my blurred tears wearing a large nightgown. I was pulled up, as if I had just crawled out of the mud, and the yellow mud marks were all over my body like pieces of dead leaves after autumn.I am still crying, wronged, ashamed, and full of helplessness.When Yuan Yilin pulled me away from Liang Fengting and stood on the side of the living room, Liang Fengting began to pounce on Yuan Yilin like a hungry tiger. You black-hearted bastard, I have been with you for so many years, and I still live in that old house.How dare you buy a house for such an old whore.It's fine for you to hide your beauty in a golden house, but you hid something, I'm ashamed for you... She yelled loudly and flailed her limbs wildly, forcing Yuan Yilin to keep retreating.Even so, I could still see his wife's fists and feet on his face, neck, chest and legs.I don't know why Yuan Yilin didn't resist, and whether he felt apologetic and guilty in front of his wife.When Yuan Yilin's wife pushed Yuan Yilin step by step to the side corner of the living room, he finally came across a potted green plant on a stand.It was too late to stop it, and Yuan Yilin and the tall plant fell to the ground with a splash and a clatter together with the support. I let out an exclamation, staring straight-eyed, looking at everything in front of me helplessly, not knowing what would happen next.After being frightened for a moment, Liang Fengting regained the anger she had just now.She suddenly turned around and rushed towards those potted plants, and one pot after another fell to pieces.Then she kicked the rotten soil and tiles on the ground, and Yuan Yilin's leg stretched out in front of her, while cursing loudly: A pair of dogs and men, I will let you have an affair, let you commit adultery... Two minutes later, Yuan Yilin stood up staggeringly, with a large piece of loess still on his arm.He didn't care about these things, he just stared at his wife's kicks and walked towards her step by step.I don't know if he felt pain, because I clearly saw his wife's pointed heels clicking wildly on his legs like a chicken pecking at rice. He didn't say a word, but suddenly stretched out an arm and put it around his wife's neck.His wife was still cursing and kicking her lower legs, but she was soon suffocated.When I noticed that Liang Fengting's legs had become weaker and his futile struggles were getting weaker and weaker, I suddenly understood Yuan Yilin's out-of-control behavior. It's going to kill someone! I subconsciously yelled and ran towards Yuan Yilin, and then Liang Fengting fell out of his arms. I thought she would be scared, but she wasn't.She stood opposite Yuan Yilin and me, coughing loudly and cursing with tears in her eyes: You have the guts to kill me today! She suddenly bent down and lowered her head, stretched out her hand, and pulled out a shiny knife from the high padded shoes as if by magic. How about it?Fight to the death today! The war escalated, and I suddenly felt the seriousness of the situation.Although I have seen many tragedies caused by extramarital affairs in many media, I never thought that I would become one of them today.Facing the shiny knife, Yuan Yilin not only showed no fear, but even became more angry. No, I can't let this tragedy happen, I want to stop it.I frantically blocked Yuan Yilin who was approaching the knife step by step, and then rushed to Liang Fengting, trying to grab the knife.However, before I reached out, Liang Fengting grabbed my hair and almost at the same time, put the cold knife on my neck. A cold pain suddenly spread from the neck to the brain, and I found that my legs began to tremble involuntarily.I have never been afraid of death, but I have been afraid of the feeling of a knife cutting through the flesh and the pain of blood oozing from the skin since I was a child.This makes me unable to cover up my inherent flaws and weaknesses in front of them. Yuan Yilin, kneel down for me, otherwise, I will cut her face first and then kill her. I was confused by her shout, and Yuan Yilin fell into a terrible predicament from the peak of his anger just now.He suddenly straightened his body and stared blankly at me with a distorted expression. For almost ten seconds, he didn't seem to recover. This woman is so poisonous, I suddenly felt that Yuan Yilin should really divorce her, and I should have taken his husband long ago. A minute later, Yuan Yilin endured the humiliation and anger, and knelt down for me.He knelt straight in front of us, like a sawn stake.Looking at his painful expression and kneeling posture, my painful tears fell from my cheeks like a lot of beans, rolled onto the cold blade, and then slid down the blade. Ha-ha-ha, Liang Fengting suddenly burst out laughing, that ugly laughter, like the howling of a ghost, made my ears buzz. Yuan Yilin, you also have today, and you also have a day to kneel down.Do you still remember the scene when I knelt down for you?Back then, for the sake of our family, I begged you, begged you, and knelt down to you, but none of them got your heart back.Today, you kneel down for such a woman.I hate you so much! Yuan Yilin, you are really smart for a while, but a fool for a lifetime.In fact, if you don't kneel down, not only will I not kill this woman who dirty my hands, but maybe I will forgive you for everything today, because this proves that you and our family can still be saved.However, you knelt down, knelt down for this woman, and this kneeling just sentenced this woman to death.Because it turns out you've gone too far, too far.That being the case, there is no need for me to redeem anything, let alone expect me to fulfill you. Yuan Yilin's face turned paler.I know that Liang Fengting has put all her eggs in one basket and is ready to make the last move.It seems that this woman is really crazy. In the days of being Yuan Yilin's secret lover, although there was always a feeling of uneasiness, and I had predicted the possible outcome countless times, and even made the worst plan, I never expected such an end.The cold knife had already started to exert force on the skin of the neck, and I clearly felt the sharp pain coming from the blade, as if the neck was already bleeding.I didn't dare to struggle, and I didn't dare to shout, I could only watch Yuan Yilin's reaction with fear and helplessness, hoping he could use some method to save me. Xiaofeng, Yuan Yilin suddenly called his wife by her nickname. This is a title I have heard many years ago, probably in the first few years of their marriage.I think Yuan Yilin must be scared, he knows that his angry wife will do any crazy move at this moment, so he wants to use this address to evoke her tenderness back then. Xiaofeng, don't do this, if I hurt you, I ask you to forgive me today, I just hope you don't do stupid things. Liang Fengting burst into tears, and streams of tears flowed from her face that was livid due to madness and anger. It seemed that Yuan Yilin's words had an effect.Yuan Yilin struck while the iron was hot, stood up slowly, walked towards his wife, and said softly: Xiaofeng, I know that I am not a good husband, I hurt you.I also know that you are wronged.If it is said that you did this stupid thing of dying together today because of my harm to you, then I have already understood your pain.I really didn't expect that you would be so desperate.If this is the case, Xiaofeng, please give me another chance to reconsider our relationship, okay?Maybe it's just to delay your behavior, okay? Liang Fengting cried even harder, her knife hand began to tremble violently, and the sharp blade trembled violently in my neck. Xiaofeng, let her go. If you do this, not only will you not be able to give me a chance, but you will also not be able to give yourself a chance. Besides, she is not as bad as you imagined... You stop, or I'll slit her throat right away.When Yuan Yilin walked in front of us, Liang Fengting yelled at Yuan Yilin as if suddenly awakened from a dream.Almost at the same time, I felt a sharp pain in my neck attacking my whole body again. You stinking man, you're cheating on me again, you're just trying to get me to let go of this old woman.I hate you, I hate you for condescending to me for her, I hate you for playing such a trick for her, I hate you.If you lose her, you will be sad for the rest of your life, and I will make you sad for the rest of your life... I felt hopeless, so I had no choice but to move my fearful eyes away from Yuan Yilin's face and slowly close them. I don't know if time is still running. In fact, time has no beginning and no end, and of course it can't walk. The reason why it is considered to be walking is just that human beings have set a scale for it.Yuan Yilin is still struggling, I can no longer hear what they are saying.I thought, since there is no escape, let it come! Gray-black flakes of scale-like things were already flying in front of them, in groups and piles, shining gray-black light from different angles and places.I think this may be the junction of Yin and Yang.Just like the stars and the moon as the accompanying scenery in the dark night, this gray-black flying object may be a natural derivative of this world.If you pass through this chaotic passage, will you see another world.I remember people saying that there is a Naihe Bridge on this road, and if you drink a glass of Naihe water at the Naihe Bridge, you will completely forget all the grievances and grievances in your previous life and become a ghost in another world.I still remember that when drinking Naihe water, you should... A heavy roar interrupted my cranky thoughts, and everything in front of me disappeared instantly.I opened my eyes and found that not only was I not dead, but the knife on my neck was gone.In addition to Yuan Yilin and her wife, there was also a panting father and a pale son standing in front of him! Father was twisting Liang Fengting's wrist with his old hands, and the blue veins protruding from his thin forehead were like purple-black earthworms, crawling and crouching. The knife lay quietly at father's feet!Under the lighting of the living room, there is only the gleaming cold light, like the sunlight reflected on the water, still jumping gently! Everything that happened tonight was like a dream, the knock on the gas pipe, the sudden arrival of Liang Fengting, the timely rescue of the father and son, what is going on?If it is said that Liang Fengting's arrival was due to the deceit of the two gas pipeline inspectors, then how did the father and son suddenly fall in front of them at such a critical moment? I turned my head to look at the door, and then remembered that I was pushed into the living room by Liang Fengting, and the door behind me was not closed at all.When I just understood this question, I suddenly heard Liang Fengting howl like crazy: This is really wrong, you are all here to help this old prostitute sell meat?Yes or no?Take a look!Be proud.She suddenly pointed to my father, your daughter, and then pointed to my son and said, your mother, she used her own butt to earn you a beautiful house, what a high price... Ah—ah—I, who had not responded to her beating and scolding throughout the night, finally became irritated in front of my father and son because of my embarrassment.With tears of humiliation, I yelled frantically, and at the same time I used all my strength to lower my head and hit her.At this moment, I really want to die with her, let her stinky mouth and her hateful soul disappear in front of my relatives along with my shameful body and mind, and never hear the vicious scolding and humiliation again. She didn't meet me head-on against my impact, but dodged cleverly, and at the same time as I rushed past her, she raised her foot and kicked my back that was rushing forward.I used all my strength to carry the full momentum, coupled with the strength of her feet, I couldn't brake all of a sudden, and rushed forward.I just heard a thud, and I fell down. Just as I was crawling on the ground, a shrill cry came from behind, and the back was already in chaos.I struggled to my feet despite sparks flashing in front of my eyes.Pushing away the flying Venus in front of my eyes, I was so frightened by the scene in front of me that I collapsed on the ground I just left: It's over! The son held a blood-stained knife and was hugged tightly by his father. Liang Fengting was in the open coat, covering the blood-stained front shirt with his hands, moaning in pain and fear. Bright red blood was dripping down the knife, and the blood under Liang Feng's sweater was also oozing out in large patches! Something was running down my nose and I wiped it and found blood on my hands too.Maybe it was the blood on my hands that reminded me all of a sudden, and I couldn't help but whipped up.I heard that while Yuan Yilin was calling 120 and reporting the address, Liang Fengting was holding her stomach and taking out her mobile phone to make a call, but what she reported was that a murder case was taking place... I suddenly realized that she was calling 110 report! No - when I realized this situation, I was full of strength, and I jumped up from the ground and rushed towards Liang Fengting.There is only one thought in my heart, I want to take the blame for my son, and I can't ruin my son's future by doing this. I don't care about any shame anymore, and I don't care about any dignity anymore.If God can give my son a peaceful life, I would rather accept anyone's punishment in any way, including this hated woman in front of me.I burst into tears because of remorse, and like a complete criminal, I knelt down in front of Liang Fengting with full of remorse: Please forgive my son, I am willing to accept any punishment from you, I am willing to let you kill, let you chop to death, I am willing to go to prison for this, please let my son go... Pooh!She covered her stomach and squeezed out a few words from the corner of her crooked mouth, have you forgotten that I begged you to let go of my husband and family?But how do you do it.God finally has eyes, let you also have time to beg me.I tell you, it can't be done! Ten minutes later, medical staff in white coats arrived in a hurry, and when she was just being carried on a stretcher, policemen in police uniforms also rushed into the house.She looked at my face with satisfaction, and as she was carried past me, she said softly: You took away my beloved man, and God gave me a chance to take revenge. This is really retribution. Neither owes each other!This is what she said to me with a smile when she was carried out the door. If Yu Zhi's departure at the beginning gave me a feeling that the sky was falling, then today's son's detention made me feel the despair and pain of a sinking earth.After Yu Zhi cruelly abandoned us and formed a new family, I almost pinned all my hopes for the rest of my life on my son.Even though times are tough, I have hope.But today, this catastrophe that fell from the sky happened to fall on his son.No matter what the final result is, this matter will undoubtedly have an incalculable impact on the son's heart and future life. I already felt the change in my son. When I visited my son with my things the next day, he already had a great sense of strangeness and distance to me.Not only did he refuse to talk to me, he didn't even want to look at me.All the while, he acted like a hateful little beast, squinting, sternly maturing, looking over the corner of the wall.I really hope that I suddenly become that corner of the wall, even if I become a stain on the wall, so that my son can see my repentant face and painful heart.My son finally left, followed the policeman, and disappeared step by step at the end of the corridor, leaving only a thin and lonely back like a long belt, pulling my eyes farther and farther, and pulling my tears farther and farther. many. I have been sitting there stupidly, waiting for something.After an unknown amount of time, the policeman came from the depths of the corridor just now, as if I was waiting for him.He came up to me and said unexpectedly: Yu Chen wants to see his father! what!Yu Zhi, yes, why didn’t I think of Yu Zhi?Although Yuan Yilin is running desperately for Chenchen, Chenchen is Yu Zhi's son after all!How can I tell Yu Zhi?How do I explain all this to him?Say that I am a third party involved?That I was caught raped on the spot?In fact, it’s not that I haven’t thought of Yu Zhi, it’s these reasons that make me dare not think of Yu Zhi at all.Now my son asks to see his father, either because of his extreme disappointment and hatred for me, or because of his dependence on his biological father in the face of difficulties.Although Yu Zhi has remarried, and even though his son occasionally shows hatred for Zhi, the natural blood relationship can never cut off the affection between Yu Chen and Yu Zhi.I could experience a boy's longing for his father's strong hand after a desperate disappointment with his mother in times of trouble. After leaving the police station, it was already noon.Standing in the bitter cold wind, I finally gritted my teeth and got through Yu Zhi's phone call.I murmured and didn't tell the truth. I just said that I had something about my son waiting for him outside the Wenyin shop next to the police station. Half an hour later, Yu Zhi had already parked by the side of the road where I was standing.Seeing Yu Zhi whom he hadn't seen for a long time, apart from being extremely ashamed, all the resentment towards him in the past had already been frightened away by the disaster he had caused. What happened?Standing in front of my face, Yu Zhi seemed to have forgotten the fight with me on the stairs of a hotel that night. I... I looked up and saw his anxious eyes, like an electric shock, I quickly lowered my head, because I still don't know how to explain what is going on. Say it!The child is sick?Seeing me hesitating, he already had a premonition of the seriousness of the matter.He turned his head and glanced at the sign of the police station next to him. As if he understood the truth of the matter, he grabbed my shoulder nervously and said frantically, "Tell me, what happened?"Where are the children? I... I burst into tears suddenly, facing the cold wind blowing across my face, tears flowed down my face.I know that no matter how ashamed and regretful I am, I must face the current situation.So I gritted my teeth, wiped the cold tears off my face with my hands, and said, I'm sorry for you... I couldn't bear the torment in my heart anymore, and wept uncontrollably.Although passers-by keep looking at me, I don't care so much anymore, I just feel that facing Zhizhi, my dirty soul and body are heinous and unforgivable.In the ambiguous crying, I intermittently uttered the disastrous news for Zhi: the child was detained... For the first few seconds, Yu Zhi didn't seem to react. He looked into my eyes calmly and kept examining my face.A few seconds later, he yelled crazily, let go of the hand that grabbed my shoulder, and then took a big step back, one meter away, staring at his horrified eyes, shouting: Why?I do not believe! Faced with Zhi's violent reaction, I cried even harder.I thought, if Yu Zhi wanted to kill me, I would willingly give him my head as punishment for my sin.Standing in the cold wind, with a regretful expression, I said bitterly, I am sorry for my children, I am sorry for you, I am a third party... Snapped!Yu Zhi suddenly rushed in front of me, stretched out his hand and slapped me across the face.I covered my hurt face and looked into Yu Zhi's angry eyes with tears streaming down my face.There are pedestrians approaching us on the road, seeming to stop to watch the excitement.I have already put the shame aside. A woman like me who almost has her son's future because of getting involved in other families, what shame is there? Snapped!Snapped!Yu Zhi's anger was still rising, he stretched out both hands, and slapped my cheek left and right.Five or six people around have stopped, watching the development of the situation curiously.Yu Zhi has always been very concerned about face, but in the face of a sudden disaster, he can no longer control his reason. I wiped the blood from the corner of my mouth with my hand, and waited indifferently for Yu Zhi to beat me again.An old man was walking towards us gesticulating and making a stop gesture.Before the old man came to the front, he suddenly raised his foot and kicked me viciously.Accompanied by the piercing pain in my leg, I groaned involuntarily and fell to the ground. Yu Zhi turned around and walked towards the gate of the police station. I got up slowly, enduring the pain in my leg while wiping the tears mixed with blood on my face.When I saw the people around me gloating, some indifferent, and some looking at me curiously, my hurt heart suddenly became angry.With tears in my eyes, I cried out: What's there to see, a bunch of bastards. There was a lot of discussion, and some people started to accuse me.Faced with this situation, I even want to take a grenade and die with this group of good guys.I frantically took off the leather bag from my shoulder, then spun it in a circle, swung the bag vigorously, and smashed it into the crowd, yelling non-stop: Let you watch, let you watch the fun, I'll let you bastards watch enough... Through Yu Zhi and Yuan Yilin's frenzied running around and giving gifts, coupled with the fact that Liang Fengting's wound was not too serious, the matter was finally resolved quickly.The next day, the son was picked up.To my disappointment, my son steadfastly refused to live with me.Yu Zhi also kept warning me that if I did not agree to transfer the custody of my son to him, he would sue in court to take back his son by legal means. At this point, I not only feel ashamed to face my son, but also feel that I am no longer qualified to be his mother.A week later, Yu Zhi and I formally went through the formalities for the change of custody of our son.It was a clear morning, the sun was shining brightly, just like the morning when Yu and Yu got divorced, but because of the different seasons, the sunshine on the body was also very different.No matter how different, the psychological pain is the same.In addition to the difference in sunlight, it is the change in our relationship with each other: that time, Yu Zhi followed me for a long time, but this time, we just walked on the road, and Yu Zhi turned towards me without looking back. Walked in the opposite direction to me. I have no more tears.After I silently faced my son's indifferent face, agreed to his decision, and finally made up my mind to agree to give up my son to Yu Zhi, I swallowed all my tears. Standing in the sun, looking up at the dazzling red sun, I couldn't think of where to go or what to do.Where can I go after the poor hope left in this life and the only sustenance for the rest of my life are thrown away from my hands?What else do I need to do?Facing the bitter fruit that I have to swallow, I can only tell myself that I have to suffer for myself! At noon, I was sitting at a street stall among a group of chattering migrant workers. Like them, I loudly ordered a large bowl of noodles and a half-jin bottle of liquor.In their strange eyes, listening to their low laughter, I ate and drank.Afterwards, under their fingers and prods, wiping his mouth and hiccupping, he walked through the crowd with an indifferent attitude, and began to wander aimlessly along the street under his feet. The legs are light, the body is light, and the consciousness is also light. Only the stomach in the middle of the body is like a big bag, which becomes heavy because it has too many things in it.I remembered the word "balance" and felt as if I had justified myself.Yes, nature needs balance, society needs balance, and people need balance even more, not only physical balance, but also psychological balance.Just like today, when the spirit loses its support, the body is stuffed to achieve psychological balance; when the body is light and the legs are light, if there is no heavy belly falling down, wouldn't it be that the air will float up ? When I reached an intersection, I found a policeman with a red nose from the cold standing on guard.What do I think his nose looks like?But after thinking about it for a long time, I didn't remember what it looked like?When I got to the next intersection, I found that the noses of the policemen on this post were also red from the cold. I finally remembered the nickname that my classmates in the university dormitory privately gave to the red-nosed boys in the class—Red Skin Garlic.right!The noses of these two policemen are as red as that classmate's nose, and they are also red-skinned garlic.Like a new discovery, I suddenly felt better.In fact, whether red garlic is like this, I really don't know.Just this comparison made me laugh out loud.Because the head of garlic hanging upside down can only be regarded as half a head of garlic, and there are only three cloves.Then, standing in the middle of the intersection, I desperately took out the small mirror in my bag, until I saw a three-petal red garlic hanging upside down in the center of the small mirror, and I burst out laughing. 有一辆黑色小车在我身后不停地摁着喇叭，在那辆小车后，还有一溜各种颜色的小车，几乎排成了一个长阵。我仍然低着头对着镜子，一面数着蒜瓣，一面捂着肚子，不停地笑。 红鼻子警察走了过来，他一面向我喊着，一面指示我快离开路中央。 我干嘛要离开呢？我一面笑着，一面大声地回答警察，我真想告诉他，他的鼻子是一头红皮三瓣蒜。 警察走到我面前，怒气冲冲地向我喊着让路让路。 我干嘛让路？在许多国家都是汽车给行人让路，为什么我要给他们让路？我就不让路！ 他开始伸手拉我，我不但没有恼怒起来，反而因为他那个红鼻子的靠近，又想起了红皮蒜的形容，又笑了起来。 madman!把那个疯子拉开！汽车里有人露出头在大声地喊着。 你才是疯子呢！听到别人喊我疯子，我愤怒地摆脱开警察的手，向着喊我的汽车冲去。不知道怎么挣扎的，也想不清楚如何与他们打斗的，最后我发现自己已经坐在马路牙子上了。而那溜小车像一条弯弯曲曲的花色大蟒蛇，从我的眼前蜿蜒而去，与黑油油的马路一块消失在遥远的视线之外。 太阳慢慢暗淡下来，马路上的行人从开始的由少变多，随着太阳的消失，又从多变少。这时我的影子已经从阳光照耀下的影子，变成路灯下模糊的影子。 黑夜降临了，我是不是该离开这里了。我抬起眼睛再次盯向警察岗，正好看见那个警察也正无聊地把眼睛盯着我。说不清有几个小时了，我就像这个警察的替补队员，一直坐在场外的冷板凳上，似乎在等着上场。多么可笑，我竟然陪着这个警察值了一个下午的班！ 他一定是要下班了，因为他正在斜穿马路，向我的方向走来。在朦胧的路灯下，我仰头看着站在我身边的警察，发现他的鼻子已经不红了。我想，肯定我的鼻子也不红了。想到这里，我又为我俩那两个红皮蒜鼻子笑了起来。 Hi!他向我招呼了一声，该回家了！ 我已经没有家了。我笑着说。 Why?他低下头，一副关心的样子。 你管我为什么？我突然翻脸，一句话噎得他上不来气儿。 你……他显然没有料到这样的回答。 滚开，离我远点！我莫名其妙地烦燥起来，向他大喊着。 他耸了耸肩，转身走了。几乎同时，我听见从他的脖子处隐约飘来一句模糊的话语： 看样子也不像疯子，奇怪！ 你才是疯子！我狠狠盯着他的背影，一面冲他喊叫，一边看着他走向我身旁不远的摩托车。在他骑上摩托车离开的刹那，我清清楚楚地发现，警察穿着的黑色皮裤已经斑斑驳驳掉了一些漆，使他在路灯微弱的光线下，好像一只正在褪毛的黑色猎狗。