Chapter 12 Chapter 12 Sad City Lights Still

Naturally, many people will not be able to sleep on this rainy night.Wenxiu is one of those people suffering from insomnia.The children fell asleep in the simple shed. She looked at the faces of the children and sat there blankly, staring blankly at the rain outside the window, not knowing what she was thinking.The wind blew up and the rain was heavy. She heard the rain leaking from the simple roof, and the rain fell on the children's clothes. She hurriedly got up and grabbed the clothes. Biggest rain ever.The sound of knocking on the door startled Wenxiu, and when she heard Aunt He's voice, Wenxiu opened the door. Aunt He rushed in with a plastic sheet on her head, saying that her tent had been blown down by the wind. , Don't worry, it's coming here.

Wenxiu took Aunt He's hand and said eagerly, "Auntie, are you not injured?" Aunt He said she was not injured, but because of the cold, she squeezed out a voice from her teeth as if she had a toothache: "Oh my God, Zhen also If it is shaken, it will die, so the wind and the rain won't make people live?" "Don't be afraid, aunt." Wenxiu wasn't timid. The wind and rain in front of her was nothing. What she was worried about was the thunder. If the thunder was too loud, it would startle the sleeping children, and they would think there was another earthquake.Aunt He helped Wenxiu keep pouring the rainwater from the basin outside, and saw the water flowing into a river outside.

The heavy rain has no intention of stopping, but fortunately there is no thunder yet.The side streets were deserted.Hai Guang rushed here alone, unable to touch the familiar walls and trees, and the road under his feet was muddy and uneven.His body was blown down by the strong wind again and again, and he met soldiers rushing to repair the simple shed on the way.Originally, he should help, but when he thought of Wenxiu and those children, and Aunt He, his heart burned.Hai Guang returned to the newspaper office and temporarily lived in a simple shed next to the paper warehouse of the newspaper office. When the wind picked up, he broke out with a walking stick.The newspaper office is not very far from the small street, but it is very difficult to walk in such bad weather.From a distance, Hai Guang was surprised to find a man's shadow swaying in front of Wenxiu's simple shed, and he couldn't help being taken aback.

That person is Heizi, in fact Heizi rushed to the small street before Haiguang.He watched Wenxiu's cabin with concern.During the few days away from Wenxiu and the children, Heizi didn't disappear from here. He bumped into the prisoner's glasses.Glasses also escaped from prison. Heizi found a corner to build a shed for himself that day, and Heizi was laying linoleum on the roof of the shed.Suddenly someone pushed him up.Heizi turned his head and saw the glasses in surprise, and didn't dare to speak for a moment.Glasses smiled secretly: "Brother, you don't know me?" Recognize you." Heizi hurriedly got off the ladder, carefully pulled him into the dark, pinched Glasses by the neck, and said in a low voice, "Little Glasses! Let me tell you, Heizi is dead. My name is Liu Ermeng. , you will call me Ermeng from now on, understand?"

The glasses stuck his neck, and repeatedly begged for mercy: "Brother Heizi, you are so fucking merciful! No, brother Ermeng, let go!" Heizi heard him shout Ermeng, and slowly let go of his neck.Glasses smiled: "Hey, big brother, you are so smart. I know! Prison officer Lao Mi replaced you, and no one doubted you! It's just your face, you shouldn't be like this! Why are you looking for a wife?" Glasses handed Heizi one Heizi took two puffs of the "Dazhan brand" cigarette: "Brother, I won't talk to you kid, I just want to tell you one thing, you won't be looking for me from now on! Do you hear me?" Seeing Heizi's fierce eyes in the glasses, he frightened I was stunned: "What's wrong with you? I'll keep it a secret for you, so it's over. Don't forget the brotherhood! If you don't die in a catastrophe, we will have future blessings!" Heizi smiled coldly: "The future Blessings? People like us don’t have any good fortune before, so how can we have future blessings?” Glasses blinked mysteriously: “Brother Ermeng, let’s run away!” Heizi glared at him: “Are you crazy? ? Run away from your mother's foot!" Then he grabbed his ear fiercely.Glasses grinned: "Don't don't, I'm kind, I'm afraid it's a long night with many dreams! Wait for everything to return to normal, people like us are not targets of dictatorship?" Heizi poked his neck and said, "I'm not afraid of death, but I can't Let's go." Glasses asked suspiciously: "Why?" Heizi thought for a while and said, "I want to cure my little sister's eyes, and I want to raise her up!" Glasses asked who the little girl was?Heizi looked at the glasses and said: "She is my goddaughter!" The glasses were even more puzzled: "Where did a goddaughter come from?" , criss-cross flow.For the first time, he recounted what happened between him and So-woon in the vault.The glasses couldn't close his mouth, and he looked in surprise at this companion who had experienced ups and downs but still had dreams.The earthquake changed the soul of a condemned prisoner, which Heizi himself did not expect.

When the wind and rain were blowing, Heizi stood by Wenxiu's simple shed like a faithful black dog.The precarious simple shed was creaked by the blowing, and Heizi grabbed the rope of the simple shed tightly, and heard the voices of Wenxiu and Aunt He talking in the shed.The doors and windows of the simple room also shattered.Heizi hid under a piece of plastic film supported by several wooden sticks.The rainwater gathered on the plastic film, forming circles of puddles, falling down with a rush.From time to time, Heizi used his hands to take out the falling rainwater bucket.He looked at Wenxiu and the children's simple room, and seemed to have made up his mind. He ran to the simple room, but when he was about to knock on the door, he stopped and turned back in dismay.

The instant the lightning flashed, Hai Guang finally recognized Hei Zi in the dark. "Er Meng, Er Meng!" Hai Guang shouted twice. Heizi heard someone calling him, but he didn't know where the voice came from? Hai Guang shouted a few more words, but was covered by the violent thunder. "Crack" thunder, accompanied by a white lightning strike at the same time.Wenxiu had never heard such a loud thunder before, she threw herself into Aunt He's arms in fright, and closed her eyes tightly.The children were awakened, and the younger sister and the other children sat up straight, crying and yelling that there was an earthquake, and ran out naked.

"Don't run, it's thunder!" Wenxiu groaned, reaching out to stop the children.The children's nerves were stimulated, and they didn't care about Wenxiu and Aunt He's obstruction.The little girl's frightened face was very pale, she didn't know where the strength came from, she shook her arms and ran out desperately. "It's an earthquake, it's an earthquake!" The children cried and ran into the wind and rain. The children were like a flock of frightened lambs running wildly in the wind and rain, shivering. Wenxiu and Aunt He hurried out to chase after her, but the wind and rain knocked Wenxiu to the ground.She grabbed the muddy water on the ground with one hand, and Aunt He's arm with the other. Aunt He pulled her hard, slipped on her feet, and fell into the muddy water with a plop.Wenxiu looked towards the dark place where the children were running, and shouted hoarsely: "You all come back, come back!" She was so angry that she cried.The terrified children ignored her orders.Aunt He slapped the muddy water in disappointment: "How good is this?" They never expected that Heizi and Haiguang would appear at this time.

Heizi and Haiguang were stunned for a moment, they recognized each other, and the thunder exploded.Hai Guang originally wanted to chase the children, but when he saw Wenxiu and Aunt He fell down, he turned around to help Wenxiu and Aunt He.When Hai Guang stretched out his big hand, Wen Xiu almost cried out, "When did you come?" Hai Guang helped the two of them up, pointed at Hei Zi's figure, and said, "Look, that's Er Meng, he's older than me." It's still early! He is secretly waiting for your simple shed!" Wenxiu and Aunt He felt warm in their hearts.

The rain was falling violently, and the rainy night was cold and desolate, with many dark and unpredictable holes.It was a black hole in the ruins of the earthquake. Although the work of exterminating the corpses was basically over, the terrifying things hadn't been cleared away.Hai Guang was afraid that the children would run around and fall into the bottomless black hole, so he hurriedly said, "Wenxiu, you and auntie go back to the simple room, Ermeng and I will bring the children back, hurry up, or you will get gonorrhea." !” His masseter muscles flickered as he spoke.Wenxiu looked at Haiguang gratefully, but still worried, she turned her head and said to Aunt He: "Auntie, you go back first, Haiguang and I will find a child!" Aunt He said straightforwardly: "Let's go, my old bone is shaking." They didn't even hit it, so you're afraid of the wind and the rain?" Aunt He pulled Wenxiu and followed Hai Guang towards the black rainy night.

"Little sister, little sister!" Heizi's voice came from afar. Hai Guang, Wenxiu and Aunt He all called the children's names.Where are you going, these fatherless children?Heizi stretched out his big palm to wipe the rainwater off his face, and saw the little girl.Because the little girl couldn't see anything, she stumbled and fell repeatedly, her body was covered in mud, and blood was dripping from her broken elbow.The little girl ran out with her upper body naked, and was dragged by a child at first, but it was dark and the ground was slippery, and she was thrown away as she ran.The little girl was crying, calling Aunt Wenxiu's name, touching and rubbing here and there, completely unaware that there was a black hole beneath her feet.The little girl tremblingly held on to a cement slab, and the quicksand under her feet slowly sank. Heizi yelled that the little girl should not move, and rushed over, tightly holding the little girl's arm, covering the plastic on top of his head. On the little girl's head, she hugged the child into her arms: "Don't be afraid, little girl, I am your Uncle Ermeng!" For the first time, the little girl wanted to talk to Heizi: "Uncle Ermeng, this is Is it an earthquake?" Heizi hugged her tightly, reassuring her that it was not an earthquake.The little girl became more at ease, and snuggled into Heizi's arms, avoiding the thunderstorm and lightning.Heizi was drenched in the wind and rain, saw the darkness in the world, saw danger, and saw loneliness.Then remorse presses down like this heavy night, first on the top of the head, and then slowly soaks through the skin, blood and every nerve.Suddenly a raging fire rose in his heart, his little sister was his only sustenance, his only hope, his only dawn.Whenever he faces good times, he has to contend with the devil in his heart.He didn't go to other children, let alone care about other children! It was almost dawn when Hai Guang and Wenxiu brought back all the other children. When daylight came, the storm stopped.After the children settled down, Heizi climbed onto the roof of the simple house, spread the linoleum that had been blown away by the wind, and reinforced the bricks pressed on the linoleum.After finishing all the work, he left silently.Heizi walked a long way, Wenxiu chased him out and shouted, "Er Meng, where do you live?" Heizi continued walking without looking back. "Er Meng, come and play when you have time?" Heizi's heart burned, his eyes got wet, and he turned his head and waved to Wenxiu. The children were frightened, and all of them were stupefied.In order to make the children happy, Hai Guang brought a camera and took pictures of the children. He took a lot of pictures. He wanted to report back to the agency to wash them out. When he saw that only Wenxiu was left in the simple room, he wanted to stay with Wenxiu for a while, but before he had time Opening her mouth, Aunt He walked in eagerly, yelling loudly: "Wenxiu, Hai Guang, the cadres of the Civil Affairs Bureau are going to take in children again!" The children looked at Wenxiu in panic. "I won't agree! I won't give it to them!" Wenxiu said stubbornly. Aunt He said in embarrassment: "Wenxiu, I'm afraid you can't stand it!" Haiguang looked at Wenxiu and persuaded him, "Wenxiu, your health is not good, you should send the children away. If what happened last night happened again, can you clean it up?" Wenxiu thought for a while and asked, "Auntie, where is the government going to send the children?" Aunt He said: "The government established Yuhong School in Shijiazhuang." Wenxiu's eyes were red: "I can't bear them." Aunt He said: "Don't be self-willed, you have the heart, but you don't have the strength." Wenxiu looked away: "It still doesn't work." Hai Guang suddenly patted his forehead, remembered something and said, "By the way, I still have a task today. The first batch of orphans sent from the city to the provincial capital are leaving! I have to go to the train station!" "Brother-in-law, let's go! Don't delay work!" Wenxiu said. Just as Hai Guang was about to leave, Aunt He suggested: "Wenxiu, let's show the children!" Wenxiu hesitated for a moment and said, "Then what if they take the child away?" Hai Guang said, "No, people talk about policy!" Hai Guang, Wen Xiu and Aunt He took the children to the train station.On the way, Hai Guang was stopped by Director Su of the Municipal Party Committee Office, saying that the Municipal Party Committee Secretary told him to go first.Hai Guang broke up with Wenxiu and the children, and went to the simple house of the Municipal Party Committee's Earthquake Resistant Headquarters alone.Secretary Xiang's white hair is very conspicuous. Since his son Tang Sheng and his wife were killed in the earthquake, Secretary Xiang's black hair turned white immediately, and the silver-white hair was very messy.When Hai Guang walked in, Secretary Xiang was arranging vehicles for transporting orphans.He waved to Hai Guang as a greeting.A cadre came in and reported that the first batch of more than 3,000 orphans could not be transported away immediately, and the Yuhong School in the provincial capital could not accommodate so many people immediately. Please ask the secretary for instructions to see which part of the children should be removed first?Secretary Xiang didn't speak for a long time, his face was a little gloomy, and his eyes were red.After a while, he shouted excitedly to the secretary: "The palms and backs of the hands are full of flesh, try to send them all away. We are in chaos in Tangshan, and the education system has lost a lot. We don't have the power to manage so many children, and we are afraid of plague! Children without a mother! If there hadn’t been this damn earthquake, they would still be acting like a baby in their mother’s arms! Pay attention, no matter how hard it is, the children must not suffer, and none of them will starve to death or freeze to death!” The cadre stood in embarrassment. with.He yelled at Secretary Xiang: "What are you looking at me for? Make arrangements quickly! I will go to the station in half an hour to see the children off!" The cadre hesitated: "Secretary Xiang, don't go, the doctor said you Don’t get too excited!” Secretary Xiang waved his arms impatiently: “Leave me alone, let’s go, let’s go!” As soon as the cadre left, he shook Xiang’s body, his swollen bags under his eyes trembling slightly.Hai Guang looked at Secretary Xiang: "Secretary Xiang, what do you need from me?" Secretary Xiang thought for a while and asked, "Hai Guang, I came to ask you to leave comprehensive photographic materials for Tangshan's earthquake resistance, and wait for us to resume construction. When I am in my new home, I want to build a large memorial hall, how important will your photos be?" Hai Guang nodded, "I know Secretary Xiang, I know, and I will keep all the photographic materials!" Eyes flashed to Secretary Xiang A look of relief, with sweat dripping from his forehead.Hai Guang saw that Secretary Xiang was too exhausted, and advised him to rest more!After a while, he said to the secretary, "Hai Guang, how is Wenxiu?" She didn't want them to go to Shijiazhuang Yuhong School!Secretary Xiang's eyes were moist, and he suddenly understood that Wenxiu needed to make a huge sacrifice to protect those children, which meant that she still loved Tang Sheng, and it seemed that she wanted to never marry again, and she wanted to use her children to resist the regrets in marriage .He choked up and said to the secretary: "This child, I once sent people to restrain her children, but they were all rejected by the director of the bureau, Aunt He and Wenxiu! You can persuade her again, huh? She is such an excellent dancer Ah, I will return to the stage in the future!" Hai Guang said dejectedly: "I think she is determined, and I am not sure what she will do next!" He said, thinking of a sentence in a book, It is said that women live in emotions, women will never forget their first love, men are not as good as women.He missed Wen Yan sincerely, but he never dared to imagine that he would not marry Wen Yan for the rest of his life. "Hai Guang, you need to take care of her more! Even if I beg you on Tang Sheng's behalf!" Secretary Xiang grabbed Hai Guang's hand and pleaded. Hai Guang was caught off guard by Secretary Xiang's words and didn't know how to answer him. Secretary Xiang suddenly felt a pain in his chest, and suddenly felt his body sinking down, falling down. "Secretary Xiang, what's the matter with you?" Hai Guang hurriedly supported Secretary Xiang on an army bed, letting him lie down slowly.Secretary Xiang closed his eyes tightly, sweat dripping from his forehead.Hai Guang brought Secretary Xiang a glass of water, brought it to Secretary Xiang's mouth, and opened his mouth to Secretary Xiang, but he didn't have the strength to open his mouth, and the water slowly flowed down his face and neck. Hai Guang hurriedly called the doctor. The doctor gave Secretary Xiang medicine and an injection.His physical strength gradually improved, and he opened his eyes and said, "Hai Guang, hurry to the station and leave the documents! I'll go later, huh?" Hai Guang said, "Don't go, I will do well!" Hai Guang hurried away.Not long after he left, Secretary Xiang clutched his chest and got up, supported the desk with both hands, and pressed the corner of the desk against his painful abdomen. .Finally, Secretary Xiang stood up firmly and said, "Go, go to the train station to see the children!" Everyone knew his temper, and no one dared to stop him, so they all followed him. Hai Guang came to the train station by car, and saw the scene of workers cleaning up the debris on both sides.Cranes and excavators from all over the country came to support Tangshan.From time to time, hideously shaped floor slabs were lifted up, and the air was filled with an unpleasant stench.Workers wear white masks to work.From time to time someone fainted, and small spray planes flew overhead like please listen.The milky white medicinal powder swayed like a cloud.Paramedics spray Lysol with motorized sprayers.Hai Guang smelled a mixture of medicine and corpses, and felt sick for a while. When he clearly saw the orphans in the train station square, the smell was diluted, but what followed was a colic in his heart. Cause violent ups and downs of mood. "Beep beep——" the teacher blew the whistle. Hai Guang saw the children gathered in the center of the square.He climbed to the top of the ruins and took a panoramic photo first. When he raised his legs and walked down, he saw the Chinese character "Stand" in Tangshan Station. smashed.He turned around and snapped the picture. More and more people gathered in the square, and there were 3,000 orphans waiting to go.There are also some teachers and relatives of the orphans.People were very quiet, each other was silent, and the crying children stopped crying.The boys wore blue shirts and loafers, the girls wore checkered tops, white shirts, blue trousers, and cloth shoes with off-the-shoulder belts, and the girls were given red headbands and small mirrors.White cloth strips are hung on the children's chests, and the names, ages and places of origin are written on the white cloth strips.Every orphan is carrying a bulging new schoolbag with the words "Man can conquer nature" printed on it.With a camera hanging around his neck, Hai Guang squeezed in among the children and shuttled eagerly. He seemed to have entered a strange circle, no matter which direction he walked, he seemed unable to get out.He patted the man's head, his hands trembling slightly, and he didn't even have the strength to lift the camera. The six-year-old brother is helping the four-year-old brother.The nine-year-old sister is supporting two little brothers with runny noses.The little brother was about to cry, but the sister took out an apple from her schoolbag and gave it to him.Several children took out toothbrushes and enamel cups from their schoolbags repeatedly, and then slowly put them back.Hai Guang saw the heads of some children's sewing machines hanging around their necks. The heads were so heavy that they grinned.But they still wanted to take it with them, Hai Guang thought, this might be all the child's belongings.Hai Guang had a sore nose, and when he finished taking this photo, his tears flowed down his face. Hai Guang raised his hand and rubbed his sore eye sockets. When he saw these orphans, his eyes seemed to be covered with a shadow that could never be wiped off.After a while, he turned his head and saw Wenxiu, Aunt He and those children.They watched those orphans, arousing infinite sadness in their hearts.Some children carried broken frames with pictures of their parents.A child holds a radio.Like the crowd watching, Wenxiu and Aunt He wiped their tears sadly.Wenxiu sighed: "What a poor child! No father or mother!" Aunt He said: "Yes, but do you know? There are still more than 7,800 families in Tangshan who have lost their homes. They still have a seedling left!" Wenxiu stopped talking, she glanced at Hai Guang, and Hai Guang met Wenxiu's eyes.Wenxiu looked away in a panic, and saw that the children's eyes were moist, and her legs seemed to be possessed by a demon, and she couldn't control her. The little girl's eyes were wrapped in a medicinal cloth, so she could only lean against Wenxiu and listen to her voice. One of Wenxiu's children noticed something strange. It turned out that he saw a boy very strangely.The child wore two watches on his thin arms.The child asked Wenxiu curiously: "Auntie, look at his arms, why are he wearing two watches?" Eyes asked Wenxiu, why didn't my parents leave me a watch?Wenxiu felt extremely uncomfortable, and immediately put the Shanghai watch on her wrist on the child's small wrist.Hai Guang squeezed in among the children and took a few more photos of Wenxiu and the children.At this time, Heizi looked at the little girl from the crowd, and Wenxiu saw Heizi, waved to him, and squeezed over desperately.Heizi stroked the little girl's head.The little girl felt very sensitive, and immediately said that it was Uncle Ermeng's voice.Heizi hugged the little girl affectionately and smiled.Hai Guang was moved by Heizi's smile, because his smile was friendly and simple. When the climax comes, no one is mentally prepared.Hai Guang didn't even expect that there would be an unexpected tragic scene. He saw Xiang's jeep slowly approaching.The children moved out of the way, and the cars stopped in the square.Weakly, Secretary Xiang got out of the car and saw a group of orphans, his legs went limp and he almost fell to the ground.The secretary grabbed him.When he walked towards the secretary, Hai Guang rushed to take a photo. A cadre waved to the children: "Children, be quiet!" The station square was silent. The cadre said: "Next, the municipal party committee will speak to the secretary—" Secretary Xiang didn't speak, his eyes were red, and he tried his best to restrain himself not to let the tears fall.He walked among the children, knelt down slowly, picked up the three-year-old fat boy from the arms of a little girl, and kissed him.He suddenly saw that there was no writing on the white cloth on the child's chest.He turned his head and asked the cadre, "Whose family is this kid?" Kiss the child on the cheek and put the child down slowly.Seeing Secretary Xiang, Wenxiu's heart was broken.The shadow of Jin Tangsheng was swaying in front of her eyes again. Tang grew up very much like his father, especially the eyebrows and face shape. Secretary Xiang raised his head slowly, raised his trembling hands, and shouted hoarsely, "Children, you are the descendants of our Tangshan. The elders of Tangshan will always miss you. Tangshan will always be your home! Right now! We in Tangshan have poor conditions and cannot take care of you. After this difficult period, I, Xiang Guohua, will go to the provincial capital to pick you up! You must go home! Our Tangshan will never collapse!" The teacher and the children applauded spontaneously. Shaking the secretary violently, his mind was confused, and his voice was extremely weak: "Home, go home!" A mouthful of thick blood spewed out from the secretary. Secretary Xiang fell on his back, black blood flowed out of his throat. The cadres swooped in.Hai Guang squeezed over: "Secretary Xiang——" The orphans cried for Grandpa Jin. At this time, the train came into the station with a clang.Wenxiu was full of thoughts, and wanted to squeeze over to look at Secretary Xiang, but she couldn't move.Secretary Xiang was carried to the car, and the children silently watched the car go away.A cadre waved his hand and shouted loudly: "Three minutes!" The train whistled solemnly.The sound of the siren is tragic, long and soul-stirring.The long-lost flute was trembling in the ruins.This voice came from the ground, and it rolled from the past and the future.People don't understand it, and understand its true meaning better than ever.Both adults and children bowed their heads in silence towards Tangshan, with no trace of sadness and melancholy on their faces, they looked so quiet and sober.As soon as the flute stopped, the cadre blew the whistle, and the orphans crowded and ran to the platform. There were loud cries in the square. Hai Guang hurriedly took pictures of these scenes, and Wen Xiu ran to him and asked Hai Guang to take her to the hospital where the secretary rescued her.Hai Guang was in the same mood as her. The two rushed to the emergency room of Kailuan Hospital, and saw the cadres and doctors leaving one after another, with gloomy expressions on their faces.Feeling bad, Hai Guang grabbed a doctor's arm and asked, how is Secretary Xiang?The doctor shook his head and said that Secretary Xiang had passed away.Hai Guang was stunned. Wenxiu was stunned, closed her eyes, and swallowed the tears that came up again and again in her choking.She didn't understand why the Bodhisattva didn't show mercy to such an old man who lost his son and wife?She said to Tang Sheng silently in her heart, you are not alone anymore, your father is looking for you!Hai Guang looked at the old man covered by the white cloth through the glass window, crying: "Secretary Xiang, why did this happen?" The doctor said with red eyes, "He has many internal injuries, especially bleeding from the lung lobes, and he has survived for nineteen years. Holy shit. It's a miracle in itself!" Hai Guang was dumbfounded, his heart filled with infinite respect for Secretary Xiang. Two months have passed, and Hai Guang has been busy.During this period, Hai Guang's face was mediocre, indifferent, and content with the situation, as if there was a sigh of a hero who had gone through the sea.That day Wenxiu suggested to Haiguang to burn some paper money for her sister at the big cemetery in "Triangle Land".Hai Guang silently followed Wenxiu.There he didn't say a word, let alone shed a tear.In fact, Hai Guang had already gone secretly by himself, and the shadow of Wen Yan in his mind has never disappeared. He seemed unable to bear Wen Yan's death.Wen Yan always thinks that she still has time to realize her dream. She did not make any preparations for death, thinking that she is still far away from that world.But she went away, in a hurry. Hai Guang never imagined that a miracle happened to Wen Yan.At this time, Wenyan's injury gradually recovered. The weather in Harbin is gradually getting colder.Wen Yan and the wounded all put on autumn clothes.She sent two letters home, but no reply.I don't know if I didn't receive it, or Wenxiu and Haiguang are no longer alive?Wen Yan's heart is palpitating and uneasy. She will never forget the disaster that just passed. Not everyone can experience this unforgettable love affair, and not everyone can bear this accident! However, Wenyan is strong.She asked the doctor when she was discharged home?The doctor said that it will take 100 days to hurt the muscles and bones, and some days need to be observed.She walked back to the ward from the sun, took out the letter paper and spread it out, picked up a pen and continued to write letters to Wenxiu and Haiguang.She felt that they should be alive. Thinking of this, she became excited, and the hand that held the pen trembled.She wrote: "Dear Haiguang—" Then she couldn't write any more, and her tears soaked the page again. Standing in the "Triangle Land" cemetery, Wenxiu and Haiguang felt the same sadness, but the objects and emphases of their nostalgia were different.Wenxiu knew that Jin Tangsheng was also buried here.In that world, would Tang Sheng meet his sister?If they met, wouldn't He talk about her and Hai Guang?Will it talk about the city ravaged by disaster?Rows of small cypress trees were planted on the cemetery, and the bodies buried on the surface were dug up by some people. "Wenxiu, Wenxiu!" Hai Guang called her twice.Wenxiu's thoughts came out of that world, and she looked at Hai Guang seriously, making Hai Guang feel that her eyes put a heavy responsibility on his shoulders.A desire to love and protect Wenxiu surged in his heart.Returning to the simple house in the side street from the "Triangle Land" cemetery, Hai Guang saw that the water tank was out of water, so he silently pulled the water truck away.Wenxiu is strict and has a lot of work. She sews clothes for the children.This is something she didn't bother to do in the past. The medicine thread in my little sister's eye was removed.But her eyes still couldn't see.The other children were playing outside, but the little girl couldn't see anything and could only play in the room by herself.She took out half a ticket from a box.She didn't know what it was, and held up the ticket and shouted at Wenxiu: "Auntie, look!" Wenxiu was shocked when she saw it, grabbed the ticket, and slowly put it on her chest.The little girl was puzzled and confused: "Aunt Wenxiu, what is this?" Wenxiu suppressed her emotions: "Little girl, this is a train ticket." The little girl tilted her head curiously: "The train ticket is still valid. Does it work?" Wenxiu felt a pain in her heart, and immediately calmed down and said, "It works, Auntie is going to travel in the car." The little girl asked where she was traveling?Wenxiu saw the words Beidaihe on the ticket, and said slowly: "Beidaihe!" The little girl smiled innocently: "I heard from my mother that there is a sea in Beidaihe! Aunt Wenxiu, can you take me with you on your trip?" Wenxiu hugged the little girl tightly, hugged her, her eyes were red, and she choked up and said, "Take, auntie, take the little girl." The tide was rushing, and Tang Sheng walked towards her from the tide with a smile. When Haiguang came back, Wenxiu hurriedly hid half of the train ticket. In the next few days, Hai Guang was sent by the newspaper leader to the provincial capital to interview the orphans and teachers of Yuhong School.In addition to taking some photos and writing a newsletter.Haiguang went to find Heizi, but he didn't know where Heizi and the glasses were, and he couldn't find them. He told Wenxiu that he wanted someone from the newspaper office to fetch water for them.Wenxiu said that she was capable, so she let Haiguang leave with peace of mind.A few days passed, and Hai Guang was about to come back, but on that rainy day, Aunt He and Wenxiu's water tanks ran out of water.Wenxiu had to pull the water by herself, and Wenxiu struggled to pull the water truck on the path leading to the lotus pit.Suddenly the sky changed, there was a crackling sound of thunder, and lightning scurry like ten thousand golden snakes.The strong wind stirred up the sand and soil garbage, blowing towards us.The waterwheel pulled by Wenxiu was twisted by Feng Shui. The rain came, and the wind whipped the ground violently with the raindrops.Wenxiu held the water wheel tightly.Wenxiu couldn't pull out the waterwheel that she was living in, and when she let go, the shaft of the waterwheel rose high.The rubber hose that discharges water at the rear of the waterwheel was opened, and water gurgled out.Wenxiu ran over and grabbed the rubber hose, but she couldn't move the water wheel anymore. Wenxiu cried in the desperate storm.She never thought that Hai Guang would arrive in such a timely manner.Wenxiu looked at Haiguang and finally found some support in her heart. She kicked the waterwheel with her wet feet: "Haiguang, it...it doesn't obey. It bullies people..." Haiguang said, then you can bully it!Wenxiu laughed while crying.Hai Guang hastily grasped the pipe, pulled down the shaft of the car, turned to the back of the car, tied up the rubber pipe, and then crossed his hands to pull up the water wheel: "Let's go!" Wenxiu pushed the water wheel behind.Hai Guang's face was waterlogged, he shook his head and shouted: "Wenxiu, you don't have to push, you go home quickly, don't get sick." Wenxiu gave him a willful look: "No!" She continued to push hard Waterwheel.At this time, she felt that she couldn't do without a man by her side.Could it be that Hai Guang will always be with him?This year flashed by, and she immediately killed her again. She couldn't drag this brother-in-law down forever. In that case, my sister would blame her even under Jiuquan! When returning to the simple room, Wenxiu found that the younger sister was missing. Hai Guang parked the water truck in front of the door, and immediately helped Wenxiu into the simple room.Hai Guang and Wenxiu walked into the simple room, still dripping water from their bodies.Wenxiu saw the children clustered together, huddled in the corner of the bed.Wenxiu asked eagerly, only to find out that the sensible little girl had sent an umbrella to Wenxiu.Wenxiu looked at Haiguang in surprise: "It's broken, we didn't meet each other on the road!" Wenxiu's forehead was sweating, and she wanted to find the little girl, and opened the door as she spoke.It was still raining outside, Hai Guang saw Wenxiu's body was extremely weak, so he asked her to take care of the child at home, and he pushed a bicycle into the wind and rain.Wenxiu was still worried, watching Hai Guang's back chase after him, and ran into the heavy rain. It was completely dark.Perhaps because of the rain, there are gradually fewer pedestrians on the small street.Wenxiu ran stumblingly, Hai Guang turned his head and saw Wenxiu chasing him, he was so anxious that he couldn't speak.Aunt He came over with an umbrella, not knowing what happened, and asked in surprise, "Why are you running out in such heavy rain?" Wenxiu wiped the rain from her face and said, "Auntie, my little sister is gone. What are you doing?" What about it?" Aunt He sighed and said, "Oh, it's raining continuously in this house, let me check if there is any leak in our simple house. What's wrong, my little sister is lost? This child, blind It doesn't make people worry about it!" Wenxiu said loudly: "Auntie, don't blame my little sister, she gave me an umbrella! Help me look after the children and cook for them. I'll go find my little sister. Aunt He nodded and said, "Okay, go quickly, hey, I'll give you the umbrella." Hai Guang found a bicycle and chased after him.Aunt He handed Wenxiu an umbrella.Hai Guang asked Wenxiu to sit on it, and the bicycle bumped forward in the mud.Wenxiu nimbly jumped onto the back hanger of the bicycle, and the open umbrella swayed in the wind and rain, covering Haibald's head for a while, and covering Wenxiu's head for a while. A gust of wind blew the umbrella away.Wenxiu hurriedly shouted: "Umbrella! Umbrella! Umbrella ran away." Hai Guang stopped the bicycle, and he watched the umbrella on the ground being blown by the wind and rolling away into the distance.海光摇了摇头说：“算了，由它去吧，反正也浇湿了。” 海光又骑上自行车。文秀跳了上去。他们找到小妹的时候，天慢慢变暗了。小妹给文秀送伞，没有见到文秀和海光，却在一片广大的废墟间迷了路。小妹走到了坟场，坟场上的虚土被雨水冲走了，时而露出死者的胳膊或腿。小妹拄着一根棍子，在恐怖迷茫的废墟间摸索着走，绊倒了再爬起来，整个一个泥人了。实在走不动的时候，小小妹趴在泥泞里绝望地哭了：“文秀阿姨，你在哪儿呀？”她的声音显得极为微弱，是海光最先看见小妹的。海光骑着的自行车忽然刹住：“你听！好像是小妹在喊！”文秀兴奋地说是小妹。文秀跳下自行车四下查看着，终于看见了小妹，她趴在水沟里哭呢。海光和文秀循着小妹的声音急跑过去，看见小妹手里的雨伞没有打开，伞面上都是泥。文秀紧紧地抱起了她，眼泪夺眶而出。 海光用自行车驮着小妹回家了。海光推着自行车跟小妹说话，文秀扶着小妹泥拉巴叽的身子走着。 简易房昏暗的灯光里，何大妈把其他孩子带出去，哄着睡觉。文秀给小妹擦洗着身子。海光蹲在锅台旁给她们烧水。何大妈看见了小妹就亲热地喊：“哎哟！我的宝贝儿，你跑到哪儿去了？可把大妈给急坏了！”小妹说她给文秀阿姨送雨伞。何大妈极麻溜地扒掉小妹的衣服，放进一只大盆里，大盆里是海光早就预备好的洗澡水。何大妈笑着问：“凉不凉啊？” 她的手里拿着一只暖壶往里面蓄水。小妹摇着头说：“热了，热了。” 文秀笑着看了看何大妈说：“大妈，您回去吧。” 何大妈不放心地盯住文秀说：“好吧，孩子们都吃饭了，那个大茶缸子里是糖姜水，一会儿你们喝了它，饭我在锅里焐着呢，先洗澡再吃饭。” 海光朝何大妈摆了摆手：“哎，大妈。你可真是位大家长啊！” 何大妈说：“啥家长呦，这片儿的事情啊，我不管了！” 海光笑了笑问：“退了？” 何大妈笑了笑说：“你说这人吧，可真怪，刚地震那会儿，好得呀，一个人似的，啥也不分你的我的。慢慢的有了吃的，有了喝的，有了穿的，就过不到一块儿了。说声散伙就散伙，我这家长也就退休了！” 海光也有一番感慨：“这很正常，咱们又重演了一遍社会发展史，由原始共产主义到私有制了。” 何大妈说：“你说的那个我也不懂，我知道人啊，不能得好，得好他就变了。” 文秀瞪着眼睛问：“你是说，还要人们吃二遍苦，受二茬罪？” 何大妈撇了撇嘴说：“死丫头，胡说吧你，我走了。”说着就颤颤地走出门去。走到了门口，何大妈回头看了看文秀和海光，忽然有了一个什么想法出来，轻轻地笑了笑。 文秀为小妹洗完澡，海光给小妹盛了一碗米饭。文秀把一块布帘子使劲一拉说：“海光，你也洗一洗吧。” “不了，一会儿我得回去，还得赶稿子！”海光说。 文秀心疼地看着他：“总得吃了饭啊！” 海光说：“是得吃饭，我刚下火车，还没吃饭呢！” 文秀给海光递过来饭菜。海光狼吞虎咽地吃着。 文秀用床单隔出一个角落，找出一身男人的衣服递给海光：“吃完了，换换衣服。” 海光一愣：“这是谁的？” 文秀平静地说：“家里的。” “家里的？”海光更加迷惑。 文秀眼圈红了：“唐生的东西，战士们扒出来，都给我送来了。” 海光愣着，马上放下碗筷，什么也吃不进去了。 两个人闷了好长时间，文秀才开始吃饭。她轻轻地叹了一声，眼睛失去了神采，嘴角也不再俏丽，有股说不出来的隐痛。二十三岁的文秀，正值浪漫多情的年华，可是眼下被灾难折磨得像垂暮的老妇了。海光没吃什么就饱了，他走到黑暗处去洗澡了。海光在角落里脱衬衫，衬衫兜里有一用塑料薄膜包着的小包落在床铺上，他没有看到。温水冲在他健美的身体上，才渐渐感觉到了活着的愉快。他洗澡的时候，文秀侧着身子看见灯影将海光的身体投印在墙上，她看了许久，仿佛是唐生就在她的身边洗澡，震前那个闷热的傍晚，唐生洗澡时的情景不就是眼前的事么？她不敢往下看了，紧紧闭上了眼睛。 海光洗完澡把水端出来，看见文秀的脸色十分苍白，额头出了一片虚汗。海光担心地看着她问：“文秀，你怎么了？哪儿不舒服吗？” “没事儿！”文秀喉咙干哑，看她那无助的模样很是让人怜惜。其实文秀的心情不再是痛苦，她与唐生真情地爱过了，而且唐生为她而死了，她不虚此生。 经过了几天的忙碌，文秀终于把孩子们上学的事情办好了。附近的小学校就要恢复，文秀和何大妈给孩子们缝置了书包，买了笔和本。只有小妹没法上学，在文秀替小妹着急的时候，黑子不知从什么地方冒出来了，说要把小妹接到盲人区去，文秀没有答应黑子，不是盲人居住区不好，而是文秀总是觉得小妹不应该离开她的身边。 “你不能把小妹的前途耽误了啊！”黑子用很冷硬的口气说。文秀知道二猛是为了小妹好，可是她不允许他这样跟她说话。她狠狠地瞪了他一眼：“放屁！我觉得小妹不会成为盲人，等各方面的条件好了，我就带着小妹去北京治眼睛，你懂吗？” “你！”黑子被噎住了，其实他何曾不想让小妹的眼睛亮起来呢？这些天，黑子和眼镜捡破烂挣钱，为的是给小妹治眼睛。他还替小妹准备了一条后路，眼睛实在不行了，就让小妹跟着鼓书艺人白绍良学艺。白绍良是盲人艺人，家住铁路旁的东风小区，那是市里的螺丝厂，震前有很多盲人艺人把民政局安置在这里，一边生产一边搞文艺演出。黑子为了巴结白绍良，给白绍良一家搭了简易棚，还送水送面。 “亏你想得出来，把小妹送到盲人区！”文秀气愤地吼着，“你要是再说一句，就马上给我滚出去！” 黑子不敢看文秀的眼睛，双手抱着脑门儿蹲下了，讷讷地说：“我也是盼着小妹的眼睛好起来，可是我怕万一，将来小妹也好有个饭碗儿！自己能活命啊！” 文秀心里忽然一热，知道自己冤枉了他，想了想说：“二猛，我错怪你了，你是好心，好心啊！” 黑子抬脸看了看文秀，没再说什么。文秀和唐生埋在废墟里的时候，黑子还是凶恶的灵魂，他被扒出来以后就变了。他曾经看见鼓书艺人白绍良领着盲人演唱队，拿着从废墟里把扒出来的胡琴、三弦和锣鼓，走街串巷搞宣传，给人们鼓劲。黑子很爱听乐亭大鼓，白绍良和他的女徒弟边说边唱，把动物园震散的老虎、猴子都引过来了。黑子惊奇的是老虎竟然都被阵蔫了，没有伤人。回收老虎的时候，黑子自愿参加了，他把老虎引到临时笼子，让很多人都替他捏着一把汗。黑子说：“文秀，白绍良可是鼓书名人啊，你这个舞蹈演员一点都不知道？” 文秀说：“知道，我听过他的大鼓书！” 黑子说：“那你还怕啥？你要是不放心，我带你到白老师那里看看！” “二猛，你未免太急了点，我得跟海光和何大妈商量商量！”文秀说。 黑子叹息了一声说：“人家白老师要收徒了，不会总等着的！” “我记着呢！”文秀说。 “我先走了！”黑子从兜里摸出一把红头绳和雪花膏，迟疑了一下说，“这是我给小妹和你买的！” “你哪儿来的钱啊？” “你别管，反正不是偷的抢的！” “谢谢你二猛！” 黑子憨厚地朝文秀笑了笑，好像还有话要说。 文秀说：“二猛，你还有事儿吗？” 黑子吞吞吐吐地说：“我，我盼望你还能跳舞！”他的面部表情好像突然活过来了，本来很丑陋的地方也俊气了。 文秀感到很惊讶：“你，你原先看过我跳舞？” “嗯！”黑子点点头。 文秀心里震了一下。震后的日子里，文秀还从没听过谁说出这样的话，好像舞蹈跟她再也没有关系似的。失去唐生的日子里，她总觉得走到了艺术舞台的最后一幕了。What's going on today?怎么会从“二猛”嘴里说出这种话来呢？而且这话使她冰冷的心沸腾起来？埋在废墟里的时候，唐生提过给她设计的舞蹈，这张设计方案她还保存着。只是为了怀念唐生，阻止其他的男人走进自己的内心，他才将几个孤儿收养起来麻醉自己。是的，她的舞蹈生涯虽说没有太大的成功，可它留下的印痕很美。竟然是黑子这样一个粗俗的人点醒了她，她还有更重要的事情去做啊！为了唐生也要做啊！ “二猛，谢谢你的提醒，真的谢谢你！”文秀眼睛湿润了。 黑子憨憨一笑，露出那颗黄牙，转身要走。 文秀说等海光回来一起吃晚饭，黑子好像害怕海光，说他还有个哥们儿等着他就走了，走到门口的时候，脚下好像有什么东西绊了一下，跌跌撞撞地走了。 送走了黑子，文秀感到从没有过的孤独。屋里没有人，小妹跟着何大妈玩去了，其他的孩子上学去了。她找出了那张染着唐生血迹的舞蹈设计图，图纸上的血迹变成了黑色。她看图纸的时候，全然没有了看车票时的伤感。她找出了那双红舞鞋，红色在她的眼前洇开了。她慢慢穿上红舞鞋，脑子里好像回荡着歌剧《白毛女》的舞曲。她演过喜儿，喜儿盼望大春归来那场戏就走到眼前来了。“大春儿——”她在内心里呼喊着，麻利地舞动着身子。最初的一个旋转是那么地轻盈。尖尖的脚尖轻轻地划着地面，好像落叶滚过她的裙边，发出充满个人激情的悄声吟唱。她白皙的双臂摆动得是那么自由灵活。她的眼睛从没有像现在这样清澈，像一双美丽的鹿眼。她知道自己丢失了一段生命，她在追寻，她在拼命地追寻。她兴奋地喊着：“唐生，你看见了吗？我还能跳，我还能跳舞哩！”房间里没有人答话，更没有唐生的影子。过去文秀是个很傲气的女孩，在歌舞团里她也是最漂亮的演员，她从想过去追求哪个男人，她自恃天生丽质，老是等着别人来怜香惜玉，这个时候唐生主动闯进了她的生活。 舞着跳着，文秀忽然一阵头晕，天旋地转，呼吸紧促，扑通一声栽倒在地。 没有人到来，文秀失去了知觉。大约过了一个小时，海光回来了。海光提着一兜苹果走进来，忽然看见昏倒在地的文秀，浑身颤动，眼里的光都给吓散了。他抱起软软的文秀喊着：“文秀，文秀，你怎么了？” 文秀没有睁眼，脸色苍白。 海光继续摇着她的肩膀喊了两句，文秀还是没有睁眼。他看见她手里紧紧攥着一张染着血迹的纸，脚上穿着红舞鞋，就什么都明白了。 海光喊上何大妈把文秀送进了开滦煤矿简易医院。 星星出来了，文秀才被抢救过来。其实昏迷状态的文秀比平时更加静美。文秀缓缓睁开眼睛，满眼都是白色。不知道自己怎么来到这里？海光微笑着看着她，她的苏醒使海光长出了一囗气，悬着的心稳当了一些。文秀扭动着憔悴而惶惑的脸问：“海光，我这是怎么了？”海光嗔怨地说：“你还来问我，我到要问你呢！”文秀竭力回忆着，回忆自己跌到时的情景。 “文秀，你会回到舞台上去的！”海光安慰说，“不过，医生说你现在的身体挺不住！真的挺不住！听话，啊？” 文秀伤感地说：“我几乎都忘记舞蹈！是二猛提醒了我！” “二猛是在害你！”海光很愤怒。 “不，他是好意！”文秀说。 海光沉吟着没回话。 “姐夫，你看我还能返回舞台吗？” “行，怎么不行？” “我完了，我真的完了！” “别悲观！你会战胜自己的！” 文秀猛地一把抓住海光的手，十分可怜地乞求着：“你跟我说真话，我伤在哪里？我又得了什么病？” “你感冒了！” “不，你骗我！” 海光叹息了一声：“真的，大夫说你是重感冒引发急性肺炎！过几天就回好的。” 文秀摸了摸自己的身体，发现自己几近全裸的身体，就知道是海光全都看见了。她有点害羞地地问：“姐夫，是你一直陪着我的？”海光说：“不仅是我陪着你，还是我发现你昏了过去，把你背到医院来的！”她想说得潇洒些，但声音还是在发抖。因为文秀昏迷时的样子真让他害怕。海光看着文秀，文秀仿佛变成了一座雕塑。当时背文秀的时候，她的裙子带子开了，露出了白皙的裸体，这样娇好的体态使海光一震。比文燕的裸体还要美丽。只是他根本没时间去看甚至是没有心情去看暴露着她的裸体。如果是在震前，她的下意识动作也会促使她把带子重新系好，即使只有她和海光两个人，姐夫必定是姐夫。“小姨子是姐夫的半个。”这种说法是文秀所鄙夷的。记得当时，在海光的呼喊下，文秀似乎醒了一下，她感到羞怯的神经麻痹了，根本不知道怎样遮蔽自己。 文秀用感激的目光看着海光，神情还是恍恍惚惚。过了一会儿，文秀四处寻找什么。海光问她找什么？文秀问那张舞蹈图纸呢？海光耐心地告诉她，图纸一直在她的手里攥着，攥得那么紧。直到医生给她抢救的时候，海光才慢慢从她的手里抽出来，珍藏在自己的衣兜里。 文秀满足的眼光一闪，那长睫毛就盖住了黑黑的眼睛：“你早就应该给我。” 海光慢慢将文秀扶起来。文秀拿着图纸，脊背上忽然穿过一阵寒意。唐生这个冤家啊，你为什么在告别这个世界的之后还要给我留下这张图纸？文秀注定会为舞蹈付出代价的。她把对唐生的思念转幻成激情。满腔压抑的激情，如火般烧灼着。她把图纸慢慢放低胸前，自言自语地说：“唐生，我会演出来给你看！给你看！”海光分明感觉到她那激情中隐匿了一些什么危险的东西。他不无伤感地想：都怪我啊，如果我不让文燕去找向书记，他们就会坐上火车走了。如果我不把文燕带到煤矿，唐生也许会躲过这一场劫难。文秀就能跟唐生美满地生活了！尽管文秀没有再提这个事情，可他却深深自责着。这将是他永远背负的良心债啊！ 文秀举着图纸，晃到海光的眼前说：“姐夫，震前他专门给我设计的，也是他送给我的结婚礼物。” 海光难过地摆摆手：“文秀，别活在梦里了，你先把图纸藏起来，睡一会儿吧，我不说了，你也别说话。” 文秀看见海光的眼睛都熬红了，喃喃地说：“好，我睡，我睡，你也睡吧。” 海光摇了摇头：“不，今儿，我是护士。” 文秀床边还有一张床，海光没有睡意。文秀慢慢闭上眼睛，两颗硕大的泪珠一滴滴滚落脸颊。 海光看着睡去的文秀，心里不是个滋味。陡河电厂一号机组已经恢复发电，废墟上的供电了。海光把电灯炮拧得暗一些，灰暗的窗帘静悄悄地掩着，使病房里的光线格外柔和。文秀的脸庞渐渐在他眼前清晰起来，文秀长得多像她的姐姐文燕啊？他梦中的岁月再也不会回来了吗？他与文燕在春天的城西凤凰湖边散步。湖边的风带着凉意，那份宁静和深深的绿意却是醉人的。他们彼此注视着不是一句话，爱真是突如其来，在女人还来不及塑造心中幸福，它就闯进来了。海光感到爱的最美境界，是两心的默许，而未着一字的时候。 他深深地低下头，双手支着下颏沉思着。 “唐生，唐生，你看见我跳舞了吗？”文秀忽然嚷了起来。 海光的心不禁一跳。知道是文秀在睡梦中说的胡话。他不知所措地俯身看她。文秀突然一下子挺直了身子，一把抓住海光的手，紧紧攥着。 “文秀，你躺下睡吧！”海光扶惊悸中的文秀躺下。 文秀缓缓地躺下了，可是嘴里还在自语着：“唐生，唐生……追吧，追吧，那张纸飞了，飞得多高啊！” 海光将秀的眼神沉浸在一层梦幻之中，劝说：“文秀，快睡吧！” 文秀跑下了床，被海光紧紧抱住，使劲把她拉到病床上。 文秀躺下嘴里又咕哝了一阵，喉咙暗哑了，脸色像月光一样苍白。海光看着她重新睡了，也不敢马上抽出自己的手。文秀的睡姿像一只无声的小猫，轻轻地煽动着鼻孔。他用另一只手去摸文秀的额头，她马上想起自己也曾这样抚摸过文燕的额头。文秀睡着的文秀很安详、很美。海光眼睛又恍惚了，文燕静静地躺在土地上。她的身上裹着绿色的军毯，军毯上扎着三条洁白的缎带，缎带上落满了新鲜的泥土。 “你这是怎么了？”海光的整个脑袋像要炸裂般地痛楚起来，不断地埋怨着自己。别去想文燕了，她已经死了。