Chapter 34 Destination

Destination On a cold morning, my mother came to Shanghai suddenly.It was my cousin-in-law Shiren who accompanied her into my room, and then the coachman brought in many large and small net basket packages. To my surprise, I couldn't help rubbing my eyes and said, "Huh, mother?" She was laughing, no, she seemed to be crying again. At that time, someone answered for her: "Auntie missed you very much, so she decided to come to Shanghai with me. I left in a hurry and didn't have time to inform you. ——Sister, how are you and the children?" It was then that I thought of Lingling and Yuanyuan, who had never seen grandma's face, hurriedly approached the bed and shouted: "Get up, grandma is here!"

Lingling glanced at her mother with a smile, but said nothing, and asked me again: "Mom, she...does she want a grandma?" I said, "Yes." Then she called out in a low voice. "Grandma", the mother no longer cared about the time when people were around, and quickly came over and held her face to look at it, and asked, "Where is my Yuan Yuan? Yuan Yuan's head was buried under the quilt, and it was slightly lifted." The one who was peeping from the corner of the quilt head, after his mother said so, he quickly got into the bed, and he refused to stick his head out again, so the mother didn't force her, just arched against him in the quilt Arched body said: "Yuan Yuan, don't be shy, grandma brought you a lot of country food! "After speaking, I saw that the corner of the quilt was lifted up again, Yuan Yuan's Wuzhuozhuo eyes were rolling, and the mother couldn't help smiling when she saw it.

Laughing, filled this small room. When the man left, we did not keep him.So my mother was busy unpacking and taking out peach cakes, mincemeat cakes, melon seeds in soy sauce, etc. The children clamored to eat them. I asked the maid to help them dress, but my mother said: "Sing, let's go under the covers first." The same goes for some cakes. "I couldn't help thinking that they hadn't rinsed their mouths yet, but mother had already torn apart the marmalade and distributed it to them, and they rushed to give it to their mouths, what more could I say? The mincemeat is made of polished rice, embedded with walnut meat, sweet and soft. Lingling stuck it to the quilt, unable to tear it off, so had to bite it with her teeth, and Yuan Yuan stuffed it into her mouth whole. No, greed is not enough, still rushing to lick the cake that Lingling stuck to the quilt, the two quarreled over this.

The mother called them quickly and said, "Lingling Yuanyuan, don't make trouble, grandma still has good things!" As she said, she took out a small bowl from the bottom of the basket. The mouth of the bowl was covered with thick paper, and my mother uncovered it. Go, reach in and feel for a while, and then happily say: "Forget it, not even one egg is broken." Then he took out two bright and cute little loves for me to watch, Yuan Yuan yelled to see it too , Mother said: "The eggs are raw, they must be boiled to taste, Yuan Yuan and sister get up quickly, ask your mother to cook some for you."

I thought to myself that eggs are the most common thing. My mother put them in a bowl, arranged the crumbs, and brought them to Shanghai from a long distance. Wouldn't it be troublesome?But my mother refused to think this way. She said that she bought four chicks this year, and there were only two left when they were raised. They were both females. She wanted to bring them to Shanghai for us to eat, but they would give birth. Eggs, one every day, never lazy. "I lifted up these eggs one by one, and now there are hundreds of them, how interesting." She said as she took out the eggs in the bowl one by one, put them on the table, and was afraid that she would roll down and break them Yes, tell me to fetch an empty washbasin.They are all small and exquisite oval things. The egg shells are very clean, only one is smeared with blood. According to my mother, it is the first-born egg of a black hen. eat.

She praised the two chickens again, one was black, the feathers were so black that they glistened, even the claws were no exception.The other one is a mixture of yellow, white and black, and she calls it a "flower vest", which means that it looks like it is wearing a flower vest.She loves them very much, so she is reluctant to bring them for us to eat, and puts them in the house of the sixth married sister next door. "I told her that I would go back for at least a month after I left this time, so I gave her a month's worth of chaff and rice." I said: "Mom, you are only alone in the country, you should live here forever, and you can also take care of Lingmei and Yuanyuan for me."

The mother seemed very happy too, so she said to the children who were getting out of bed: "That's fine, grandma will stop raising black hens and flower vests from now on, and help your mother take care of Lingling and Yuanyuan." The girl came with three bowls of custard, and the mother, who ate long belts, only smiled slightly to see how Yuan Yuanhou drank it eagerly. On the first day, everyone had a lot to say. The next day, I proposed to invite my mother to watch a Shaoxing opera, and then go to Gongdelin to eat vegetarian food after watching the opera.My mother didn't object much, she just said: "I'm afraid the money is too expensive." I said that it was rare for my mother to come, so I should go to play, and my mother said that I would take the children with me, so I had no choice but to obey her.

In the theater, Yuan Yuan clamored to buy food, but I refused. My mother always said that the children would not be bad if they could eat some candies.Later, we drank tea again and urinated when we drank too much. In this way, we would come out before the play was over, because my mother said that everyone would squeeze out after the play was over.Fear of losing the child.Eating vegetarian food in Gongdelin was also messy. First, Yuan Yuan knocked on the table with his chopsticks: "The food is coming soon!"My mother complained to me, saying that I ordered too many dishes, and these people couldn't eat them all. She wanted to ask them to borrow a paper bag to wrap up snacks and the like and take them home to eat.I advise my mother to forget it.My mother just felt sorry for it. After all, there was no other way, so she advised me to eat more. It made my stomach feel sad, and she seemed to be trying her best to swallow it.

On the third day, Lingling fell ill. The doctor said it was a cold and accumulated food, but the mother said that she did not eat as much as Yuan Yuan.Probably because there were too many cars passing by on the road, and the horns were blaring again, which frightened Jiao Didi's girl's house. After Lingling recovered from illness, Yuanyuan fell ill again, also with constipation and stomachache, so mother had nothing to say.Her old man is busy taking care of this for me, and she will always tell me what she needs to do according to that, and ask me to give her instructions.I said, "Mother, why do you have to be polite to the servant we hired?" My mother was silent for a while and said, "That's not the way it is said. It's hard to find a servant in Shanghai. If she leaves in a fit of anger, your Things are so busy, and I can't help you, how can this be good?"

Gradually, my mother's appetite also decreased.She no longer likes to drink strong and bitter tea.I don't smoke often, I just sit quietly on the sofa.At first I thought she was bored, so I forced her to go out, sometimes to the park, sometimes to watch Chinese movies.Every time she goes out, the mother always takes the children with her, but now she doesn’t buy much for them to eat. She just picks up toys and sends them to them. They are also very happy, but some things are broken before they are brought home. Look at the mother. She didn't look very heartbroken, she said that things were originally for children to play with, and if they were broken, it would count. After all, children are not as addictive as adults. If you buy toys, they won't break them, and there are so many toys on the street. What is the shop doing?

Later, I advocated not to take the children out, because it is important for them to study, and they often ask for leave, and I am afraid they will repeat the grade.Mother said nothing.But since then, she has no intention of watching or eating outside. She only cares about whether the little children will fall down, and she is afraid that if they use electric stoves, it is reported in the newspaper that the cause of each fire is not the electricity. On a lonely night, my mother finally said something to me. At first, I woke up suddenly from a dream. I seemed to hear the sound of my mother coughing in the next bed. I leaned over and looked out. Could it be that she was sitting on the bed smoking and coughing frequently?I asked: "Mom, do you want some flowers?" She said that was fine, but told me to get dressed and pour it for her.I put on my cheongsam and slippers as ordered, and when I wanted to turn on the light, my mother waved her hand and said no, she was afraid that the strong sunlight would wake up the children, and there was silver-gray moonlight outside the window, and I saw my mother’s solemn and terrifying face. I stood in front of her bed, bent down and handed the teapot to her, she took a few sips of it, and waved me to sit on the edge of the bed. went home. " I asked in amazement: "What's the matter, mother, aren't you used to living in Shanghai?" She said, "No, I can't let go of my own country affairs." "What else do you have to worry about in the country? The high taxes are far away now..." "It's those two chickens," the mother said sadly, "I think about them every day, and the bran and rice left for Aunt Six may soon be exhausted." "Then what's the point? Write a letter and ask Aunt Six to buy some for her. You can return them to her in the future. Otherwise, you can just give these two hens to Aunt Six." "They lay an egg every day, and they are never lazy." "What's so special about eggs? There are plenty of them in Shanghai!" I couldn't help laughing. My mother was very unhappy and said: "Everything seems normal to Lin, but you are not sensible, and you will be offended when you can't earn copper sleeves in the future." " I smiled triumphantly and said, "Mother, didn't I have no money when I got divorced? How did I manage to keep talking until now? As long as a person has a skill, he will never have to worry about food..." My mother interrupted me and said, "I hope you can always be like this. Oh, Ah Qing, do you know why I came to Shanghai this time? Is it to watch the excitement? I don't have such happy thoughts! I came to see you because I didn’t know how you live and what your children look like. It’s because I didn’t cultivate in my previous life that I met such a man in this life. But you don’t have to hate him , raise the child well, but in the end, are they still a good husband and wife? I only remember the first time he came to my house to be the new son-in-law. Re then called me Mom, unexpectedly now..." Her voice became a little sad, and I couldn't help interrupting her: "Mother, I have already divorced him, why are you still talking about him?" "Divorce is divorced, but husband and wife are husband and wife after all;" she said categorically, "in the future, when Yuan Yuan grows up, he will call you mother and call him father. Wouldn't he be ashamed to say no?" I shook my head and said nothing.The moonlight poured into the room like water.Mother drank two more sips of tea, and her face became more serious. After a long time, she put down the vegetable manager and said to me: "Ah Qing, tell me, you won't marry again? "..." I couldn't answer for a while, thinking to myself, if there is someone who fits my ideal, why would I not marry? "There is no good man in the world," she couldn't help saying sadly: "When they didn't marry you, their mouths would be as sweet as honey; when you are married to him, you still won't be Yi! You treat it like a rag and gently put it aside? Besides, you have sons and daughters..." "Mom, men these days have new ideas." I felt that she had hurt my self-esteem, so I couldn't help correcting her. She sneered and said: "Other ideas can be new, but this kind of idea will never be new. You will regret it when you are fooled for the second time. And it's not good to marry for the first time. If someone sympathizes with you, if you marry again If you don't take your seat, people will only laugh at you." I was impatient to hear it, so I said angrily: "In this way, I will never marry again." She thought I was really awakened, so she said happily: "This is my good boy."—Ah Qing, I have one more thing to tell you. I bought a cemetery in Huhuishan the month before last , Fengshui is very good, and the area is spacious, I want to go back and write a will, asking your brother to leave an open space when he builds our grave in the future, and you will be with me forever in the future." I smiled and said, "Mom, when I die of old age and go to Huhui Mountain, maybe I have already been reincarnated elsewhere?" She replied solemnly: "If I make an agreement with you today, I will wait for you. Our mother and daughter have lived a miserable life, and our souls will cry bitterly in the mountains." At this time, I thought of my late father who was in love with the abandoned family, and I thought about the marriage with my late father, but the late father who died at the age of eight first married Lian, so I asked: "Mother, you were buried on the lake, river and mountain. Is Lian's mother buried with you?" She thought for a while and said, "I really hated you dear at the beginning, but now that I am old and have lost my anger, how can a woman not follow her husband life and death?" "Are you his match on the tombstone?" I asked. "Maybe I should write the sequel, but I don't quite understand." She replied. "But what about my tombstone?" I asked. She thought for a moment and said, "Fenghua has Jiang's mother's tomb. When Yuan Yuan grows up in the future, he will definitely win you over. He may become a high-ranking official, so your tombstone can be written in this way." But I shook my head and said nothing.I imagined that thirty years later, the green mountains would always be there, and the green water would flow forever, but I would return to the loess. I don’t know if it was on Huhui Mountain, but there will always be my burial place. The book "The Tomb of the Literati Su Qing", because although my article is not good, I did write it. I have written a lot, and I am still writing it. I plan to regard it as a lifelong career. Why not What about identifying yourself? In the future, someone may see it and say, "Oh, is this the grave of Su Qing?" Some people may say: "Who is Su Qing? Oh, she is a literati. What works does she have? Let me look for it." Although I could no longer enjoy royalties at that time, I was still happy for someone to buy books. I also remembered that not long ago I saw Yuan Zicai's tomb in Nanjing. He was also buried with his parents, his wife, and six wives. If there were ghosts, how lively they were underground.I only remember one of Yuan Zicai's poems, which is about Liu Bei's marriage invitation. The best sentence is that there are many people in the world who are absent-minded and have fun with their wives, either dreaming of stocks and gold or wanting to be a member of the national government. Such people, although women live with them in the same room and die with them, how happy are they! Thinking of this, I felt relieved and felt that it would be worth noting not to marry, so I talked with my mother about the future burial together on the Xiangjiang Mountain, and then went back to bed with peace of mind. The next morning, my mother woke me up again and said, "Go to Hongmiao and burn incense once." Of course I refused to object. At that time, the children were still asleep. Mother went to offer incense.There are many incense and candle masters at the gate of the Hong Temple. My mother picked out a bunch of the best incense sticks. I wanted to pay for her, but she refused to say: "I am already in my fifties, and I am afraid that I will never come again if there is no major accident." Shanghai, this is my respect for the Bodhisattva, which cannot be paid by you." I didn't force it, and walked into the temple, she inserted the incense respectfully, then knelt on the futon for a quarter of an hour, muttering prayers, not knowing what she was talking about.I guess she must not know what god is sitting on it, she only pays homage to the god in her heart.In summary, her behavior throughout her life is kind, loving, self-sacrificing and altruistic. I think she is a god, if she can spread her love for family and children to human beings all over the world. The sky has turned fish-white, which is the revelation of the dawn, and it has given infinite comfort to fortunate human beings.I couldn't help but knelt silently behind her. Where is my home? ——Hujiangshan is just where my body is buried, and my true soul will always be surrounded by kindness and love.