Chapter 34 Thirty-three, old man

Brother: See you. I arrived in Nanning very late yesterday, and I can’t find it on Google, but I can find it on Gmail. I checked my mailbox and saw your letter. The title of the letter is "Fifty Years Old": "Frozen shoulder hurts a lot these days. I haven't responded to your emails in time. It's been 2 months and it's getting worse. Difficulties in daily life: I can't type, I can't put on and take off my clothes, I can't hold things, and it's difficult to take a shower and go to the toilet; pain Been with me all day; can't sleep. Doctor says: 18 months. In short: bad, annoying.

At the age of 40, I started to go downhill, my eyes were blurry, my hair, beard and nose hair started to turn white. At the age of 50, new problems begin, such as the loss of front teeth, and various organ components begin to welcome the arrival of old age.People live for a lifetime, and the grass and trees fall in autumn.This year I got a lot of landmine and henna seeds, and I lost interest in perennial plants. What I told you about Dad, you know and I know, don't let the person know.I said: You are used to these two wonderful things, our mother and father, so don't mind.Dad is a source of danger. Several times I have seen him use the rice cooker to heat things up and dry the pot, just to heat up half a bowl of rice.The faucet worth a few hundred yuan didn't work well, so I turned around and told me it was broken.I always say he has a grudge.He guards his food all day long, and thinks that I eat without rules.I really want to say, at this age, what kind of rules should I have when eating.no more.

When I say my physical condition, I am reminding you. The social security work is almost finished, and there are still a few months left. " This time I went to Nanning to hold the group annual meeting.The place where I live has beautiful mountains and clear waters. There are lychee trees on the mountain, koi and black swans in the water, and peacocks on the path.The lychee tree is not high, and some peacocks can fly and climb up the tree. I always thought that peacocks could not fly, but now I know that they can fly, but they fly very ugly, like a golden pheasant. Like the usual meetings, the mountains and rivers are destined to be wasted, the plants, animals, and animals have no idea, and the people in the meeting have a lot of things on their minds.Where there are people, there are people and affairs. It is normal, and I will face it with a normal heart.

When your fiftieth birthday is approaching, you reluctantly wrote this email to me. I know you are reminding me that good flowers do not always bloom, and old age is coming. I studied medicine from the age of nineteen to twenty-seven, and saw a lot of life, old age, illness and death, and I have some perceptual knowledge.After turning 40, sometimes I can’t see documents and computer screens clearly even with glasses, and it seems useless to wipe the lenses carefully. I feel that my eyes may start to get tired.My hair and nose hair also started to turn gray a year or two ago.I can't sit still after sitting in a meeting for a day, and one spine seems to be holding a lot of pain.The amount of alcohol became unstable, but after drinking, the sleep became very stable and poor. I fell asleep under the impact of the alcohol, and woke up at three or four in the morning. The moon outside the window was brighter than the street lights.Writing things is quite smooth, it seems that the biggest contribution to Chinese has been done, and it seems that I still have the courage to explore the limits of Chinese expression, but my back hurts a lot when I write too much, and I often fantasize about dismantling my arms, shoulders, back, and waist Get down, take it apart, bask in the sun, oil it, and put it back together again.You have been walking ahead of me for ten years, which is a good reminder to me.

Social security is very good, you have always been prone to panic, social security gives you more peace of mind. Your body has been advising you before, but you don't listen.To put it bluntly, physical illness is mental illness. To a large extent, the body is like a machine, which becomes more flexible the more it is used.You don’t care about the world for many years and have a lot of time. There are good facilities for activities next to your residences. There is a lake in Houhai, grassland in Gongti, and a moat beside the second ring road.You open the door every day and force yourself to go out for a walk for half an hour a day, and your shoulders will not be as big as they are now.Your heart closes and your body twitches.

People live for a lifetime, and the grass and trees fall in autumn.You are right, I hope you will realize it, and then think in that direction and practice, all kinds of constraints will become smaller and smaller, your mind will become wider and wider, and your body will become more and more comfortable, even under the armpit. Grow wings.The key to a person is the state of mind.If you think about it broadly, our parents are still healthy. At this age, almost 80 years old, they can still eat, drink, cook, swear, have desires, and run around. This is our great fortune as children. up.If you think about it narrowly, as you said, our mother and father are wonderful.In the final analysis, for these two people, your key lies in your mentality.At this stage, raising relatives is based on please.Don't hope to change them according to your own values. Your chances of winning are very small, and your values ​​may not be all right.To conform, to let go of self-esteem.If you are really worried about them, spend more time with them, follow them, treat them like children, and coax them. In a few years, if you want to be with them, they may not be alive.Take a step back, if you can't let go of your self-esteem, just hide away, go to Dali, Qingcheng Mountain, Weihai, out of sight, out of mind, maybe you can miss more.

From one angle, I understand your suffering, but from another angle, I feel sorry for you.You have all the resources to enjoy life, which I have no chance to enjoy: exercise moderately, walk around, live, sleep until you wake up naturally, read idle books, plant some flowers and plants, sit with your parents, and enjoy the sun The sun, learning a useless craft, playing the guitar, playing video games.There is no easy situation in the world, there is no difficult situation in the world, and the difficulty and ease are all in one mind. In fact, mom and dad are two wonderful things, and you are the third wonderful thing.

You will be 50 soon. At noon on your birthday, I will celebrate your birthday. You decide which restaurant to drink.That night, I flew to Shanghai. Feng Tang