Chapter 3 godsend

Just when I was anxious and at a loss what to do, it was like a god-sent opportunity. My alma mater Tsinghua University signed a contract with the German Academic Exchange Agency (DAAD): the two sides exchanged graduate students, the travel expenses, production and equipment expenses were paid by themselves, and the board and lodging expenses were mutual. Payment: 30 yuan per month in China, 120 marks in Germany.The conditions were not ideal, and one hundred and twenty marks could barely cover the cost of board and lodging.In contrast, the official fee is 800 marks a month, which is a world of difference.

However, for me, this is like a life-saving straw that must be grasped.I majored in German at Tsinghua University in name, and got excellent grades for four years (this is actually a misnomer). As soon as I signed up, I passed immediately.However, my difficulties are also obvious: the family is on the verge of bankruptcy, and I am close to the old and the young.Once I leave, what will the whole family rely on to maintain their livelihood?What I faced were real and practical difficulties, and besides being ecstatic, I couldn't help but feel anxious at the same time. I came to a fork in the road: one road is peach blossom, the other is snow.On the road full of peach blossoms, the clouds are steaming and the sky is shining, and the future is bright, you can't help but don't want to go forward.The snow-covered road was dim and dull. In front of my eyes was a lifelong green quilt, an old man who died in school, and struggled for his job every day, always citing "quietness" as a warning.Where do we go from here?I had a major decision for the first time in my life.

More than I expected, I had the support of my uncle and my whole family.They said to me: We grit our teeth and live a tight life for two years; as long as we don’t starve to death, we will usher in the dawn of victory and add glory to the lintel of our ancestors.The root of this thought is clear to me.At that time, the idea of ​​feudal imperial examinations was still popular in society.People regard primary school graduation as a scholar, high school graduation as a scholar, university graduation as a Jinshi, and studying abroad for gold plating is a first-class Hanlin.In people's eyes, I have already won the Jinshi.The ancients said: There is no juren outside the field; now there are Jinshi outside the field.I am about to enter the arena, how can I rein in the precipice?

The principal Song Huanwu, who thought I was "quiet", also looked at me with admiration and showed extraordinary hospitality. He personally took me to the director of education, hoping to get some funding.However, I was not successful, and my "quietness" hurt me again, and I returned empty-handed, which once again disappointed the principal.However, his enthusiasm remained undiminished, and he encouraged and hosted a farewell banquet, hoping to work together again on the day he returned from his studies, which moved me very much. Some of my high school colleagues were my teachers, and some were my peers, but they were all much older than me.They are also impressed with me.Younger teachers all suffer from the craze for studying abroad.It's also hopeless, and there is no way to get in, and no one can do anything.Now I suddenly got the opportunity to be gilded, Yang Hanlin is just around the corner, like a hidden dragon ascending to heaven, when he returns to China this year, he will never stay in Jinan High School again.Their envy is beyond words.I suddenly felt that I had almost become Fan Jin in the middle school. Although I still lacked an old Taishan Hu butcher and a Zhang squire, in the eyes of everyone, I suddenly became a special person, and I found it very ridiculous.Although I don't feel proud of the spring breeze yet, I am quite happy deep down in my heart.

However, my difficulty is obvious.In addition to the family's financial difficulties mentioned above, there are also production costs and travel expenses.Because I know that after arriving in Germany, it is impossible to have spare money to buy clothes, and the domestic clothing must be thoughtful and complete.This all costs a lot of money.In the past year, I saved a little money from my salary, which was not large. I borrowed some money from my friends, and I made some clothes and put them in two large suitcases.The preparations for the long-distance trip are complete.At this time, I don't know what it is like, sour, sweet, bitter, spicy, mixed together, but it is by no means as wonderful as a mixed cocktail.I am full of longing, but also uneasy, sometimes I think beautifully, and sometimes I am worried. Amid all kinds of ideological contradictions, I welcome the first big decision and big adventure in my life.