Chapter 2 do you hear footsteps on the roof

At midnight, only those with a guilty conscience can hear ghosts walking past the house... Getting more love than giving is not necessarily happiness, if that love is not what you want. Jiangcun went to the suburbs to pick me up, and I had to go back to stay with my mother for a few days every month. Although I didn't like her to the point of hating her, Jiangcun always comforted me by saying: No matter how bad it is, she is still a mother, not to mention that she is already old. lonely.Jiangcun is a good man, so generous and kind that he has no personality. From another perspective, this kind of man will give women a sense of security, lacks unpredictable passion and is not interesting.

Before entering the urban area, Jiangcun freed up a hand and stroked my left hand for a moment. The car drove to the side of the road and put my hand on the palm: Where is your ring? I looked at my bare ring finger and murmured: Yes, where is the ring? Did you drop off at your mother's house?Let's go back and find it. Leaving at her house is no different than being stolen or lost, forget it. No one knows my mother better than me. The only serious thing she did was to accidentally create my life when I was young. Her enthusiasm was given to men, and I was allowed to grow up like a weed in the wasteland. Lust, tobacco and alcohol Let aging come to her prematurely, and only when I open the wallet, her eyes will reveal a focused and sly light. Money and men are things she has pursued all her life but have not gotten. I can't convince myself to be intimate with her.

The good-tempered Jiangcun sighed, and took off his ring: "We'll buy another pair when we have time." In fact, I know that the ring is not lost, it is still worn on a person's hand, in the name of marriage.This is a secret and cannot be told to Jiangcun. 28 years ago, my mother gave birth to a pair of twin daughters, and one of them was adopted by someone else. Her name was Mengying, and it was me. 27 years later, I was working as a waiter in a specialty store. For a long time, I opened my red lips slightly and stared blankly at the graceful and luxurious woman in the mirror. Except for the difference in hairstyle and clothes, we were so similar, like another cloned woman. Own.

Then, Nolan stopped turning, and met my eyes in the mirror with the same expression. There is no need to verify, she is my elder sister. When I was five years old, my adoptive mother gave birth to her own son. He took away my pitiful candy and went to the adoptive mother to sue. My background and my unrestrained mother became the cursed object. When I said this, there was always a smile on the corner of my mouth. Nolan's hand holding the bus milk cup turned pale from excessive force: Mengying, can you still laugh? Since I was born, God has given me such a life. If it is destined that crying cannot change the past, I would rather smile and walk through the suffering.

We just sat and talked like that until Nolan's cell phone rang. Her voice when she answered the phone was very soft, like a glass of water that had been left in the sun for a long time. Tears slowly came to my face, and I asked: Is it my brother-in-law? She shook her head: No, it's the man I love the most but can't love. The man Nolan loved but couldn't love before marriage was Ding Cong. He took away Nolan's love but could not marry her as a married man. In desperation, Nolan took the relationship with Ding Cong two years ago The lotus root was married to Jiangcun's marriage.

Two months later, Nolan came to me with a sad face: Mengying, you have to help me. I promised, in this world, she is the only relative I can trace. The so-called help means going back to her mother's house in the name of Nolan, and she withdraws and goes to a nearby city with Ding Cong to live a life of unscrupulous secret sex for a few days. Nolan and I exchanged a few days a month, no one saw the flaws, my mother only cared about how much money Nolan would give, except for the details that needed attention on the bed, Jiangcun's hobbies and family situation, Nolan explained everything in detail , even, she hid aside and asked me to practice in front of Jiangcun, he didn't have the slightest doubt.

Until the last exchange a month ago, Nolan was like an offline kite, blown by the wind to a place I didn’t know, I called her mobile phone, and it was turned off. My text messages became more and more anxious, and Nolan just didn’t reply. Days slipped by, until Jiangcun came to pick me up and found that my beloved wife had lost her wedding ring. Being taken home by Jiangcun was unexpected, and I was at a loss because he regarded me as his wife, and I knew it wasn't. In order to avoid going to bed, I watched TV in the living room and read magazines in the study. When his hands were on his shoulders, I heard my heart struggling frantically, not out of fear of men, but I don’t know, as a wife should What excuses do you use to reject your husband's body, and how long can you last for this refusal?

My face became more and more red, my shoulders began to tremble with panic, Jiangcun asked: Nolan, are you feeling well? All of a sudden, I found a reason to escape: yes, I'm uncomfortable. He picked me up and held me in his arms: Stomach pain again? Nolan said that she always rejected Jiangcun's body with a stomachache. In terms of lust, women and men are different. Even if they don't love, men can also use money to buy happiness from strange women's bodies. It starts with rejecting the body. I nodded desperately, tears streaming down my face in panic, Jiangcun's hand reached into my clothes, and gently massaged my lower abdomen through the thin underwear.

I don't dislike this warm and generous man, and I even like it a little bit. As time goes by, without any news from Nolan, the infatuated woman will behave unreasonably. Perhaps, she is tired of socializing and not loving in the name of marriage. Therefore, she eloped with Ding Cong, inexplicably, I am willing to design this way and convince myself to believe it. When I have nothing to do, I wear Nolan's clothes and the jewelry that Jiangcun gave her, and walk around the house. I would like to play the woman named Nolan more realistically. This home is so warm and peaceful, and I have always yearned for it. My home is like this, how could Nolan get tired?

I didn't look for the missing Nolan. All women are a little selfish when faced with erotic temptations. I like Jiangcun more and more. I like his warm eyes, his wide palms on his belly, and seeing him in clothes. I ride a horse riding machine in hot pants on the balcony, sweat slides down my healthy skin, under the blue moonlight, the dazzling metal texture is shining, and the tough brachialis major muscle is like a little mouse dancing back and forth. I often lose my mind when I watch it. Desperately holding on to the balcony door frame, not letting myself pounce on it... Jumping forward, it was a day that would come sooner or later. In the struggle with lust, my reason was too tired. I made up enough excuses to reject his body. On the tenth night after I lost Nolan’s news, I curled up in Jiangcun’s In my arms... Later, I bit the muscles on his shoulders to stop his panicked crying. Once Nolan found his way back, all of this would disappear like a mirage in the mist.

Jiangcun took me to Xie Ruilin to choose and order a ring. Xie Ruilin's business style is to never produce a second piece of jewelry. He believes that only a unique ring can represent our love. At the door of the store, we met him who was tall and thin. He stared at me dumbfounded, like a lively fish that was frozen in an instant. Staring at my face motionlessly, everyone looked at us in amazement, Jiangcun asked me: Nolan, do you know this gentleman? I shook my head and asked back: Do you know him? Jiangcun said no in a low voice, and pulled me to look at the ring, and there was a set of eyes on my back all the time. Coming out of Xie Ruilin, Jiang Cun opened the car door, gave me a hand on my waist, and looked up at the sky: It's really hot today. I smiled and said: I don't feel it. Jiangcun stroked my back: I'm soaked through, but I'm still stubborn, I'll turn on the air conditioner in the car later. Only then did I feel a trickle of sweat dripping from my back, and the cool silk cheongsam stuck to my skin. I was flustered, and I tried my best to keep calm.Sending me home, Jiangcun put a kiss on my lips: I'm back for dinner.The ambiguous warmth of a man before courting his wife flashed in his eyes. I walked around the house, kept turning the new ring on this finger, thinking desperately, thinking about that tall and thin man, why would he sweat when he saw me?The new ring turned the ring finger into a red bruise, and a shallow pain spread between the fingers. Then, I sat on the floor, buried my face in my knees and cried, seeing that I was afraid because he should be called Ding Cong, Nolan The most beloved man, how could he appear here by himself... Where did he leave Nolan? I called up Nolan's phone list from the telecommunications bureau, and I chose a number that was dialed frequently, and called with a prepaid card: I'm looking for Ding Cong. I am, you are... There is a hint of speculation in the voice that cannot be concealed. Tears ran out, and the severe pain made me unable to straighten my back: Honey, I have loved you for eight years, how can you not hear my voice? I heard a scream and the phone was hung up. My selfishness was just a fluke, taking advantage of Nolan's mistake to steal a little happiness from her marriage, and Ding Cong still staying in the office can only show one thing, he did not elope with Nolan, there is another possibility He sent the infatuated Nolan on his way to heaven. I sat on the floor and thought about Nolan's voice and smile. When I mentioned Ding Cong, she smiled so vividly, saying that he treated her so delicately and tenderly, he was like a treasure in the palm of my hand. How would she know, now Hearing her voice, this man wished he had two more legs to escape? I'm not Jiangcun's favorite woman, even though I love him so much that my heart breaks at the thought of leaving, but I can't spend my whole life keeping the secret of a lost life in my heart, that way, I will be unhappy, Even if I can keep this secret, I will still clearly know that in this love, I am just an alternate carrier named Nolan, and I want to leave without a trace as a vengeful ghost, I can't bear it In the name of others, stay with the man you love for the rest of your life. At night, with the moonlight on the bed, I said: Jiangcun, do you feel that I am different from before? He turned over and put his legs on my waist: Yes, your temper is getting better and better. Before, you would get angry for no reason. Our eyes looked at each other in the haze: If I told you that I am not Nolan, would you still love me? He stared at me and pinched my nose: Don't tell me you're a vixen, because you fell in love with me and ate Nolan to become her. I smiled: What if I tell you that I am a ghost? You are going to lie to the devil.He laughed and came to catch me, I jumped out of the way, in the house covered with blue moonlight, I jumped around, my wide nightgown danced like petals, my chestnut hair floated on my ivory shoulders Swing away, there is a strange breath in the air. Jiangcun looked at me, opened his mouth slowly, and stretched out his hand to me: Nolan, you are so beautiful. I curled up softly into his arms, hugged his head, and buried my face in his hair: My dear, I am really a ghost. I died in the suburbs a month ago. I didn’t want to die. I came back to make up for the past two years. Injustice to you, let you help me avenge... After finishing speaking, I texted on my mobile phone: Nolan, don't scare others.Jiangcun held down my hand and refused to let me send it. You will understand later, if a man calls you, just say that Nolan has come back, that she is so cold outside, and ask him to take you to bring her back.I hit send. Jiangcun stared at me blankly: Nolan, what's wrong with you? Eight years ago, I fell in love with a married man. He said he loved me very much, but he couldn't marry me. So two years ago, I married you who didn't love me. I went to my mother's house as an excuse, just to be with him I went to a place where no one knew us and lived a few days of unscrupulous and comfortable life. I couldn't help myself until I died at his hands last month. I was floating in the sky and crying for my true love for eight years. I want to come back I beg your forgiveness, tell you I'm sorry. Jiangcun hugged me tightly: Nolan, don't make up stories to lie to me, your body is hot, and you have shadows when you walk in the sun. I didn’t lie to you, the newly dead ghost has body temperature and shadow, and all of this will disappear after 49 days. Do you still remember that when we went to Xie Ruilin to buy a ring, we met a man who looked at me with cold sweat?Because, he clearly knew that I was dead. Jiang Cun stared at me dumbfounded, unable to believe it was true. He shook me desperately, as if he wanted to wake up from a dream with me. My body was like a soft new willow in early spring, folding and undulating under his shaking. In the show, the ghost's body is soft and boneless. He doesn't know that I have practiced yoga, so I want to act like a real person. Jiangcun gradually burst into tears, resting his head on my chest, motionless, the phone rang, but I refused to answer it, and after it stopped, I continued to press the send button to send a text message with the same content. In the early morning, the phone rang, and I put the receiver on Jiangcun's ear. Once a person has done something wrong, the devil will live in his heart. Whenever the night is quiet, he will come out and knock on the door of conscience until his mind collapses. All the ghosts in the world are born from the heart. I was sitting in the co-pilot's seat, and I would lose my words if I said too much. I didn't speak. The man named Ding Cong was in a trance and kept babbling: Nolan, I didn't kill you, you committed suicide. I turned around and smiled. Yes, we made an appointment to commit suicide together. Until you took the knife and asked me to help you find the exact location of the heart, I thought you were joking with me. You stabbed the knife in so quickly, and I didn’t even have time to grab it... … I looked up and watched the scenery in the night charm outside the car window flying towards the back. Nolan's tragic life retreated one after another. Sister, why are you so stupid, a person who even quietly hides your death for him How could a man who got up be worthy of your life? Jiangcun hugged Nolan who was buried in the grass, her hands were folded on the handle of the knife, with a smile reaching the other side of happiness, Jiangcun looked up to the sky and shouted: Nolan, am I so unworthy of your nostalgia? In fact, Jiangcun is happier than Nolan. At least, he once lived with the person he loves. This is something Nolan can't get no matter how hard he tries. Nolan is happier than Ding Cong, because she can sleep peacefully in heaven inside. They hugged Nolan and walked towards the car. I disappeared in the grass and disappeared from your lives in the form of a ghost...