Chapter 59 Chapter Fifty-Eight "Finally Abandoned Without Heart"

Shanshan has always been loved by her father and elder brother.Her one-year-old son is loved even more by his grandfather and uncle.The mother and son came to Nanjing this time, bringing warmth and fun to the Su family who had lived in loneliness for a long time, and obviously relieved the indifferent and tense atmosphere between the Su family and his son. Suzanne called her brother.On Sunday afternoon, Su Guanlan came to her father's secluded and unique courtyard.He guessed what was or might be talked about.He knew that Ding Jieqiong must be talked about.It just so happened that he was also planning to have such a conversation, and perhaps he could catch something from the old man's conversation.Where is Miss Joan?How did Miss Joan disappear?He really wanted to go to the United States to find Sister Qiong, but that was just thinking about it; the United States is so big, where can I find Sister Qiong?Yes, Sister Qiong spent most of her time in California after arriving in the United States. She lived in Pasadena and Berkeley successively, and worked at the Institute of Technology and the University of California. But Su Guanlan knew that Sister Qiong would not be found there.People will say that they don't know where Dr. Ding has moved, you can try to find it at "New Mexico Box 1779" - and this idea is far from the most embarrassing and scary...

Su Guanlan is not a person who has a big heart and is good at covering up.It can be seen that when he came to his father's residence, he seemed uneasy and had a strange expression.After returning to Nanjing after the war, the father and son seemed to have reached a tacit agreement, that is, they no longer talked about the "marriage contract" between Guanlan and Hanzi, nor did they talk about his relationship with the woman on the other side of the ocean.Today, an exception was finally made.Both father and son want to get something out of this "exception"... "Guanlan," Su Fengqi often speaks so straightforwardly, "Did my sister tell you about Ding Jieqiong's change of heart?"

"What, tell me what?" Su Guanlan suspected that she had heard wrong. "Ding Jieqiong changed his mind," Su Fengqi emphasized, "abandoned you." Isn't this obviously repeating old techniques and sowing discord?But because of this, Su Guanlan didn't contradict, didn't talk too much, just asked: "How did Shanshan know?" "I told her," Su Fengqi leisurely lit a cigar while observing his son's facial expression.In fact, because of his advancing age and bronchitis, he had not smoked for a long time. "I told Shanshan the day before yesterday."

Su Guanlan looked at her father, waiting for the old man to continue. "To be honest, my dear son, I have been hiding this from you for a long time, and I don't want to provoke you." Su Fengqi puffed out a puff of smoke, leaned back, and swayed Erlang's legs, "But when I was chatting with Shanshan, I inadvertently leaked it." Some situations. And my sister loves and cares about you, so she will definitely tell you what I said. In this case, I think it’s better for us to talk face to face between father and son. And, this matter should also be talked about. "

"Is there any evidence?" Su Guanlan interrupted her father. "What evidence?" "Evidence of Ding Jieqiong's change of heart." "How big of a deal is this, do we still need 'evidence'?" Su Fengqi shrugged and smiled slightly, "A man changes his mind or a woman changes his mind—this kind of thing has happened day and night since the existence of human beings, millions of people Trillions and trillions. They didn't happen and exist because there was 'evidence'." "I don't care about other people's affairs, I just hope you can produce evidence on Ding Jieqiong's issue!" —— Su Guanlan originally planned to say this, but finally fell silent.He thought, let's listen to what the old man said, how to make it up.

"Actually," Su Fengqi looked at his son with a calm expression, "If you want to talk about evidence, the evidence is in your heart." "what did you say?" "Guanlan," the old man said, turning around, "it's quite cold now, let's see what the temperature is." "How do you look at it?" Su Guanlan looked around seriously, "What do you use to look at it?" "The eyes are the eyes, so see with your eyes." "How can you see the temperature with your eyes?" "Can't see? Okay, Guanlan, let's grab the temperature." Su Fengqi said, stretching out his left hand to grab the air, "You can know how many degrees Fahrenheit or Celsius it is if you grab it."

"What do you mean?" Su Guanlan was tongue-tied, "Take the temperature with your hands?" "Since the temperature cannot be seen or grasped," the old man seemed to be talking to his little grandson from Kunming, "how do people know it exists?" "People have feelings, and there are thermometers." "That's right, my dear son!" Su Fengqi exclaimed, "Yes, the temperature can't be seen or grasped, but it can be measured by sensory perception and a thermometer. The United States is a country that strongly protects the right to privacy, so It is not easy to find direct evidence for things like temperature changes, which is a bit like the invisibility of temperature; but indirect evidence is not difficult to find, just as people's perception and measurement of temperature—especially the readings on a thermometer, can be regarded as direct evidence. evidence."

Su Guanlan waited for her father's "reading". "Let's talk openly and honestly." Su Fengqi stared at her son with cold and sharp eyes, "After Ding Jieqiong went to study in the United States, the two of you have maintained a passionate relationship, the fish and geese exchanged love, and the correspondence was frequent. Every letter was a love letter, and it was very long. , and it’s all touching, it’s heart-warming—is that true?” This is true.Could it be that my father saw those letters without a single letter?This, how is this possible?Su Guanlan braced herself and listened, feeling very confused.

"But since some time about three years ago, Ding Jieqiong's letters to you have decreased sharply, less and less; the letters have also been written very short, shorter and shorter-is that so?" It could be seen that even though Su Guanlan didn't say a word, every word and syllable her father said hit his heart violently! "Ding Jieqiong's reason is that she often travels far away to engage in observations of one kind or another. The location is wandering and contact is difficult. She also often says that she is too busy to write long letters to you—and you How I wish to see her letters, especially long letters!"

Su Guanlan lowered her head, bit her lower lip, her back was covered with sweat. "She didn't even use the correspondence office in Berkeley anymore, but changed it to a 'mailbox' in the vast desert; she even changed her name to 'Jiang Menghong', and didn't explain the reason for the name change. In the end, it was simply a non-existence Miss Jiang Menghong also disappeared—is that the case?" Su Guanlan's breathing was rapid, her pulse quickened, and she was sweating profusely.He didn't answer his father's questions, and his father obviously didn't want him to answer, but just let him listen, listen.

"You are not a fool. You can see that her letters are not only getting shorter and shorter, but also more and more boring, and how cold her tone and title have become, obviously trying to prevaricate you. You are confused, anxious, painful, writing letters again and again Go, to inquire, to question; she seldom replies, and replies are also vague, without telling the truth, without making any substantive explanations. This situation continues until the end of the war, and the end of the war means that you have been with her for more than a dozen years. Romantic or hallucinations, or dreams, or fairy tales, or innocence, or self-deception - whatever you say, it's the end anyway - this is also a fact, right?" "Father!" A begging call came from Shanshan.She couldn't bear to watch her brother suffer.The old man glared at her immediately, which reminded Suzanne of the agreement before the conversation: she was only allowed to "listen in" and not to interrupt. "Go on, Dad." Su Guanlan was much calmer.He is a scientist after all.He knew that his father's feeling was right, and the "thermometer" was also very accurate.What her father said was the truth, a fact that Su Guanlan had personally experienced and was almost overwhelmed with pain.Listening to his father's scolding and sarcasm, he was very sad; but compared with the pain he suffered in the long years when he felt the alienation and neglect of Sister Qiong until he finally lost Sister Qiong, what is this?Indeed, betrayal, divorce and mutual abandonment between men and women are common occurrences, but parents who do not love their children have never happened; maybe the way of love is wrong, but fatherly love and motherly love itself are eternal... "Very good, kid." Su Fengqi praised.He looked at the extinguished cigar, put it on the ashtray calmly, picked up the coffee and took two sips, and then talked eloquently, "How to explain all this? Yes, she might be sick. But who the hell Have you been sick for several years? And even if you are really sick, you can still write letters or make phone calls on the sickbed, and it is very convenient to make overseas calls after the war.” "Of course, she could have moved to another university or graduate school. It's easier, easier to write or call than on a sickbed, and convenient, if she still loves you. "Also, she may have had an accident, such as a car accident or other accidents - but Ding Jieqiong is not an ordinary person, but a professor; if there is a mistake, the newspaper will not fail to report it. In addition, she is a government official. When it’s over, there will be a notification between the officials of the two countries, will I not know? Don’t forget that I am still an adviser to the Ministry of Foreign Affairs of the Republic of China.” Su Guanlan actually understands the "reasons" that Su Fengqi said, and even thought about it ten thousand times!Father is not only an outstanding astronomer, but also an outstanding mathematician—it should be admitted that his logical deduction just now is rigorous and completely in line with the laws of mathematics... "Father," Suzanna was confused and forgot the agreement that she was only allowed to "listen in", "Then, then, what's going on?" "You already know: Ding Jieqiong changed her mind and abandoned your brother." Su Fengqi turned to her daughter, "She probably also felt guilty, so she procrastinated, hesitated, and gradually cooled down. At least let your brother get used to it. And As for your brother's fiery long letters, she received them, stuffed them in the fireplace, and burned them." "Really?" Shanshan was shocked. "Otherwise, why didn't you see a reply to so many letters sent by your brother to the United States later? Even if the recipient died, disappeared, or moved to an unknown place, the post office would explain the situation and send the letter to you. Come back. You, and your brother, can you find any other logical explanation?" Su Fengqi turned her eyes from her daughter's face to her son's, "You know, I have always liked the British, but not the British. Yankees. But the fact is that I also have many American friends, more than British friends; many of them are prominent and important. So, I know almost everything about Ding Jieqiong in the United States. Don't you mean 'evidence'? Actually, I have The first-hand evidence has been obtained, but it will not be presented today and in the future.” "Why?" Shanshan's eyes widened. "Things called 'evidence' should be used to prove something a thousand times more important than this—otherwise, can I still be called a 'master of science'? Wouldn't I be a petty citizen?" Su Guanlan and Suzanna looked at each other, speechless.After a long time, Shanshan muttered, and asked a question that my brother dared not ask: "She, Ding Jieqiong, how is she doing now?" "She's married." Su Fengqi lit the cigar again, puffing out the smoke. Su Guanlan's whole body trembled - God, this is the news that made him feel the most embarrassing and frightening!What made him even more shudder was his father's expression and tone when he talked about this matter... "Count it up, it's been two years, right? Oh, no, almost three years." Su Fengqi went on to say, his expression seemed to be recalling, thinking, "I heard that she is very happy, and she seems to have a child. She should still be Love your brother, after all, it is the first love, and it has lasted for so many years. But things will change, not to mention being separated by oceans; marriage is very specific, not only the union of two sexes, not only emotional compatibility, but more importantly, money, A perfect match of identity, status, and prestige. Cough, anyway, for Ding Jieqiong, it is to abandon the old and make new ones, get rid of emotional troubles, and live a life that a woman should live; for your brother, it is...how? What do you mean? It can be regarded as 'finally being ruthlessly abandoned'!" Su Guanlan listened and endured the torment without saying a word. "Who did she marry?" Shanshan couldn't help asking. "By the way, that man's name is Olmhos." "Ah, it really is him... Olmhos!" Su Guanlan heard a loud bang in her head, as if a bomb had detonated. On the other side, Su Fengqi continued to say: "He, that Mr. Olmhos, is Ding Jieqiong's colleague and a physicist, and he is very famous—yes, among colleagues, we get along day and night. Easy to develop feelings. After marriage, they went to the beach house to live a secluded life. That's right: tired enough, enough money, enough fame, don't go to seclusion, when? Besides, I think, There's another reason—" "Another reason?" Suzanne asked. "Ding Jieqiong was afraid that your brother would go to the United States to pester him endlessly, so he simply lived in seclusion so that he could not be found. After a few years like this, he will be able to get rid of it completely!" "Brother!" Shanshan suddenly let out a scream and rushed towards Su Guanlan.Su Fengqi then turned her gaze, only to realize that her son had quietly stood up at some point, pushed away the rattan chair, and walked towards the entrance of the hall.However, as soon as he took a step, his eyes were filled with golden flowers, a cloud of black mist surged in his mind, and his body swayed.If it wasn't for his sister's timely support, he would have fallen heavily! Su Guanlan seemed to have lost her vision and motor abilities for a moment.He bit his lips tightly, reminding himself not to lose his composure. At the same time, relying on his sister, he barely supported himself and walked forward slowly.Fortunately, Shanshan is a medical student, and fortunately, Ye Yuhan prepared a large amount of medicines and medical equipment for her father, and now they are all in use.Su Guanlan lay down on the next bed, followed by her father and A Ding; the younger sister brought a thermometer, blood pressure monitor, stethoscope, etc., and untied her brother's collar... Su Guanlan closed her eyes, she couldn't see, but she could hear her, so she heard her younger sister's scolding, obviously she was scolding her father: "Look at you, what did you say!" "It was you who asked this and that." The father defended, "It was originally agreed, and you are only allowed to listen in, and you are not allowed to interrupt." "Father, you meant to hurt my brother!" Shanshan angrily said. Su Fengqi looked at her daughter and paused every word: "No, I'm saving him!"