Chapter 11 Dual tone

Yan Ying and Zhang Ailing Dual tone Tapir Meng and Zhang Ailing went to buy shoes together.When the two are together, no matter what they set out to do, they always end up eating.I named her "Yan Ying", but she didn't like it very much, so she returned to the original name and surname "Mo Dai" - "Mo" is the transliteration of the surname, and "Dai" is because of her dark skin. ——Then she found out from Professor Abe that there is a dream-eating beast called "tapir" in ancient Japanese legends, so she changed "mo" to "tapir". "Tapir" can represent her personality, and her temples are so tall that she looks like a little beast with horns. "Tapir Dai" doesn't sound very pleasant to read, it's a bit like "sack". Once, someone mistook it for "Maotou" on the phone, so it was changed to "Tapist Dream".This time it is a bit like "Mom".But I'm not going to tell her. ——Author's original note.

"What to eat?" Tapir Dream asked as usual. Zhang Ailing has to think about it every time, and then she still answers the same as last time: "soft, easy to digest, and creamy." In a cafe, each person has a piece of cream cake, and another cream; a cup of hot chocolate with cream, and another cream.Although they paid for each other, they still persuaded each other very enthusiastically: "Don't add anything more? Are you really unable to eat any more?" The host asked the guests' tone. Eileen Chang said: "I just ate, and I'll catch the cold when I go out, how about sitting for a while?" After sitting down, she began to talk at length; when the topic gradually became serious, she said: "You know, we This is very much like a symposium.” At first

The Tapir Dream speaks of a ball at Christmas: "They play a game called: 'Bow to the wisest, kneel to the fairest, kiss to the one you love the most.' "Oh, many bow to you Kneel?" Tapirom smiled in the twilight red light, and explained, "I wore black clothes that day, and I changed the old-fashioned bib of a Chinese child into a collar—the bib you have seen before, with gold thread. A series of pink flat peaches came out. I really looked good that day." "Well. Did someone say you were his favorite?" "Yeah. It's silly to have a lot of kissing and not knowing who is kissing whom. I hate this game, but it's even more stupid if you don't join in alone. I'm the most easy-going person. That's not what a friend of mine said. ?: 'Now you are against communism, and in case of communism in the future, you will become the most active party member, because you must not be an outsider.'—look what's behind you." "Oh, palm trees," Looking back, Zhang Ailing saw that the claw-like leaves of the potted small palm tree were covering her head. She flicked it uninterestedly, "I don't feel like I'm sitting under the tree at all." The atmosphere in the cafe is very Thin, apple-green walls, small pink lights, deserted and few people. "Did they all kiss on the mouth, or on the face?"

"Of course on the mouth, they only kiss on the mouth is called a kiss." "Is it just the lips touching, the kiss on the screen?" "no." "Oh." "It's disgusting, I only have a beast's unclean feeling." When Tapirom was unhappy, he immediately changed to a thin and cold throat, which was completely incompatible with her plump person. "But I pretended to be very good. Everyone thought I was having a good time. No one could see my disgust." "The foreigners in Shanghai who are mixed with antiques are very American. This kind of 'neck meeting' (Note: English uses the word 'neck' as a verb, which refers to hugging and kissing in public, and the meaning of 'neck meeting' in China is different) Is it normal for them?" "Maybe I'm too old-fashioned, and I strongly disapprove. Not only in public, but no one around - if a man really likes you, he still thinks you like him too , This is unfair to him and gives him a wrong impression. As for sometimes, the other party doesn't take you too seriously, and then you give him all kinds of freedom, and you look even more despicable."

"Indeed it's bad. What Dorothy Dice said--quoted to Ms. Dice's mailbox, seems ridiculously shallow, but Ms. Dice has something really right--she says young people in America put 'necks 'It's too casual, I'm used to it, everything is so common, and when I really meet the person I love, I should get great pleasure from physical contact, but the feelings have been blunted, so it's for their own Happy to plan..." Tapir: "Maybe they can't wait--would rather have a little bit of pleasure first. I think so: if they like it, there's nothing wrong with it; I am afraid that people will laugh at her for being backward or lacking in sexiness, so I have to follow the crowd, then I think it is wrong." Zhang: "However, if she feels the need, it is very dangerous to provoke her, and it will lead to other things. There are more serious consequences, don't you think? There's nothing wrong with kissing—"

Tapir: "Oh, right." Zhang: "If she doesn't feel the need, of course it's dangerous to force herself—the impression is too bad, and it will affect her future sexual psychology." Tapir: "Only Russian women are exceptions. If Russian girls are a little loose, it is understandable. They age very quickly, and they are as fat as cows after a short marriage. Whether they need it or not, there are not many Romances in the future." ——Really, Russian women can’t look down on them when they are older. There is an old saying: “If you are not married, first look at your mother-in-law.” (because the mother-in-law is the shadow of the old wife) If men want to do this, all There is no chance for Russian women to get married... At the banquet that day, some Russian youths made up a very short play, which was very interesting, called "Eternal Triangle". It was very simple. A man and a woman walked towards each other, hugging each other Stopped, and said at the same time: "My love!" There was a figure flashing outside the window, the woman was anxious, and said, "My husband!" The man hurriedly slipped away, and said: "My hat!" 'It's over. Zhang: "That's great!" ——I don’t know why, when Belarus was young, there were many smart people, but I didn’t hear about them later, and they never achieved anything.So are mongrels, gifted, shrewd, calculating..." (Suddenly, she becomes terrified of tapirs).

Tapir: "Yes, probably because of lack of encouragement. There is a bit of discrimination against them in society." Zhang: "No, I think Shanghai is very tolerant on this point. Everything is free competition. I think it's because they have no background, they don't belong anywhere, and they don't have any connection." Tapir: "Maybe. Hey, I haven't finished talking about them. There is also a play about them, and there is 'Forever Triangle in England': the wife and lover hug each other, and the husband bumps into him when he comes back. The husband is very embarrassed and murmurs Make an excuse, took his umbrella, and went out again. "Eternal Triangle in Russia": the wife hugged her lover, the husband saw it when he came back, was furious, drew three pistols from his side, and gave each of them one, He took one himself, pointed each at his temple, and committed suicide at the same time with a bang." Zhang: "It's ridiculous, it looks like it!"

Tapir: "Jealousy is such a thing—it's impossible to think about it. For example, I am a good friend with you. If I have a husband, when I mention you in front of him, I always only talk about your good things, then of course he I only know your good points, so I like you very much. Then I am reluctant. ——What if it is you?" Zhang: "I also want to be jealous." Tapir: "It's inconvenient to explain. I'm bored in my heart. To my friends, I can only be cruel in other things—it can be very cruel. It's a tragic thing that the relationship of many years is gradually destroyed. In fact, there is nothing that cannot be explained. You Promise me, if there is such a day, you will say to me: "Dream, I'm jealous. Be careful, don't come here!"

Zhang: (laughs) "Okay, definitely." Tapir: "I can't quite imagine, if one day I find that my husband is kissing you, what should I do—foaming at the mouth and making a fuss, or being very embarrassed like the Englishman and hiding quietly. —and it's a little odd that if I find my husband kissing you, I'd be jealous of you, not him—" Zhang: (Laughing) "Of course it is. Why is that so strange? You are very confused sometimes." Tapir: (Continues to think about her) "I don't think I will make a big fuss. After the big fuss, after many days, I regret it again. Maybe I will call you and say: 'Zhang Ai①, when will you come and see me? Me!'"

Zhang: "I won't lose my temper on the spot. I probably pretended not to see it. After the guest left, I asked him what was going on behind his back. In fact, asking is superfluous. I always feel that a man has enough There is a reason to kiss you. But forgiveness is forgiveness, this is not okay after all." Tapir: "Of course! He walked in dignifiedly and said: 'Hey, this is not allowed!'" Zhang: "It can be like this between us, but it won't work if it is another woman. After an episode, we are friends again. They want to It's crazy. And the trouble is, it's not only my friends who are jealous, but any woman, a man mentions it a little bit, and says hello, it's always a little sad to hear, and I can't lose my temper every time. And I get used to losing my temper , He didn’t say anything to you, he just said irrelevant things, and he was wary, so there was nothing to talk about. I think it’s better to bear it. The more you indulge your temper, the more tempered you become. Just be patient.”

Tapir: "But it's so annoying, I often have to be suspicious—of course you think that everyone likes him, because he is the best—otherwise you wouldn't marry him. Life is a terrible thing!" Zhang: "About polygamy—" Tapir: "In theory, I agree, but it can't be implemented." Zhang: "Me too. What if, like in Chinese Tanci novels, two women are sisters or sworn sisters?" Tapir: "Only worse." Zhang: "Yes. But if you look down on another woman, that's unacceptable to our self-esteem. As a result, you may have to work hard to find some good things in her, so that you yourself like her. Yes. That kind of psychology. Of course, after liking it, you will only become more hostile." Tapir: "Fortunately, it's not our turn yet. Europe is about to practice polygamy, and too many men are dying—see if they can come up with a better way." Zhang: (suddenly, worriedly) "Tapir's dream , what kind of clothes do you plan to wear when you get old in the future?" Tapir: "Indian veil - I think it is the most compassionate. Whether I marry an Indian or a Chinese in the future, I will wear an Indian veil - the majesty of the stone statue, it doesn't matter if you are fat or thin ...or, perhaps, the old Chinese jacket and trousers..." Zhang: (happy) "Oh, yes, I can also wear long jackets and trousers, which cover everything, but still look good; green, black, and yellow, and there are many old-fashioned colors .” Tapir: "Oh, you can rest assured now! There is no fear of old age, is there? I have never seen such a person as Zhang Ai! I even have to decide in advance what clothes she should wear when she is old! Should I be in the It is written in the will: Zhang Ai can wear whatever she wants after a few years..." Zhang: (laughs) "No - you know I hate this class of old ladies the most, how they dress so darkly. They are shrunken. If they have a little personality, they are church-like. Foreign old ladies are enlightened, with red flowers. You can wear it, the big back, the dense small white flowers, make people dizzy, the blue background calico, the red background calico, wrapping the flesh that is not human, it is really ugly!" Tapir: "Oh, you remember last time when I discussed Eastern and Western cultures with a friend, it suddenly occurred to me that I wanted to tell him: Western fashions are also negated from generation to generation, so there are many ideas for refurbishment; while Indian fashion The veil is permanent, slowly add a little bit, add a little bit, and finally become a stereotype, with a universal and tolerant beauty, and it is impossible to change a little detail. Also about Japanese culture-my obsession with Japanese culture, It has passed." Zhang: "Ah, me too! Three years ago, when I saw their woodblock prints for the first time, their clothing, porcelain, those innocent, red-faced soldiers, and the ship we came back to Shanghai, the old Japanese sailor took out He showed us the photos of his three daughters; passing by Taiwan, Taiwan’s beautiful mountains, floating on the sea, like those in Chinese green landscape paintings, such mountains, unexpected, really exist! The scenery in Japan is said to be the same. The cabin Looking out of the window hole, the round window hole, at night, the bay is blue-gray, a small fishing boat is quiet, and a red lantern is lit... At that time, I really fell in love with it!" Tapir: "Yes, they have a kind of elegant charm, very cute." Zhang: "For me, it's not entirely because of their elegance. Because I am Chinese, I like the kindness and restraint of ancient China. They There is a kind of subtle air." Tapir: "Well, good is that kind of air. For example, there is a layer of silvery white fog on the mountain. The fog is beautiful, but there is still a mountain behind the fog. The mountain is real. Their fog , there is no mountain behind." Zhang: "Yes, many of their feelings are superficial. For things they are not familiar with, they have no feelings; for things they are familiar with, they have a prescribed feeling for everything - 'how should they think'." Tapir: "Looking at their paintings, I always feel that there are more and more meanings in the roundness and beauty, which makes people wait humbly. But now I know that everything I see at a glance is there. .” open:"……" tapir:"……" open:"……" Tapir: "Do you think we criticize too harshly? We are always greedy for more, and we are always dissatisfied." Zhang: "I don't think it's too harsh. However, compared with Western and Chinese modern civilizations, I still prefer Japanese civilization." Tapir: "Me too." Zhang: "The current China and India are really not good. As for foreign countries, we all grew up in the British and American ideological atmosphere, and we have many opportunities to see their flaws. Even Huxley, who I like , and now I gradually don’t like it.” Tapir: "Yes, he is not as great as we thought." Zhang: "At first glance, it looks so deep and narrow, but in fact it is quite simple-minded." Tapir: "Even the Egyptian art, such lofty silence, I am a little suspicious. I went in." Zhang: "Ah, but isn't all art like this? It's a bit unfair." Tapir: (laughs) "I'm also afraid. It's not normal. I like it and then throw it away. It shatters the illusion as soon as it comes." Zhang: "I think it should be like this, so that there is a comparison and improvement. Some people even stop at Wilde—really!" Tapir: "Wilde's beauty is really preliminary. - That's why I'm afraid. Now that I'm talking to you, at least I know you understand; when I talk to others, they just nod, how do I know if they really understand? ? My family will think I'm crazy! So, don't go away!" Zhang: "Okay, let's not go. I will probably always be in Shanghai." Tapir: "There is a kind of completeness in the Japanese personality—a kind of completeness that is almost discouraging. A Japanese woman married to a foreigner has spent most of her life in the West, and she seems to be absolutely assimilated. , she brought the child, but she still wanted to go back to Japan, and immediately became the most thorough Japanese, bowing, smiling, saying a string of kind words, loving the country very enthusiastically, and at the same time having that kind of deep and shallow desolation... " Zhang: "Hey, I don't know why. If the Japanese are really cut off from their hometowns, it's simply impossible. Like the Japanese in the United States, those who grew up in the United States are very light and beautiful, and they are completely Japanese; among them There are very few good ones, I don’t like them. Unlike Chinese, Chinese who can have Europeanization, are still Chinese after all, and there are good and bad. Japanese can’t be half and half.” Tapir: “Do you remember you He told me that an ethnographer found out that the thinking of the Caucasians is a straight line, while the thinking of the Chinese is a small zigzag straight line; the Caucasians are strictly logical, while the logic of the Chinese often turns. activities; the Japanese way of thinking is even more strange, it is two parallel dotted lines, a small stroke on the left, a small stroke on the right, and then a small stroke on the left, a small stroke on the right, and so on.——This Isn’t it just like a person’s footprints? There is a gap between the footprints, even if one foot is high, one foot is low, and one step is empty, it is not a big problem; it is not like a straight line, which is suddenly interrupted , but it’s not easy to connect.” Zhang: "Ah, that's great. Two parallel dotted lines are compared to footprints. Just thinking of a person's footprints, there is a kind of integrity in it." When I walked out of the coffee shop, it was already dark. There was a small winter crescent moon and many stars in the sky, and the ground and body were transparent and cold as if they were naked and filled with water.One of their homes is in the east, and the other is in the west, the same distance; but Tapirom insisted on being taken there, and although Zhang Ailing complained, she still walked there with her. Zhang: (shaking) "It's really cold! No, I must have a cold!" Tapir: "No. What a lovely, exhilarating weather!" Zhang: "Of course you won't catch a cold. Even if it's colder, you can eat ice cream and sweat without wearing socks. I'm going back! The farther you go, the farther you will go back. No, I'm really going to be sick!" Tapir: "Ah, don't go back, just send me to the end, and don't get sick!" Zhang: "You can't imagine the pain of being sick. Now you see that I am talking and laughing, and I am somewhat thoughtful. When I go back, I will have a fever and vomit. But it’s only me. My aunt often says I’m selfish: ‘Only Tapir is more selfish than you!’” Tapir: “Ah, do you really think so? Hey, I have a very good sentence to criticize Abe The professor's short story "Friday Flowers." I was really disappointed with that one." Zhang: "Me too. It seems to be subtle, but only light." Tapir: "Yes, it's just a little meaning, and it can't bear such capitalization. The whole thing is stretched too long and spread too thin Yes. But I said it was beautiful, and I said it was a pencil drawing, but two strokes of ink were added to it, leaving traces. I just wrote it in the composition and handed it in. Do you think he will be angry? Zhang: "No way?"But no, I really want to go back, it's too cold! Tapir: "Ah, isn't it nice to walk and talk like this?" " Zhang: "Yes, but I was the only one on the way back. You know that sometimes I can't bear a moment of loneliness. There are many people on the tram, which is very lively, but they can't be crowded. Otherwise, I will go back by tricycle. It’s good to shorten the time, but I don’t want to spend that money, it’s too wronged! Why should I send you home and then call a tricycle back? It’s not your boyfriend!——Unless you pay half of the money for me.” Tapir: "Okay, okay, don't babble, you call the tricycle back, I will pay half." Zhang: "Okay, then." Zhang Ailing didn't have a hundred-yuan bill, so she borrowed two hundred yuan from Kameng, and used one hundred and seventy yuan for the bus ride. On the way in the car, she calculated that Kameng should pay her eighty-five yuan. Next time, remember to pay her back one hundred and fifteen Yuan.Their money has always been repaid, and they rarely settle their accounts.