Chapter 6 Chapter Six

I told Ye Shengnan about getting married in my second year, Ye Shengnan bit her lip and didn't speak, her eyes blinked flickeringly, and the eyeballs rolled around.I asked her what she was thinking, and she said that she should give a congratulatory gift when Erqixi got married, but I felt that she was not thinking about this question, which is not a problem in itself. Neighbors who grew up together should give some congratulatory gifts. As for what to give, people don’t have to think about it. At that time, people’s requirements were very low. A bed sheet was a heavy gift, and two towels were completely acceptable.

Ye Shengnan rolled her eyes for a while, then suddenly sighed and said, "Secondary is married two years younger than you, alas, we don't know how long it will take." I asked her: "Are you in a hurry? Let's just decide on our own." "That won't work. It's not that I can't get married, and it's not that no one wants me. I absolutely can't be that kind of low-level daughter-in-law who can't even see her parents-in-law. I want to enter your house openly, otherwise I'd rather not get married." Or marry someone else." She encouraged me in the past, and if she couldn't do it, she made up her own mind, but now she said the same way again, I wanted to contradict her: "Then you might as well marry someone else." But I didn't dare, for fear that she would really become a wild woman. The pigeon flew.I heard that braised pig's trotters are still bachelors now, if Ye Shengnan and I get old and waste all our previous efforts, let alone all these years of hard work, maybe it's in the arms of braised pig's trotters, and the dream that kid has had since he was a child is fulfilled .

The Erqixi got married, and I moved to the single dormitory, and gave up my house and Erqixi's house to him as a new house.They still live with the family, pay a symbolic 20 yuan a month for food, and continue to eat and drink at home.I moved to the single dormitory, and I still ate at home.The matter between me and Ye Shengnan is still pending, neither my mother nor my father mentioned it, as if it never happened.I was stunned as soon as I entered the house after work this day. Ye Shengnan sat in my house well-behaved, with a bag of things wrapped in red paper in front of me.I was terrified. Although she had come to my house in the past, she always carried my mother behind her back and came when my mother was away from work.Today she really walked into my house "imposingly". I don't know how my mother will react when she comes back to see her. I am not afraid that my mother will be unhappy. If she is unhappy, she will scold me later. Now that I am at work, she will no longer be violent to me, and I can still stand being scolded.I'm afraid that Ye Shengnan will be wronged. If nothing else, if my mother sees her and ignores her when she comes back from get off work, and looks at her like looking at the air, she will definitely not be able to bear it.What reassured me a little was that my daughter-in-law Xiao Linzi and my younger sister were quite enthusiastic, pouring water and candy for her and chatting nonsense with her.

I was uneasy, always thinking about what would happen when my mother came back. They smoked silently when they talked about me, and peeked downstairs through the window from time to time, as if seeing my mother coming home in advance could prevent any unpleasant things from happening.I don't care about my dad. Although my dad is not optimistic about the matter between me and Ye Shengnan, and it can even be classified as disagreement, but he will definitely not embarrass Ye Shengnan, and he may even be very enthusiastic about Ye Shengnan on the surface.The moment that made me most nervous came. My mother came back. She was carrying a basket of vegetables in her left hand and a bag she brought to work in her right hand. Like grandparents..." When she saw Ye Shengnan, the string of rambling words came to an abrupt end, as if her throat was suddenly blocked by a villain.

Ye Shengnan stood up generously: "Auntie is off work?" My mother half-opened her mouth, and it took a moment to react: "Oh, it's off work, are you here?" Ye Shengnan said: "Dirty and the others got married. I heard that I came to make up a gift. I grew up together. I'm really happy for them." As the saying goes, officials don't call people who give gifts, and people who have a reason don't call at the door. Sure enough, my mother smiled and said: "Hey, nowadays we pay attention to breaking the old and creating the new, and we do new things. Everything is kept simple. We didn't make a fuss, and most people didn't notify me." .”

Seeing this scene, a hanging heart in my throat finally fell back into my cavity, and I couldn't help but be impressed by Ye Shengnan's extraordinary courage. For me, she dared to openly come to my house to contact my mother directly. The significance is no less than that of Nixon's visit to Beijing.Then my mother said: "You guys sit and talk, I'm going to cook." Ye Shengnan immediately said: "I'll help you." Of course, my mother would not let her help, and declined: "No, you can't get involved Third child, come and help me wash the vegetables." The little girl was chatting with Ye Shengnan and the others with great interest, and she was a little reluctant. The second-year-old daughter-in-law was well-behaved, and quickly said, "Let me do it." Then she followed my mother into the room. out of the kitchen.

Ye Shengnan suddenly seemed preoccupied, and could even be attributed to frowning. I thought she was suffocated because she volunteered to help my mother with cooking and was rejected, so I gave her a wink and said, "You got off work early today." She said sadly, "I didn't go to work today." I was a little surprised, no matter what, I would never miss work to give a wedding gift to my second wife, so I asked her: "Why didn't you go to work? Is there something to do at home?" She shook her head: "It's nothing." But there was a pool of tears that could drown a person in her eyes.I was shocked. Although she is sometimes sentimental, she would cry badly when watching the Korean movie "The Flower Girl", and sometimes tears would fill her eyes when she read Li Qingzhao's poems.But no matter how you say it, it doesn't mean that my mother didn't let her help wash the vegetables, right?

"What's wrong? What's on your mind?" I asked nervously. Seeing us like this, the little girl slipped away tactfully, so that we could talk together alone. "I went to the hospital today." "What's wrong? Are you sick?" "Ok." "What disease?" "The doctor said it might be leukemia, but it hasn't been diagnosed yet." At this point, her tears finally flowed down, and the strings of teardrops were like dewdrops hanging on pear blossoms. I could hardly believe my ears and asked again, "What did you say? Leukemia? How is this possible?"

"I also don't think it's possible. I've been suffering from low-grade fever recently and I'm feeling weak. I couldn't stand it today so I went to the hospital. The doctor told me after the examination that further examinations are needed. A bone marrow aspiration is required for the final diagnosis." I was dumbfounded, stupid, I couldn't believe it was true, but she said it herself, the only hope is that after further examination, it was confirmed that she was not leukemia.However, what if she is diagnosed with leukemia after further examination?My heart stopped beating, and my chest seemed to be filled with sand and I couldn't breathe.

"Don't be afraid and don't worry, you haven't been diagnosed yet." She comforted me in turn, which made me unbearable. I don't know how to face her at this time, what to say to her, I can only He shook her hand, as if he was talking to her or talking to himself: "No, no, absolutely not." "You have to promise me one thing. This matter must not be known to our family, nor to your family. At present, only the two of us know. After the diagnosis, we will tell them whether or not." I understand her feelings, if her parents find out about this, half their lives will be lost.If we let our family know, things between us will be even more impossible. Who would let his son marry a leukemia patient?At this time my dad was off work, and as I expected, my dad was much more enthusiastic towards Ye Shengnan than my mother: "Hey, Sheng Nan is here?" Seeing Sheng Nan standing up, he said, "Sit, sit, and dinner Alright, let's eat at home."

But Ye Shengnan started to leave: "No, I didn't tell my family, they are still waiting for me to go back to eat, goodbye Uncle Ye. Auntie, I'm going back." My mother said in the kitchen: "Oh, you left? I won't give it away." The younger sister and Xiao Linzi sent Ye Shengnan outside the door.I sat without moving, and I had no energy to stand up to see her off. My mind was in a mess, my legs were limp, and my memory function could only remember three words: leukemia. "Brother, what's wrong with you? Did sister Sheng Nan say something?" Seeing that I was out of my mind, the little girl asked me in a hurry. I couldn't control myself, although I felt ashamed, but my tears couldn't help but flow down.The little girl was terrified. Seeing me cry was similar to the shock of seeing heavy snowfall in the dog days, because so far there are really too few things that can make me cry, and there may be no memory of me crying in the little girl's mind. .The little girl kept asking me: "Brother, tell me, what happened? What did Ye Shengnan say? Is she going to have sex with you?" With such a yell, she called my mother out of the kitchen.My mother was taken aback when she saw my behavior: "What's wrong? Who made you do it?" I said, "Nothing." "It's nothing, what are you doing like that? Who are you showing your face in mourning? Did the Ye family's daughter say something upstairs?" "No, I didn't say anything." "Well, what are you doing like this? You don't want to hang your face at home. Your father is not comfortable outside. Let's see your face when you get home. Tell me, what's going on?" At this time, Xiao Linzi called her from the kitchen: "Mom, the pot is boiling!" "When the pot is boiling, put the noodles on." After giving the order, my mother began to ask me again, "Is it because people quit? It's worth your virtue to quit. It's just good to save me from worrying. If it wasn't her, you would have already started a family, and the dolls were all over the place." I'm really upset, Ye Shengnan's life and death are uncertain, but she is still complaining here, I couldn't help it, and shouted: "Don't worry about my affairs! I will be single for the rest of my life, I am willing!" My mother was taken aback by my sudden outburst. She was stunned for a while, and then she responded with an even more violent roar: "What are you yelling? Go up the stairs and yell, what, look at you, People are neither humans nor ghosts. If I had known that you would grow up with this virtue, I might as well have sent you to the zoo to feed the wolves when I was a child. Just because of the daughter of the Ye family, you would like to kill me. There are no female dolls in this world. All dead? You know only one Ye Shengnan. Well, from now on, you can do whatever you want, I don't care about you, and you don't come into this house..." My dad came forward to make peace at this time: "Forget it, let's eat, why are you arguing when you are hungry, and then argue slowly when you are full and energetic." My mother immediately turned the finger on him: "It's you, who spends all day doing shitty and worthless things outside, and never asks about family matters. Look at what your eldest son looks like, daughter of the Ye family!" After coming here for a while, he started to quarrel with me when he walked away, thinking that I didn't treat the daughter of the Ye family well? Well, next time she comes again, can I kneel down and put a shoe on her head?" Maybe it was because my expression was too depressed at the time, maybe it was because my tears had not been wiped clean, my dad looked at me and was also very surprised: "Big egg, what's wrong with you? Why are you making trouble with your mother? Why are you still crying?" Is it? Are you ashamed?" I said, "It wasn't her business at first, she had to get involved, I didn't cry." My mother said: "If you don't make it clear today, I will never finish with you. Eat? You think well, don't eat it for anyone. You can tell me clearly first. What did the Ye family woman say? Instigate right and wrong to our house Come on, if you don't tell me, I'll go upstairs and talk to her." The matter is forced to this point, if I don't tell the truth, my mother will really go upstairs, then the matter will become a big mess, I don't dare to think about the outcome, so I can only tell about Ye Shengnan's possible leukemia come out.As soon as I said that, it was as if I had poured a basin of ice water into the furnace cavity, and the burning fire suddenly turned into steam and dissipated in the air without a trace. It turned into a silent classroom. My parents, my mother, and my younger sister, Xiao Linzi, looked at each other, and no one could speak. After a moment of silence, my mother said: "Forget it, don't talk about it, let's eat." In this family, as long as my mother is calm, the house is peaceful. Since she has stopped talking, how can others dare to find trouble?We sat down at the dining table honestly, and Xiao Linzi and the younger sister served the dishes honestly.When I came back in my second year, I saw that the atmosphere in the house was depressed, and everyone's faces were ugly. They didn't know what happened, so they secretly asked Xiao Linzi: "What's wrong?" Where do I have the mind to eat, everything I put in my mouth becomes a combination of soil and water: Hemu.My mother looked at me, looked at me and sighed: "Dad, my mother has something to say to you." I said, "You tell me, I'm listening." My mother looked at my father again, and my father buried his head in eating. My mother said: "The matter between you and Ye Shengnan is not because mother doesn't understand reason and has to separate you, and it's not because Ye Shengnan is a bad girl, but because his father is too useless. Actually , Ye Shengnan is a nice girl. She is pretty and smart. She grew up with you and knows everything. Why do you think I don't like her? Alas, it's a pity that her father is a rebel. Otherwise, I'm not crazy, why do I have to stop you?" I don't know what she means by that, how many times she's said it.At this time, my father interjected: "My son is marrying Ye Shengnan, but he is not marrying Ye Shengnan's father." My mother said: "You don't pretend to be a good person, why didn't you say this earlier? Don't you also agree with this matter?" My dad asked, "When did I say I disagreed with this? You never asked me if I agreed." My mother was speechless, and it was only then that we remembered that my father had never said anything against this matter. Every time he mentioned this matter, he would not express his opinion. We thought that he agreed with my mother, and his silence As opposed to, in fact, he has his own views.My mother glared at him and said, "I don't care about this matter with you today, and you don't just want to pretend to be a good person and let me be a bad person. I will talk about the bastard first, and then I will explain it to you clearly." Then my mother said to me: "Today I will speak clearly in front of your father and your younger siblings. From now on, my mother will never interfere with your affairs with Ye Shengnan. If she is really that sick, you will stay with her." , I will stay with you till the end, and I am sorry for you to have a good time. If she is not that sick, it will be even better, when you are going to get married, Mom will prepare for you." The little girl said to me happily: "Brother, our mother agrees with you and Sister Sheng Nan, are you happy now?" I can't be happy. If the shadow of leukemia didn't hang over me, I would definitely go crazy with joy. However, if it wasn't for leukemia, my mother wouldn't be so happy to agree to me and Ye Shengnan.I couldn't laugh, but wanted to cry.If Ye Shengnan really has leukemia, what's the point of my mother agreeing to my relationship with her at this time?But this is good news after all, and it is also a spiritual comfort to Ye Shengnan.I asked for leave the next day. I guess there was no one in their house, so I went to her house and told her about it. Her reaction was not as enthusiastic as I imagined. I thought it might be because she was in a bad mood. Anyone who has leukemia will not feel good.For a period of time afterward, I accompanied her to the hospital to see a doctor every day, trying to find a reasonable explanation for every small change in her, waiting for the final diagnosis of her condition like a prisoner waiting for a sentence.But her mood is getting better and better, and she seems to have fully adapted to this life of tormenting on the verge of life and death.She became a guest of mine and often came to my house to eat and drink. My mother and the others treated her very warmly and thoughtfully, even a little courteously and fawningly, serving her carefully. What about people who may soon leave us forever? I asked many times to talk to her doctor in charge, but she refused me every time with various reasons. Since she got that terrible disease, obeying her, taking care of her, and blindly following her advice have almost become a thing of the past. my instinct.When I accompanied her to see a doctor, she always went in and I waited in the corridor outside. Sometimes the doctor prescribed some medicine for her, and sometimes gave her an injection.I wanted to see her medical records, but the nurse on duty wouldn't let me see them, saying that I had to get the doctor's approval to read the patient's medical records.I'm really worried about her, and I can't stand the torment of waiting for the judgment anymore. I want to know the result sooner, whether it's good news or bad news, it's better to know than to wait.So, behind Ye Shengnan's back, I made an appointment with her attending doctor through a friend.Her attending doctor is an old woman in her forties. When we arrived at her home, she might be cooking or washing dishes. She wore a greasy apron over a sweater with frayed cuffs. Never believe she is a doctor.To be precise, her appearance is most suitable for an old lady who chooses vegetables in the staff canteen, just like Ye Shengnan's mother. After sitting down, I asked her when she could perform bone marrow aspiration for Ye Shengnan.She was stunned, and asked me: "Why did you puncture her bone marrow?" Didn't I suspect that she had leukemia?Doesn't it mean that only by puncturing the bone marrow can the final diagnosis be leukemia?She took off her apron and fiddled with the woolen sweater I brought to her. At that time, our country didn't even think of producing woolen sweaters, but only knew how to produce wool, and then various female compatriots made them according to their own preferences. Yarn becomes a sweater.This woolen sweater was bought by my dad from a foreign exchange store in Beijing. It was very rare and expensive at that time. I was not willing to wear it and donated it to this doctor.After hearing what I said, she asked me seriously: "Who did you hear that you suspected that Ye Shengnan had leukemia?" I said she told me herself, and also said that the bone marrow puncture would be performed after the body's inflammation subsided.The doctor said inexplicably: "I really confuse you. Is the Ye Shengnan you're talking about a pretty girl in her twenties and twenty-five years old? Her name is Ye of the leaves, Sheng of Lusheng, Nan of Nanmu?" I said Yes, that's right, it's her.The doctor said: "If it's her, and I'm not mistaken, I can tell you clearly that no one suspects that she has leukemia. She just has a cold and her lungs are inflamed. Penicillin will be enough." I couldn't believe what the doctor said, and I couldn't believe my ears. I asked, "Are you saying that she didn't have leukemia at all, or did you suspect that she had leukemia and then ruled it out?" The doctor said affirmatively: "I have never suspected that she has leukemia. I have been practicing medicine for more than 20 years. Can't I hear the sound of her lungs with a stethoscope? Can't I tell the difference? Is a bad cold fundamentally different from leukemia? Just kidding, there's no way I'd suspect she had leukemia." When I came out of the doctor's house, I was dizzy like an old man who had drunk too much, and I felt like a passenger who survived a plane crash. I didn't know whether to be happy or sad.Obviously, Ye Shengnan lied to me and our family. She didn't have leukemia at all, and the doctor never suspected that she might have leukemia.After thinking about it, the feeling of fear for her these days, her pretentious behavior, the scene of our family showing respect and care for her, turned over and over again in my mind, this guy is simply too hateful, he is simply fooling us and torture We play us.I didn't go home, I went directly to her house to look for her, she was lying on the bed reading a novel, I asked her to come out with me, she understood my expression, and obediently followed me outside without saying a word. "Why are you lying to me? Who suspects that you have leukemia? I will accompany you to find him." "You know everything?" "Of course I know, it's not what you said at all." She was playing with the bookmark she just brought out from home, and asked me quietly but very sincerely: "Do you want me to really have leukemia?" "Of course I don't want you to get leukemia, but you don't have to lie to me and tell me such a big lie to our family." "I don't tell this lie, can your mother agree with us? I didn't do it for us. Besides, it didn't hurt anyone. Think again, if it's not forced to be helpless , who wants to curse himself?" She was already tearing up at this point. My heart softened, and the anger in my stomach dissipated, I said: "I understand that you are for us, but you tell me in advance, let me know, do you know how I got here these days? I almost didn't It scares you to death, look, my mother said I lost a lot of weight." She smiled grinningly, and the tears in her eyes squeezed her smile out: "You are really, if I told you in advance, can you pretend to be in front of your mother and father? But this is also a bit of a windfall." "What harvest?" "I know you really take me to heart and really care about me." I looked at her playful smile, I really didn't know how to deal with her, but she threw herself into my arms and stood on tiptoe. I thought she was going to kiss me, so I quickly moved my mouth to me, but she bit her It closed my ears, and I wailed in pain.She let go of my ears, and said with a vicious look: "See if you dare to investigate me behind my back again." I said, "How will this matter be settled? You can't be a leukemia suspect for the rest of your life, right?" She said, "It's easy to handle. I'll go to the vegetable market with me later." I couldn't figure it out: "Why are you going to the vegetable market?" "Buy vegetables, meat and fish, and go to your house to cook in the afternoon, and officially announce the good news to them." "What good news?" "After the doctor's diagnosis, I am not leukemia, and it has been completely ruled out." "That's it? Just tell them and it's done. Why do you buy vegetables?" "It's something to celebrate, so it's real, it looks like we're genuinely happy, understand? Stupid!" That day we spent all the meat, fish, and eggs in our family shopping book for the previous month. We didn’t go to work all afternoon, and cooked a delicious meal. The dishes were specially invited to cook braised pork and Wu Mengna. He doesn't know how to cook either, so he specially called them to be the chef.In the evening, we announced to the family the great news that Ye Shengnan was not leukemia. Coupled with a table of delicious food, the whole family was dazzled and everyone was very happy.