Chapter 3 02 In Vanity Fair

Around noon that day, I suddenly received a call from the deputy director of the department. The voice on the phone was panicked, "Xiaobai, I heard you committed suicide?" I'm confused by the magical conversation that's going on, and I'm like, "Can you tell me why?" This is my first reaction to the news. "The director of the center asked me to ask. On a foreign Weibo website, a Weibo said that you committed suicide. The police are investigating the situation..." "Crap, will I?..." I hung up the phone, still don't think it's a big deal, they say there are no waves without wind, these days, even without wind, there are waves.in the habit.

In the morning, I trained the reporters who were going to be stationed abroad; at noon, I just finished taking pictures of the calendar in the station; in the afternoon, I had routine football training; , Duan Xuan took the wind. No matter how you look at it, this looks like a normal person's healthy and optimistic life. Not much distraction, I went to play, met my team-mates, who knew the news before I did, and made fun of me.Tao Wei came after a while and told me that because of my "suicide", he had just accepted someone else's interview, and his answer was also very funny, "Will he commit suicide?"

After playing the ball, Duan Xuan and others drove home. Unexpectedly, at this time, the entertainment had already opened the net, and the "suicide" was not real, but the entertainment actually appeared on the stage.I was secretly photographed by "hard-working" entertainment reporters and uploaded on the Internet when I got home and even after I got home.You can't accuse them of emptiness or immorality of privacy, because, for them, entertainment is morality. When I got home, I received a call from a reporter from a southern newspaper that I respected, asking me about the news about "suicide". I only said two sentences on the phone: "I don't know; I'm sorry, I don't accept phone interviews."

The amazing thing is that the next day, the newspaper published most of the news related to my "suicide", and I was surprised to find that I had said something like this - "I should do the news in the past and I will do it in the future. "For the first time, I knew for no reason that "Bai Yansong's two mobile phones were blown up in one afternoon", but unfortunately, there is only one mobile phone or wife for more than ten years. I will still respect this newspaper, because it has reasons worthy of my respect, but I am a little worried for this reporter, why can he speak for the interviewee and arrange the details of life?

But I'm afraid it's not the reporter's fault. Entertainment to the death is a fashion, and no one can resist it.The only thing that makes me curious is: Why did the news of my "suicide" be made?Yet there are few answers.During this process, someone deliberately linked my "suicide" with the unsmooth news environment. I joked with others about this: If it was because of this reason, I would have committed suicide more than a thousand times! Within a period of time, everyone who saw me would be amused. Participating in public welfare activities in Sichuan, the media would also start with "appearing for the first time after committing suicide" and add: "Bai Yansong seems to be in a good mood..."

So I figured it out, this is just an entertainment that is related to me but has nothing to do with me. People don't ask for truth or falsehood, they just want to complete such an entertainment process.Later, I received some text messages one after another, and there were also celebrities who had "suicided" in the past, and I was relieved after thinking about it.In the subway, Jackie Chan, Andy Lau, and Zhao Zhongxiang have been committed suicide for more than 20 years. What's wrong with me being killed once in a while? So, I finally understood that it was not me who committed suicide, but this era and people's hearts.

Although I have not been a column producer for a long time, about two years, but in the later period of my work as the leader of "Oriental Time and Space", I became more and more uneasy and even sad because a phenomenon was used by everyone.After the editorial board meeting every morning, half of the young colleagues in the room raised any objections to the topic selection and operation methods. They just waited eagerly for the assignment and execution, and the day's work was completed! Finally one day, I couldn't help it anymore, and after the meeting I asked, "Why don't you ever say no? Why don't you express your anger at something you don't approve of? Why don't you think: No, it should be done!"

The young directors looked blankly, as if they didn't know why I was like this.Claiming the task and completing it is only right and proper, is there anything wrong with it?Could it be that the young colleagues can still fight for and change the things that a group of producers have decided? But why not?Could it be that these young colleagues have not noticed that for so many days, during meetings and daily work, the encouragement, expectation and even connivance given to them? Maybe I really didn't see it, or maybe the times are different, and there are no more stories about eggs hitting rocks, maybe more importantly, isn't this just a job, no matter what you do, it's a lot of work, so why not be serious!It hurt the peace again, and it might make the leader unhappy.It’s a small matter if the program is not done well; it’s a big thing if you don’t do well in the workplace.

To be honest, facing such embarrassment and helplessness, I often think of the working atmosphere more than ten years ago, my own growth, and the path I have traveled along the way.Doing things while doing things, and being a human being while being a human being, there is no delay on both sides. Colleagues who quarrel, on the contrary, have an unforgettable sincere affection so far. It’s interesting to say that on the evening of April 30, 1993, the day before the official launch of “Oriental Time and Space”, inside “Children of the East”, there was a quarrel between me and the producer Time.The reason was that I hoped to hold a meeting according to the original plan to formulate the next work arrangement, instead of being happy to welcome the new colleagues with wine on the spur of the moment. At that time, I was even ready to pack up and leave in a rage.However, such quarrels were normal at the time, and the producer and colleagues as well as the entire column team were very adaptable. After a blushing, the meeting was held as originally planned, and we went on as usual after the storm.

In fact, in the few years since the broadcast of "Oriental Time and Space", there have been such quarrels every day in various program groups. Everyone is right and wrong, and the truth is getting clearer and clearer. What should a show do? But that's how the show stepped up.At the same time, everyone in the column group will feel that the matter has something to do with them.Express different opinions at any time, and do not consider complex issues such as face and authority. Everyone believes that only when the column is really well done, will there be face, and the program will have real authority if its influence is great.

I remember that the producer at that time was often very angry about the problems of a certain program, even so severe that the editor and director shed tears on the spot; It's a recurring episode.But this was the unique TV creation environment at that time, with rare democracy and freedom inside.Often after a few hours of quarreling, everyone eats and drinks together again, as if nothing happened. Not long after the establishment of the commentary department, I got a nickname "Baiwensa", the idea came from Walesa, the chairman of the Polish Solidarity trade union.The reason was that the members of the commentary department came from all over the world at that time, and "Oriental Time and Space" was like Yan'an, but a large number of outsiders also brought new problems, there was a gap in living conditions, they were not treated equally within the TV station, and their rights and interests needed to be protected. So, I took the lead and set up a loose trade union with a group of young colleagues, and asked to have a dialogue with Sun Yusheng, the director of the commentary department at that time, and other leaders to discuss rights issues.What's interesting is that Sun Yusheng actually agreed to this grassroots team and held a dialogue in a serious manner.Although both parties at the dialogue scene were very excited and slapped the table, the problems were gradually resolved.So some good people gave me the nickname "Baiwensa". It may be a habitual fault, or a special culture formed in a special environment. In more than ten years, I have a record of quarreling with several leaders, and the leaders are also used to this kind of quarrel. Everyone has A nice switch.Open it when doing things, and close it when you get off work or get along with each other.In such a relatively peaceful and democratic atmosphere, "equality", the key word written into the training of the news commentary department, is truly defended at work.And when it becomes an environment for pursuit and survival, no one will worry or be afraid of any adverse effects it will bring to themselves, and, really, they won't.On the contrary, it is silent and has no real insights, so it is possible to slowly get out of the game. Since I joined the TV station, in the past ten years, I have never been in the office of the two directors, from Yang Weiguang to Zhao Huayong.Because I think there is nothing to look for, just do your own thing well.In the same way, in the past ten years, even the office of the director of the news center, I have entered very few times, and without exception, it was the director who came to me.I am grateful to these leaders, and I firmly believe in my own ideas. Doing my own thing well is the best way to stand. It is so rare to have a relatively simple environment when doing things. However, I also know that since when, in a local space, the quarrels disappeared, and the air was full of harmony, but it always made people feel that something was wrong, and everyone began to be human!But what to do? Perhaps, just as people now miss the blue sky, the clear water, the reliable milk powder, and the mutual help between people, should we also miss in the future: the office can quarrel, Frequent blushing and a thick neck can create a more reliable friendship. If things are done well, someone is serious. Nothing is irrelevant to oneself. The truth is often defended by others, and harmony is not without disputes. Tell the truth Is it respected and welcomed? This almost naive language tells a kind of silent sadness.When young people no longer have the environment to argue or quarrel, they will also lose or delay the opportunity to change the world according to their ideas; people who are not young, lose the impact of different opinions, and often make themselves go wrong earlier. Constant journey.Among them, no one is the winner, too harmonious is the biggest disharmony.We'd all like to dream big words like democracy, liberty, equality into our dreams, however, sometimes, it has to start slowly in the office first. Many years ago, the two sentences in the lyrics have always been a big question for us to think about: did we change the world, or did the world change me and you?We all fear that the answer is the latter.Today, is it possible that this worry is no longer a worry, just like this song is no longer sung? Being a TV presenter is a profession in which appearances are a must. Fame is a by-product of this profession, and even a measure of your success in work.Think about it, if a TV presenter has been in the public eye for more than ten years, and people still can't remember his name, it is probably a big problem. However, this "name" is often alienated and distorted. TV is like an amplifier, it is easy for you to become a household name in an instant, as I have said time and time again: "This place, CCTV, pulls a dog into the studio, broadcasts continuously for a month, and is a famous dog in China!" But you You must understand: "With your back against a big tree, you really think you have become a big tree, this is very funny!" The fact is that it is true. It is very difficult not to be famous as a TV host, and people in the industry often regard fame as a sign of their own excellence.In fact, fame and excellence are really not the same thing, and sometimes they are even far apart.The bubbles in it are no less than real estate, but whether the host himself or everyone, there are not many sober people. I am often afraid of the enlargement of this bubble, and there is often a kind of anxiety in my fear. At the end of 2000, I suddenly felt that I couldn't keep going, and some auras were terribly illusory.That year, I presided over the Sydney Olympic Games, and then took a special plane back to China; when I was received by the leaders, Premier Zhu Rongji actually shook hands with me as soon as he entered the room, and then the Olympic champions; Top Ten Outstanding Youth", "Host of the Year" and more... In the 1999 National Press Speech Contest, I won the Grand Prize.But what I remember is not the trophy, but the five words "writing and being a man", which can be regarded as the topic of a lifetime. Brother Liu Heng, a writer, made fun of me, "Xiaobai, the sun is at its peak, be careful when the sun sets!" I replied: "Don't worry, big brother, let's change the horizon and raise it again!" At the end of this year, I gave up the chief host of the newly revised "Oriental Time and Space", turned off my mobile phone, and started the research and development of a new column.It's a commentary segment that wants to air at midnight, the timing dictates, and if it does, it's likely to hide from the mainstream. Unexpectedly, there were too many twists and turns in this research and development process, which finally made me leave the hosting stage for nearly a year. It was a lonely day, and of course it was a day with very little income.In order not to worry about my mother and family, I knew I was fine in the morning, so I had to leave home early, go to an empty office with little decoration, and chat with a few research and development partners for a day; feel guilty. However, this is indeed a period of "letting go". As the saying goes, "the cup will overflow when it is full".Just like a calculator, no matter what kind of big calculation you have done before, if you want to start over, you must reset to zero. Nearly a year later, the road to independent life release was blocked. Deputy editor-in-chief Sun Yusheng, who was anxious about my "wasting" a year, merged the reformed version into another revised version of "Oriental Time and Space", with "Time and Space Connection" Due to unavoidable reasons, I was forced to act as a producer, an official who is not an official. The producer system is a reform measure that began in "Oriental Time and Space" in 1993, and has made great contributions to the advancement of Chinese TV.However, nearly ten years later, when I became a producer, I found that the system has become obsolete in some aspects, especially for daily news programs. It allows power to be too concentrated on the individual, and one party dominates, and he decides whether the program is good or bad. The traces of "dictatorship" are obvious, and the atmosphere of democracy is not enough.So, after I took office, I did two things: first, I handed over all my salary relations to the upper-level department, and I did not have a penny of financial relationship with the group; second, after a period of exploration, I established an editorial board The committee system, major and minor matters are democratically formulated by the editorial board, and the power of producers is greatly reduced.My idea is that when we can't change the whole world, we can at least transform our own environment first.Sure enough, the combat effectiveness of the column group has been greatly improved, the level of the program has been improved steadily and on average, and the most important thing is that talents can grow freely.Zhang Quanling, Chai Jing, etc. are all the hosts of "Time-Space Connection", and Wang Yuejun, Sui Xiaomei, Wang Xinyu, etc. are all column reporters. What's more interesting is that in the next few years, from this group of thirty people, ten people came out. More than director and deputy producer.I think this is the small result of democracy and freedom. In 2003, taking advantage of the launch of the news channel, the small "Time and Space Connection" group created two columns, "News Meeting Room" and "China Weekly" (later renamed "News Weekly"), both of which were run by me. Be a producer.One person is in charge of three news columns, two daily and one weekly. In the past, there were almost none. The old friends who set off together more than ten years ago have gained weight, anxiety and stress.I know what I have gained and what I have lost, but when old friends get together, they will smile more, just like they have more troubles.Among the four of us is Sun Yusheng, the founder of "Oriental Time and Space", our leader and colleague. The old problem reappears, "the glass is full and it overflows". Get on the horse and see you off, the decision that should be made will eventually be made.A few months later, the columns had already started, and it was time to say goodbye. In August 2003, I resigned from the position of producer of three columns and returned to the role of a simple host. For me, this is an important subtraction.Although the farewell meeting was over on the day I resigned, I drove out of the unit at two o'clock in the afternoon. Suddenly, I didn't know where my car should go. A rare freedom that comes not from resignation from responsibility but from relinquishment of a temptation.So, I am very fortunate that although the car in my hand is going somewhere, I haven't lost my way yet. As for why I made this decision, there are five versions of the answer. Always Correct Version: A person can only do one thing well.Compared with a producer, I may be more needed as a host. Funny version: My mother used to say, don't drive and don't be an official!Later, I had to drive and listen to my mother, so I had no choice but to not be an official. Inner version: While being a producer, the way of thinking of being a host has changed.The so-called ass decides the head, I am often afraid that the show will be "shot" when it is air-broadcasted, and I will make my questions and comments as the host more and more mediocre and safe.After resigning from the producer, I returned to the role of Bai Yansong, and independent thinking returned, which is very important for the host. Arrogant version: If you are not an official, you will be equal to everyone; if you are an official, you will always be his subordinate. Serving you version: Once I leave, a lot of seats will be vacated, and brothers can take advantage of the opportunity to sit up, free yourself, and grow others, why not do it? ... So until now, I have always been an ordinary citizen who has never had a bachelor's degree and does not have a desk in CCTV, but being a member of the masses does not mean that I have no responsibility, as the old reporter Ai Feng said to me: "Xiaobai, who can change the leadership The masses are the good masses." Yes, I remembered, although it was hard! ◎Oftentimes the phone rings, but there is no voice from the other party for a long time. After I say "Hello" many times, he asks me back: "Are you really Bai Yansong?" Then he hangs up with a smile, leaving me shaking my head on the phone. ◎Driving once, I strayed into a convoy and was stopped by the police.At that time, I was driving a Fukang, and the policeman recognized me, and said, "Hey, why is it not a Mercedes-Benz?" Then he chatted with me for more than ten minutes, and when he finally let me go, he did not forget to chase me again : "Don't drive a Mercedes next time..." ◎Returned to Broadcasting Academy in 2003. The alma mater celebrated its 45th anniversary. As soon as I entered the school, I was constantly asked for group photos and autographs.When hosting the party, I blurted out: This is not the tradition of the Broadcasting Academy. At that time, no matter who came, he was greeted with questioning questions and skeptical eyes, not autographs and group photos. ◎One day while driving, a brother in front suddenly drove across three lanes and exited on the side road from the front, causing the rear to brake suddenly. The situation was very dangerous.After a while before the red light, I happened to be next to him, so I rolled down the window and criticized him for driving dangerously.This old man pulled me out of the car to reason, and shouted to the onlookers: "Come on, see, the top ten young people are arguing in public!" ◎One winter day at four in the morning, I was on duty for an early shift, and arrived at the west gate of the TV station early. I was surprised to find that a compatriot who was petitioning was waiting for me with a petition letter with my name on it.After seeing me, without much words, he stuffed the letter into my hand and left in a hurry.I don't know how long he has been waiting here, but the letter in my hand is extremely heavy.The capabilities of media people have been exaggerated, just like I often receive letters asking to be forwarded to the general secretary and the prime minister. Although I don't like taking pictures very much, taking photos with people is also part of my "job".This photo was taken by an enthusiastic local spectator on the night of Guangzhou's successful bid to host the Asian Games. Later, they sent the photo to me with a caption on the back, called "All the stars hold the moon".But I have to understand that at this time, I am like an animal named Bai Yansong in the zoo. If I take myself seriously, I really don’t understand. ◎In a funny selection by the Broadcasting Institute, I accidentally won the first place in the "Male host who is least likely to be seduced by girls". Facing this "honor", I never knew whether it was praise or criticism. Be happy or be ashamed.However, I guess my wife will be very happy to be a well-known host. There are too many people outside to control me, and I'm afraid I can't spend my days and drinks.After "News 1+1" commented on the "Heaven and Earth" incident, some people commented disdainfully: How could he have never been to "Heaven and Earth"?Dude, sorry, I haven't been there yet. ◎My son is in junior high school. Whenever someone mentions his father, he ambiguously speaks. When someone asks him whether he will be a host like his father in the future, he always replies with extreme disdain: Please!I don't do that stuff!In his eyes, being an animation worker is a proper profession. ◎I have always thought that I am just a TV person who does news. The special background of the times has magnified our fame. In fact, we should not enjoy the treatment of stars or celebrities, but unfortunately, it seems that we cannot escape.I have been photographed several times by Yuji, and it’s just me alone; but one time at the airport, my child, wife and I were secretly photographed, and then published in a magazine openly. This is a typical cross-border.How could a child also become the target of Yuji?You can be very angry about this, but what can you do?I just hope that people are doing it, the sky is watching, and everyone has a bottom line. ◎One of the questions I get asked the most is: Excuse me, who is the person who has influenced you the most?What is the book that most influenced you?My answer is always the same: the person who has the greatest influence on me is my mother, without her there would be no me; the book that has the greatest influence on me is "Xinhua Dictionary", without which I would not be able to recognize so many characters. ◎When you are in Vanity Fair, you must learn to face your "resume" that is absolutely unfamiliar to you.For example, in other people's writings, the "matchmaker" between me and my wife is a sweet potato. Thanks to her supervision, I can improve my Mandarin smoothly, etc. It seems that when I fell in love, there was always a recorder present, and I was able to restore us. dialogue.Seeing this, my wife and I often laughed: If only our love was as written by others! ◎When I was giving a lecture at the university, a student standing in the last row asked me: "Mr. Bai, I am in the last row and you are in the first row. When will I be like you?" My answer was: "In my In my eyes, you are now in the first row. You have countless ways to reach me, but I can no longer find a way to reach you, and I should be sad." ◎When I was working on "Art Life", Zhu Jun asked me: How long will I be working on?I replied: It must be done until the audience is reluctant to part with it, and I have decided to do it myself.Yang Lan next to him interjected: Don't turn it around in the end. If you are reluctant to let go, the audience has decided to go. ◎I already have too much right to speak, so I never planned to start a blog or Weibo, but someone told me later: "You started a blog on the Internet." I was surprised: Why didn't I know?In fact, I will never have an agent, nor will I need a press spokesperson, and those blogs or Weibo, sorry, are not mine. ◎There was a fellow host who received a text message signed in my name, saying that the phone was lost, and I remembered the new number. After several text messages, everything seemed to be normal.However, shortly thereafter, the colleague suddenly received a text message from "I", saying that there was something urgent and asked the colleague to send money.At this time, the colleagues suspected that it was fake, and started to ask, and learned that they had encountered a liar.When I found out about this, I was in a cold sweat, wondering if the liar had succeeded. ◎When others ask for a group photo, it is not easy to refuse, but one sentence is often added: Do keep it for yourself.This is not nonsense. For more than ten years, people often take a photo with me and say that I am his disciple, his customer, his close buddy, and the user of his products.Sorry again, probably most of them are fake.I just don't know, if someone is taken in by this, should I apologize? ◎People often discuss with me issues inside and outside the system because I am on the TV station.In fact, this may be a pseudo-question.There are also many maverick anchors in CCTV, even more than other stations, which shows that there are interesting things in the system, and they will grow when given the opportunity.As for what people say is outside the system, I always want to ask a question: In this 9.6 million square kilometers of land, where is it outside the system? In a moderator’s forum, I said something like this to my colleagues in the audience: “Our business is a vanity fair. From a certain point of view, it is also a meat grinder. , but entering just because of temptation, after all, is a victim.” Name, is the first challenge.You live with your mouth, and you live in the mouths of others.In front of the crowd, some people are admired by the stars, and some people are turned a blind eye.Do you know who you are when you are surrounded by stars?Do you know what to do when you are ignored? The same goes for various rewards.Some people say that how one faces failure decides whether one can succeed or not. I don’t think so, but how one faces praise, rewards and success is the real test.In this Vanity Fair, you will get frothy praise at any time, but it is actually more terrifying.Some people often accept exaggerated praise, but find it difficult to bear criticism, let alone exaggerated criticism.What I want to know, however, is: why can you accept exaggerated praise but not exaggerated criticism?For example, I used to be called the "backbone of the nation" today and the "traitor" tomorrow. I have to adapt to this, because this is an accompaniment to this business. This photo was taken in 1997 when I won the "Golden Microphone Award" together with Jing Yidan, Ni Ping and Wang Wenhua.At that time, I was still an absolute "little brother", but now, in front of many colleagues, I am already "Teacher Bai".After winning the award that year, I was confused: what is the next goal and motivation?Now it's clear: Forget about the awards and always think of yourself as a newcomer. In fact, signing and taking photos are also like a hurdle, often making myself illusory and numb, taking it for granted.I always believe that others have never looked at some of the names I have signed. If you are really useful to others, if you don’t leave your name, others will remember you. Li is another test. In this society, there is a desire to consume so-called celebrities.Celebrities, in the process of being consumed, gain their own benefits.There seems to be a feast to attend to every day, if you will.I just don't know, after a long time, will I still have the ability to taste the taste. With fame, sometimes you start to have social status. Everyone likes money, but it is difficult to stop when enough is enough to keep the bottom line and make money in a proper way.What is strange is that I often see some people who spend their time earning money all the time, but they don’t even have the time to spend money. So, why earn money?Also, if you are confident that you will have the ability to earn money all your life, why the rush?Are people the masters or slaves of their own desires? Once, while waiting to record a program, brother Ying Cunxin chatted with me in private, and we just talked about this topic.His principles can be summed up in a few words, which deeply touched me: earn money that should be earned, and never earn money that should not be earned; money that should be spent must be spent, and money that should not be spent must not be spent. I thought it made sense, but what should and should not depend on everyone's inner standard, it is destined to vary from person to person.What's more, people can't help themselves in the rivers and lakes, not everything can be easily said no, and no one can be 100% clean.So do I.After walking for a long time, I often find that when some people in life calculate what they get, they often forget what they will lose because of this gain.If you calculate every time you go to get it to see if it's worth it, you won't be so desperate to get it.But in the face of the temptation of "gain", how many people care about the resulting "loss"? Psychology is also a test. People all see the glory of the so-called celebrities in front of others, but rarely see the wounds behind them. They always wait until some celebrity commits suicide or takes drugs before picking up a pen and paper to discuss the psychological pressure of people in Vanity Fair. question. Sometimes, I am very interested in keeping a certain distance from that person named Bai Yansong, watching him being alienated, observing and thinking about the interesting things about him, and watching his relationship with society and the public.Perhaps I have my own luck. As soon as I entered the TV circle, I came into contact with the "sons of the East", a group of people who are famous, rich, powerful, religious and status.In the eyes of too many people, including me at the time, if I reached their level, would I die of happiness?However, when I really got close to them, I gradually realized that everyone has their own life, and those external things are not really linked to happiness.After a long time, I will be relieved.At this time, a sentence my mother said came into effect.She said: In a person's life, no matter whether he is rich or poor, high or low, the final addition, subtraction, multiplication and division, and the calculation of points are all the same. In the summer of 2010, at the party of 25 years after middle school graduation, it was my turn to speak at the banquet, and my classmates and I said the following words from the bottom of our hearts: the so-called good mixing must have unknown pain and price to pay ;The so-called poor people also have their own happiness and peace.It depends on how you look at it and how to treat what you have well. Therefore, everyone has to know who they are, and in the same way, the so-called celebrity is first of all or essentially just a person whose name is known to more people, who is good or bad, who is more tempted and restrained. Whether it is far or not depends on one's own creation. In the spring of 2010, I won three awards in the "New Weekly" TV list together with the "News 1+1" column. Because I won a lot of awards, I had two opportunities to give speeches on stage.What’s interesting is that the first acceptance speech was widely reposted by the media the next day due to its entertainment elements; while the second acceptance speech, perhaps because it was too serious and sharp, could not be found on the second day. reports.So, I had to record it here. "In my opinion, the next step in the development of television depends on the current vested interests, rather than young people and people who are about to say goodbye to TV." "The current vested interests are the promoters of reform in the past, so they have fame, power and money, but what they do next is very important." This "they" naturally includes me. "If they are willing to give up some benefits, it will help young people grow up quickly; if they can care less about their own interests, they will tell more truths and do more practical things, and promote another round of TV reform; But if their butt decides their head and they only care about their own interests, then TV will be dangerous!" This is a photo left in the stadium ten years ago. The word "people" seems to have a lot of meaning, but it is actually the two words in "enhancing people's physique".I always hear someone say: Journalists should speak out for the people.I don't like this sentence.Why do you "replace"?Everyone is one of the "people", one of the "people", and it is good to be honest. In fact, it's not just TV. I am also a member of the vested interests. From the young man who rented a house and lived everywhere and dared to quarrel and aggressive, to a middle-aged man who is often called "Teacher Bai" and is a little bit blessed. There is no doubt that we have worked hard for The last round of TV reform made a push and was a beneficiary of that reform. and then?That is now. This is indeed not an easy torture.In fact, looking back at history, this is always the trajectory.Revolutionaries, full of enthusiasm and drive, with the ideal of building a new world, revolutionized the lives of the backward and the backward times, and then enjoyed the benefits, and after a long time, they were revolutionized by new revolutionaries. Repeatedly, history moves forward in repetition. What about us?Sometimes, those with vested interests have other problems. They have been successful, which means they may have been excellent, so they are self-righteous.As everyone knows, the times have changed rapidly, and the world is no longer the original world, but at this time, the vested interests still think that they have the truth, and slowly become obstacles to the advancement of correct ideas, but they are not yet Awareness, let the bystanders sigh with emotion! I remember that in 2008, when I wanted to start "News 1+1", someone advised me: This is an unflattering and offending program, forget it.Although the launch of commentary programs is the demand of news reform and TV stations, but various factors determine that if there is any problem, the blame will be charged to me. After broadcasting for a period of time, certain facts also proved that people's worries were justified.Indeed, when I was a moderator, there were many supporters and praisers, and I couldn’t face too many risks; but after becoming a commentator, some people and departments were unhappy because of comments every now and then, saying that there was no pressure at all. , That's impossible, even the leader who once trusted me very much began to be dissatisfied with me.I have grievances but I don't want to explain, let time and conscience answer! Actually there is no choice.This road is not my personal choice. The TV reform has come to this point, and there may be a lot of risks. I joked: There is only a thin line between becoming a pioneer or becoming a martyr.But how can we not go, not move forward?What's more, when I set off on this road, I wasn't the only one, there were too many people, too many dreams. 当我在众多人的帮助下走到今天，肯定不是让我个人来独占利益。在我们的身上，依然有众人的期待与寄托！更何况，在这个复杂的变革时代，我们有我们的价值与推动能力。如果我们贪图自己的安全与安逸而停下脚步，年轻人又能走多远？他们的未来又在哪里？所以，既得利益者不能让自己的利益遮蔽了向前的冲动，哪怕因此可能会付出代价。 2008年年底，12月23日，《东方时空》重要创建人之一陈虻不幸去世，终年48岁。 午夜的北京街头，我驱车前往医院，一路上的表情注定怪异，不是哭不是笑，只觉得荒唐，似乎要送别的不是一个人，还有一个时代。仅有送别还不是大问题，而是为什么会送别得这样早？真的说了再见就不再见了吗？ 陈虻，用《生活空间》讲述了老百姓自己的故事，成为我们骄傲的记忆。 后来，由于他的优秀，他被提拔了。一个中国惯有的逻辑。我们总能发现，谁优秀了，似乎只能用提拔他当官来奖励他，但我们也恰恰用这种方式毁了很多人。这可不是电视圈里的问题，是整个社会的。 有的人适合当官，有的人不适合。陈虻属于后者，于是，你发现，他时常处于矛盾之中。一方面是新的位置，一方面是过去的理想。按理说，应该不纠缠，可现实中，不纠缠不矛盾太难。于是，这个文人气十足的带兵打仗者，就不得不时常坐在办公室里让思想乱飞。估计像他这样的思想者，总会在脑海中，拥有很多美妙的栏目构想和节目设计，以及让人叫绝的细节。 然而，这一切都可能像一个又一个有创意的礼花，发射了，灿烂了，又慢慢地熄灭。 从头到尾，他是这礼花唯一的观众。 2000年底，我入选中国十大杰出青年，但正如我领奖时所说：我是在替我的同行们领这个奖。时任国家副主席的胡锦涛在接见我们时对我说了一句话：“每个行业都需要品牌，你们这个行业也要打造品牌。”我想，这可不是要打造一个让自己获益的品牌，而是因品牌，让新闻更有公信力和影响力。 这一次，他走了，开始深深地触动了我们。一群或主动或被动已经开始有些麻木的人们。 我当初的制片人、陈虻当初的战友，时间，几乎是在悲伤中跌跌撞撞地冲进了陈虻的灵堂，然后留下这样几句话： 虻虻，我从未有过的孤独，你曾是我最好的朋友！战友没了，战壕没了，冲锋也没了……只有怀念，只剩下过去的日子…… 经历过旧日子的人们，看到这段话，都百感交集，不仅感慨时代的无情，也会反思自己的减速。 那一段送别陈虻的日子，集体悲凉，不仅是因为一个人走了，还有清醒地看到，或被动或主动地，理想也似乎走了很多。 在纪念陈虻的文章里，我最后写下这样的几句话。 “如果理想，只是一瞬的绽放，之后，只在凭吊中使用，那么，理想有什么意义？ “如果激情，只是青春时的一种荷尔蒙，只在多年后痛哭时才知自己有过，那么，激情又有什么意义？ “如果哀痛中，我们不再出发，陈虻的离去，又有什么意义？” 或许所有的既得利益者，都该再次重复陈虻曾经说过的这句话：“走得太远，别忘了当初我们为什么出发！” 只要继续走，就有可能！我依然愿意乐观地看着前路。 权、钱、名，我们喜欢什么？ 十五年前，上海，我采访中国银行上海分行行长刘金宝。 当时，正是他意气风发的时刻，每到一年中的最后一天——12月31日，他总会在午夜时分，驱车穿越灯火辉煌的上海，感受着自己的人生与这个璀璨都市的关联。 他拥有权力，这位少壮派金融家已经上演了很多为业界惊叹的带点儿传奇色彩的故事，诸如“十大杰出青年”这样的头衔早已不在话下。 于是，在采访中，我问了他这样一个问题：“对于一个男人来说，权、钱、名、宗教都是有力量的东西，你更喜欢哪一个？” 刘金宝几乎没有思考，爽快地回答：“我喜欢权力。权、钱、名，这些东西都是中性的，不好也不坏，看在谁手里。你不觉得，让它在有理想的人手里更好吗？” 这是那一天采访中，我记住的最有价值的回答，并给了我巨大的启示。 最后一次见到他，是在2002年开“十六大”时的住地，他略有些骄傲地对我说：“作为中国银行香港分行的行长，我的名字印在了港币上，这可不容易……” 之后没多久，他东窗事发，一夜之间，权力财富都瞬间消失，名声还在，方向已是不同。最后，他被判无期徒刑。 审判是法律的事情，说到刘金宝，留给我的，还是那个午夜时分驱车前行的理想主义者印象，以及他对权力和名声的看法。 他的回答没有错，只不过，他用自己的人生，告诉了我们：对一个巨大的挑战性问题，回答正确与行动正确并不是一回事。 名声、权力、财富，它们究竟意味着什么？该掌握在谁手中？