Chapter 2 Chapter two

On the way to find her husband Ouyang Xu by car, Fan Zhengwen no longer only had resentment in her heart as usual. She felt that besides anger, there was boundless pain and fear in her chest.She didn't know why this man hated her so much?Why did they resort to such obscene means for divorce? When she was pursuing the romantic and unrestrained Ouyang, she had no doubts about this man's talent. She firmly believed that this man would one day stand out and bring her incomparable glory and wealth.However, with the vicissitudes of the world and the impermanence of life, when Fan Zhengwen's classmates who didn't even look at her were looking like dogs, her most promising blue chip stock - Ouyang Xu turned into a pile of shit like junk stocks.What kind of process went through during this period, Fan Zhengwen really didn't understand.Waste of waste, just like what Fan Zhengzhang said, apart from blaming himself for his wrong judgment, Fan Zhengwen had already resigned to his fate.Fortunately, her career is already in full swing as the cleaner's father expected. Therefore, without the support of this man, Fan Zhengwen is like a hard steel beam supporting the roof firmly.However, what made Fan Zhengwen feel more and more panicked was that Ouyang Xu, regardless of his own poverty, filed for divorce from Fan Zhengwen two years ago. He moved alone to the one-bedroom apartment assigned to him by his unit that year, and began to live apart.

When investigating the reason for Ouyang's divorce, Fan Zhengwen sometimes really didn't understand what he did wrong.Although she is in officialdom, as long as she is at home, she tries her best to be a competent wife and mother.However, Ouyang ignored Fan Zhengwen's efforts. With a rare prejudice, he kept laughing at Fan Zhengwen's various habits developed in the officialdom, such as reservation, which he considered hypocritical, rationality, which he considered insidious, and so on.No matter how hard Fan Zhengwen tried, it was all to no avail.After the conflicts escalated again and again and brought her to the verge of divorce, Fan Zhengwen learned from the pain and finally discovered a rule: as long as Fan Zhengwen made a step forward in his career, their conflicts often happened once. When she finally got into the car equipped by the unit At that time, Ouyang Xu yelled in the middle of the night that Fan Zhengwen had slept with someone.

This is jealousy, the jealousy of a once talented man towards a woman after his downfall.After Fan Zhengwen finally couldn't bear to break Ouyang Xu's heart disease, he threatened Fan Zhengwen with a crazy attitude as if he had been humiliated: Fan Zhengwen, if you don't get divorced again, I will announce all your ugly crimes to the world! Before he had time to announce Fan Zhengwen's crimes to the world, he fell ill, and it was a heart attack that made him miserable.For a while, their relationship seemed to ease.Fan Zhengwen originally hoped to call back his conscience and love through taking care of him.However, at the beginning of this year, he once again threatened to announce Fan Zhengwen's so-called ugly behavior and filed for divorce.

If Fan Zhengwen did not divorce because he still loves this man, it is better to say that Fan Zhengwen did it for the growth of his daughter and his rising career.Especially the latter. It can be said that after the head of the Propaganda Department of the Municipal Party Committee retires in a year or two, the young and promising Fan Zhengwen is the most promising to take over the position of head among several deputy heads.At this juncture, Fan Zhengwen pays more attention to her political image, and she loves her reputation more than anything else.She would never allow such an event, which is extremely destructive to political life, to happen at this time.What's more, the last time she sent a large amount of food to this man, this crazy man actually took out a detailed record of Fan Zhengwen's entertainment with some leaders over the years, gifts during festivals, and gifts received by his family.It seems that this man is really crazy, and he has put all his eggs in one basket for divorce.

Today was the deadline for Ouyang's ultimatum. When he went upstairs, Fan Zhengwen's fear was mixed with despair.Whether it is a divorce or not, these two paths seem to be a dead end.She never thought that a couple who were loving at the beginning would develop into a state where they regarded each other as enemies, and she couldn't figure out where her mistakes caused Ouyang to hate so much.However, the matter had come to this point, and she had no choice.Let it be fate, this is what Fan Zhengwen told himself the moment he opened the door. Ouyang still has long hair, like a tramp on the American street, wearing loose casual clothes, with a low-quality cigarette in his mouth, and is sinking in the sofa, blowing smoke rings.Looking at this pale and thin man, Fan Zhengwen suddenly remembered how she looked when she saw him for the first time, she was also so thin and pale, but the expression on her face was masculine, but now that gloomy and gloating look made Fan Zhengwen Zhengwen couldn't help but let out a long sigh, good luck tricks people!

Figured out?Ouyang stared at Fan Zhengwen's silent and painful expression, tilted his head, and asked a vague question.Fan Zhengwen didn't want to say anything. After many times of hard work, struggle, and even begging, she sat in front of this hostile man, and suddenly realized that although this pale man won the divorce war, he actually won pitifully and pitifully. , and even won a little ridiculous.The inferior slippers worn by this man, the smell of inferior cigarettes exhaled from his mouth, and the stark contrast between rich and poor in their clothes made her seem to understand the importance of this arrogant man's poor self-esteem for the first time.Perhaps, separation is more reasonable and humane for this man who has accomplished nothing and failed both in life and career.Fan Zhengwen finally comforted himself.Let him find the so-called dignity alone!

A few seconds later, she stood up and began to take out all kinds of high-end food, clothing, daily necessities, and the heart health medicine she bought for him from her bag, and answered Ouyang's question when she first came in, not without sadness: Figured it out, today Maybe this is the last time we will speak as husband and wife, I hope you will not reject this kindness. It has been a long time since Ouyang's demands for a divorce have become more and more determined, and he has refused to accept anything she bought for him. Perhaps in order to show his determination to divorce, he would rather starve to death than eat food like a fierce and loyal minister in ancient times. Sigh to the food.But today, when Fan Zhengwen gave his husband who had lived for more than ten years the last time with a sense of kindness and desperation for marriage, he did not expect that the ending would anger this impoverished man again. .Maybe his career was too failed and his life was too difficult. Ouyang looked at these colorful things that set off his poverty, as if he saw laughing faces, and felt that his self-esteem was seriously hurt in an instant.He walked up to Fan Zhengwen calmly, stretched out his slender arms, and swept all these things to the floor like a long broom.After a burst of rattling sounds, Ouyang raised his feet again, and kicked up a package of food with snow-white packaging with his feet wearing worn-out deformed slippers. The package of food drew a curved arc in the room, and hit the computer speaker with a grunt. up, and then slid under the computer desk like a snow-white fat rabbit.

Don't show off, others don't understand you, I don't understand you yet?Isn't she just a stinky bitch!Ouyang sank back into his sofa again, and felt complacent seeing the pain he had imposed on Fan Zhengwen. Fan Zhengwen suppressed his anger, and calmly watched what was happening in front of him with the rationality cultivated in the officialdom.She didn't want to make things worse.Now that she had come to this point, she knew it was irreversible.At this final moment, she wanted to give herself and the other party a little face, and walk through the threshold in a tender way.In the days to come, she still hopes that this man will be sober, and when he is sober, he will think of the benefits she has done to him, so that he will repent of his behavior towards her.What's more, in their many years of life, their conflicts have always ended with the victory of this man.

Seeing Fan Zhengwen's silence, the proper calmness on his face, and the self-cultivation and demeanor shown by it, Ouyang not only did not show any shame as usual, but became angry because of his lack of self-cultivation in comparison: Taking the fucking airs again, let me tell you, what I hate the most is your ugly face! Fan Zhengwen's face turned red from being scolded, but she still endured it.She even hoped that this man would finally let go of the anger in his heart, so that he could live a peaceful life in the future.After all, she once loved this man deeply, after all, she lived with him for more than ten years, after all, he is the father of her daughter, after all, in the future, in the future...he may have a very difficult life, because he has almost no income.She didn't know what he would do for a living in the future.All these thoughts suddenly aroused her motherhood, and made her feel sad for a moment, and an expression of pity and love appeared on her face again.However, Ouyang, who is arrogant, sensitive and arrogant by nature, was seriously injured again by this expression:

Why the hell do you put on such a pitiful expression? You think that others are pitiful if they don’t have money, and you think it’s embarrassing if they don’t become officials?Ouyang seemed to have run out of patience, he picked up a cushion beside him, and threw it at Fan Zhengwen, "If you don't take a piss, follow your bitch virtue."Sleeping out of a little fart officer by sleeping, is condescending, it is shameless! This was not the first time he had heard such insults from him, so Fan Zhengwen could still hold back the pain and listen to his malicious attack.Seeing that Fan Zhengwen still maintains a ladylike demeanor, Ouyang added another layer of hatred. It seemed that if he didn't anger Fan Zhengwen, and let Fan Zhengwen abuse him as vulgarly as he did, he would be sorry for his disregard for his status and decency.He took a sip of water, seemed to be looking for a more powerful sentence, then lowered his voice again, and said with a look of contempt:

Look at your family, you look like a typical villain.Your father is afraid that others will not know that you are the Minister of Propaganda. Only a fucking garbage worker can be so pitiful with that kind of virtue. And your younger brother who is ambitious and talented, who is a junior deputy, does not know what he is doing.The most pitiful thing is you, do you think that if you become the Minister of Propaganda, you are not from a family of garbage workers?Let me tell you, don't be so self-righteous, I divorced you not because I was jealous of your grades as you imagined, today I can tell you officially and frankly, the real reason I divorced you is that I hate the smell you emit smell, as soon as I get close to you, I am suffocated by your natural smell of shit.Even if you wear high-end clothes and wear high-end perfume, you will never be able to cover up the smell of manure inherited from your father.You are the daughter of a big dung worker, this fact, no matter how big you are as an official, you can't change this fact, let alone make me look down on you... Finally, Fan Zhengwen's good self-cultivation could no longer be maintained. Her face went from flushing to purple to bruising, and finally began to distort.When Ouyang kept scolding her garbage worker's daughter, she could still listen, because with her success, the self-confidence she had grown had made her no longer ashamed of her origin, even though she used to feel inferior.But when he cursed her father and brother viciously, and especially insulted her with the smell of manure, she felt that she should not tolerate it so much anymore.Perhaps for so many years, she had been too tolerant of him, which not only failed to win back his conscience and change of heart, but also contributed to his contempt for her.He even took her love for him and her maintenance of marriage as his trump card, hurting her, torturing him, and persecuting her time and time again.Maybe the idea of ​​forgiving him one last time was wrong, she thought, she should let him know that she cannot allow others to be insulted and abused casually, nor will she tolerate his unreasonableness without principle forever.Fan Zhengwen finally discarded his reason and demeanor at the cost of sacrificing his own dignity, and replaced it with a majestic and inviolable demeanor.She walked slowly and calmly, walked to about two meters in front of Ouyang, and resolutely and resolutely stopped Ouyang's unreasonable abuse: Ouyang, I have always wanted to save our marriage, and I don't think there is anything wrong with it. After this hope is shattered, I hope that we can break up peacefully, and I don't think there is anything wrong with that.Even just now, I wish you well in the future.But you are too much.I think at this last moment, it is necessary for you to clear up who is more despised.That's right, my father was a garbage worker. His humble status made him long for his children to get out of this inferior life. I think this should be in line with human nature.And when his daughter has really reached a respected position as he hoped, I don't think the joy and pride he showed should be too much.You look down on my background, I can understand, but I - the daughter of a garbage worker, a woman who smells like manure, after hard work, the career I have, although not outstanding, but among my classmates and colleagues, I can Saying is respected and compelling.I can say that I am stronger than you.As for your saying that my younger brother has great ambitions and few talents, I think this word is more suitable for you.do you know?I liked you at the beginning, because of your talent and arrogance, but after many years of life, I realized that you were not successful because of your arrogance, because you are not as talented as you think.The false aura of being a high-ranking official, the sense of superiority brought about by being flattered since childhood, is your growing arrogance that expands the little bit of cleverness in your nature infinitely.You think you are smarter than others, you think you are more talented than others.In fact, that is your illusion.To be proud of one's talents can be regarded as a personality, and to a certain extent, it can also be regarded as an advantage, but being arrogant without talents is an out-and-out stupidity... Fan Zhengwen had never pointed out Ouyang so clearly and plainly before. It can be said that in many years of life, when she gradually lost confidence in Ouyang's future, she was still unwilling to face such a situation.She can't even accept such a fact like Ouyang, let alone admit it.Although this kind of thought occasionally invaded her mind vaguely, she kept looking for all kinds of supporting reasons and basis for her love and her choice at the beginning.She didn't believe it, and she didn't want to admit that the husband she chose, the husband she loved deeply, and the husband who made her proud was a mediocrity.Today, after suddenly expressing this subconsciously recognized fact in a fit of anger, she suddenly felt terrified. She didn't know what consequences such a fact would cause.Now she seems to understand that the reason why Ouyang left her was neither because she thought he was jealous of her achievements, nor because he said he looked down on her.She thinks that perhaps the following reason is more reasonable and possible: that is, Ouyang has realized that his failure is due to his incompetence, which makes him fearful of living with Fan Zhengwen because of such close contact. Make his incompetence more easily exposed to her eyes.For the so-called face, and for the so-called talented image in Fan Zhengwen's mind, he left her frantically and by any means.After thinking about this point clearly, Fan Zhengwen suddenly regretted the cruel fact that he only pointed out for a moment of pleasure.But at this time, just as Fan Zhengwen regretted, things were developing in an unpredictable direction, and it was too late to control.After Ouyang stood up suddenly, before he could say a word, his face turned blue and his body fell straight to the sofa.Fan Zhengwen suddenly realized that his illness was serious. Two seconds later, Fan Zhengwen quickly took out the pills from the small medicine box under the coffee table, and quickly poured them into Ouyang's mouth. Sun Mei found nothing.Not only was there no trace of the woman she suspected, there was no trace of her husband, Fan Zhengzhang, at home.Judging from the signs of the mess at home, the possibility that Fan Zhengzhang was suspected of fooling around with women can be ruled out for the time being.Once this conclusion was reached, Sun Mei suddenly became happy.She first heated up the water heater, and then started to clean up the housework.Around ten o'clock, the house was restored to its original cleanliness and order, and Sun Mei also came out of the bathroom with her wet hair after the bath.Then, she sat on the sofa and began to pay attention to the whereabouts of her son and husband.First, she called her mother's house and learned that her son was asleep. Then she started calling Fan Zhengzhang's cell phone and found that it was turned off.She is not a mean woman. When she is on a business trip, Fan Zhengzhang spends more time with friends. She doesn't care too much, as long as she is not dating a woman.With this feeling in mind, Sun Mei quickly fell asleep. After an unknown amount of time, Sun Mei was awakened by a knock on the door.Before fully waking up, she realized that it was Fan Zhengzhang who had returned.She jumped off the bed without thinking about putting on her slippers, and ran towards the door at a trot.However, when she opened the outer door, she found that the door on the opposite side just hit it, and a few lively greetings were shut in. It wasn't Fan Zhengzhang, Sun Mei woke up.Only then did she realize that Fan Zhengzhang wouldn't knock on the door if he didn't know she was coming back.When Sun Mei sat back on the bed again, she suddenly found that the clock on the opposite wall pointed to 8:30 in the morning. This discovery didn't matter.If the wife is not at home, you can go crazy for a while.Sun Mei felt that staying out at night like this had exceeded her tolerance limit. Sun Mei's first reaction was to quickly pick up the phone and dial Fan Zhengzhang's cell phone, but it was still turned off.She felt a sense of uneasiness, the same feeling she felt just before returning home from a business trip, and the suspicion came back to her.Half an hour later, she packed up the presents for her son and parents, cleaned up, and returned to her natal home.After watching the gift happily with her parents and son, within ten minutes, she learned how much Fan Zhengzhang had taken care of her son these days. Sun Mei was full of anger and suspicion, and after having lunch with her parents and son, she walked out of her parents' house on the grounds that she was rushing to write a meeting report.She decided to be completely bored for once, to unravel her doubts.First of all, she went home and took out the phone book, ran to a public phone on the street, and called Han Xiangxiang's home, and she wanted to get rid of Han Xiangxiang first.It was a man who answered the phone, so Sun Mei could only say, is your wife at home?As soon as the voice finished speaking, a man's voice came from the phone, Xiangxiang, call! "Crack", Sun Mei hung up the moment Han Xiangxiang picked up the phone.For a moment, she felt that the dense and thick wall in her heart seemed to open up like a gap.Next, she dialed the phone number of Fan Zhengzhang's college classmate Yu Jia, which was just a mobile phone number, but it turned out to be the same as Fan Zhengzhang's mobile phone, and it was a familiar female voice, "The number you dialed has been turned off."After hanging up the phone, Sun Mei felt that an invisible hand seemed to be blocking a thick piece of soil on the gap just exposed in the heart wall. She was in no mood to make any remaining calls.She threw down a dollar, got on her bicycle and rushed to the road in a daze.There was only one thought in her mind: go to Yu Jia's house to take a look.It is said that this woman is going through divorce, maybe Fan Zhengzhang is the reason for their divorce. Finding Yu Jia's home went smoothly, but she knocked on the door for nearly five minutes before Yu Jia came out sleepily wearing a large robe.From such a long time of opening the door, Sun Mei concluded that Fan Zhengzhang might be hiding in the house.She was no longer afraid.She neither paid attention to Yu Jia's surprise nor cared about Yu Jia's explanation that "the card game last night lasted until ten o'clock in the morning", but she just turned sideways and unceremoniously squeezed through the half-open door, and kept going. The buttocks sat on the soft sofa. Yu Jia sat opposite her, with a tired face, drooping eyelids, and exposed eye wrinkles, it was indeed more like staying up late playing cards.Maybe it was because of doing good things with that bastard Fan Zhengzhang?Thinking of this, the apology that just arose in Sun Mei's heart turned into anger again.But she knew her purpose, so she had no choice but to hide her anger, put on a painful expression, and said, Yu Jia, I'm sorry to disturb your sleep.I really can't help it. Yu Jia took out a disposable paper cup from the coffee table to fetch a glass of water for Sun Mei, and asked suspiciously, what's the matter? I have to find someone to talk to, Sun Mei tried her best to show a sad and wronged expression, and even wanted to squeeze out a tear or two, but after several efforts, she still couldn't squeeze out any tears, so she had to turn around and be herself While catching the water, I quickly dipped my hands into the water in the glass, and wiped it into my eyes, making a gesture of wiping tears.Yu Jia turned around and saw Sun Mei crying, she was startled, and hurriedly comforted her and said, let's talk about it. I do not know what to do?We had a quarrel, and Fan Zhengzhang said he wanted to divorce me when he left home.Sun Mei saw that the trick of covering up her intrusion into Yu Jia's house was beginning to work, and she secretly took pride in her wit.Then, with a sad expression on her face, she continued, I know you have been through this too, and I want to talk to you, hoping to find a way out. There was a gleam of light in Yu Jia's tired face, although she tried her best to hide it and made a sympathetic gesture following Sun Mei's expression, Sun Mei still noticed it.It seems that women always like others to live worse than themselves, so as to set off their decency and self-esteem, at least not to cause others to laugh at them.Now that the purpose of arousing Yu Jia's curiosity has been achieved, there are enough reasons to stay here for a while.She thought, as long as she stays for another five hours, if that black-hearted husband is really hiding in there, he won't have to worry about him running out.Fan Zhengzhang couldn't hold back his urine, and Sun Mei suddenly found it funny, wondering how this man would deal with the current situation when he was in a hurry.Next, Sun Mei adjusted her sitting posture, trying to make herself more comfortable, and then began to think about how to pass the time, how to find traces of Fan Zhengzhang, and what to do if Fan Zhengzhang was caught, etc. Once she realized that Sun Mei was following in her own footsteps, Yu Jia, who just didn't welcome Sun Mei's forced intrusion, immediately subconsciously drew closer to Sun Mei.In the following time, the two began to accuse the man of blood and tears in turn.Sun Mei said that Fan Zhengzhang is a complete bastard, Yu Jia said that men are nothing; Sun Mei said that Fan Zhengzhang is an irresponsible playboy, Yu Jia said that men are shameless; When he passed away, he actually wanted to abandon me. Yu Jia said that men are heinous and deserve to die... There are all kinds of snacks on Yu Jia's coffee table. Four hours have passed, and the various snacks on the coffee table have been replaced with piles of leather , shells, and even nuclei, as for you drinking a glass of water, they have already lost count.All kinds of snacks were soaked in several cups of water, which made the stomachs of the two women inexplicably uncomfortable. It was getting dark outside, and Sun Mei knew it would be unreasonable not to leave.I don't know if it's because the upset stomach affected the emotions, or because they were tired of talking, the two women suddenly found that they couldn't find the man's crime after searching their guts, and they almost ran out of words to curse the man.Taking advantage of Yu Jia's time to go to the bathroom, Sun Mei looked under the sofa, storage room and kitchen, but found nothing suspicious.Then, he took advantage of the opportunity to go to the bathroom to wash his face, and then used Yu Jia's cosmetics as an excuse to follow Yu Jia into her bedroom. Nothing.There is a quilt and a nest on the bed, and it looks like someone has slept alone.The bed is made of solid wood, which cannot hide people.The closet is extremely delicate, and it looks like a person who hides in it for an entire afternoon will get sick without being suffocated. Five minutes later, Sun Mei left happily yet confused. Fan Zhengzhang had completely given up on looking for Ruan Rong, he suddenly felt extremely bored.The bad emotions caused by the continuous bumping into the wall, as well as the reflection on his own behavior, made him lose interest in women all of a sudden.well!He let out a long sigh, comforting himself in his heart and said, boring games, let's move forward!For men, status comes first after all.With it, why do we need to take such painstaking efforts like today? Once he came to his senses, Fan Zhengzhang quickly put his mind on his career, the next five-year plan - to strive for another level, and his ambition to become a director once again swelled.He decided to use the last two days before his wife came back, that is, this weekend, to do something serious, which can be regarded as a compensation for the absurd behavior of these days.Determined, he immediately started preparing for a call for papers recently issued by the ministry on "China's New Millennium New Agricultural Development Ideas".In terms of writing articles, he has an advantage.Just as he was searching for theoretical knowledge on agricultural reform, and thinking about the topic and content of his dissertation, his cell phone rang. This is from Jiang Deshi, his subordinate in the office.A few days ago Jiang Deshi said he wanted to invite him to dinner, but he refused because he had Ruan Rong in his heart.In the morning, Jiang Deshi brought up the matter again, but Fan Zhengzhang refused to agree on the pretext of having something to do.Unexpectedly, this iron cock still didn't give up.It seems that something is really wrong with him, otherwise, his iron hair can't be pulled out casually. Jiang Deshi was just transferred from the Security Division to the Agriculture Division, and he has always been snobbish.When Fan Zhengzhang didn't mention the deputy director, the man kept staring at him in the security office, as if he owed him a hundred yuan and didn't pay it back.Once, he put his bicycle in front of the hall for Fan Zhengzhang, and gave Fan Zhengzhang a serious education.Ever since Fan Zhengzhang was promoted to deputy office and he became Fan Zhengzhang's subordinate again, he suddenly made a 180-degree turn without transition, and his respectful appearance made Fan Zhengzhang's vanity a little unbearable.Fan Zhengzhang is not a small-minded person who loves to hold grudges, but he unequivocally looks down on Jiang Deshi's snobbish eyes.Look down on, look down on, years of experience in agency work, Fan Zhengzhang has cultivated the kung fu of concealing and not revealing.Especially after getting along with several things, Fan Zhengzhang found that Jiang Deshi was a complete villain.I would rather offend a gentleman than a villain, Jiang Deshi called him that over and over again, if I don't go, I'm afraid I will really offend this villain. Ten minutes later, he took a taxi and arrived at the Xiankeju Villa that Jiang Deshi mentioned.In a private room where the Eight Immortals gathered, he found that besides Jiang Deshi, there was a young woman and two men.One of the two men has a fat head and big ears, like a businessman, while the other has a sharp-mouthed monkey cheek, especially the two small eyes that are constantly moving, one can tell that he is a bastard at a glance.Fan Zhengzhang knew that Jiang Deshi was from the suburbs, so he thought that this monkey-like man must be from the same village as Jiang Deshi.As for that man, it was difficult for him to judge.With years of experience in the officialdom, Fan Zhengzhang has learned to observe and judge people, and he believes that there is no big difference in his judgment. As soon as he entered the door, Jiang Deshi bounced like a slender hemp stalk, and in the blink of an eye, he thrust a stick in front of him, shouting loudly, "Fan Chu, you are finally here, if you don't come again, the brothers will come to invite you." up.As his words fell to the ground, two other men and a woman also stood beside him, with flattering expressions on their faces like Jiang Deshi, and the young woman among them quickly took over Jiang Deshi's words, unexpectedly, Fan Chu was young again, And handsome, if you are not married yet, you must be the first to consider me! Everyone burst into laughter, Fan Zhengzhang was a little unaccustomed to such a strange woman's bold jokes, and couldn't find a suitable response for a while.The thin monkey-like strange man's mind turned very fast. After he helped Fan Zhengzhang pull out the chair and sat down, he pointed at the young woman solemnly and said, "Xiaoxia, if Fan Chu is not married, you may not be considered. But in order to ensure your selection, I suggest that you'd better go back to your manufacturing place and overhaul it again to be sure. The atmosphere suddenly became more relaxed.After three glasses of wine, Fan Zhengzhang understood the meaning of the meal.The thin monkey man was indeed Jiang Deshi's friend from the same village, named Bian Chenglong.The fat man and Xiaoxia are from an advertising company, and they came for the exhibition of the agricultural system.Jiang Deshi knew that Fan Zhengzhang had a close relationship with Deputy Director Sun Zhanshan, who was in charge of publicity, and wanted him to lead the way and contract out all the exhibition boards for this exhibition.Fan Zhengzhang couldn't figure out how much profit there was in this project, and he didn't know if he had such face in front of Deputy Director Sun, even though the director was an old classmate of his sister and had given Fan Zhengzhang considerable support in promoting him. s help.But on this kind of thing, he really wasn't sure.In the end, he had to vaguely agree to try it. Perhaps it was because he hadn't eaten properly in the past few days, but Fan Zhengzhang found that he was particularly overwhelmed with alcohol this evening.Just halfway through the wine session, he already felt that all the people and things in front of him had become blurred, and his hands were becoming less and less accurate when holding things, and he often put the dishes on the empty table in front of the plates.In this case, the remaining consciousness in his head reminded him that the alcohol was too much and he should stop.So in the following time, no matter who persuaded him, no matter what tricks he used, he hardly used his brain to think and distinguish, but firmly held down the wine glass with his hand, and did not allow others to refill him.This method is actually a set of wine methods that he has explored for many years in the agency.He is well aware of the possible consequences of being drunk, so he is extremely strict with his drinking ethics, especially on occasions where he is not sure about the details. At half past ten in the evening, the drinking party broke up. Standing on the street with the cool wind blowing his hair, Fan Zhengzhang realized that his unusual behavior had already aroused the uneasiness of the other two men.In order to comfort the two men and express his apology, he readily agreed to the two men's proposal to play cards. The sun rises higher and higher, and the sunlight outside the window gradually changes from the oblique rays from the east to the direct rays from the heights. The dazzling brilliance is like thousands of intertwined silver lines, drawing various wonderful patterns in front of the large floor-to-ceiling windows. The whole living room is like a lighted ship, becoming warmer and brighter with slight shaking.How beautiful the world is!This is what Ouyang thought in his mind after waking up in the morning. However, this exclamation was too short-lived.People, society People have lived in society for too long, and the natural disposition in the body has been deeply buried along with the complicated life and society, or it has been exploited so hard to find.When Ouyang withdrew his gaze from the large floor-to-ceiling windows, the first thing he saw was Fan Zhengwen's sad and distressed eyes. Perhaps for a moment, his heart trembled, but only for a moment, he quickly Back to the confinement of the soul coat that has been woven for many years, back to the state of the two quarreling the night before.In particular, the most painful scar in the depths of his soul that Fan Zhengwen uncovered was reminding him of the severe pain in dignity in a bloody state.Fan Zhengwen was staring at him, looking at him with her melancholy and sad eyes, which clearly contained infinite pity and indescribable remorse, which caused his anger to continue from the night before. I don't want these, I hate these hypocritical poor people.Ouyang Xu felt extremely hurt. Before he fell ill, all Fan Zhengwen's words pierced his heart again like a sharp arrow. In addition to the pain, he felt more ashamed and unstoppable. hate. He didn't want to admit what Fan Zhengwen said was incompetent, but no matter how hard he tried over the years, he had indeed failed.This made it impossible for him not to doubt himself, although he still gritted his teeth and stood firm.When Fan Zhengwen suddenly affirmed the doubts in his heart that he dared not admit, and exposed the facts that he dared not face, he felt suddenly broken.The edifice of self-confidence that had been gradually built up, continuously strengthened and increased since the time he could remember was suddenly like an illusory and beautiful shadow, and with the opening and closing of Fan Zhengwen's two thin lips, it floated away in an instant.After a near-death struggle, he walked back from the hands of the god of death. He was unwilling to admit this situation and his incompetence, especially in front of this woman who once admired him so much.This is his character and a pride he cannot give up.He decided to use his last bet to completely defeat this woman and redeem his victory in front of her. Having made up his mind, Ouyang immediately felt much better as if he had already felt victory, and the feeling of collapse caused by Fan Zhengwen's exposure of his incompetence the night before was quickly and temporarily squeezed out of his mind.He even laughed, as the saying goes, he was extremely annoyed.Fan Zhengwen had a premonition that something more important was going to happen, because she knew this proud man, when he was crazy, he might do anything beyond common sense, even desperately.What's more, she has already taken out the most vicious move for Ouyang, which is to destroy his arrogance and self-confidence.She couldn't judge how this man would fight when he was forced to this point, but she believed that he would never let it go, which made her feel at a loss for a while. What time did you come in, I hate it when you don't knock. I didn't leave last night, Fan Zhengwen said to Ouyang Xu in a low voice, you took sleeping pills after taking heart medicine, I saw that your condition was not stable, so I didn't go back. Oh, that being the case, we can pick up where we left off last night.Ouyang Xu said proudly. Ok!Seeing that Ouyang Xu's attitude was still tough and there was no room for relaxation, Fan Zhengwen had no choice but to let out a long sigh. 欧阳旭坐直身子，一字一句清晰地说，到这一步，我们不妨打开窗户说亮话吧。我没有成就事业，甚至没有生活保障，我可以承认很失败，但那并不能证明我无能，我想仅凭这一点，我便被人瞧不起是不是可笑至极。你瞧不起我，是你觉得我无才，我无才是因为你现在混了一个小官，从而觉得你比我强。这些逻辑，你不觉得可笑吗？在社会上，人与人之间谁瞧不起谁，不是因为地位和财富在起作用，我想这你不明白吧？因为你觉得这两种东西是世间最好的东西，这也是你们这种出身卑贱的人永远都无法跳出的圈子。你尽可以按照你的逻辑，凭你的金钱和地位而瞧不起我，但我有我的逻辑，那就是，尽管我没有你希望的那些东西，我却在人格上比你富有，比你高尚，我可以理直气壮地告诉你，我在人格上瞧不起你！ 范正纹被欧阳这些貌似有理的长篇大论说得目瞪口呆，她一时间不知道如何应付。看着欧阳脸色从青紫变得逐渐正常，她感到这个男人正在严重变态，他已经把对她的打击当成他取乐或者说来缓解痛苦的重要途径，也许是唯一途径。她真是对他失望透了，如果说她刚才对他还有一点怜悯的话，那么，现在她发现这个男人已经不值得她怜悯了。她整理了一下自己的思路，又恢复了素来的修养和冷静，她带着一个成功者的自信回复了欧阳的话： 我不想与你争论你我人格上的高低，我不否认你人格上的清白，但是人格的高低，并不是以成功与否来决定，因为成功者并不像你认为的那样，都是人格上的矮子。就像你所说的，成功与否不能成为判断人的能力标准一样。我只想告诉你，因为无能而不敢接触社会，因为害怕失败而不敢奋斗，因为怕暴露自己的平庸而不敢面对现实的功名，那并不是所谓清高，那只能算是自欺欺人。这种行为不仅仅可怜，说确切些简直可笑。 平静、理智，但铿锵有力，范正纹的话再次像利箭戳入欧阳敏感而自尊的心上，他的脸又一次因为涨紫而变得丑陋，刚才强装出的绅士风度也随之而不顾。他从沙发上突然站起，冲到电脑旁边拿出厚厚一沓打印着密密麻麻文字的纸张，摔向范正纹眼前的茶几上： 我可怜，没错，我可笑，没错，因为我头上戴着一顶人见人笑的绿帽子。看看这些材料，好好回忆一下吧，回忆一下这么多年来你都做了些什么？送礼、请客、巴结、奉迎，还有睡觉，就凭这些，你还有什么资格来嘲笑我？就因为你用巴结之能事换来了地位和金钱，就因为你用肉体换来了某个领导的垂青，就因为你比别的女人更会在床上施展功夫…… “啪”——范正纹终于忍无可忍，举起巴掌掴向欧阳，欧阳瘦弱的身体立刻像一棵风中的细竹，激烈摇晃了几下，倒坐在了沙发上。范正纹眼睛里边已经充满了血光和泪光，她咬牙切齿地低声吼着，不许你侮辱我的人格。 哈——哈——哈，哈——哈——哈，欧阳激烈地笑了起来，笑得浑身颤抖，还不停地说着，我告诉你，你这一掌打得好，早该打了，我也早等着这一掌了。现在我们两清了，我可以按照自己的生活原则生活了，我要把我知道的一切全部寄出去，我要揭发你这个从阴谋中玩出地位和金钱的女人。我要看一看，到底是你瞧不起我，还是我瞧不起你！ 范正纹知道欧阳那沓所谓的揭发材料，那是这个疯狂的男人不知花了多长时间，记录着她从政以来所有与领导交往的历史，包括她最初的送礼，请吃，也有与个别领导较亲密的接触，比如出游、游泳、唱歌、跳舞甚至还有洗澡等，另外还有她的地位日益提高的同时，所接受的礼物、首饰甚至红包等。虽然这些应酬在官场中司空见惯，但毕竟大家心照不宣。如果真的当事情说出来，还真是毁掉一个人仕途的重要证据。在此之前，欧阳曾经以此要挟范正纹离婚，他答应只要她接受离婚，他便把这些材料毁掉。但是现在范正纹明确感到，欧阳要自食其言。于是，她不无恐惧地说，你不能这么做，你曾经答应过毁掉它的。 现在，我变了主意。欧阳幸灾乐祸地冷笑着说。 范正纹感到绝望正在一点点噬咬她的心，她发现经过无数次的努力和挣扎，终于没有阻挡住这个疯狂男人的疯狂行为。她两眼瞪着那沓材料，踉踉跄跄地向后不自主退着，似乎那一沓薄薄的白纸正变成一把把锋利的刀子向她飞来。在感到窒息般的痛苦时，她的嘴里不知是自言自语，还是在向欧阳乞求，不，不，不能，这不但会毁了我，还会毁了严严，我不能让这样的事情发生……不能发生…… 看见范正纹将女儿严严搬了出来，欧阳终于从范正纹的恐惧中体验到了胜利的快感。多少年的争斗，他已经完全了解了这个女人的弱点，并且一直在利用她的弱点，来掌握她，控制她，折磨她，打击她，以此来缓解自己一事无成的痛苦和失望。其实，他知道打击这个女人将给女儿带来的影响，但是每到这样的时刻，他往往欲罢不能。有时他能觉出自己的失控，就像今天这样，在范正纹提到女儿的时候，他仍然不能软弱下来，并且不停地喊着： 不用小题大做，你的前途可能短时影响女儿，但是，你放心，我的女儿不会从此毁掉，我甚至可以保证，没有你这样的妈妈在生活中的影响，她会活得更好。 你是个疯子，范正纹突然大喊起来，几乎同时，她流着泪水，像一只敏捷的兔子两三步冲向茶几桌上，拿起那沓材料，疯狂地撕扯起来。尖锐的刺啦声，伴着范正纹尖细的哭泣声和咒骂声在屋内飘荡着，你是个疯子，一个不折不扣的疯子，你要遭报应的，我咒你，我咒你不得好死…… 欧阳没有阻止范正纹，而是看着范正纹失控的情绪笑着，撕吧，没用，我的电脑里存着底呢？ 范正纹像被惊醒一样，突然停下撕扯的动作，一把扔掉乱七八糟的纸团，转身蹿至电脑桌前，然后不假犹豫地一下子搬起主机向脚下扔去。由于主机后边的连线，主机在掉到桌前离地七八公分左右时，突然停在空中，而范正纹几乎同时也正从嘴里传出惊惧的叫声。欧阳没有想到范正纹会如此激动，竟然会疯狂到砸电脑。因此，当他看清范正纹的企图时，他也惊呼一声冲了过来。而当主机稳稳当当停在半空后，他从突如其来的恐惧一下子转成不可遏制的大笑。 哈——哈——哈，哈——，哈——，哈——他的笑声包含了对范正纹的嘲弄，对自己胜利的得意，还包含了电脑给他们所开玩笑引起的双方慌乱。他从来没有看见范正纹如此狼狈，你不是淑女吗，你不是有风度吗，你——，哈——哈——哈，他用手指着范正纹，然后再指指与范正纹一样狼狈的电脑主机，哈——哈——…… 范正纹已经欲哭无泪了，她恨这个恶毒的男人，她实在想不透一个不成功的男人会变得如此不可理喻。如果老天给她重新选择的机会，她想，她绝对不会…… 她已经没有机会再悲痛下去了，更没有时间胡思乱想下去了。因为，当她盯着这个笑得浑身颤抖的男人时，她嗅到了一种从没有过的恐怖气息：首先欧阳旭大张着的嘴里已经笑不出声音，紫红的瘦脸正拉得更长更长，像一幅夸张了的漫画长脸。而他的身子正像一具僵尸般向后仰去。 她冲了过去，在他倒下之前，下意识接住了他，同时也听见他嘴里喊出的最后一个字“药”。 她拿来了药，并像往常一样准备倒给他。但是当她看见那张布满痛苦的瘦长脸颊上隐约透露出的熟悉的傲慢时，范正纹不知道为什么突然犹豫了。她不自觉地扭转回头，看了看那团已经揉皱的纸团，看了看那挂在桌边的主机，还有像小白兔般滚落在电脑桌后的食品盒。然后，她从欧阳的身边站了起来。不知是用眼角的余光，还是她最后看了欧阳一眼，她只记得欧阳那痛苦的眼睛里正闪着的微弱怒火突然熄灭了，取而代之的是一抹极度的恐惧和绝望，还有一张更加扭曲的表情。 她没有像往常一样启动体内的母性，而是坚定地走向宽大的落地窗前，拉开一扇天蓝色纱窗，将那个白色小药瓶投掷了出去。接下来，她好像在欣赏自己的杰作，静静地站在窗前，紧紧盯着那只无声无息的瓶子的身影。当白色小瓶子慢慢从一只类似离开笼子的小鸟，而变成一只难以辨清的飞虫般的亮点，然后连这个亮点也在阳光中慢慢融化得无影无踪后，她才发现自己的身体正在剧烈抖动着，脸上却流满了冰凉的泪水。她仍然没有转身，只是透过模糊的泪眼，看了一会儿天，看了一会儿云，还看了一会儿远处的绿树和青草，最后才慢慢踱了回去。