Chapter 19 The duty of a crush is to be silent

Some people say that the duty of a crush is to be silent. Silent, because I don't know how to speak, how to tell you. Silence, for I cannot tell what is good about me, and there are many good things for you. Be silent because there is someone by your side, and he is nice to you.I don't want to spoil your happiness. Silent, because I like masochistic. Silent, because I am afraid of being rejected by you.I'm afraid you say: "You're fine, but..." There are already too many "buts" in my dictionary, how can I bear it again? Silence is because we are good friends. I am afraid that I will lose a confidant and lose a good lover.

Silence, I don't want you to think that I have been doing so many things for you because I have a crush on you instead of admiring your talent. Silence, because I can't promise you anything, I can't give you anything. Be silent, because I don't want you to know that I, who seems to be indifferent on the surface, is so fragile. Silence, because I may not be suitable for you, maybe there are other people who can take care of you better than me. Silent, because sometimes I'm afraid that when we finally fall in love, many beautiful illusions will be shattered.