Chapter 13 Chapter Thirteen Whose Tears Are Flying

Wen Yan was lying on the hospital bed reading a newspaper. After waking up after a short and long sleep, the doctor gave Wen Yan double dose of medicine last night. It was a rare night without being troubled by nightmares.Wen Yan's injury recovered, and her hair was pulled back, neat, noble and refreshing.Her face is much thinner, but the kindness and gentleness on her face are still the same as before.In the past, friends said that Wen Yan was a lady, and Wen Yan felt very ashamed. He asked Hai Guang if he was a lady?Hai Guang didn't answer, it seemed that he didn't think it was accurate, he just said that she was very feminine.Wen Yan felt that what was said in a book was correct, only a thousand-year culture and a century-old family can cultivate a real lady.A lady represents universal self-respect and nobility.She is not a nostalgic woman, her heart is always drawn and tempted by the hazy beauty in front of her.But the earthquake changed her personality. The safety of her relatives in Tangshan was always on her mind, and she didn't even think about what tomorrow would be like.

Newspapers reported the situation after the Tangshan earthquake in headlines.Tangshan is resuming production and life, but why do the letters he sent to his sister and Hai Guang always come to nothing?Did they really die like He Liang?They are dead, what is there to do when they go back by themselves?She looked at the newspaper, lowered her head in disappointment, and sighed softly.This sigh stirred the most delicate nerve in her heart again, causing her heart to beat violently again, followed by convulsions and soreness in her body.The sad look on Wen Yan's face completely dispelled her beauty.

At noon, Wenyan had some horrible hallucinations. She crawled on the "Triangle Land" burial ground again, and the corpses almost drowned her.It was a nightmare she would never get rid of.An endless nightmare, circling around her, no matter how far she traveled, she still had to meet those ghosts at some helpless moment.The little nurse came in, holding a lunch box in her hand, and handed it to Wen Yan affectionately, asking her to eat.Wen Yan was startled by the little nurse's voice, she had no appetite at all.She nodded politely to the little nurse, slowly opened the lunch box, and took out the chopsticks inside. It was a box of hot dumplings.The eating habits of Harbin and Tangshan are very similar, and Wenyan is used to eating heavily, so almost all the food here suits her taste.No matter how good the food is, it can't replace her missing her loved ones!The little nurse smiled and said, "Sister Wenyan, I made these dumplings specially for you!" Wenyan said with tears in her eyes, "Thank you, thank you! There are so many, how can I eat them all by myself?"

The little nurse looked at her suspiciously: "Why?" Wen Yan slowly changed her sad face, and a smile gradually appeared on the corner of her mouth: "Each of you only provides three taels of oil and half a catty of meat every month, how can I eat it?" Besides, the food in the hospital is also very good.” The little nurse hurriedly explained: “These few days you eat so little, even the master in the kitchen is in a hurry. I know, you haven’t received a letter from your brother-in-law, and you can’t let it go , I don’t know how to share your worries, I went home and told my mother, my mother made this for you, and she said, this is our whole family’s wishes. Please don’t worry about getting angry.” Wen Yan choked : "Good sister, I will eat, I will eat."

Seeing Wenyan open her mouth to eat the dumplings, the little nurse became happy: "Maybe the railway has just opened, and it is busy, so the letter goes slowly." Wenyan raised her head and glanced at the kind-hearted little girl from Northeast China.The little nurse added: "Maybe Tangshan doesn't even have the house number. The letters are delivered slowly." Wen Yan stopped looking at the little nurse and ate the dumplings with her head down.Suddenly she remembered something, and hurriedly said: "My good sister, come, let's eat together." The little nurse said I would not eat.Wen Yan said willfully: "If you don't eat it, I won't eat it either." The little nurse was taken aback by Wen Yan's words, picked up the chopsticks and grabbed the dumpling, ate one vigorously, and muttered while eating: "It's so delicious, Mom is eccentric enough, I put more meat for you." Wen Yan was moved: "How wonderful to have a mother." The little nurse heard from Wen Yan that she had no mother since she was very young, and her father died before the earthquake. Yes, I heard him say that he has a lover and a good sister.The little nurse said: "How about writing another letter and I'll send it to you. Please make me happy?" Wen Yan looked up at her, with new hope in her eyes.

The little nurse found paper and pen again. Wen Yan stopped eating, took the paper and pen, and felt sad again.Looking at the little nurse in front of her, she looked very much like her younger sister Wenxiu, even with the drive to speak.Wen Yan found sustenance in the little nurse, and the little nurse walked out happily, and Wen Yan felt the room suddenly darken.She suddenly had an ominous premonition that her sister was gone, and so was Hai Guang.When this year came out, a phantom flashed in her mind, causing her body to jump like an electric shock. At the same time, there was a mixed voice of men and women echoing in her ears:

"Sister, sister, Wen Yan, Wen Yan, we are in another world, we can't find you!" "No, I can't lose you!" Wen Yan shouted tremblingly, closing her eyes tightly. That mixed sound disappeared. Wen Yan tore up a letter, then grabbed the quilt and cried loudly.Her crying alarmed the doctor and the kind little nurse. The doctor and nurse came in. The little nurse hugged Wenyan's trembling body tightly, feeling her body sinking.The little nurse said: "Sister, don't be like this, don't be like this! Why did you tear up the letter you wrote?" Wen Yan couldn't stabilize her emotions for a long time.

After two hours, Wen Yan's mood gradually stabilized.She wiped away her tears and took up the pen again to write letters for Hai Guang and her sister.She wrote two letters this time, with separate addresses. One was sent to the street, and the other was sent to Hai Guang's newspaper office.In the letter she sent to Hai Guang last time, her wording was still very severe. She felt that he was still alive, and she blamed him for not helping his sister Wenxiu in time.But a man has his own reasons, he still has ambitions.He threw himself into the ranks of coal mine rescuers, and Wen Yan also followed. She did not regret, did not blame, and added her admiration for Hai Guang. When they were fighting with death in the alley, the hero of the man radiated from Hai Guang. The anger made her love him more, and love rose suddenly in the darkness.In this letter, Wen Yan's words to Hai Guang are soft and affectionate, because she has not heard back for a long time, she has a bad feeling, and she can no longer blame a noble soul who has no peace.

The little nurse said, "Sister, let me mail it away for you." Wen Yan looked at the little nurse and shook her head: "No, I'm going to post it myself this time." "Sister, you don't believe me?" Wen Yan smiled: "Where, I also want to go outside, good sister, I'm too bored." The little nurse smiled: "Alright, take a walk outside, maybe you will feel better." Wen Yan took the letter and walked out of the hospital carelessly.Walking on the bustling street, Wen Yan saw the exact same bus as in Tangshan, saw the surging traffic of bicycles, and saw the bustling crowd, and felt much more at ease.The sun was spreading out to her heart's content, she rubbed her temples that were heated by the sun, her mind was blank.After walking a long distance, her legs were tired, which gradually made her feel small and helpless, and even more lonely and helpless.

Wen Yan asked someone, and it was five stations away from the post office. A bus came slowly, and Wen Yan struggled to get on the bus.When getting on the bus, the conductor gave her a hand. The moment she got on the bus, Wenyan felt a pain all over her body, feeling that her muscles and bones hadn't healed yet.The car was very crowded, and Wen Yan stood leaning on the railing. Her new military uniform without collar insignia was very eye-catching.An old man found out that she was a wounded person in Tangshan, so he stood up and asked, "Comrade, are you a wounded person from the Tangshan earthquake?" She saw the people in the car smiling at her in a friendly way. I really need the temperature brought by this flame.

The conductor squeezed over and shouted with a microphone: "Passengers, there is a sister who was injured in the Tangshan earthquake on our bus. Please give up your seat for her." In fact, before the conductor shouted, the old man who found Wen Yan had already given up his seat to her.Wen Yan didn't sit down.At this time, all the passengers who were sitting stood up and turned their friendly eyes to Wenyan.Wen Yan was a little nervous, she didn't want to disturb these good people, but her identity had already been exposed.An old lady stood up, took Wen Yan's hand and said, "There is no need to argue with anyone, girl, you just sit here."Wen Yan looked at the aunt: "Thank you, how can this work? How can I sit in your seat at your age?" The aunt stood up and said, "Girl, don't say anything, sit. If you don't sit, the aunt will Stand with you." Wen Yan hesitated, and hurriedly said: "Ma'am, why don't you sit down!" The aunt pushed Wen Yan on the seat.Wen Yan took the old lady's hand, and a warm current surged in her heart: "Thank you, lady." Her voice was slightly guttural, gentle and pleasant, harmonious and beautiful.The aunt and everyone rushed up to ask her about the immediate danger of the Tangshan earthquake. She was afraid of recalling that horrible scene, but she had to say that when talking about the past, Wen Yan's voice was not so pleasant, even a little hoarse. .Northeast people are very similar to Tangshan people, they value righteousness and spirit.A passenger next to him stood up and asked the old lady to sit in his seat.When getting out of the car, several people helped Wen Yan get out of the car.Walking to the business hall of the post office, Wen Yan didn't put the two letters into the mailbox. She wanted to come in person, that is, to register and post the two letters. These were not just two letters, but what she was looking forward to. Heart. What is life, life is mood.Is it time for Wenyan's mood to have a happy ending?When she returned to the hospital, she didn't enter the ward, she sat on the steps of the hospital's flower bed to rest.At the foot is a long, narrow and clear river. The clear water flows continuously, like a soft silk.The evening afterglow and cooking smoke permeated the air, like a woman's sigh at the window, lingering in the dusk for a long time.At this moment, Hai Guang's figure floated before his eyes again. Wenyan remembered her first love with Haiguang.Wenyan asked herself more than once: Do you love him?Love him for what?What is love?To make people sleepless and restless, life and death promise? Wenxiu's cold recovered, and on the third day after she was discharged from the hospital, she made a surprising decision: She is going to marry Tang Sheng's urn! Wenxiu's decision was made when she was hospitalized.In her dream, she saw Tang Sheng in military uniform. Tang Sheng was very handsome and mighty. They held hands affectionately and walked towards the seaside of Beidaihe, restarting their traveling wedding.In Wenxiu's mind, love is something new that she has never experienced before. It is so new that she is almost at a loss.Only Wenxiu knew the happiness brought by this novelty.Wenxiu leaned against Tang Sheng's generous chest, watching the waves of the sea, and they walked towards the smooth water, the two of them laughed heartily, bent over to pick up shells on the beach, and small crabs that got into the sand.When Tang Sheng disappeared from her side, she didn't know it at all, she just felt a gust of sea breeze blowing, and Tang Sheng disappeared.No matter how much Ren Wenxiu shouted and searched, she could no longer hold hands with him.She woke up suddenly in panic and loss.After waking up, seeing a ray of sunlight coming in after the earthquake, an idea came to Wenxiu's mind: She wanted to be with Tang Sheng's ashes for the rest of her life. What will Hai Guang, Aunt He and Hei Zi think when they find out?Will it stop her?Wenxiu wants to find a chance to have a showdown with Haiguang, and I believe he can understand, because after all, Haiguang and his sister have truly loved each other.He who has loved knows best what love is.All the wise men in the world can't explain what love is to a man who has never felt it, and it doesn't need a single word to explain it to a man who has really felt it.For a man or a woman, as long as there is an unforgettable love in a lifetime, it becomes the whole meaning of life.Wenxiu has Tang Sheng, isn't that enough?But she gradually realized that after the earthquake, marriages began to follow the custom.People get married quickly, as if to deliberately numb themselves and avoid the most precious things in their hearts. Wenxiu doesn't seem to be able to escape from vulgarity either.That night, the children were all asleep, and Aunt He had revealed the meaning of this to Wenxiu. Aunt He asked her if she liked Hai Guang?Wenxiu said that she had blamed him and thanked him, but she couldn't drag him down. This was her confession to her dead sister.Aunt He was in a hurry. The old man could not explain Wenxiu's answer with a secular theory. Aunt He sighed and said, "Is it easy for us who are alive? Support each other, take care of each other and run forward. What else? Dead people If you are dead, no one who is alive can follow you! I think you and Hai Guang are a good match!" Wenxiu refused to let Aunt He go any further, she had never considered this issue.She guessed that Hai Guang hadn't thought about this issue either. Hai Guang took care of her because of her older sister's sympathy and concern.Aunt He sighed helplessly and dared not mention it any more.But the old man feels that now is not the time, it will take time.Aunt He's idea pushed Wenxiu's progress. After she came back from the hospital, she wanted to find Hai Guang. She felt that he was in pain of losing his sister. He would understand her to a certain extent. Support is impossible, and understanding is enough. . That morning, Haiguang came.Wenxiu soaked her feet in the medicine basin and told him her true thoughts.Hai Guang stared at her in surprise for a long time. "I've thought it over, really thought it over!" Wenxiu explained her thoughts to Hai Guang repeatedly. "You are simply crazy, crazy!" Hai Guang's most worried thing still happened.People who engage in art are often very paranoid and self-willed, and Wenxiu's bones are even stronger.Men dare to do things, women dare to do things. Wenxiu saw that Hai Guang was really angry, so she stopped talking. Hai Guang didn't know how to persuade her.Once this kind of thing comes out of her mouth, it is difficult to persuade her. Ever since Wen Yan left him, such things have flashed in his mind.What a wonderful feat it would be to never marry again and accompany her with sincerity?But after being busy for a while, the sea light faded, after all, he was a man.Hai Guang stared blankly at Wenxiu's face and said, "Wenxiu, after your sister left, I will be one of your relatives, right?" Wenxiu looked at Hai Guang affectionately and nodded. "Since you admit it, listen to me!" Hai Guang's eyes were full of love, "The relationship between you and Tang Sheng can move the world. I admire Tang Sheng! I also envy you! But this There is absolutely no way out, we not only live for the dead, but also live for tomorrow!" Wenxiu said, "I've thought about everything for tomorrow." "No, you are too impulsive, I have to remind you! No, I want to stop you!" Hai Guang's attitude was very firm, "I agree with how much you miss Tang Sheng in your heart, but you can't have any wedding!" "What happened to the wedding? We were legally married." Wenxiu said. Hai Guang said solemnly: "How many legal couples in the earthquake had a tragedy like ours? Countless, they all have to be like this, and life will be completely messed up!" "I don't do it for others to see, I only live for myself!" "Your self? Can you say that you are the simple self?" Hai Guang's gaze was particularly severe, "You have little sisters, children, aunt He, and me by your side. Can we just watch you jump into the pit? ?” Wenxiu said coldly: "Don't worry about it, my sister is dead, who are you to me?" "I'm your brother-in-law! I'm your friend, isn't that enough?" Hai Guang shouted loudly, "How can I be worthy of your sister when I see you going on like this willful?" Wenxiu choked sadly, staring at her own toes without saying a word.Didn't she expect Hai Guang to be so excited?She knew he was doing it for her own good, but his conventional thinking couldn't convince her.After a while, Wenxiu said quietly, "Brother-in-law, don't you be upset if I ask you something?" Hai Guang said, "Say it!" Wenxiu said: "If my sister died for you, would you do it?" "I won't, I don't think that's what your sister would like to see." Hai Guang frowned tightly, "What about you, have you thought about it? You really abide by Tang Sheng's life like this, and Tang Sheng is also under the nine springs." I won't agree!" "That's his business, I'm only responsible for myself!" Wenxiu said stubbornly. "Stop it!" Hai Guang said. "Get out, get out! I don't want to see you again!" Wenxiu shouted hoarsely. Hai Guang stared at her blankly, and left angrily. Wenxiu's reaction was to freeze, feeling very sad.It took a while before she took her gaze away from Hai Guang's back.She took out her feet that were still soaking in the basin, only then did she feel that the water in the basin was already freezing cold.She subconsciously inserted her deformed feet from the water into the plastic sandals. When she just bent down, she felt pain all over her body. When she saw Tang Sheng's clothes, she burst into tears. Hai Guang knew that Wenxiu would be very sad.Hai Guang had never been so angry with Wen Xiu before.He has a principle that it is best to treat women with kindness; even when he just came, he also responded with kindness, and Wen Yan back then admired him very much.Why can't she hold back the fire today?And facing a girl like Wenxiu who is full of pain in her heart?After returning to the newspaper office, Hai Guang began to blame himself.He expected that Wenxiu would listen to his opinions well, but he didn't expect her to be so determined.He shook his head lightly, stopped his steps and turned back. Wenxiu was still wiping tears. Hai Guang walked in, looked at Wenxiu's twitching back, and couldn't help but sit beside her.He hugged Wenxiu into his arms, and Wenxiu burst into tears in Haiguang's arms. At this time, Aunt He came in yelling.Wenxiu stopped crying immediately, and looked at Hai Guang and Aunt He in amazement.Aunt He carried a basket of eggs, saying that they were sent by Er Meng.Wenxiu's mind was not on eggs, so she didn't respond to Heizi's kind deed.Wenxiu's mood at this moment is very complicated.Hai Guang's sympathy for Wenxiu was the strongest, so he ignored Aunt He's nagging.Aunt He sat down beside her, Wenxiu became more rational, and withdrew her hand from Hai Guang. Aunt He smiled and said: "I see that you two are like a natural couple. If Auntie said something unpleasant today, I think it's okay for you two to become a family! To avoid that Er Meng's troubled mind! " Wenxiu remained sullen and did not respond. "Auntie, don't worry about it!" Hai Guang stood up, took Aunt He's hand and walked out, whispering Wenxiu's idea of ​​marrying Tang Sheng's urn. Aunt He exploded when she heard it, and rushed into the room to chat with Wenxiu. Hai Guang felt that he had said all he had to say, he was stunned outside the room for a while, and then left resentfully. Like scolding her daughter, Aunt He criticized Wenxiu for not taking it for granted.Wenxiu sat motionless, focusing all her attention on listening. She knew that Aunt He couldn't understand such things, and it was useless to explain them. She hated Haiguang for throwing Aunt He to her alone and then ran away.Aunt He said she was tired, so she sat next to Wenxiu and continued. When Wenxiu heard the children talking and laughing after school, she suddenly stood up, took the footwashing water to the door and poured it out.Aunt He followed outside the house, pointing and asking Xiu.Wenxiu couldn't bear this situation, and when she saw the children coming, she patiently said to Aunt He: "Auntie, don't mention these things when the children are back! It's not good to let them know!" "If you still know it's not good, don't do it!" Aunt He continued to shout. "With Tang Sheng, I really won't marry again!" Wenxiu's eyes showed determination, "I will bring up my little sister and children, and this is my repayment to Tang Sheng!" Aunt He sighed: "You are hurting Hai Guang's heart too much." Wenxiu said doubtfully, "Where is this? Hai Guang is my brother-in-law, he should have his own life." "I was stunned by the earthquake, didn't you see it? Haiguang has something on your mind!" Aunt He pouted, her thick lips trembling slightly, "Haiguang was in a hurry just now, are you alive?" It pissed me off!" "Auntie, you misunderstood, Haiguang took care of me for my sister's sake!" Wenxiu felt extremely wronged in her heart, and she probably couldn't explain it to Aunt He, even she was very confused. Aunt He said firmly, "You are not allowed to act foolishly?" Aunt He watched Wenxiu grow up, and no one can stop her from doing what she wants to do. This is Wenxiu's temper. The children did not enter the house, they were playing outside, Wenxiu turned her head to look at the cheerful children through the window, and felt some comfort in her heart.The children forget the disaster very quickly, but she is not good at Wenxiu. If Tang Sheng is forgotten soon, she may be able to be relieved, but she cannot.She felt that she could not get out of Tang Sheng's world in this life. In the evening, the light under the sea came again, the children were doing their homework, and the little girl was sitting blankly, knocking on the washbasin alone, making all kinds of small sounds.Hai Guang didn't see Wenxiu, and asked the children even if they didn't know.Haiguang went to look for Aunt He, but Aunt He didn't know, so Haiguang panicked, thinking that Wenxiu was on the move, she might have boarded the train bound for Beidaihe.According to the information provided by the younger sister, Aunt Wenxiu left home at five o'clock in the afternoon, and told the younger sister to find Aunt He for something.Hai Guang analyzed that before the earthquake, Hai Tangsheng and Wenxiu bought the train tickets to Beidaihe at this hour.Aunt He hurriedly said, you go to Beidaihe to look for her. She is not in good health, and when she saw Dahai, she fell ill and fell ill. She will take care of the children in the family. Hai Guang sighed, returned to the newspaper office, took a simple military bag, and set off quietly. For Wenxiu, this was a strange night, so strange that it couldn't be more strange, so strange that it was unbelievable.She was quietly waiting by the sea with Tang Sheng's urn in her arms.It was the reef next to the pigeon nest, and few people traveled.Wenxiu didn't register at the hotel, so she just wanted to sit quietly like this for a whole night, or even a few days or nights.With Tang Sheng by her side, she is not alone.Cremation had just been implemented back then, and the urn was still very simple, in fact it was a wooden box.A black-and-white photo of Tang Sheng was pasted on one side of the urn, which was a wedding photo of Tang Sheng and her, and she cut out a photo of Tang Sheng.This is probably the only photo of Tang Sheng left in the world.In the photo, Tang Sheng is smiling slightly, with bright slender eyes, and a neat cropped hair, standing upright like a steel needle, looking extraordinarily energetic.Tang Sheng's body was buried in the "Triangle Field", but there were no ashes, and only Tang Sheng's military jacket, a pen and half of the train ticket were contained inside.Wenxiu looked at Tang Sheng's photo and shed tears silently: "Tang Sheng, we have finally come to Beidaihe, our trip and wedding is now! Are you unhappy or not?" As she spoke, tears fell drop by drop on the urn superior.The tears in her eye sockets were dried by the sea breeze without wiping. It was getting dark and the sea breeze was blowing coolly.Wenxiu's body gradually became cold, and she was placed under a cold spell.She hugged the urn tightly again, as if afraid that Tang Sheng would slip away from her arms.She murmured softly: "Tang Sheng, are you cold, are you cold?" The tourists watching the night scene by the sea walked past her, but no one paid attention to her expression, nor could they hear what she said clearly, let alone One would believe it was a special wedding.Wenxiu looked up at the sky, there were countless little stars whispering in the sky, she asked the stars, what is love?Xing Xing said, longing is love, tears are love, a waiting heart is love, and he who will never come again is love.An illusion appeared in her mind. She and Tang Sheng walked arm in arm and walked to the wedding hall side by side. Everything was so happy and sweet.During a woman's ignorance, everything about him belongs to holiness. is this real?Soon, the beautiful illusion disappeared in an instant. Wenxiu hated the injustice of fate and the ruthlessness of disasters.It's foggy, adding a bit of mystery, elegance and lightness to the sea.However, Wenxiu felt that her limbs were heavy and cold, forming a ball of cold.Sitting like this all night, will it freeze to death?She lightly thought that maybe it would be good to freeze to death, then Tang Sheng and his sister would be found in the underworld.She felt a little gratified. People can't stay together in life, but they can live together in the same cave after death. The living have knowledge, but what can the dead ask for?Wenxiu suddenly wanted to call Tang Sheng. She heard people say that when a person misses someone, she calls out, and as long as she is sincere, she can call back.Wenxiu shouted: "Tang Sheng! Tang Sheng! Tang Sheng!" Her throat became hoarse, and every time she shouted, her throat hurt for a while. At the end, Tang Sheng's name could no longer be heard, only hiss was left. With a hissing sound, she felt that her throat was split, and a little blood gushed out.Wenxiu couldn't cry anymore, her mind was also frozen, her body gradually fell down, and then she lost consciousness. Haiguang searched the entire Beidaihe beach, and when he found Wenxiu, it was nearly dawn.Hai Guang picked up the unconscious Wenxiu, feeling that there was no heat left in her body, and the urn in her hand was integrated with her body.Hai Guang shook her shoulders and shouted, asking if Xiu had any reaction, he choked up: "Wenxiu, why are you like this?" Then burst into tears. Hai Guang touched Wenxiu's nostrils with his fingers, and when he was still breathing, he pulled her into his arms, hugged her tightly, and warmed her with his warm chest.After two hours, Wenxiu finally let out a cat-like sound in Haiguang's arms, and slowly opened her eyes. In fact, Hai Guang is not a noble person, nor is his reaction slow.Just because Wenxiu only has Tang Sheng in her heart, it is inevitable that she will be indifferent to Haiguang's love and care.In fact, Haiguang has no intention of marrying Wenxiu as his wife.At that time, Hai Guang was tall and thin, with delicate features and deep contours, he was almost handsome in terms of appearance.Before the earthquake, Wenxiu knew that in the newspaper where Haiguang worked, several female reporters were interested in Haiguang, but none of them were as good as Wenyan.Hai Guang's biggest advantage is that he has pursuit. He wants to be a famous reporter, and he has great patience with women.During Hai Guang's pursuit of Wen Yan, Wen Yan clearly felt this.After Wenyan left Haiguang's life, in addition to the pain and longing like Wenxiu, he also had an additional layer of responsibility than Wenxiu, that is, caring for Wenxiu, because Wenxiu looks so much like Wenyan, so his feelings for Wenxiu have There is a hint of germination, which may become a continuation of his love for Wenyan.After Aunt He brought this matter to light, Haiguang was still a little bit skeptical, but after Wenxiu was retrieved from Beidaihe, Aunt He brought this matter up to Haiguang again.Aunt He said that she couldn't wait any longer, and Wenxiu's spirit would collapse if she dragged on.Hai Guang settled down to think for a while, and went to the "Triangle Land" cemetery alone to talk to Wen Yan, and stood silently until noon before returning. Suddenly, he felt that he couldn't wait any longer. Wenxiu was destroyed.He is looking for an opportunity to express his heart to Wenxiu. "Wenxiu, marry me!" Hai Guang said earnestly. Wenxiu was not surprised, because Aunt He had mentioned it to her countless times these days, but when Hai Guang said this sentence, her heart really convulsed, and she didn't know how to answer for a while. Hai Guang looked at Wenxiu, the language of marriage proposal was always sweet, warm and intoxicating.But Wenxiu listened to these words in a kind of contradictory pain, asking herself repeatedly in her heart: Is he sincere?is he dangerousIs this inappropriate? "Wenxiu, please believe my sincerity! I loved your sister so much, so I will treat you well! You look a lot like your sister!" Hai Guang said slowly. Wenxiu didn't answer right away, it wasn't that she didn't like this man, and she didn't bear any grudges.It was her feelings that could not go back from Tang Sheng, which made her distressed and uneasy, and filled her with contradictions and doubts.After a while, Wenxiu finally spoke: "Brother-in-law, you said that I look like my sister, but I must not be my sister! Besides, I just got married with Tang Sheng, and I belong to him, so I can't promise you!" Hai Guang was stunned for a moment, and said eagerly: "Wenxiu, we can't live in the past forever. The disaster caused us to lose our lover, we are sad, we miss, but we still have to help you out of the shadow of the disaster! I will make you happy of!" "Do you love me?" Wenxiu asked. This sentence stopped Hai Guang from asking.Hai Guang was stunned for a moment, and said falteringly: "We will have love, it will take time! Also, I think your sister and Tang Sheng will be happy when they find out in Jiuquan!" Wen Xiu's eyelashes flickered, and she looked at him passively: "No, I don't care about them, I can't face myself!" "Why can't we face it?" Hai Guang blushed anxiously, "We living people have to live well, this reason is less important than anything else?" Wenxiu waved her hand in pain: "Brother-in-law, thank you for your kindness, but I still can't figure it out, you can go, please don't mention this matter again in the future!" "I just want to say it! If you don't agree, I will say it!" "Then I won't see you again!" Wenxiu shouted loudly, her body trembling. Hai Guang looked at Wenxiu in astonishment.After a while, he turned and left disappointed. Looking at Hai Guang's back, Wenxiu felt very complicated, confused, sad, sad and bewildered.Aunt He walked in, and the old man had been carefully observing the conversation in the room outside.She heard it all, she didn't understand why Wenxiu was so ruthless?The old man scolded Wenxiu in a disheveled manner, but Wenxiu didn't look at Aunt He, let alone hear Aunt He chattering beside her, feeling dizzy and sweating coldly on her forehead.Tang Sheng's bleeding arm and the waves of the Beidai River all came into view.The sadness, fatigue and tension of the trip to Beidaihe made her whole body go limp.When Aunt He attacked her again, Wenxiu clasped her head in both hands, and shouted in a pleading voice, "Can you let me be quiet?" Aunt He froze, staring at her blankly, frowning tightly Tight. Only then did Wenxiu realize that her yell was loud and excited.Aunt He softened, and sat down beside her lovingly, slowly supported the weak Wenxiu to lie down, pulled a blanket, covered Wenxiu, choked and said: "Son, Auntie won't talk about you anymore, you are tired, Get a good night's sleep! I'll take care of the children when they come back!" After speaking, he walked out of the simple shed with his feet bumped. After Aunt He left, Wenxiu really fell asleep.It's just that she didn't sleep well, and she kept having nightmares. She suddenly dreamed of her sister, Tang Sheng, who was covered in blood, and her face was pale.Tang Sheng went to the hospital with his sister Wen Yan on his back. Seeing the doctor, Tang Sheng knelt on the ground and begged, "Doctor, please save her!" The doctor didn't even look at Tang Sheng, let alone treat his sister's injuries. .Later, I saw Tang Sheng tear off a strip of his military uniform and bandage Wen Yan's wound, and then things got even worse, Tang Sheng and Wen Yan lived together.Wenxiu convulsed suddenly, how did the two of them get together?Are they talking together, or are they living together?When she woke up, Wen Xiu realized that it was all a dream.Why do you have such a dream?Maybe it has something to do with Hai Guang's proposal? It was dark, and I didn't even know what time it was.Wenxiu turned over with difficulty, and found that the children hadn't come back. Wenxiu was thinking about the children, and she suddenly thought about Haiguang.It was an emotion she had never felt before.Wenxiu drank a sip of water by herself, then fell asleep again in a daze.The nightmare is still endless, Hai Guang came, and Hai Guang came to propose to her again, and he looked very infatuated when he proposed.Hai Guang didn't leave, but Tang Sheng came to her again, bent down to carry her, but Wen Xiu refused to let him carry her, so Tang Sheng walked away anxiously, making Wen Xiu more and more dazzled.Wenxiu shouted eagerly: "Tang Sheng, don't go!" She stood up straight, her mind was still full of disturbing images, spinning like a wheel.Her head hurt, as if it was going to explode, her nerves and flesh and blood were about to collapse together.She yelled, "My God!" and threw herself on the bed.Her hand knocked over the basket on the bed, and a pair of cold scissors slipped over. She stretched out her hand to grab the scissors, and suddenly a thought of dying flashed across her mind. When she grabbed the scissors, her thoughts gradually She opened her red eyes slightly, and only felt that the distant place was beautiful. She murmured: "I'm going to find Tang Sheng, brother-in-law, aunt, little sister, you should live well, don't blame me Me!" She seemed to say a lot, but her consciousness was completely blurred.People can kill, sometimes good people can kill, good people can't kill others but they can kill themselves, Wenxiu is in such a chaotic state right now.She gripped the scissors hard and poked at the artery in her arm. Blood flowed all over the bed.Wenxiu felt extremely comfortable and floated away gently. Wenxiu seemed to be asleep, sleeping peacefully, sleeping so sweetly and comfortably, and in this sleeping state, there was a last smile on her pretty face. When Wenxiu woke up, she was lying on a hospital bed, and saw Hai Guang also lying on a bed beside her giving her a blood transfusion.Not long after Wenxiu cut her wrist, thanks to the younger sister who ran over to find clothes, when Aunt He and younger sister saw Wenxiu's tragic scene, they hurriedly found someone to take her to the hospital.Wenxiu came to the rescue. Wenxiu lost too much blood and needed a blood transfusion. When Hai Guang arrived, he verified that his blood type was the same as Wenxiu's, and he lay down on the hospital bed to give Wenxiu a blood transfusion.输血的时候，海光看着文秀的脸庞，心里既是愧疚又是怨恨。他后悔了，后悔不该向她求婚，怨恨文秀那么脆弱，那么不从俗。有今天的变故，海光心想不会跟她提那个事情了。 文秀看着给她输血的海光，心里很是感激，她蠕动着嘴唇说：“姐夫，姐夫！” 海光只是朝她一笑：“你怎么样了？” 文秀眼睛红了。 海光输血结束了。他慢慢走到文秀的跟前，低沉地说：“文秀，都怪我，我不应该逼你，你就原谅我吧！” 文秀痛苦地闭上了眼睛，有两颗泪珠滚落脸颊。 海光让文秀做个全面的身体检查。可是当医生的检查结果出来的时候，海光却被检查的结果震惊了。眼下，尽管文秀被抢救过来了，可她的身体有问题，这是海光所没有想到的。医生为文秀全面听诊。海光不放心，就与何大妈在一边看着。医生说文秀近来一直浑身劲，果然给说对了，文秀在去北戴河之前就这样了。她疑心自己是不是被地震砸的呢？医生感觉有些不妙，用听诊器慢慢观察着文秀的胸腔，问她从什么时候有胸闷的感觉？文秀想了想说，就是上次感冒之后，胸闷，一直浑身没劲，一天比一天明显。医生收拾着听诊器，嘟囔着说：“反正我看不象感冒，最好是去拍张片子，彻底检查一下。”文秀看了海光一眼，神色有点慌张。海光没有想到文秀的身体会有什么大问题，就含含糊糊地说：“检查检查也好，免得疑心！如果真的有大病，也好提前治疗啊！”文秀强撑着坐了起来：“我这病没事，别查了，也许养几天就好了。”医生给海光递了个眼色，示意给海光文秀病情的严重性。海光把医生送出病房以后，安慰文秀说：“没病怎么会这样呢？还是早去看看。”何大妈附和着海光说：“有病早治，别慎着，就是没病，检查检查，咱也放心了。赶快去，这几个孩子我给弄着。”说完何大妈就吃力地走了。医生送来了一张条子，让海光扶她做各种检查。海光接过条子，搀扶文秀走出来。 从上午九点排队，到下午四点才检查完毕。当中吃午饭的时候，海光买来了两盒饭，由于文秀的一右胳膊受伤，海光与文秀坐在简易医院的走廊里，海光一点一点地给文秀喂饭，路过的人看上去，都以为是一对恩爱夫妻。看着文秀吃了很多的饭，海光嘴角上露出深深的微笑，他也不知道自己是怎么了？自己的世界里，除了文燕就是文秀，最近一些日子，文秀在他梦中出现的频率很高，甚至超过了文燕。文秀转怒为喜的过程令海光赏心悦目。海光是个孤儿，除了心爱的记者工作，还能给他带来充实和快乐的就是文秀这么一个牵挂了。他不敢奢望他们之间还能产生爱情，可他惦念她，除了惦念之外还有经过劫难洗礼的感情。即使是那种认真的、没有结果的爱情，也能让他激动，因为这毕竟是灾难过后的唐山，一切都要重新开始。海光托着文秀受伤的胳膊，亲呢地问：“文秀，还疼吗？”文秀眼神里依然充满忧郁，她摇了摇头说不疼。海光知道她是个坚强的女孩。一次练功，文秀摔倒在舞台上，左脚骨摔成骨折，文秀被唐生背到了医院，唐生精心护理着文秀，文秀有心爱的人陪伴，连一滴眼泪都没有掉下来。海光看她养伤的样子很美，那种美丽与眼前的美丽是截然不同的。 “杨文秀！家里来人没有？”海光听见医生的喊声，响亮地回应了一声。 看来是检查完了，海光搀扶着文秀找医生。可是当医生看见文秀，脸色沉了一下，海光从医生的表情上感觉到了什么，就将文秀搀扶到了病房。文秀也很敏感，刚才医生的表情她也观察到了，她问海光自己是不是得了什么不可救药的病？海光让她放心，自己却是心慌意乱地走出了病房。 到了医务室，医生同情地看了海光一眼，然后拿出透视片子叹息着说：“这是一种非常罕见的病。很可能她生下来就有先天性颈椎开裂，地震中又受了伤，加快了症状发展。这将是很可怕的啊！” 海光脑袋哄然一响，惊呆了片刻。他终于成认这是一次失望的检查。 “你听清了吗？”医生看着海光。 医生的话几乎不能接受，海光怔怔地站着，讷讷地问：“您刚才说得是什么病？” “脊椎开裂！” "What symptoms?" 医生惋惜地说：“什么症状呀，浑身无力，什么活儿也干不了，慢慢的，体内脂肪逐步向颈椎渗透，会造成高位截瘫。看着这样好的姑娘得了这种病，我也很痛心啊！”海光痛苦地摆了摆手，眼睛直视着医生：“您别说了，我只问你一句话，你可得如实跟我说，这病海能治么？”医生想了想说：“唯一的办法是手术，可是目前在国内最好的医院，这种手术的成功率也在百分之五以下，几乎是不可能的。”海光再也控制不住自己的情绪，紧紧地抓着医生的手，使劲地摇着，仿佛即刻就要摇碎似的：“求求您，无论如何别让她瘫痪，她地震中死了恋人，死了姐姐，身边没有一个亲人，您可别让她瘫痪啊！”医生更正说：“请你冷静点，不是我让她瘫痪，是病魔！懂吗？” 海光抓着片子，呆呆地站着，怎么也说不出话来，浑身颤抖着，迈不动步子。 医生想走，又一把被海光拽住了：“这太残酷了，太残酷了！您别走，您可得帮忙啊！”医生感觉到海光的手很无力，轻轻一甩就甩掉了，然后已久同情地说：“最好的办法，是多给她些精神的安慰，少让她干活儿，延缓症状的发展。这对当丈夫的是一个考验呀，你听见了吗？” 海光一愣：“丈夫？” 医生疑惑的地：“你不是她的丈夫吗？” 海光摇了摇头，眼睛湿润了。海光揉了揉眼睛，慢慢恢复了常态，扭转身想往外走，突然看见文秀站在外面，不禁一怔。 文秀默默地站立在那里，一动不动。显然她什么都听见了。 海光的脸倏然变色，嘴唇发白，声音颤抖了：“文秀！” 文秀一头扑进海光的怀里，放声大哭了。 我就要截瘫了？我真的会瘫痪吗？文秀的脑子里被搅得昏天黑地了。 没有人能够解答，只有时间会告诉人们明天将要发生什么。海光盯住文秀不要把这个情况告诉何大妈和孩子们，这个松散的临时家庭承受不住这样的打击。如果不是遇到这场灾难，文秀的生活决不会有什么波澜，也决不会患上脊椎开裂的怪病。那样，她会和过去的二十三年一样，快活地舞蹈，做唐生的媳妇，即使婚后生儿育女，也都是顺理成章的事情，她很自信，自己与唐生的儿子或是女儿，肯定会非常漂亮、聪明，她想拥有一群尽善尽美的孩子。但是，她遇上了这场灾难，对于文秀而言，生与死并没有太大的区别，这场预告出来的怪病，又给她的信心雪上加霜。对于这样的一个美丽的弱女子，灾难结了伴儿来，老天实在有些不公平了。 临出院的时候，海光怕文秀回家再寻短见，就把一瓶安眠药往文秀的床头一撂，愤愤地瞪着眼睛说：“你要是真的不想活了，就在医院里了断！回家后有老人和孩子，他们还得活啊！”文秀愕然地看着海光，从他的眼神里看到一抹泪光。那对锐利的眼睛里，竟闪着泪光，男人的泪光！这比什么都震撼文秀，这么一个坚强好胜的男人，在她的身上耗费了多少心血哩？文秀俯身看着他，一句话也说不出来。海光凶恶地吼了一声：“你说话呀，你不要以为别人都怕你死！我不怕，你死啊，死啊！”文秀震颤了，哽噎了：“姐夫，姐夫，你别说了！”海光依然激动地喊着：“经历灾难的人活着都不怕，还怕死吗？我最看不起动不动就想死的懦夫！”文秀抓着海光的手臂哭诉：“姐夫，我不死了，我答应你！”海光心里平顺一些，眼光是深沉的，严肃的，哀伤的。文秀震动了一下，牙齿咬着嘴唇说：“姐夫，你听着，往后不管碰到什么事情，我杨文秀只能被病魔折磨而死，决不会自己轻生！不会！”海光眉头竖着深深的刻痕，抓着问秀的手起誓。他此时算是看透了文秀的心！海光心头一震，迅速转过了身子，用背对着他，文秀看到他把手背送到唇边，用牙齿咬了一下，仅仅几秒钟就猛地回过头来，除了脸色疲倦之外看不出任何异样。 过了一会儿，海光故意把医生叫到文秀的窗前，医生给文秀讲解了许多躲开瘫痪的可能性，鼓励文秀别有心理压力。实际上，人到了走投无路的时候就异想天开，就自己把自己解脱出来。文秀此时就是这样的心境，文秀笑了笑，露出一囗洁白的牙齿。从她轻松的表情来看，她比过去更明白了。文秀说：“没什么，谢谢大夫！我会好好珍惜生命的！”海光和医生对视了一眼，医生欣然地走了。海光已经把出院的手续办好，他搀扶着问秀走到医院大门的时候，文秀扭头看了一下旁边的绿树长廊。海光忽然明白了什么，将文秀扶到长廊的一头坐下歇息。 午后的阳光很暖和，文秀真想依偎着海光睡上一觉。这里是开滦煤矿医院废墟，原先的后院，如今变成了前院。后院几乎没被地震破坏，假山石，绿树，花草跟过去一样鲜艳，两只粉色的蝴蝶在那里飞舞。海光静静地看着文秀，使文秀毫不费解地感受到他对自己的欣赏。海光欣慰地说：“我相信你会挺住的，文秀，你像你的姐姐一样坚强。”文秀不愿破坏眼前的情绪：“不说这些好么？我现在不想这些。我想活好我的每一天！”海光轻轻笑了：“你这样想，我真的很高兴！”然后就没有什么话可说了，海光一直陪伴着她看花看草看蝴蝶。海光的眼神接触到了文秀痛苦与神情的眸子。他的眼睛把她从一个深深的冰窖里拉起来了，拉起来了。她把头靠在了海光的肩头上，谁也没再说话，但她不能否认，这肩头成了她最坚强的支柱。到傍晚的时候，海光搀扶着她走出医院的绿色长廊。 走在清理废墟的大街上，到处都是推土机的轰鸣声，烟尘飞舞，与医院后院的美景简直是两个天地。文秀不说话的时候，海底光就问她在想什么呢？文秀迟疑了一下说，她很想看看房子。无论是谁家的房子！海光微微一愣：“房子？”文秀淡淡地补充说：“嗯，房子，人住的房子，真正的房子。”少顷，海光忽然明白了她的心，拉着她的手朝路南区一排破坏较轻的房子走去。这是一排未被地震破坏的工房，房前小路是青砖铺成的，很古朴，房子鳞次栉比，只有到跟前才能辨认出轻微的一些裂缝。文秀痴情地看着房子，抚摸着每一快墙壁，眼神里充满悠悠的神往。过了一会，文秀慢慢把红色的脸颊贴在墙壁上，嘴里喃喃着：“不知怎么回事，我今天看到房子是那么亲。”海光默默地站在她的身后说：“大约因为唐山的好房子几乎没有的缘故吧？”文秀看着房顶的燕子说：“唐山什么时候能够盖起真正的房子呢？” 海光眼睛一亮，坚定地说：“很快，我们就会住进新的防震房！在废墟上建设一个新唐山！”文秀愣了一下问：“不是有传闻，唐山要全部迁走么？废墟留下来，将来让人们参观么？”海光沉默了一会说：“听说，西方国家要援助咱们建设，我们没答应！我们有骨气，我们自力更生！不能让人家看笑话！懂吗？否则的话，唐山留给后人的，就只是一座埋着几十万人骨殖的大坟墓。”文秀惊讶地问，为什么要这样呢？海光怕文秀不高兴，就又补充说：“我们报社已经接到任务，专家论证了唐山未来百年的地震发生情况，说能量已经释放，这里会安全的。”文秀没再争执，淡淡地自语，建成了不知会是什么样儿？海光笑了笑说：“一定会很漂亮，超出我们想象的漂亮。”文秀抬头看了碧蓝的天空，动情地说：“我不想死，我已经看见一座城市毁天，还想亲眼看着一座城市诞生，你说，这是悲哀呢？还是幸福？”海光拉住文秀的白皙的手：“福中有祸，祸中也有福！我们有福啊！从死亡到新生，值得我们珍惜。啊？”文秀眨了眨眼睛看着他。海光继续说着：“灾难让聪明人更聪明，糊涂人更糊涂。象我这种书呆子，更是面目全非。”文秀噗地一声笑了：“这哪里是哲学，这是生活。”海光愣了一下问：“你指的是什么？”文秀说：“我们都在选择。”海光说：“选择什么？”文秀认真地说：“活着，还是去死？”海光脸色一沉，狠狠瞪了文秀一眼说：“你又来了，怎么又是死啊活的！你说得太可怕了。”文秀淡淡一笑：“有什么可怕的？活？还是死？”海光给她解释了一番：“都很可怕，但在某种时候，死，是一种解脱，活，却是一种磨难，死只需要一时的胆怯，活却需要持久的勇气。”文秀想了想说：“你是不是一直以为凭几句正面的教导，就能改变我的想法？你一直把我当孩子对待，就象我对待那些孩子。”海光含着自信的微笑说：“风不怕，雨不怕，天塌地陷更不怕。你不是读过海明威的小说吗？人不是生来给打败的！”文秀说：“那是小说，我已经不是孩子。” 海光是一脸的智慧和冷峻，大声说：“因为你经过了地震！懂吗？” “地震？”文秀心头一震，不再跟海光争论了。两个人说着，就走出了那排房子，走上的没被清理的废墟。文秀的头发在风中飘动，她伸手撩了一下被风吹散的头发，失神地望着废墟上的黑洞，看见它就有一种本能的恐惧，脊椎嗖地窜过一阵冷风。海光发现文秀的眼睛直了，就知道她又想起唐生来了，条件反射，他也会很自然地想起死去的文燕，这种怀念怕要经过许多年才能好些，也许一辈子都不能改变。海光本想回避这些，可是回避有时也不一定是最好的办法，海光干脆直接说给文秀，好让文秀把积聚在胸中的话畅快地说出来。海光感动地说，我知道你又想唐生了，唐生值得你去爱。这一点，我自愧不如啊！文秀默默地盯着黑洞，缓缓蹲下身，喃喃地说，他走了，却给我一张车票。还有一张带血的舞蹈设计图。海光一愣问，是什么样的舞蹈图？文秀没有眼泪，缓缓地解释说：“震前的一个晚上，唐生在我情绪最低落的时刻，用他的心为我编排了一个名为《万紫千红》的舞蹈。当时我任性，我没有答应出演，现在回想起来，真的对不起唐生！”海光以一种崭新的、感动的情绪聆听她的诉说。这一天的生活跟往常不一样。文秀第一次将悲伤的诉说转换成心灵颤动：“我爱唐生。我爱他！他更爱我，他是为我而死的。” 海光盯着文秀的眼睛。过了好长时间，天渐渐发暗的时候，文秀忽然停止的倾诉，抬起头来看着海光：“姐夫，我有一个愿望。” “你说吧！”海光说。 文秀眼光停留在他的脸上：“我要在瘫痪之前，把唐生的舞蹈演出来。” 海光摇了摇头说：“你的愿望，我很感动。我也支持你，可是，刚才医生说了，你的身体，不能跳舞了。” “为什么？为什么？”文秀声嘶力竭地喊着。 海光说：“ 不为什么，你先养伤，身体好了，跳舞算什么？上次二猛鼓动你跳舞，怎么样，教训还没汲取？” 文秀沮丧地问：“我真的完了吗？” 海光一愣说：“谁说你完了，你会重新走上舞台的。” 文秀急了：“姐夫，医生到底怎么说的？” 海光说：“你又不是没听见！没问题，得养着。” 文秀没说话了。两个人在黄昏里走着，海光为转移文秀的思绪，换了一个话题：“文秀，我想跟你商量个事。”文秀不知道他要跟她说什么，眼睛又瞪圆了。海光认真地说：“何大妈的儿子何亮，是为救我死的，他也是你姐姐的好朋友。我想，做何大妈的干儿子，赡养她老人家后半辈子。”文秀说：“我赞成，人得有良心。大妈对我们挺好。”说着话，两个人就走回了小街的简易房。他们看见何大妈正带着孩子们做游戏。一只洋铁皮的罐头盒放在地上，周围用粉笔划了一个圈。孩子们藏起来，一个小孩子在找。一个小孩子从隐藏地冲出来，一脚把罐头盒踢出圈外。小孩子们欢呼着各自的隐藏地点跑出来。隔了很远，文秀看见小妹呆滞的身影，心头一酸喊了一声：“小妹！”小妹使劲“哎”了一声，何大妈和孩子们都听见文秀的声音，就急忙围了过来，拉手的拉手，问候的问候，使文秀重新感觉到大家庭的温暖，心想还是家里好啊！海光慢慢将文秀扶进屋里，告知孩子们：“文秀阿姨身体还没恢复好，你们要照顾她，自己学会干活儿，懂吗？”小妹和孩子们齐声喊，我们懂，只要看见阿姨，我们什么都能干！文秀在孩子们的簇拥下缓缓坐下来，还是浑身冒汗了，双手颤索不止，但是眼里的泪光已经没有了。她又是原先那个坚强的姑娘了，一个幸福的微笑浮上了她的嘴角：“我好想你们啊！” 趁孩子们围着文秀的时候，何大妈急忙把海光叫到她的简易棚里，询问文秀的病情。海光知道何大妈嘴浅，拢不住消息，如果何大妈知道了，几天的功夫就会像雪片一样，满小街都纷纷扬扬了。他只是跟何大妈讲了讲文秀身体严重性，说她有可能截瘫，没有说出是什么病，即使这样，何大妈还是惊讶得半晌说不出话来。 何大妈家的灶堂里着着火，锅里的的水滚动着声音。何大妈急忙往锅里放挂面，海光蹲在何大妈的身旁，往何大妈的灶堂里添着柴禾。火苗明明暗暗，旸映红了海光憨厚英俊的面庞，何大妈心疼地看着他，心里还是不甘心，把文秀和海光捏合到一起，该是天生地合的一对啊！老人紧紧地盯着海光，眼神里带着一抹深深的困惑，她这样盯了他好一会儿，沉默的，研究的，却不知道问题出在哪里？当然是出在文秀身上，文秀这孩子越发让何大妈吃不透了。海光哪点不趁文秀的心呢？海光那张年轻的，坚定的，充满灵气的脸孔，满头乌黑的头发，下巴上的胡子没刮干净，可他依然是多少姑娘的梦中情人啊！ 此时此刻，海光与何大妈想的不是一回事。简易房里都是烟雾，在浓厚的烟雾里，他看不清何大妈的脸，更看不清自己与文秀的明天，只有自己的心在那里缓缓地滴血，男人心里的血是没有颜色的。海光也在盯着何大妈看，看老人脸上菊花般的皱纹，心想该怎样跟老人正式摊牌，他要当何大妈的儿子。海光与文秀的婚姻受阻，在他心中酝酿很久的想法搁浅了，尽管以前有人当玩笑说过，可是正式跟何大妈提出给何大妈当儿子，还没有这样的机会。今天，海光与文秀走在废墟上的时候，他的眼前忽然闪过何亮的影子，这让他吓了一跳。好像是何亮要找他有什么话说，不，是海光又一肚子的话想跟何亮说。海光看了看慈祥的老人，终于说：“何大妈，我有事儿跟您说！”何大妈心直口快：“您别说了，大妈知道你心里苦！文秀这孩子也不知是咋想的，你这样对她还不够吗？”海光苦笑了一下说：“大妈，我说得不是这个！”何大妈沉沉一叹：“是啊，文秀这孩子够不容易的，如今身体又这样，别逼她了，可别再出啥闪失了。”海光着急地跺着脚说：“大妈，我跟您说的事儿，跟文秀无关，可我说出囗，您一定要答应我。”何大妈一愣，吸了一囗冷气：“跟文秀无关？你又看上别的女人了？” “又错啦，又错啦！”海光急得有点口吃了。 何大妈看了看他说：“海光，你和亮子是同学，又是好朋友，跟大妈还有啥客气的？” 海光嗵一声给何大妈跪下了。 这可把何大妈给跪愣了，老人弯腰要扶海光的时候，海光眼睛红了，颤着声音说：“大妈，收下我这个儿子吧。” 何大妈惊讶地颤了一下，身体晃了晃：“海光！你——” 海光跪着，一字一句地说：“亮子是救我死的，他走了，您就把我当成您的亲生儿子！我给您养老送终！您答应我！” 何大妈泣不成声了：“孩子，起来，起来！” 海光声泪俱下了：“您不答应，我就永远也不起来。” 何大妈感动地，一把鼻涕一把泪地说：“海光，亮子没了，你别挂记心上，那是他阳寿短。那么多人不都说没就没了吗？你的心意大妈领了，你也不容易哩，文燕没了，文秀身体又那个样子，我再不能给你们填累赘了！” 海光说：“不，您说错了，您过来是我的福份。文秀也答应了，她盼着您搬过来。” 何大妈急忙拉着海光站立起来，连说大妈答应你。 海光扑进她的怀里，热热地喊了一声：“妈——” 何大妈颤抖地抚摸着海光的头，老泪纵横。