Chapter 30 end(3)

See Joe again. After I got off work, I crossed the noisy road on the Bund.Familiar scene, just like the noisy but silent feeling when I dated Joe for the first time.Like an empty theater facing the curtain down. And I finally found out that the city turned out to be empty. She stood in the narrow shadows between the tall buildings, smoking a cigarette against the bleak and decayed walls.Dirty jeans, white shirt, hair still messy and greasy.The skin on the face is emaciated and dry enough to flake. I almost never see her put on makeup or change into bright and colorful clothes.Her facial features are very clean and beautiful.It's just that feeling of discouragement that drags her down so much that she can't stand.

Joe smiled and said, I'm leaving next week.Hangzhou is a city full of flowers, flowers and willows. There are always many people hanging out in the teahouses and bars by the lake, living a dreamlike life. I like it. I said, what about desolation, where did you leave it? She said, don't know.But at least there will be a different sun shining on my face.Should be more abundant and bright sunshine. She took out another cigarette and put it in her mouth.She said that she bought a few books the day before yesterday, and in one of them, there was a paragraph describing how complicated it was when a man and a woman who had known each other for decades learned that their mutual friend was terminally ill.The man looked at Jiang Shui and thought, after so many years, how could he even see the ending.It's just that this ending is not that ending, everything seems to be unfinished, and it's all over again.After reading it, I feel sad.

She said, don't you think this city is very empty?Or life itself is hollow. We didn't play video games that day.Drinking until the wee hours at a sushi restaurant on the Bund. Joe tapped the porcelain bowl with his chopsticks, and told me loudly through the smoke that she missed that man very much.Then she threw herself on the table, smiling palely. Sometimes, I lay in bed, looking at the dark and thinking about him.she said softly. It seems to be walking with him in the sun on the top of the mountain, but I still feel cold.I wrapped the quilt tightly around my body and followed him.I feel very happy.Fear of waking up.But finally woke up.I was very disappointed.

He really will never show up again. I sat on the side in silence.My heart is no longer at a loss.I thought, I will never see this girl again.Because she is driven far away by her life.Time is an empty ocean.We are like fish, although we have the same direction, we cannot get close.I can understand. And I still need to live. Try to follow the standard of a complete life as much as possible to feel the complete happiness. Everything is so natural. Everything is fine.