Chapter 7 Chapter VII

Fan Zhengzhang can be described as double happiness.Since he conquered Ruan Rong with the overlord at dusk on the weekend at the farm, his application for building a dairy factory has also been approved by the department, and soon entered the preparation stage.In the process, he took advantage of others to transfer Jiang Deshi over.In addition to a deputy director responsible for the procedures and documents related to the preparation of the dairy factory, as well as the senior management of the dairy factory in the future, Fan Zhengzhang ordered Jiang Deshi to assist in the chores related to running errands and building construction during the preparation of the dairy factory.The required funds are divided into two aspects, one is allocated by the department, and the other is a bank loan with the farm as collateral.These two parts of funds have basically been finalized, and there is no need to go through a lot of trouble.The double harvest in love and career made the middle-aged Fan Zhengzhang feel that another climax in his life was approaching, and for a while he looked proud and high-spirited.Things in the world are not always perfect.For Fan Zhengzhang, the disharmony in the family is becoming more and more prominent, even more serious than the difficulties he and Sun Mei encountered during the marriage break-in period when they first pursued Ruan Rong.Not only did Sun Mei have extreme distrust of him, but she was already bound by the strings of class struggle towards him.This made him use more and more reasons and excuses to avoid going home on weekends. Instead, he entered into a real romantic relationship with Ruan Rong, and began to go out and play around on weekends.

Everything in the world is gained and lost. In this regard, for Fan Zhengzhang, who is between the two women, he gains Ruan Rong and loses the harmony of the family.When there was no Ruan Rong, the married life between him and Sun Mei had been in perfect harmony after years of running-in.Everything has changed since the accidental union with Ruan Rong on the farm.First of all, he lied when playing with Ruan Rong for the first time. After being pointed out by Sun Mei, the words he used to prevaricate made Sun Mei deeply suspicious.This quickly froze their relationship.Secondly, after really possessing Ruan Rong, he suddenly realized that he could no longer face Sun Mei directly in his heart.Especially every time he hugged Sun Mei's body with loose skin, and every time he saw the faint wrinkles on Sun Mei's face, he felt an uncontrollable disgust in his heart.As much as he hated the thought, he couldn't stop the emotion.In his state, he felt that the days when he had two people like this would not last long.Either he went crazy, or Sun Mei went crazy, or both of them went crazy.For divorce, he thought he didn't have enough courage. For leaving Ruan Rong, he felt that it was absolutely impossible and absolutely unbearable.If he has never owned something that he has longed for for a long time, it will be fine; if he has it and then loses it, he does not know how to endure the pain.Fortunately, these two problems have not been brought to the fore, especially Ruan Rong seems to be very satisfied with their current relationship.She neither pursued their relationship nor considered their future.She seems to be an optimist who goes with the flow.This was not like the Ruan Rong that Fan Zhengzhang knew.Since Ruan Rong gave him such a relaxed environment, he didn't need to get too tense with Sun Mei.Therefore, often every few days, he would go back home to comfort his wife, after all, he had made a big mistake.

It was almost the Spring Festival, and Fan Zhengzhang returned home again.Sun-mei is no longer as excited and happy for his return as before.Now, whenever Fan Zhengzhang's knock on the door sounded on weekends, only his son would rush to open the door, shouting frantically as always. Ever since Sun Mei met Liu Chang while visiting the botanical garden and found out that Fan Zhengzhang was lying, she had an indescribable resentment towards Fan Zhengzhang.The vague sour water flowing in my heart finally had a basis, and turned into real vinegar, which began to surge and flood.Sleepless nights are increasing, and crazy and painful thoughts fill the mind.Whenever this happened, her biggest impulse was to run to Fan Zhengzhang's bed to see if this kid had other women.However, months passed without a single move from her.No action does not mean she is trusting Fan Zhengzhang.In fact, in the past few months, in Sun Mei's feeling, Fan Zhengzhang has gone further and further away.Not only did he go home less and less, but also his married life with Sun Mei became less and lesser.This kind of subtle difference can only be felt by long-term harmonious couples.From this point alone, Sun Mei had to admit that she had already encountered trouble, a big trouble that she dared not face but had to face.After insomnia time and time again, heart-wrenching madness and pain again and again, she felt that she could no longer bear it.She couldn't control herself anymore. Even though she felt the danger of this kind of action, she still made up her mind to figure out everything, and started a step-by-step plan with the tragedy of dying generously.

This plan was Sun Mei's masterpiece after a night of insomnia.She has shifted her target from Han Xiangxiang and Liu Jia to Zhang Xiaoyan, the director of the farm office.In order to prove her guess, on Fan Zhengzhang's weekend of business trip under another excuse, Sun Mei suddenly arrived at the farm with crazy ideas like a visitor from outsider.It turned out that Fan Zhengzhang was indeed not on the farm.In order to find out whether the beautiful female director had also gone on a business trip with Fan Zhengzhang, she found an excellent excuse for herself.She told the staff on duty at the farm that Fan Zhengzhang asked her to come here to wait for him, and that they would go to another place together the next day.She came one day earlier to breathe the fresh air and feel the natural scenery.She wanted someone to walk around with her and see their new dairy.That investigation made her disappointed and excited, because half an hour later, Zhang Xiaoyan, the single office director, trotted up to her, half flattering her, half surprised, and welcoming her to her dormitory.There, she not only saw the wedding photos of Zhang Xiaoyan and her husband, but also saw her husband himself—a handsome, gentle guy.

Although her rash actions aroused Fan Zhengzhang's great resentment and even anger.However, she slept soundly for the next two weeks or so.She does not regret the action.Moreover, she is still looking for opportunities to implement the second plan-to find the second person she suspects.She had been observing this man for several weeks.During Fan Zhengzhang's whereabouts, she found that whenever Fan Zhengzhang was in the provincial capital, he would go to the apartment where his brother-in-law lived.As far as she knew, the apartment had been rented out a few months ago.That being the case, why did Fan Zhengzhang go to that place so frequently?If it's just collecting rent, it's too frequent. If it's about maintenance, it doesn't seem to be so frequent.Not to mention that it is a new apartment, even the house I have lived in for many years has never been repaired so frequently!Judging by this, she felt that there must be something in it.Under this guess, she has been waiting for Fan Zhengzhang to go to that apartment again.

The opportunity finally came.On the second day after Fan Zhengzhang went home for the weekend this time, that is, on Saturday, when his family came out from Fan's parents after lunch, he finally said in a casual tone, I will take you home first, and then go to the post office To do something, go to Linzi Garden again.Maybe dinner with Jiang Deshi. This was the opportunity Sun Mei had been looking forward to for a long time.After Sun Mei made arrangements for her son, she realized that she was afraid of this long-awaited opportunity.She sat on the sofa, her limbs were weak, her face was pale, and her mind went blank for a moment.With an ignorant face, the son kept urging Sun Mei to go out and "shopping" over and over again so that he could bring him something delicious or fun.It made her sad and heartbroken.What's the matter with her?In the end is to go or not to go?Ten minutes passed, and she thought of the frugal days she had spent, the high hopes she placed on Fan Zhengzhang, the painful and crazy thoughts, and the sleepless nights, and finally her hatred arose, like being suddenly The inflated balloon suddenly became stronger.A quarter of an hour later, Sun Mei, who was wearing a thick down jacket, a hat, and a big mask, had rushed out of the building.

The streets in the cold wind looked deserted and lonely, and the cement road was shining cold and hard under the pale winter sun.The world may have been so cold.Sun Mei felt that she thought about this world too well.In fact, looking at the selfishness, jealousy, flattery, snobbery, and bullying in human nature, it is not difficult to see the ugliness in the human world.She was sitting on the bus heading for Linzi Garden, listening to the conductor and driver yelling like scolding prisoners, and she was no longer afraid of this trip.Maybe the consequences are dire, but it's better than living under a lid.

The Spring Festival is approaching in Linzi Garden, perhaps because it is Sunday and the Spring Festival is coming soon.Some couples or families are traveling in pairs, and some are returning home with big and small bags of New Year's goods.Sun Mei was caught in the flow of people, especially the way she covered herself tightly, which made her stand out in the crowd.Rows of bare paulownias extend deep into the community, only the holly on both sides can maintain clusters of dark green after enduring the severe winter, and show signs of life to passers-by.There are no flowers in the garden, and the truth of life in the community is all exposed.The building in front of her was already in front of her eyes. Sun Mei didn't know if Fan Zhengzhang had arrived at the apartment in the community, so she called Fan Zhengzhang's cell phone and asked.It seems that today is relatively smooth, because the answer I got from Fan Zhengzhang is that Fan Zhengzhang is on his way to Huayuan District.She decided to hide in the dark and see how long Fan Zhengzhang was here, so as to judge what he was doing.

At five minutes to three, Sun Mei, who was hiding behind the holly trees in front of the building, saw Fan Zhengzhang's car gliding towards him, like a tropical black fish in a fish market.Sun Mei stood behind the holly tree, wearing a big mask, looking at Fan Zhengzhang who got out of the car with eyes full of resentment.At this moment, he found that her husband was full of energy, like a mature middle-aged man with a certain social status and a suave manner.This discovery once again aggravated Sun Mei's suspicion.Under her gaze, Fan Zhengzhang walked into the building door without any notice and disappeared.Standing alone in the cold wind, Sun Mei looked at the empty window and the strangers who kept coming in and out, suddenly feeling ashamed and pitiful.When did I become so self-respecting?What made me change my original Qing Gao?Is it just Fan Zhengzhang's other love?No, at this moment, she suddenly felt that she had neglected herself too much for so many years, so her biggest failure was not losing Fan Zhengzhang, but losing herself.If the reason is to be investigated, it should be attributed to the fact that I entrusted all my glory and wealth to this man.

Half an hour passed, people kept coming in and coming out in front of the building, but there was no sign of Fan Zhengzhang.She decided to go upstairs to see what happened. Stepping out of the curb beside the road, a dry leaf stuck to my feet and walked a few steps, and there was a brushing sound under my feet.Ever since she felt the marriage crisis was approaching, Sun Mei had become fragile and sensitive, and this dead leaf reminded her of her own destiny.She couldn't help asking herself, in Fan Zhengzhang's eyes, did she become a dead leaf?Will one day be trampled by Fan Zhengzhang like this dead leaf?Thinking of this, waves of self-pity and grief welled up in her heart.Since you dislike me so much, I will not forgive you either!Sun Mei felt the power under her feet increase sharply, and the sound of her high heels became bright and sonorous.

On the ninth floor, Sun Mei remembered such a location.Standing at the door, she already felt her heart beating faster and her whole body seemed to be shaking.She didn't know what kind of situation was behind this door, and what kind of role Fan Zhengzhang was playing here.She even dared not imagine what kind of scene she would face after opening this door, and how she would swallow the consequences of opening the door.There is no need to hesitate or guess, because she clearly heard a coquettish female voice faintly coming from inside through the door panel: Honey, come and see my new underwear, come here, come here quickly, it looks good It doesn't look good... Oh, why are you so grumpy! Bitch!Anger rushed into Sun Mei's chest like a flame, and the trembling hand became as hard as a steel fist.For a moment, the knock on the door sounded like the drums of a dance hall, and it sounded like a drum in the quiet corridor.The door opened silently, and standing in front of Sun Mei was a sexy, beautiful woman who was a bit coquettish. Who are you looking for?asked the sexy girl half surprised and half angry. When Sun Mei saw this woman for the first time, her eyes lit up, but she immediately felt an uncontrollable inferiority complex, and this inferiority just stimulated the swelling anger.Faced with this woman's questioning, she kept her mouth shut tightly, and went straight in without saying a word. Hey, what's the matter with you?Why are you so rude?Didn't you hear me asking who are you looking for?The coquettish woman squeezed closely behind Sun Mei, tried to block her way, and at the same time raised her voice to question loudly. Who do you think I will find?Sun Mei asked angrily while walking into the living room, and when she found that the living room was empty, she rushed into the bedroom again.However, there was still no sign of Fan Zhengzhang here, so she had to retreat to the living room and look around.The house was very quiet, and a 29-inch TV in the living room was playing a long TV series, which she had watched a few months ago.She recalled the voice she heard outside the door, and suddenly suspected that it might be the voice on the TV, maybe there was no one else in the room except this woman.She looked around and insisted with a guilty conscience, where did you hide Fan Zhengzhang?At the same time, she thought, maybe Fan Zhengzhang is not here, if the judgment is wrong, it will be embarrassing! The woman seemed to suddenly realize that there was a misunderstanding, so she calmed down and said, are you Fan Zhengzhang's wife? Hearing that she had calmed down, and seeing that there was no sign of Fan Zhengzhang around, he looked at the woman straight in the eyes and said with a straight face, he said he would come here, why didn't he come? Come here, leave early, he just sent a temporary household survey form.Stayed in the house for less than five minutes. Sun Mei was a little confused. She had been watching the door for an entire hour, but she didn't see Fan Zhengzhang.By this time, Sun Mei was a little dumbfounded, and began to doubt her own judgment, especially her eyesight.The woman was bringing her a paper cup of water, she was wearing a beautiful and sexy pajamas dragged on the floor, her soft curly hair was like a blooming flower hanging around her shoulders, her face was bright, her eyes were bright and her teeth were bright.What a beauty!Sun Mei couldn't help taking a closer look. There was a faint sound, and just as Sun Mei turned around to go out, she suddenly realized that there must be someone hiding somewhere in the house.According to the judgment just now, it should be the bastard Fan Zhengzhang.Sun Mei suddenly became angry again, turned around abruptly, pushed aside the woman following behind, and rushed towards the direction of the voice. Standing in the living room again, Sun Mei could hear clearly this time.From a hidden door in the corner of the living room, the sound of splashing water and glassware touching china was being heard.It's the bathroom!Although Sun Mei is not very familiar with the structure of this house, from her original impression and the current location, it should be the bathroom.What's more, the sound from inside proved that someone was taking a bath.She suddenly remembered what the woman in the room said when she was just standing at the door, "Why are you so moaning?" It seemed that it was not the voice on the TV. Seeing Sun Mei looking in the direction of the bathroom, the woman already felt that something was wrong, so she explained "my boyfriend is inside" and came up to stop her.Sun Mei no longer believed what women said, she only believed in her own judgment and intuition now.She pushed the woman's outstretched arm away, and rushed towards the bathroom frantically. A second later, Sun Mei stood in the middle of the living room, dripping wet, pulling a naked man's hair.The man's face was full of soap scum, and his body was also dripping with water and foam, looking extremely embarrassed.He lowered his head, whose hair was being pulled by Sun Mei, and kept struggling while shouting indistinctly: let me go!let me go!what happened?what happened?Are you crazy? Clutching her hair full of soap bubbles, Sun Mei's hands felt slippery and she could hardly exert any strength.Naked men also began to slip under the struggle of anger and fear.Despite the beautiful woman's desperate calls and obstructions, Sun Mei stood up from the ground first.She didn't care to wipe off the big soap foam on her face, so she kicked the man lying on his back between the legs amidst the man's low voice of cursing.The man on the ground was turning his painful face towards her while writhing.And the two eyebrows furrowed together made her completely understand that she had made a terrible mistake: That man is not a husband!Not Fan Zhengzhang!He is a stranger! Just when Sun Mei was staring dumbfounded at the painful writhing of the man under her feet, and was extremely terrified and at a loss for what to do, a huge pain suddenly jumped in her mind, and before she had time to judge which part of the body this pain came from At the time, she had already collapsed on the ground like a soft cloth bag, just lying at the feet of the man who was rolled into a shrimp shape. ... Sun Mei stayed in the hospital for seven days and had four stitches on her head, which cost 1,500 yuan.As for the tenant, Fan Zhengzhang gave a one-time spiritual compensation of 1,000 yuan, and held a banquet in a high-end hotel, and made an apology and apology.After dinner, both parties voluntarily terminated the rental contract.During the process of this series of events, Fan Zhengzhang became more and more suffocated.Just because Sun Mei's injury has not healed yet, he suppressed himself.However, this matter was not destined to end like this.Not only Fan Zhengzhang was thinking about how to have a rational contest with Sun Mei, but even Sun Mei was always thinking about how to figure out why that man suddenly became a stranger in the hospital. Day by day, Sun Mei's injury got better day by day.A week later, Sun Mei was finally discharged from the hospital quietly.Maybe it was because the two of them were not ready, maybe it was because Sun Mei needed to recover from an injury, the first week included Saturday and Sunday, the couple lived in peace as if they had made an appointment.Even so, both of them have actually felt some kind of destructive power hidden under this calm lake.This kind of destructive power is just waiting for the opportunity, looking for an opportunity, and the explosion can only be ignited under a certain fuse.And this fuse was actually held in Sun Mei's hands when she was lying in the hospital. After Sun Mei woke up in the hospital, she had been thinking about what was going on.What puzzled her the most was that she had watched her husband enter the apartment building and never came out, so why wasn't he in the room?Where did he go?Also, how did she hear a woman's whispering by such a coincidence, and pulled out a man who was taking a bath from the house?Is this a trick played by Fan Zhengzhang?Or is it God's punishment for being too jealous?Although she knew that she had lost all face, she was still convinced of her suspicion of Fan Zhengzhang.She believed that somewhere behind his back some woman might be laughing at him.Every time she thought about this, her heart was filled with hatred, and she made up her mind to find this woman and make up for her recklessness and embarrassment this time. In the second week after being discharged from the hospital, she felt that she had regained all her strength and energy.Once she had the energy, she set her sights on finding this woman again.First, she went to the mobile phone company during her work break to check her husband's phone communication records.She wanted to find out which number Fan Zhengzhang had contacted that afternoon.However, she failed.Because the company has such a stipulation that the query of phone records must be done by the owner himself with his own ID card.Once this way out failed, she began to try various other means and methods.However, days passed without any success. On Friday night, Fan Zhengzhang returned home as usual.Everything was the same as in the past, but both of them felt a certain tension in their hearts, so they were in a state of caution throughout the night.They are no longer married.I don't know when this started, and I don't know which thing started.In short, up to now, the two seem to have reached some kind of tacit understanding.For this state, Fan Zhengzhang was both grateful and worried.Fortunately, since having Ruan Rong, he seems to be unable to find excitement from his wife.Since Sun Mei's relationship with Fan Zhengzhang turned sour, she found that she paid more attention to Fan Zhengzhang.Sometimes a small move by Fan Zhengzhang, a slight smile, or even a certain expression or voice will become a tool to arouse her desire.She couldn't tell whether it was due to age or other psychological reasons.In short, she felt that she hoped that Fan Zhengzhang could give her the joy of men and women more than ever.However, she couldn't tell Fan Zhengzhang if he didn't give it to her, so she felt that she hated him more than ever. She wants to end this situation, because in such a relationship, every fight between them will bring the relationship down a level, and the resentment will only build up.The so-called "frozen three feet, not a day's cold."She was really afraid that if this went on like this, the two of them would end up completely one day.In the past days, although there were a lot of quarrels, because of the married life, the conflict between husband and wife was often ended with a harmonious bedtime.It was different now, and Sun Mei didn't know how to change this state.More often, she will attribute the reason to that hidden woman.Therefore, when getting along with Fan Zhengzhang, she paid the most attention to Fan Zhengzhang's phone calls, and hoped to find clues from them.On Saturday morning, Sun Mei, who hadn't slept well all night, woke up early, and a bold idea suddenly appeared in her mind.She got up quietly, touched Fan Zhengzhang's bedside, and took away the cell phone he had pressed beside the pillow. Sun Mei sat on the sofa in the living room, her heart beating non-stop, just like the afternoon of following Fan Zhengzhang.In the dawn of early spring, there were still gusts of cold air hitting everywhere, and the room that had just turned off the heating looked cold and empty. Sun Mei felt nervous and restless as if she was sitting in an empty house.She anxiously pressed various buttons on the mobile phone. Since Fan Zhengzhang's new mobile phone had too many functions, she hadn't found what she needed after half an hour.The sky is getting brighter, and there are already a few rays of sunlight in the sky outside the curtains.She never thought that at this moment, she pressed the ringtone of her mobile phone.A long string of Ding Dong's music gurgled like a gurgling stream in a mountain stream.Sun Mei panicked immediately, and she was so at a loss that she neither turned off the ringer quickly nor thought of cutting off the power of the mobile phone.Tens of seconds later, although the ringing of the phone was stopped by Sun Mei, Fan Zhengzhang was already standing at Sun Mei's feet. Looking at other people's mobile phones, do you know what this is?Fan Zhengzhang looked at her calmly and asked with a disgusted expression in his blue pajamas. Sun Mei's nervousness and bewilderment were instantly stimulated by Fan Zhengzhang's disgusted expression.She swept away the guilt just now, and asked arrogantly, isn't it an invasion of your privacy?What secret do you have that you are so afraid of me knowing? That's my business, you have no right to interfere.Fan Zhengzhang replied with a condescending expression. Pooh!Sun Mei became annoyed and shouted loudly, don't I have the right to interfere with you looking for a wild woman? There must be evidence for what you say, and you can't make false statements.Fan Zhengzhang still sensibly refused to give an inch. Sun Mei didn't give in at all, she stretched her phone forward and said arrogantly, "I'm just looking for evidence now." Fan Zhengzhang saw that Sun Mei was being unreasonable, so he raised his hands as a sign of restraint, saying at the same time, "Okay, okay, okay, you can find it, I won't tell you if it's okay." No, Sun Mei saw that Fan Zhengzhang was about to leave, unable to vent her anger, so she took advantage of the situation to stand in front of Fan Zhengzhang and said, "No, you have to explain clearly why you entered the apartment building that day but didn't stay in the apartment building." in the house. This was originally a topic that the two of them had carefully avoided recently, but Sun Mei unpreparedly brought it up in front of their eyes.In fact, Fan Zhengzhang has always wanted to teach Sun Mei a lesson about this matter, because Sun Mei's physical problems have never been mentioned.Unexpectedly, now Sun Mei brought it up first, and Fan Zhengzhang suddenly felt the anger he had once rushed back to his mind.His voice became louder, and he asked sternly, you still have the face to mention this matter, you still have the face to question me, don't you think you don't have enough embarrassment? I don't feel ashamed.You and I are husband and wife, I have the right to find out the truth of the matter if I have doubts about you, and you have more responsibility to explain to me where you went that day.Since you don't tell me, I have the right to find out in my own way. I've already told you that I parked there because I didn't want to drive for a drink at night.It's not my fault that you didn't see me come out.If you don't believe it, you can go to Jiang Deshi to confirm it. You clearly know that I won't ask Jiang Deshi, that's why you said that. Since you don't believe me, there's nothing I can do, just think whatever you like.Fan Zhengzhang suddenly got bored, tired of arguing with Sun Mei, he wanted to turn around and leave again. Seeing Fan Zhengzhang's disgusted attitude, Sun Mei's anger rose again. She pushed Fan Zhengzhang onto the sofa and said angrily, "You mean, what do I think, what do you do?" Fan Zhengzhang staggered on the sofa, looked at Sun Mei's distorted face, and said indifferently, it doesn't matter. I think you're dating a wild woman, do you admit it? It doesn't matter!Whatever you think!Fan Zhengzhang still said indifferently, he didn't even look at Sun Mei. I think so, you also don't want to justify yourself, or explain?While Sun Mei was angry, she wanted to guide Fan Zhengzhang to answer in the direction she wanted, such as justifying or denying.However, Fan Zhengzhang didn't have any intention of cooperating with Sun Mei, he still said indifferently, I don't want to make excuses, if you think I have it, so be it! Sun Mei couldn't bear it anymore, she suddenly lifted a footrest under her feet, and threw it towards Fan Zhengzhang crazily. Fortunately, Fan Zhengzhang tilted his head, and the footrest fell on the sofa and rolled to the ground.Seeing that this action did not cause any harm to Fan Zhengzhang, Sun Mei couldn't help rushing towards Fan Zhengzhang, grabbed Fan Zhengzhang by the collar and shouted: Why do you want to find wild women?Why? Fan Zhengzhang sneered and said, that's your idea, let me tell you that I don't need to answer why, because I didn't look for it. I didn't find it, so you explain to me where you went that day. Turned around and returned to the starting point.Sun Mei suddenly felt that this was really boring.If Fan Zhengzhang has a problem, he has almost no other way out except to present evidence to speak out.It may never be possible for Fan Zhengzhang to explain his problem clearly.Unless she was a little confused and willing to believe it, it would always be a dead end case.At that moment, Sun Mei felt extremely depressed and bored, unknowingly loosened Fan Zhengzhang's collar, and sat back on the sofa.Fan Zhengzhang shrugged, and went back to the bedroom to sleep with a cold face.But Sun Mei fell into deep thought in the quiet living room: What's wrong with me?Why do you have to figure this out?Why can't we be a little stupid, a little stupid, so as to get through this difficulty?It was only then that she truly understood for the first time the true meaning of the classic "rarely confused" advocated by the ancients, and the magnificence of this state. Since she couldn't be confused, Sun Mei decided to find a way out for herself, either to care about Fan Zhengzhang and speak with evidence; or to stop caring about him and enrich her life, especially her spiritual world. Fan Zhengwen was a little annoyed. Since he spent 20,000 yuan to end the extortion, he hadn't been relaxed for a few days, and new problems appeared at work.At a meeting of the Standing Committee of the Municipal Party Committee, the old minister had a serious disagreement with a member of the Standing Committee and Deputy Secretary on the issue of adjusting the leadership of several bureaus.After the meeting, the old minister suffered a heart attack in a fit of anger and was admitted to the hospital.A few days later, pneumonia developed again.Seeing that his health is deteriorating, work and life have become difficult problems.In government departments, often a leader, or even a staff member's resignation, birth, old age, sickness and death will affect the position changes of a department or even the entire unit.The serious illness of the old head of the Propaganda Department of the Municipal Party Committee also affected the thoughts and activities of a series of people at this time.When several deputy ministers and even relevant leaders of other departments were concerned about the illness of the Propaganda Minister and the future of the Propaganda Department, and were engaged in private activities, Fan Zhengwen also felt as if he was being roasted on fire.Before that, she had always believed in her advantages in competing for the position of minister. Firstly, she had a good reputation among most of the Standing Committee members. Secondly, she had a very close personal relationship with the minister. The old minister hinted more than once that she would take over in the future.In order for her to take over smoothly, the old minister also promised to have the opportunity to take her to meet the No. 3 leader in the province.However, all this became elusive due to the sudden illness of the old minister.Without the support of the old minister, she suddenly felt weak and weak. She didn't know where to start or where to open the gap. Half a month passed, and she did nothing except visit a deputy secretary who was close to her.What frustrates her especially is that the visit to the deputy secretary has yielded almost nothing.This made her feel even more uneasy.That's right, even the deputy secretary who usually takes good care of her is so unpredictable, who else does she expect to help her?At this moment, she suddenly felt that she was incompetent.She has always been confident that she is sophisticated in the officialdom, but now she realizes that she is actually too naive.It is only at the critical moment that she can see her true ability, and she feels that she actually does not have this ability.If we were able to successfully climb to the present position one step at a time, it should be credited to her, not because of her exquisite skills, not because of her intelligence, and of course not because of her deep background. Now it seems that all this should be attributed to the old man The care and support of the minister for many years.She remembered that her husband Ouyang Xu said that when he was alive, she got his official title in exchange for cuckolding him.Although that was not true, Fan Zhengwen knew how deep a friendship she had with the old minister.Of course, this friendship may not be understood by Ouyang Xu or other ordinary people.Only they themselves know how they appreciate each other and take care of each other.They all deeply understand that in officialdom, reputation is closely related to political life, so they pay more attention to the development of friendship and career.A few years ago, when the old minister was paying attention to the affairs behind him, he had already regarded Fan Zhengwen as his successor, and he had been working hard in this direction.It's just that everything in the world is often not something that people can decide. When the old minister was two years away from the end of his political career, he suddenly lay on the hospital bed, and he was no longer able to stretch his arms to grasp the rapid changes that had been fought for many years. officialdom. Days passed by day by day, and Fan Zhengwen's heart was scorched more and more.Nearly a month later, she had little hope left.On the surface, the municipal party committee compound was as calm as water, and the various departments were still moving forward according to their respective tracks.However, just like there will always be undercurrents surging under the calm sea surface, and the strong will prey on the weak, the private gossip in the municipal party committee compound is overwhelming.Some people say that a certain deputy minister is about to be promoted, and his father-in-law is a big leader in the ministry; some people say that a deputy secretary-general is about to become the propaganda minister, and his brother-in-law is a number one in the province.The news that annoyed Fan Zhengwen the most but was helpless was that Fan Zhengwen was going to be promoted to minister because she was the old minister's lover.When this gossip came out, Fan Zhengwen was at home dragging the floor of the house like a struggling camel.The daughter was ashamed, as if her mother had done something embarrassing.She didn't even bother to put down her schoolbag, and followed her mother, asking step by step: "Mom, is this the case?"Is what they say true or false? Fan Zhengwen was tired of it.She didn't want to know who her daughter heard it from.Because, in the municipal party committee compound or in the elementary school where my daughter is studying, similar news will often be spread.According to Fan Zhengwen's experience, before and after a personnel change, all kinds of rumors and news would float in the municipal government and the municipal party committee compound.Only when everything is over and all the changes are settled, all kinds of rumors and slanders will quietly dissipate like morning smoke under the shining of the sun.Fan Zhengwen was not afraid of these things. After decades of experience in political vicissitudes, she was already aware of this.However, the daughter is different.In her pure heart, right and wrong have strict boundaries.Therefore, it was Fan Zhengwen's responsibility to let his daughter understand that all these things were created by people and should not be ignored.Therefore, she temporarily sorted out her disturbed psychology for many days, and answered her daughter firmly: That's not the case, it's a rumor! Why are there such rumors?The daughter pressed on every step of the way, and she could no longer satisfy her mother's simple answer. This is politics!You do not understand! Mom, since the news spread outside is political rumors, then Dad once scolded you, is he also engaged in politics? The mop in Fan Zhengwen's hand suddenly dropped, and the moment the mop fell to the ground, her face also turned ashen. You have nothing to say?看见妈妈的失态，严严突然觉得听到的谣言或许都是真的。所谓“无风不起浪”。想到妈妈是如此卑鄙的一个女政客，严严的脸上出现了一副鄙视的神情。 女儿的表情像一枚银针突然刺进了范正纹的心脏，丈夫对自己的辱骂，诬蔑，以及女儿对她的态度，使她感到整个身体都在疼痛和流血。她忍着正在流出的屈辱的泪水，将脸低了下来。她既不愿面对女儿的鄙视，也不愿女儿看到自己的泪水。她一向是一个要强的女人，她不但从不在外人面前流泪，也从不在自己的亲人面前流泪。她只是沉默地将后背慢慢转给女儿，重捡起拖把，并开始无意识地在地板上拖来拖去。 妈妈，你这样沉默，是不是意味着承认了谣言？严严看见妈妈沉默的背影，不但难过而且愤怒了。按她的愿望，她更希望妈妈一口否定，坚决否定，哪怕那谣言所说是真的，她也不希望妈妈在她面前承认。尽管她很矛盾，她还是宁愿妈妈欺骗她。然而，妈妈竟然如此对待这样一个重大的问题，那是她所无法容忍的。于是，她再一次愤怒地对着妈妈的背影说：既然你承认是这样的无耻政客，那么，你是不是也准备承认你也是杀死爸爸的凶手呢？ “哐当”一声，范正纹手中的拖把像一只射出的巨箭“噌”一下飞过严严的脸前，冲向靠墙的花架，随着“哐当”的声响，一只栽着茂盛植物的花盆像一棵被砍倒的树一样，带着潮湿的泥土，瞬间躺在了客厅地板上，旁边是那根留有愤怒气息的拖把。严严愣愣地站着，脸上的愤怒和痛苦开始被惊愕所代替。范正纹像刚才横冲直撞的拖把一样，也开始愤怒地出击。她一面将含着满眶泪水的眼睛对视女儿，一面跳过来冲到女儿脸前，嘴里同时愤怒地嚷着：严严，我是一个无耻的政客，一个卑鄙的女人，一个杀死丈夫的凶手，可以了吧？严严，够了吧？严严，告我去吧，抓我去吧，让我进监狱吧，判我死刑吧！ 范正纹没有任何预料地疯狂发作了，她不知道是女儿那句话触动了心里最敏感的神经，也许女儿对她的态度刺激了她。她不能容忍一个辱骂她的丈夫走后，再添一个鄙视她的女儿。尤其是这个女儿比起丈夫来对她更重要。也许正因为女儿对她的重要性，使她更希望成为女儿的好朋友，好母亲，她不指望女儿崇拜她，但她绝对受不了女儿瞧不起她。如果说仅仅是女儿的态度刺激了她，使一向很有理智的她失控，其实那并不全对。事实上，自从丈夫死后，良心的不安，心理的压力，以及遭遇敲诈的恐惧，最近对部长职位的渴望而无可奈何的彷徨，使她感到从来没有如此的软弱和无能。然而，她又没有一个知心朋友可诉说，所有的压力和无奈，只有一个人用瘦弱的肩膀独自承担。无论在深夜，在清晨，无论是在办公室，在书房，还是在床上，在街头，她时刻都感到有某种危险的东西在逼近，以及某种无奈的东西正在走来。在这种处境中，她感到正一步步走向崩溃的边缘。对未来的一切，她既不能把握，也不敢预测，然而，她又必须面对。她知道这样的心境，这样的环境，她总有一天会支撑不下去，但从没想到，在女儿的面前，她会如此疯狂地爆发出来。 严严在范正纹的怒吼中已经由愤怒而恐惧了。在她的印象中，妈妈向来是一个温和、理智，有着良好修养的女性。这是她一向引以骄傲和自豪的。面对妈妈的愤怒，她已经后悔刚才的言词了。是啊，外面的谣言已经够妈妈痛苦了，她千不该万不该还把这种谣言拿来去指责妈妈，更不该指责妈妈是凶手。妈妈是如此善良、文雅，怎么会变成凶手呢？看着妈妈满脸的泪水和失控的情绪，她突然发现自从爸爸去世以后，妈妈其实已经很孤单，很无助了，自己已经大了，到了为妈妈分担忧愁年纪了。她应该与妈妈站在一起，共同迎接外界的枪炮，共同承担生活的压力，与妈妈一起度过失去爸爸的痛苦日子，与妈妈一起迎接部长职务的挑战。想到这里，严严一改刚才的情绪，走过去，抱住了正在因哭泣而颤抖着的妈妈的肩膀。