Chapter 7 seven

After you have sacrificed, can you sacrifice again? Or has it been completely sacrificed for nothing? choose to sacrifice Recently, there was a movie called in Taiwan, which was based on Bo Yang's novel; I had read this book in junior high school, and I forgot all the details, except for a picture of a human head hanging on the top of a tall pole, which left a deep impression on me. I didn't go to the movie "Exotic Land), but I bought another book. I turned a few pages at night before going to bed. Every time I read a paragraph and put the book back on the bedside table, I felt very heavy in my hands, and my heart was also full. An inexplicable depression. "Foreign Lands" has become synonymous with "depression" for me!

But I still finished reading it, and even after I finished reading it, I still picked it up and flipped through it at any time, and read it from there when I turned to the page. The strange thing is that I was moved differently every time. That book describes the bitter historical facts of the bitter battle on the Yunnan-Myanmar border during the war. The writing is not exquisite, but then again, why do wars need exquisiteness? !I often say: there is no life more real than face-to-face combat!War makes people face life, face death, and even face the choice between life and death—— surrender?Or die in battle?

Survive?Or sacrifice? Raising this question again and again in that book also shows the author's resentment.The plot I remember most clearly is that the remnants who picked up half their lives from the brink of death had no shelter, and those chiefs who escaped in the middle of the war built luxurious houses.What is touching is that although the protagonist in the book can retire to enjoy the glory, he resolutely walks back to the foreign land.Reminds me of Goethe's famous quote: "I have the courage to dare to live in this world, and I will bear all the pain and joy in the lower world!"

This morning, I received a letter from your mother. There is a passage in it, which is exactly what I felt when I read it: "When you want to sacrifice for a certain ideal, don't just look forward to that ideal, but also consider whether the person who encourages you to sacrifice is worth doing for him? Has he given you the support you deserve? Or Just want to take advantage of your enthusiasm?" She emphasized at the end of the letter: "There are many opportunities to sacrifice for ideals. Human life is limited. You have to choose to sacrifice!" is not that right?Throughout our lives we have many opportunities to sacrifice.From a small point of view, sacrifice sleep, sacrifice entertainment, sacrifice profits... walking on the road every day, the most commonly used word in the store is "sacrifice".

But from a human perspective, sacrifice may also be "sacrifice of freedom"! "Sacrifice the family"! "Sacrifice life"! It is said that during the Second World War, the pilots of the Japanese kamikaze "suicide plane" checked their clothes and then boarded the plane full of explosives before departure. They did it for the Japanese militaristic invaders. sacrifice!Sacrifice until there is no bones left! I have watched a martial arts movie "Chu Liuxiang" before, and there is a plot in it that I will never forget. The wounded gang leader fled into the secret room at the bottom of the well of the servant's house. The servant drove the gang leader's car down the cliff and committed suicide, making the enemy believe that the gang leader also died.The saddest thing is that the servant actually poisoned himself before he died, not himself, but his wife and two children, so as not to let the family reveal the whereabouts of the leader.

Look at the picture of the mother hugging the two young sons to die; I saw the documentary of the suicide fighters going to the grave to burn incense for themselves.I can't help thinking: Is this sacrifice worth it? I know that at least in the hearts of the victims, they think "worth it!" The problem is that after calm thinking, many sacrifices are not necessarily worthwhile. In high school, when I had already won the Taipei City Speech Contest and won the first place in the province.One day the school suddenly asked me to temporarily participate in the competition.At that time your grandmother said: "If you already have that kind of honor, you should protect it well and not force yourself to fight!"

But the school said that after a long delay, they couldn't find a suitable person, so they insisted on asking me to play for the school, and forced me to compete for the school! I went out, set out hastily, and here's the result: Come back from a fiasco! At that time, I was encouraged to participate in the competition, praised me to the sky, and said: "You are a genius, no problem!" How did the directors and team leaders react? They just shrugged and smiled: "Unexpected! Unexpected!" What they really didn't think of was the damage that failure did to my heart!

Recently I saw a news in the newspaper. A high school girl had a falling out with her parents because of her passionate boyfriend and ran away from home. She sacrificed both her studies and her family. She thought she could build another happy home, but she didn’t. Thinking of the boy who was addicted to drinking and gambling, he sold her in the end! This is an extremely ordinary news. It is said that you can often hear this kind of story of sacrifice for your "lover" in the weathered area. I have never been to the weathered area, but I heard a mafia figure say: "I don't care at all when my old enemies come to my door! But as soon as I see children under the age of 18 come to provoke me, I will run away immediately. Because they are underage, Killing people is a big deal and sending them to probation, so they are often used by old guys as killers. Young people are full of blood, they are praised, provoked, charged with guns, and killed. They still think they are heroes!"

Didn't you also say that? "The villains in the upper grades in the school often encourage the lower grades to pass drugs, and then give rewards, saying, 'You guys are enough to watch!' Those lower graders are still complacent and swaggering proudly! Until they are caught, they think that this kind of sacrifice You can improve your status among your buddies." Aren't those innocent girls in front, the young killers who work for the boss and the undergrads who deliver drugs, all ridiculously stupid?They are sacrifices, only for the unworthy!One day, when you can really sacrifice for the country, nation, or lofty ideals, you will lose the opportunity instead.

Those who commit suicide and are rescued can always find a bright world in the future. At this time, when they think about their suicide behavior in the past, they all feel stupid and insulting.Fortunately, they were rescued, and they can regret it!What if you are not rescued? ! If one day, you are faced with a major choice of sacrifice or not, I hope you can think about it: Is what you sacrificed worth? ! Is it possible to regret after you sacrificed? ! After you sacrificed, can you sacrifice Chuan again? Or has it been completely sacrificed for nothing? ! The school gave us a stairwell, so we rowed

The land is king, smoke and sleep in it... rebellious boy This spring, I was invited to give a speech at a high school in Taipei. Before I went, the teacher there frightened me: "Don't overestimate the students. Today's high school boys are no better than before. They think they are great, and they don't care about anything. What's especially frightening is that they don't distinguish between black and white, such as holding inter-class chorus competitions. , They booed those who were obviously outstanding; as for those who were out of character, they clapped and applauded..." When I went to the stage that day, the scene was really unambiguous. I didn't hear a few words clearly when the headmaster spoke.When it was my turn to speak, although it was much quieter, I always felt as if there were bees below.What is puzzling is that although many students are talking below, they will respond immediately when they talk about funny things. They occasionally ask questions, and even the students sitting at the back can provide correct answers. This matter puzzled me very much: Could it be that those sixteen or seventeen-year-old boys have dual-purpose abilities?Chatting while listening to lectures? I quickly got the answer - Several students who attended the lecture wrote to me and made appointments to my studio. "Do you know how hard it is for us to listen to your speech?" A student said when they met: "We have to talk to each other while concentrating on it, and use our most sensitive hearing to catch every word you say!" "So why don't you quiet down or correct your talkative classmates?" I asked. "That's okay? Don't you want to be called 'love red' and 'love show'? People will look down on you! So everyone wants to listen to the lecture quietly, but they have to pretend that they don't flirt! " I don't blame them, because from them, I saw myself in high school. In order to complain about the school's energy saving, I did not turn on the lights at the back of the classroom during the day, and deliberately mobilized several classes of students to light candles when the inspector came to express their protest in a sarcastic way. The classmates who edited the school magazine at that time, because the school allocated a stairwell for us to use, so they designated the land as the king, and posted on the door "Success (Success High School) Generations have great talents, and each has led the way for two or three years."In addition to tables and chairs, there are blankets in the room, and sometimes I deliberately skip class to sleep.In order to attract other students to say that they are bold, and they think they are heroes. Some people even deliberately hid in there to smoke. When the training team leader came in, he was embarrassed to correct him, and when he asked with a smile, "It seems to have a strange smell", he slapped the team leader on the shoulder proudly: "It's still our young team leader on the road!" What is especially unforgivable is that some students at that time would actually create rumors such as "certain teachers beat students together!", "a certain teacher is gay!"And as soon as the word spread, everyone spoke gold. Although no one could prove it, they were more decisive than the other, and gnashing their teeth than the other! Who dares to stand up?As I said before, even if you want to tell others not to speak, don’t dare! How heroic is it to challenge authority? !Whether right or wrong, the courage of this challenge is worthy of applause!isn't it? The question is, including me, why don't you think about it, dare to go against the current and stand alone.Just like Sima Qian defending Li Ling and Han Yu remonstrating to welcome the Buddha's bone, even though he ended up being eunuched or demoted, isn't it more of a heroic performance? And that performance is more aloof, more courageous, and more frugal!It is not following the crowd, but speaking for justice and conscience! In fact, it is not only sixteen or seventeen-year-old children who have that kind of blind heroic behavior, college students may also do the same. I remember one year when I was teaching a class, there was a boy in the class who not only was blatantly late and left early, but also often played against me inexplicably.I knew he was trying to attract the attention of female classmates, so I ignored him.Until one day, several girls couldn't help but said together: "Do you want to listen to the class? If you don't want to listen, get out!" The troublemaker was startled for a moment, then picked up the book and rushed out the door.Everyone believed that he would never appear again! He actually appeared again.Before everyone entered the classroom, they were already sitting in the corner.Since then, I have completely changed myself, and even helped me clean up the slides after class! At the end of the semester, he got an A!That's what he deserved, because even when he was a naughty devil, he did well on every normal test.Like those high school classmates in Taipei, he was rebellious while studying hard! I've grown to like him a lot, and I've met him on campus to this day, and I always stop to chat.I know that such rebellious students, after the rebellious period, can often use that unique impulse to study or career, and have outstanding achievements in the future! The most important thing is that he can "know the shame and be brave" and change his past in front of all his classmates.How can someone who is not brave enough do it? ! young people!Are you rebellious too?That's not bad!But you need to know more: What kind of situation is the moment when you need to be brave!