Chapter 5 chapter Five

Fan Zhengzhang finally officially took office.It was a sunny day, and the sun and the air were as bright and clear as his mood.The luxuriant poplar groves, the lush grass, the waves of wheat in the sunshine and the rows of houses with red bricks and green tiles hidden among the green trees and red flowers all made him feel like he was in a resort.In such an environment, the breath-holding demeanor developed in the institution for many years unconsciously relaxed.It would be wrong to say that this is all due to the natural environment.To be precise, it should be the contribution of the humanistic environment.Because here, he can hardly see officials who are older than him, so he doesn't have to be cautious all day long, with his tail between his legs, and he doesn't have to look at other people's faces.On the contrary, everyone here, with their tails between their legs, waited on him carefully.What a pleasant thing this is!It seems that being an official is good!This is a sentence he sighed over and over again that day.

Before all the joy and excitement were released, two weeks passed quickly.He didn't come home at all that first weekend.One is that he feels happy here, and the other is that he has devoted himself to the work on the farm.Therefore, as compensation, he specially asked the driver to take Sun Mei and his wife to the farm, so that they could also appreciate the natural scenery here and see his working and living environment.As he expected, Sun Mei and her son played here for two full days with the mood of going out. This second weekend, he had to go home anyway.When he was still hanging on the clouds in the sky in the evening, he sat happily in the special car, and slowly immersed himself in the beautiful vision of future work amidst the beautiful melody of the car CD.In just two weeks, he not only got acquainted with all the important cadres and employees of the farm, but also basically understood all the current work on the farm with his intellect.In such an environment, he suddenly found that he likes this kind of work and life so much: there is no wife buzzing around him like a fly all day long, no leader watching every day like a camera, and no colleagues around him like electronic eyes Staring everywhere, he felt that this was real life, real living as a human being.Such a pleasant life is not a dream. After waking up from his lethargy every day, he finds that the next day is still such a pleasant one.He had to admit that this was life, and the past life was more precisely called living.Now that he has lived such a wonderful life, in order to repay the gift of life and the care of the leaders, he decided to do something in such an environment.He believes he can succeed.During the day, he happily works among the green leaves and red flowers, and at night he thinks, works and studies in the comfortable single dormitory.Through a lot of investigations and conversations, as well as sorting out a lot of materials, he learned about the advantages and available resources of the farm, and gradually began to clarify the future direction of the farm.After more than ten days, a bold idea began to brew and form in my mind, and it began to grow and flourish like a spring seedling that broke the ground.That is, he plans to use the farm's dairy cow resources to establish his own brand of milk, so as to end the history of providing raw milk to a milk factory in a neighboring province in the past.As the saying goes, "new officials take office with three fires".He thought that as long as this fire can be ignited and this idea becomes a reality, then his farm manager will be regarded as a success.

When his mind was completely occupied by his career, that is, when the thoughts of building a career filled his mind, he found that his feeling for family and Sun Mei became weaker and weaker.Before he took up the post on the farm, he was worried about how to solve his physical problems in life without women.But once he entered this environment, he found that a person's life is surprisingly good.No wonder Qian Zhongshu said in it that the men in the besieged city want to rush out?It seems that after living in the besieged city for a long time, it is indeed necessary to live alone outside the besieged city for a period of time to relieve the tense nerves in the besieged city and change the habitual thinking.As for saying he didn't want Sun Mei, that didn't mean he didn't want women.At the end of the work, when he was relaxing physically and mentally, he found that Ruan Rong was thinking more.Especially in this evening, when Liu Ruoying's "Crazy for Love" rang in his ears, Ruan Rong's shadow once again swayed in front of his eyes.

Perhaps it is because of the great changes in life and work recently that the love for Ruan Rong buried deep in his consciousness has been revived.Fan Zhengzhang closed his eyes in the car and thought about the reason.First, Sun Mei was on a business trip, which caused his thoughts to start to move violently, and second, there was a sudden job change. The relaxed and comfortable environment gave him full freedom of thought.Also, Fan Zhengzhang suddenly remembered that Ruan Rong once said that the man she was looking for had at least a three-bedroom, two-living room, and a deputy office, and now he has all of these.Thinking of this, a happy smile appeared on Fan Zhengzhang's face with his eyes closed.

Sun Mei really experienced the feeling of being honored by a husband and wife.On Saturday, she took her husband's bus back to her natal home.It is particularly worth mentioning that she deliberately bought a lot of flashy food and put it in the trunk, and rushed to her natal home around nine o'clock—the time when neighbors came and went most frequently.Then, under the envious eyes of her natal neighbors, she greeted her neighbors loudly and triumphantly, while slowly taking things out.In the afternoon, she took her husband's bus and took her son to the supermarket again, and bought a bunch of daily necessities in large and small bags.When stuffing so many things into the trunk, Sun Mei told herself in her heart that the embarrassing shopping history of hanging full of bicycle handlebars, full of car baskets, and full of rear racks was over.Before that, when she finished shopping in the supermarket at the end of the month and hung colorful bags around the bicycle, she was extremely envious and jealous of the women who opened the trunk of the car.Today, Sun Mei has finally joined the ranks of wives who own cars after years of living on the handlebars of bicycles.

While Sun Mei was shopping and enjoying the scenery excitedly, Fan Zhengzhang received a frightening call from his sister again, and got a piece of news that worried him all the time.On the phone, my sister said that she had received another stack of photos.She said that she was very scared, and asked Fan Zhengzhang to help her find out who this person was and what he wanted to do anyway.Finally, she asked Fan Zhengzhang to settle the house quickly.In fact, before Fan Zhengzhang reported to the farm, Fan Zhengzhang registered the house with a real estate agency and promised to rent or sell it.Because I was eager to have an account of the house, the price and rent of the house were very cheap.It is precisely because of the cheap factor that his original intention has been hindered.Two of the people who wanted to buy a house disappeared after seeing the house twice, and three customers who wanted to rent a house also disappeared.Finally, the intermediary found out the reason: due to the cheap house price, customers tend to be more cautious, so after careful inquiry, they all learned that a person had just died in this apartment.In view of this situation, before leaving, Fan Zhengzhang suggested to the agent to increase the house price by 20,000, and the agent readily agreed.It seems that the intermediary doesn't mind working with the homeowner to cheat the buyer in order to close the deal.After receiving his sister's call, Fan Zhengzhang immediately dialed the agent's number to inquire about the condition of the house.To Fan Zhengzhang's comfort, this time the agent told him that two more had expressed strong interest in the house, and one of them had almost no objection to Fan Zhengzhang's offer, and planned to come and see the house the next day.Fan Zhengzhang made an appointment with the agent on the spot to inspect the house.

The next morning, Fan Zhengzhang came to the apartment early, ready to receive two buyers to see the house.The room was still gloomy, perhaps because the "haunting" incident was too deep in his mind, he always felt that there was some strange smell in this room, like a certain fragrance that he smelled that time It seemed to flow faintly and silently around him.He even felt that there might be a long-haired female ghost hidden in a certain corner, and of course it might be the pale brother-in-law with disheveled hair.Thinking of this made him feel extremely uncomfortable.Fortunately, the first buyer arrived at 8:30, accompanied by an intermediary. They were a well-bred couple.They always had a smile in the intermediary's extravagant introduction.Even if you frown occasionally, or express dissatisfaction with the structure of the house, or disagree with the decoration of the house, it is just as a reason to negotiate the price.The whole process lasted for nearly forty minutes, and the buyer left after saying that he would go home and think about it.Since there were still two hours before the second buyer came, the intermediary girl went to talk about another business first.

The apartment was quiet, and Fan Zhengzhang, who was sitting alone on the sofa, felt more and more uncomfortable.He didn't believe what was going to happen, because it was obvious that all the corners had just been gone.Thinking of this, he leaned his head on the sofa again, preparing to rest for a while.Just when he closed his eyes, he felt a rustling sound again, and then a cool wind passed by the back of his neck, and he opened his eyes in a jerk.Looking around, he realized that the light green curtains were gently rippling by the large French windows.oh!I don't know whether it was the intermediary or the buyer just now who opened the window a crack.Although the reason was clarified, the tiredness just now suddenly disappeared.Fan Zhengzhang looked at his watch, it was not yet ten o'clock, at least one hour before the visitors came.He doesn't want to be here anymore.He stood up and walked out of the apartment.

The sun outside is very good, and the community under the sun looks extraordinarily fresh and beautiful.On the sidewalk, in the flower path, and in the fitness area, there are groups of children, old people, and men and women with bright smiles.Compared with the quiet and gloomy apartment just now, the air here suddenly improved Fan Zhengzhang's mood.He left the sidewalk in front of the building and walked into a lush green flower path.The road is paved with flower stones engraved with various small animal patterns, especially the names of small animals are engraved under each stone pattern, which is a good way for parents to teach their children to recognize characters.There was a little girl about two years old holding her mother’s hand on the path and kept chanting the names of various small animals. When she said a puppy, she yelled loudly to her grandma who was staggering after her, “Grandma, little one.” Dog, I belong to it, puppy dog.Maybe it was because of the happy laughter of the little girl, maybe that puppy was also called Puppy Dog, a fluffy snow-white puppy was like a ball of rolling cotton when the little girl’s voice was not heard, Le Dian Dian ran past Fan Zhengzhang, ran to the little girl, and rubbed on the little girl's leg a few times.The little girl laughed happily, squatted down and began to pet the puppy.Obviously the owner of the puppy is not a little girl, because at the same time as the puppy is running, a woman's voice is also coming clearly:

Mianmian, don't run, wait for me! Fan Zhengzhang's legs suddenly stopped moving, and an iron hammer suddenly hit his heart.He doesn't know what's wrong with the world?When he missed so many days, searched so many times without any results, when he was almost desperate and gave up this ridiculous yearning, things suddenly changed.Xin Qiji must have encountered such an encounter, otherwise, how could he write the poem "I searched for him thousands of times in the crowd, and suddenly I looked back, but the man was in a dimly lit place"?Fan Zhengzhang stood in a daze, he didn't dare to turn his head, let alone believe in the sudden encounter, he just looked at the happy puppy and girl in front of him with confused eyes.Yes, is this an intentional arrangement of God?Or is it the randomness of fate?

A tall woman in black swam by Fan Zhengzhang's side silently like a shadow, except for his heartbeat, he did not hear her movement.So at this moment, the word "you" popped up in his mind to describe his feeling when she passed by.He felt that she was as light and quiet as a fish.Among the red flowers, willows, green grass, and warblers flying in the spring, only this woman is wearing a black windbreaker, with long black hair floating in the colorful light.Before Fan Zhengzhang woke up from that thrilling feeling, something touched his nerves again.Immediately afterwards, in his mind, an indescribable pain suddenly jumped like lightning.Ah, ah, Fan Zhengzhang took long breaths one after another, as if he wanted the gas inhaled into his body to wash away the pain in his head.That room, that fragrance, that shadow, that black dress, that black hair, and that silent walk all flooded into my mind at once. what 's wrong? After Bian Chenglong discovered Fan Zhengwen's secret, he began non-stop preparations for the next blackmail.First, he found out the name of the deceased and Fan Zhengwen's basic situation through his friends.After discovering the relationship between Fan Zhengzhang and Fan Zhengwen, he was taken aback.This is how to do?Is it still going as planned?Originally, he wanted to do it alone behind Jiang Deshi's back and make some money.This discovery doesn't matter, he couldn't help hesitating: If it succeeds, it's fine. If Jiang Deshi finds out, especially when Jiang Deshi has a close relationship with Fan Zhengzhang, based on his understanding of Jiang Deshi, this scheming and ruthless guy will never will spare him. After weighing the pros and cons over and over again, he finally gave up his plan to make money alone.And this difficult decision made him feel like he had lost a huge sum of money. That night, before he could earn enough rent, he parked the car and went home in a daze.It took him half an hour to pour half a bottle of Laobaigan, and then he called Jiang Deshi to sneak over from under the bed.Jiang Deshi scolded and walked into Bian Chenglong's room.He knew that there must be new business to do when Bian Chenglong called him at this time, but he never dreamed that it would be an exciting and hot business.He repeatedly watched the scene of Fan Zhengwen arguing with Ouyang Xu, the scene of Fan Zhengwen opening the window and throwing things, and the white medicine bottle on the table in front of him.He has slowly woken up from the initial excitement, and it has been replaced by a deeper and deeper anxiety and fear.This is murder!At last he turned his head and whispered, full of fear, how did you get it?Is this a big deal? Although Bian Chenglong drank a lot of wine, his mind was not muddled.Seeing Jiang Deshi's worried and fearful look, he felt a little disappointed.He refilled Jiang Deshi's wine glass, touched Jiang Deshi's glass and said, no matter what, we can't waste it in vain anyway, we should gain something anyway! Jiang Deshi was indeed a little scared.In recent days, he has been holding onto Fan Zhengzhang's hope of transferring him to the farm, and fantasized about getting some benefits from there.If this matter goes wrong, then this hope will not only be quickly shattered, but at the same time that Fan Zhengzhang's siblings fall from power, some unforeseen disaster may happen to him.However, how can he give up the fat that reaches his mouth?What's the difference between that and picking meat off his ribs?In his impression, he hasn't done that kind of stupid thing that the swallows don't pluck their hair?He stared at the video in rapt attention, and while holding the glass in his hand, he said to himself: This is not a joke, this is not a joke, it might get into trouble . When the sky was getting brighter, the two of them finally negotiated a decision that got the best of both worlds.Stop when you make a fortune.Let the Fan brothers and sisters develop naturally, and this pigtail can provide them with opportunities to master at any time.As long as the Fan brothers and sisters have a future, they will have the capital to develop if they hold it. Three days later, Fan Zhengwen received a letter of negotiation full of "goodwill".The letter writer said that he was a person who discovered her secret by chance, and he had already learned about her situation through various channels.He knew that it was not easy for her to get to this position, so he didn't want to destroy her.But that doesn't mean he's a noble person.Even more because of poverty, he did not want to be a noble person.Therefore, he wants to make a deal with his information and her future.If she wanted, she could take away all the materials from him with only 20,000 yuan.The specific method is, at 6:30 pm the next day, when she is off work, she wraps 20,000 yuan in the front page of the evening paper and throws it behind the holly tree next to the third sculpture on the lawn next to the giant rockery on Rose Road.I hope she will not have any thoughts and actions of monitoring him, otherwise he will disclose photos and materials if he has any doubts.What is the final result, presumably she knows better. It was already half past six in the evening when the letter arrived.Fan Zhengwen, who had always been calm, could no longer hold his breath.Her first thought was to find her younger brother.More than three hours later, Fan Zhengzhang arrived at Fan Zhengwen's home at high speed.According to Fan Zhengzhang's idea, it is to find someone to monitor the person who "picks up" money.And he already had a preliminary candidate in his mind—Jiang Deshi.Since this kid can help him get rid of Liu Chang from the underworld, asking him to help find someone from the underworld to monitor this blackmailer is also fighting poison with fire.At this time, he suddenly thought of what Jiang Deshi said, the more friends, the more roads.It seems that no matter whether you are in politics or business, you really should have friends from all walks of life.When he was lucky to have made Jiang Deshi, a friend who knew the underworld, Fan Zhengwen interrupted him. no.If found out, I'm done. Fan Zhengzhang had great confidence in the abilities of Jiang Deshi and his friends.So I can say with great confidence that the odds are unlikely, and I understand them. No, I can't risk it.Fan Zhengwen had never felt so scared.Years of coping freely in the officialdom, as well as her achievements through hard work, made her full of confidence in herself.Even so, her understanding of the dangers of officialdom made her deeply aware of the importance of being cautious.Therefore, as long as there is a one in ten thousand danger, she must not be lucky.What's more, Fan Zhengwen suddenly thought of a more terrifying result, and his voice stuttered: In case your friend succeeds, who can guarantee that they won't hold this handle in their hands? Fan Zhengzhang was putting a glass of water into his mouth. When he heard Fan Zhengwen's question, he was startled. His mouth seemed to be scalded. He took a deep breath, rolled his lips, and said in a low voice: Hold!Why didn't I think of it! At around 12:30 at night, Fan Zhengzhang quietly walked out of Fan Zhengwen's dormitory building.Although the temperature was neither too cold nor too hot, Fan Zhengzhang still tightened his shoulders like in winter and kept his hands in his trouser pockets.Looking up, a round of blurred moon is like a lonely boat sailing quietly on the horizon.It's so quiet everywhere, it's really disturbing when the whole world is asleep.When Fan Zhengzhang was thinking this way, he couldn't help shivering. It seemed that there were hidden things spying on him in every corner, and the steps under his feet became faster and faster before he knew it, and finally he almost trotted towards the car.Sitting in the car, he still looked around uncomfortably through the blurred window glass.The street lights outside the car were flickering and flickering, and Fan Zhengzhang suddenly felt that the black night was more like an endless net covering the world.He didn't know if he and his sister were the fish here, if they could escape from this darkness.They should be regarded as innocent. It can be said that my sister had no choice but to do so, and it is justifiable.God knows that, he thought. At around four o'clock in the morning, the car carrying Fan Zhengzhang rushed into the quiet and peaceful farm through the long-distance darkness.This familiar tranquility made Fan Zhengzhang, who had been in a state of tension and anxiety, finally relax.Lying on the bed, the worry about my sister just now had slipped out of my mind at some point, replaced by a fresh and fresh face.Since the day he met Ruan Rong, Fan Zhengzhang has been in a state of crazy love.Every night in the dead of night, his greatest hobby and task is to reminisce about the meeting with Ruan Rong, and make plans to pursue Ruan Rong, or look forward to the future with Ruan Rong.As the saying goes, "It was difficult to find water in the sea".At this time, when Fan Zhengzhang was used to a dull and boring life and a life without passion year after year, he suddenly realized the true meaning of this sentence.He always thought that after years of official training, his emotional system was numb and declining.Even though he had persistently searched for and missed Ruan Rong a while ago, it would be wrong to say that it was the revival of his feelings. To be precise, it should be the instinct of a man who cares.In fact, during those days, when he was looking for Ruan Rong absurdly, he didn't even seriously think about how to face this woman, and whether he would restore some kind of feelings.When he analyzed himself, he felt that what he thought more about was not love, but sex.Even without Ruan Rong, any less annoying woman can take her place.Now, when he suddenly faced the woman he once admired in the sunshine on a spring day, he realized that the emotion hidden in his heart was still so strong, so strong that he couldn't breathe.A few days passed, and the scene of him and Ruan Rong looking at each other still made him suffocately excited. It was a thrilling scene. For Fan Zhengzhang, even when he was lying in bed at night, he could still experience that trembling feeling.As for the scene under the sun, whenever he recalled it, he could feel the stinging pain in his eyes, just like the sequelae left after being burned by the sun that day.Ruan Rong, who was holding a white puppy and opened her soft mouth in surprise, stood tall and graceful at a distance of more than ten meters, seemed to be engraved on his retina, and could never be driven away.What kind of woman is this?No matter how other women of the same age grow old and ugly, she is still glamorous and charming like a goddess living in no time scale.If Ruan Rong hadn't reacted first, rushed to his side, grabbed his hand and shook him, maybe he would have turned into a sculpture!He laughed at himself in his heart.He couldn't remember how Ruan Rong came to him in the first place, he only remembered that Ruan Rong's puppy kept scurrying around under his feet, and behind the chubby puppy, he was dazed. Came to Ruan Rong's house. After drinking the cup of coke that Ruan Rong handed over, he felt relieved and realized that the situation in front of him was not a dream.Ruan Rong sat on the sofa opposite him, looking at him with a smile on her face, as if a long-lost relative was reunited.Yes, if they had come together in the first place, they would be husband and wife now.As soon as he thought of this, his passion suddenly returned, and his chest was filled with indescribable feelings for a moment.He wanted to talk about the past days and his emotional world, but he didn't say anything.It wasn't until dinner at night that he realized that in front of this woman, he had been talking incoherently about topics that had nothing to do with what he wanted to express throughout the afternoon.For example, who was promoted, who was transferred, who married whom, whose child went to Tsinghua University, and so on.What a vulgar thing this is!Fan Zhengzhang has been regretting it for several days.Yes, I was originally a man of good taste, a sentimental, romantic yet mature and rational man, how could he face the woman he loves with the most sophisticated, vulgar, and boring side of himself? Did it show up? However, without mentioning these, how could he tell Ruan Rong his current situation?He lay on the bed and defended himself again.He clearly remembered what Ruan Rong said when she refused. What she wanted was a man with a three-bedroom house and a position as a deputy, so he had the foundation to start in the officialdom, or a man with a certain financial foundation that would allow her and her family to live a happy life. A husband who lives a prosperous and prosperous life, not an infatuated man who expresses love with his mouth and heart like Fan Zhengzhang.Thinking of it this way, he felt a little more comforted.No matter what kind of impression Ruan Rong gave this time, at the end of the dinner, he finally talked about his current situation along the topic: not only the deputy director, but now he is a quasi-director, with three bedrooms and two halls. Driving a bus, etc., has already met Ruan Rong's original conditions.Sometimes Fan Zhengzhang also finds it strange that under such vulgar and even shameless conditions, Fan Zhengzhang has not discounted his feelings for Ruan Rong at all, and he even thinks Ruan Rong's frankness is more lovely because of this.This is really blinding, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. That night, he remembered eating with Ruan Rong for nearly three hours.Thinking of those three hours now, it is like a beautiful dream, vague and clear.Soft yellow and dim light, music as soft as silk, blurry eyes, and a face as bright as moonlight.He remembered that he kept talking, and only in the occasional pause did he think of asking about the situation of the woman in front of him.She seemed to have said something, but when Fan Zhengzhang calmed down, he realized that he knew almost nothing except that Ruan Rong was single and ran a company.However, these are enough.Even though some people said that Ruan Rong had a lot of money and was made a mistress, Fan Zhengzhang didn't care.As long as she is not someone's wife now, he has hope to get her love. It wasn't until half past eleven at night that he finally had no choice but to reluctantly end the dinner and return to Sun Mei's side.That night, he couldn't tell what happened to him, but he turned Sun Mei upside down with passion.Satisfied, Sun Mei leaned on Fan Zhengzhang's arm, who was soundly asleep, and looked excitedly at Fan Zhengzhang's youthful face for a full forty minutes.Finally, I finally thought of the old Chinese saying "a small farewell is better than a newly married couple".She foolishly and smugly smugly smugly said to herself that the ancients were really amazing, and what the ancients concluded was really the truth. When Fan Zhengzhang was driving on the highway leading to the farm late at night, Ruan Rong, who had made Fan Zhengzhang burnt and restless for several days, was tossing and turning in bed, unable to sleep.She has lived in this house for three years.In the past three years, no one around her knew her, knew her, let alone met anyone who had worked with her in the past.Therefore, her greatest enjoyment here is silence.No one knows her past, no one understands her present, and no one stands in the way of her future.The reason why she hides herself is because she doesn't think she is a good woman in the traditional concept, and she doesn't want to be a good woman.After so many years of hard work, she has become accustomed to earning money and living in secret.Perhaps the poverty she suffered in childhood and adolescence was too deep-rooted. When she had a sense of independence and found that she could earn money independently, she vowed never to be that kind of servant who lacked dignity and personality because she had no money. Life.Even so, she is not without the pursuit and yearning for ideals and beautiful love.When all girls were dreaming of youth, she also fell in love with literature, and even fell in love with a young writer.At that time, she felt that everything in nature was romantic and poetic. She and the writer were like two beautiful butterflies, flying freely in the mountains, fields, campuses and even streets and alleys day after day.In those days, she almost forgot the shabby clothes on herself and the writer, ignored the simple and almost pitiful food, and no longer cared about this kind of stretched life.She seems to have given up on her teenage dreams of chasing money.It wasn't until she attended a party after graduation, and her writer friend and her shabby clothes caused the doorman to discriminate against her, that she suddenly felt the unforgettable inferiority complex she had when she was a child rushed back to her mind, and it was even stronger.In the imposing and personable demeanor of a government official who came to the scene next, she suddenly woke up from the bowed back of her friend and the flattering smiles of some literary people.At that moment, she suddenly understood what is the most important thing in this society and what she needs to have.A few days later, she spent all her savings and bought a high-end outfit.She knew that she had no background, no backer, no money, no status, no qualifications, and she had almost nothing outside of her body.But she is confident.Because she has knowledge, quality, beauty and youth, which is capital.She believes that these things are enough for her to realize her dream and change the destiny and life of herself and her family. She first bid farewell to the young writer, buried this romantic story in her heart, and then locked literature in a box in the far corner of the room, making it an eternal dream, and then embarked on a journey of struggle.Half a year later, she was transferred from the impoverished district cultural station to the Provincial Department of Agriculture where Fan Zhengzhang worked.This is a bit like a manifesto. From the cultural front to the agricultural field, almost from the metaphysical to the metaphysical, the two are completely irrelevant. This seems to indicate a gesture, announcing the beginning of a complete "vulgarization".Ruan Rong easily crossed the huge distance.There is nothing that cannot be adapted, in order to pursue dreams.From this series of changes, Ruan Rong suddenly felt mature and determined.However, the Department of Agriculture was overstaffed and competing with each other, especially the lack of material, which made Ruan Rong feel dissatisfied soon.A year later, she used her beauty and youth as her capital, and her communicative skills acquired through knowledge as a means, to successfully switch jobs and join a cultural company.During this period, she successfully hooked Yan Gang, the vice president of the company.On him, in addition to earning the first pot of gold, he also got an apartment.Working in this company allowed her to quickly get in touch with people from all walks of life in the upper class of society, and her admiration for the lives of these people strengthened her beliefs.She feels that this society has really become like this.In the process of interacting with these high-class people, that is, rich people, she began to look for new prey.Relying on the unique instinct of a woman and her understanding of men over the past few years, she quickly locked the prey with her own wisdom and successfully hunted it down.It was a Guangzhou cultural businessman with a capital of over 10 million.He is rich, young and handsome, and has a sincere love for Ruan Rong.Looking forward to the bright future, she resigned and came to Guangzhou with the businessman, and lived a pampered wife-to-be life.However, there are too many hungry wolves like her in this world, but not too much delicious meat.Therefore, when her cat was at home and she was only dreaming of the noble lady's dream, her businessman was bitten away by another, more beautiful and charming hungry wolf.She dived back from Guangzhou with failure, frustration, and shattered dreams.This time the harvest was a small printing house with a lot of profits. Sometimes when she can't sleep at night, she often thinks of the businessman who made her emotional, and from this she thinks of Vice President Yan Gang, Fan Zhengzhang and the young writers.Then she no longer hated the merchant, nor hated the man.After all, it was men who changed her destiny, and it was the flaws in men's nature that allowed her to live a prosperous life.If she followed the young writers and dreamed of literature together, I am afraid that she is no different from the yellow-faced women who buy vegetables in the vegetable market: she goes to work every day to see the face of the boss, does housework after get off work, and goes to the mall to find cheap and discounted clothes in her spare time.No entertainment, no friends, no enjoyment, only endless responsibilities and obligations, Ruan Rong felt that such a day could not be tolerated by herself.She is used to the life of a woman in the upper class. She has no housework responsibilities, no children, and a good income without dedicating herself to work. In her free time, she mainly spends time on beauty and fitness, drinking tea and chatting, traveling and enjoying art. In the past few years, she has lived a leisurely life, but she also feels quite lonely.Although Yan Gang knew that she had resumed their old relationship with her after she came back, and kept the relationship intermittently, but because of Mrs. Yan Gang's vigilance, he has been unable to fill the loneliness in her life, not to mention that she has no emotion for him. .It wasn't until she met the melancholy and dull Ouyang Xu during an accidental surfing last year that she felt that her barren emotional world was enriched.She sometimes finds it strange: there are so many attractive names on the Internet, why he only chose the name of "drunk and unwilling to wake up".Maybe it's because Ouyang Xu is too different, he is silent more than talking, and his words are basically one word "yes" or two words "no".Thinking about it carefully, Ruan Rong felt that the initial contact with Ouyang Xu was not an interest, but more out of curiosity about this person.From her judgment, she thought that Ouyang Xu might be as intoxicated as his screen name.So, she asked an interesting question: If the end of the world is coming, what is the one thing you want to do the most?He replied, find a lover to have a fun.This is the longest sentence he has ever said.I don't know if this sentence stimulated his interest in speaking, or if he got sober from drunk, he asked back, what about you?Ruan Rong said without hesitation, quickly find a man to marry, wear a wedding dress once, and be a bride once.Both of them laughed.When she couldn't sleep late at night, Ruan Rong would get up and go online, and Ouyang Xu was the one she met most in that familiar chat room.Just like all online dating processes, the two first chatted speculatively online, then became obsessed with each other on the phone, and finally developed to meet in a cafe.They were originally a handsome man and a beautiful woman, so when they stepped out of the cafe, they were already inseparable.To the surprise of the two, when they each took a taxi to go home, they met again at the same building.Only then did they realize that their fate had indeed arrived. Ruan Rong has always valued money over love, and faced with this purely spiritual emotion, she was a little bit unable to extricate herself.Perhaps because it came from the illusory network, this illusory was unconsciously endowed with more beautiful colors.或许阮蓉在物质生活中有了一定基础，因此便在择友方面对物质不自觉地忽略了。只可惜这种火热的恋爱来得太不是时候了。欧阳旭当时刚得了心脏病，他既不能激动，也无法承受爱的力量。他像一块冬日里的冰凌，清澈透明，脆弱易失，既怕太阳，怕温暖，又怕风，怕火，更怕被人捂在手心里。因此，当这段爱情来临的时候，欧阳旭既向往又恐惧。长期孤单的生活，潜意识中对性的需求，使二人都陷入了对彼此难耐的渴望中。尽管欧阳旭一次次痛苦地寻找各种借口和理由推脱约会，怎奈俩人相距太近了，就像一团火焰在身边时刻不停地燃烧着，如何安静和理智？在一个午后的倾诉后，俩人终于拥抱在了一起。那次惊心动魄的相拥没有持续多久，便以欧阳旭的心脏病复发而截住。从此，俩人便陷入相见却不能拥有的精神恋爱中。 在阮蓉的回忆中，她感到精神恋爱虽然痛苦，却比肉体上的拥有更会持久，更能保鲜。所谓越得不到的东西，越是珍贵。随着恋爱痛苦的加剧，俩人发现对彼此的迷恋更加深刻。经过俩人的协商，最终达成了一个既痛苦又无奈的协议。多电话，少见面；多发伊妹儿，少约会。就在二人过着激情又相安无事的日子时，欧阳旭突然失踪了。在阮蓉的印象里，欧阳旭对阮蓉的约会从来没有迟到过。然而那一天，也就是欧阳旭死去的当天，阮蓉一直在网上等了两小时也没有见他，而他的手机也一直关机。第二天，仍然如此。到第三天，阮蓉终于带着欧阳旭的钥匙进了他的房间，在看见屋内欧阳旭的遗像后，她一下子吓傻了。像在自己家里习惯的一样，她带着恐惧和无助的心理打开了欧阳旭的电脑，她想看看那里边是否会有什么踪迹。然而，除了欧阳旭记录范正纹的那份文件外，她没有发现什么有价值的东西。没有什么明确的目的，她将它copy了下来。那一次冒险，差点让她撞上范正纹姐弟。 她像只逃命的兔子，惊慌失措地回到家后，才真正明白她迷恋的男人死了。人的死亡原来这么简单，生命真如朝露一样易逝。她第一次为一个男人流下了真情的泪水。她在屋内无助地整整走了一个小时，直到累得脚疼，她才想起从欧阳旭电脑里拷下的文件。坐在电脑屏幕前，一行行研究那些文字，她不知道这个苍白的男人记录这些有什么用，也不知道这个苍白的男人是怎么死的。当她把这两个问题放在一起思索后，她突然感觉这两个问题是否有某种联系。她记得欧阳旭说过，想离开当官的妻子，想过一种崭新的生活。欧阳旭一直觉得自己的艺术没有进步，是因为妻子在俗世的俗举压得他没有灵感，使他无法进入一种忘我的境界。是否，是否，阮蓉突然停了哭泣，不敢再想下去。生命的长短或许本来就是上天注定的，欧阳旭也许正在天堂享受崭新的生活呢。阮蓉不停地安慰自己说。 然而，心里一旦有了某种疑惑，往往很难把这种困惑挤出头脑。越是想摆脱，越是记得深刻。就在她努力忘记这段激情膨胀的日子，忘记这个苍白虚幻的男人时，她却在花园意外遇到了范正章。她本人并不想回到过去，想起过去，因此也不想与他过多交往。但当她知道范正章要卖的房子就是她曾经相爱的房主欧阳旭的房子时，她感到自己被什么再次触动了，曾经力图忘却的那两个问题在心里不知不觉间又冒了出来。欧阳旭是怎么死的？她想弄明白。或许这个问题从范正章这个情种身上就能找到答案，阮蓉这样想。