Chapter 22 Middle-aged widowed

Leslie Cheung is dead.He is not my idol.But the event gave me a chance to talk about idols and "widowhood".If Leslie Cheung was a karmic fate, there was one event before and after that formed an "international meeting": one week before April Fool's Day, I read a report in the newspaper about Luo Dayou and the "Shanghai Elite Talks", "I was very excited to face the idol, and my heart was beating hard." ( Yan Fengyu, a professor at Fudan University).Second, on TV, Li Ao shocked Zhang Zhi to commit suicide because of AIDS. My surprise is not whether the "material" is fierce or not, but his old man's attitude in reporting: "I'm not talking nonsense, I have reliable news

of.Let's not forget who my ex-wife is.I am also very well informed about news in the entertainment industry. " "Don't forget who my ex-wife is" - these words sound familiar.I remembered that when Li Ao was imprisoned in the Military Law Detention Center, he wrote a song that later became famous, and the name was "Forget who I am".From "Forget Who I Am" to "Forget Me, Forget Who My Ex-Wife Is", the cynicism has become the tone of Yuji.Years, TV, one ruins people more than the other. Back then, I had the opportunity to show my love to Luo Dayou face to face. Unfortunately, the dinner hosted by the idol was too rich, so that I patronized and buried myself in the hot pot, full of admiration, and paid for the pot of Tao Tao Fertilizer.In any case, the above two attitudes strengthened my courage, and I was able to take advantage of others, let go of my arms, and do what I always wanted to do but never dared to do-Leslie Cheung died.I'm not his fan.My idol is actually Momoe Yamaguchi.The death of the country and the love of Baihui are all because of "The Wind Continues to Blow"-the former sang at the farewell concert in the Red Hall in 1989, which is a translation of the latter's "Goodbye to the Other Side" (or "Goodbye to the Other Side").In fact, my brother, like all the stars of the same age, loves to cover Japanese songs, "Monica" is adapted from Yoshikawa Koji, "Refused to Play Again" is adapted from Safe Zone, adapted from Yoshikawa Koji, and so on.Guorong bid farewell to fans with "The Wind Continues to Blow" at the farewell concert, weeping and crying several times; 19 years ago, Baihui sang "The Other Side of Goodbye" on the same occasion sadly but not complaining, Resentment but not injury - in this year, Momoe Yamaguchi became my idol.This year, I was a freshman, and I enrolled in September. One month later, Momoe Yamaguchi held a farewell concert at Tokyo Budokan. Another month later, I married Miura Yukazu at Reinahan Christian Church and announced my retirement from the entertainment industry. Another month later Later, Lennon was assassinated in New York—it was a lost time, the twilight of idols.

But loving idols is the same as patriotism, in no particular order.Idols are in place during our courtship period, and their role is limited to signifiers. After a long incubation period, the signified can be manifested, and the form and concept of "idols" are gradually formed. When we remember our personal history on this lonely planet Only then will the "star" illuminate the past with a virtual light, "on the mountain overhead it walks slowly, hiding its face among a group of stars", and we use this to get in touch with others, seek comfort, and finally generate meaning.This effect is just like what Ms. Mao Jian, a professor of East China Normal University, confessed to Luo Dayou: "I was very excited two days ago, and I shouted everywhere: I can see Luo Dayou. Because you are like one of our lovers when you were young. , I grew up listening to your songs. When I was young, I had a special feeling for you like a lover, but when we met, I found that there was no excitement. I think I have grown up. Can you please sing for us One, let us go back to the 1980s?" (according to "Southern Weekend") In other words, idols are similar to metafiction in terms of narrative function, beyond the narrator of the text, always consciously or unconsciously Complete the mission of reviewing, reflecting and questioning.

Sadly, the end of the aforementioned incubation period is always marked by the disappearance of the idol.A clear concept of time is involved here. "Songs are easy to give people illusions. Songs are the medium. Your life is close to reality through my songs. Time plays an important role in this." (Luo Dayou responded to Mao Jianyu) I want to play the "idol game" to the fullest The merits and virtues are complete, and the idol must withdraw quickly and decisively at an appropriate time, and disappear from the sight of the fans. "The author is dead", the wandering text belongs to the majority of readers and is no longer the idol's personal narrative, just like in Zhang Fan's mind, the original authors and original singers of the songs that his brother sang not only "dead" long ago, but even did not exist at all. existed.In this regard, Momoe Yamaguchi can be called a perfect example. When you say goodbye, you say goodbye. A man, if you can’t say it, don’t say it: Thank you... Sayonara no kawarini, don’t even say goodbye, play a real "curtain call", and then refuse play again.

"Widowed" is the key word in this game.It is a craft that requires a high degree of tacit understanding between idols and admirers.The fake death like Momoe Yamaguchi is the real "death of the author", not Leslie Cheung's choice. There is nothing worse than death.As far as his career is concerned, Leslie Cheung is actually quite sober: "I admire retired artists. Baihui retired more than ten years ago. At that time, I didn't seem to have entered the industry. I watched TV and was moved to tears. I think being an artist should not let the audience Seeing your bottom, so that your impression in their minds will last forever. If Jamesden stays in the entertainment industry until now, it will definitely not be a myth anymore. "The lost idol saves us, middle age" "Widowed" is even more fortunate.Idols are one of the "little myths" of our humble lives by which we become our own critics.According to Barthes, criticism is not science. "Science explores meaning, and criticism produces meaning." As an idol, it is not advisable to take the initiative to destroy the body, but after the suspended animation, he will have face-to-face talks with fans in the form of "apparition" to carry out criticism and communication. Self-criticism, revealing each other's old background, whether it is exploring meaning or producing meaning, will eventually make the whole thing meaningless.