Chapter 8 That year, I dated someone online

One of my redfin and white belly goldfish died. Chenchen said that I killed her.Because the day before, when I fed the fish, I poured too much fish food, and the goldfish was stuffed to death. Chenchen is putting on makeup, and she looks very beautiful today.The long white skirt, with a princess head parted in the middle, looks very pure and beautiful.I know today is the day that person comes to Beijing again. Before going out, Chenchen said to me contemptuously: Can you stop putting that fish in your hand and stare at it blankly, it is so fishy. Then Chenchen left.She is in a good mood.She didn't have any temper when that person came to Beijing, but if that person was not there, she would be like her aunt coming all the time, all kinds of annoyed and irritable.

That man has a wife, and he met Chenchen at a dinner.Chenchen never showed me the photo of that person, nor told me the name of that person.Chenchen said that she couldn't tell anyone, because that person was too powerful, and if she said it, it would be a scandal. Actually, I don't want to know who that person is.But Chenchen would occasionally mention it by herself, when she said some reminiscent words, there was a kind of joy in her eyes. I never comment on Chenchen and her affair.I'm no moralist, and I don't think my twenty-two is any more beautiful than hers. Chenchen and I have known each other for more than half a year, and we rented this private house together.The goldfish was there when we moved in, left by the previous tenant.I have always thought that such a small tank with three fish is too crowded, but now I feel that the remaining two must feel very empty.

Chenchen didn't come back that night, and she didn't come back for several nights afterwards. I don't feel much when Chenchen is around, but when she's not around, I'm always a little scared.I chatted with Suyang all over the Internet.Sometimes, Suyang would also call me, and I would fall asleep in his voice. I don't remember how Suyang and I met on the Internet, it's like you suddenly found a mole on your hand, and you don't know when the mole appeared, but you have to face it every day from now on. Treat it like that.The relationship between Suyang and I is like a mole of our own.Inexplicably, they became close and disturbed each other every day.

Of course, just online.I told Suyang about my dream, and I said that I want to write a novel that can move the whole world.Suyang will encourage me.I am a very quiet person in life, but when it comes to the Internet, I am like a chatterbox.Sometimes I say more than a dozen sentences before Suyang has time to reply, and I am not angry. One day after we chatted inexplicably for about half a year, Suyang told me that he saw me that day. I was taken aback, and I said, how is it possible. Suyang said that he went to the service counter of the Wal-Mart supermarket where I was, and asked me where the hand sanitizer was.

At that time, I was working as an announcer at Wal-Mart, and many people came to the main station every day to ask many questions.I honestly don't recall anyone ever asking me where the hand sanitizer is. I close my eyes and think about all the people who asked me questions that day, but I can't remember anyone asking me about hand sanitizer. I felt a little annoyed that he had seen me and I didn't even know what he looked like.This makes me feel a little bit at a loss. So, I refused, and I said, no, no, I have to see you too. I don't know why, but in front of Suyang, I always look like a little girl who is spoiled and proud.

Suyang said, come see me again when you are really ready. I can't say how I feel about Suyang.It seems to like it, and it seems to be defensive.Perhaps, all the liking hearts in this world are on guard again. After that, I didn't see Suyang for a long time.But we started calling a lot. For my relationship with Suyang, Chenchen scolded me.Chenchen said: What future can online dating have. I'm a bit petty, and I don't want to talk to Chenchen for a few days.Chenchen didn't know that I was angry with her, she still dressed up and went to eat. Chenchen doesn't go to work, and her lover occasionally comes to give her some money.She doesn't want much, or even wants nothing.She really likes that person, so she wants to get rid of everything that has nothing to do with liking.But Chenchen has a lot of trouble dressing up.She said: A girl, she can be poor, but she can't look poor.She has to be good looking.Dressing must be tasteful.

Chenchen has a job, and also has a bunch of friends who introduced her to jobs.Her job is to accompany people to dinner.Just eat.A meal costs about 500+.There are many young girls like this in Beijing who can survive without working but just eating with others. They are all young, beautiful, and of course a little lazy and naive.You can make money easily, and you can also get to know the benefactor at the dinner. The person in Chenchen met at that kind of dinner. In May, that person took Chenchen abroad and left me alone.I had a fever, probably because of spring allergies, and I had small red rashes all over my body, which were very scary one by one.

I went to the hospital alone to hang the bottle, and Suyang just called.I don't know why, the moment I heard Suyang's voice, I burst into tears. Really, I don’t know if you have such an experience. When you are sick and you think you can handle it alone, suddenly a close person appears, even if it’s just a phone call. It's like a pair of hands, smashing down the strong false wall you deliberately built. It was that day that I met Suyang.He came to the hospital, sat beside me shyly, and finished the bottle with me. To be honest, I didn't feel good about Suyang at first sight.He is so different from what I imagined. Although he told me that he is ten years older than me, I still think he is very old when I see his face.

I am a person who can't control my face immediately when I have something in my heart, Su Yang looked at me and smiled: Why, are you disappointed in me? No, I said, expressionless. After the injection, Suyang drove me home.I don't know that car, I just think it's big and manly. Afterwards, he drove me off several times and was seen by Chenchen.Chenchen directly swears and said: Damn, Xiao Yu, you have caught a rich man, and Cayenne. I don't know any Cayenne.I don't care whether Suyang is rich or not. I think I look down on Suyang, who made him so old.And I am still so young, I want to find a handsome guy who is as young as me, has the same dreams, and struggles together.

That year, the fire, Mano said she would rather sit in a BMW and cry.As for me, I strongly disagree, and almost became an Internet mob, scolding her with many people. Because of my indifference, Su Yang was quite hurt.Although he still calls me every day, I still answer, but obviously, he said, he doesn't feel my enthusiasm anymore. One time, he called me and my phone was off.He recharged the money for me and asked me why my phone was down.I said, I have no money.He immediately came to give me money, a thick stack, I don't know how much it is.But I was too embarrassed to ask for it. He said so much, so I only drew 500.

I haven't paid him back the 500 yuan.It's not that I don't want to pay it back, but that he doesn't want it no matter what I give it to him.His refusal made me feel embarrassed, and made me feel that I was a person who was handed over by him. So later, I stopped answering his calls, text messages and QQ was also blocked. The last time I saw Suyang was sitting in his car next to the private house I rented.He was depressed and he lost a lot of weight.It's not the same as when I first met him.We chat, I am very annoying, basically he talks and I listen.Later, he stretched out his hand to take something, accidentally touched my hand, his hand retracted like lightning, and then kept saying sorry to me. Touching my hand is the closest contact I have had with him.The first time and the last time. He said that day that a friend asked him to go to Guangzhou to do business, and the prospect was good, so he asked me for my opinion. I knew what he was trying to say: If you don't let me go, I won't go. But what I'm saying is: go, you native Beijinger, try to live in another city.Beijing has a large population base, which just gives us the oxygen for those of us who have been spared by the North. He smiled, looked at me and said: I really don't know what to do with you. During the hours I met him, he never said he liked me.Two years later, when I left Beijing, I received an email from him, in which he admitted how much he liked me at that time, and even lost thirty catties in three months because of me.He always thought that I despised him for being fat, but later found out that I still despised him for being old. I was with my boyfriend when I saw that email.We do own a bicycle and often ride it together to buy fruit and vegetables. My boyfriend and I met one month after Suyang went to Guangzhou. I saw that someone was recruiting a part-time voice actor online, so I applied for it.That's where I met my current boyfriend.He is just as I imagined, young, sunny, handsome, poor, ambitious, and willing to struggle. He was everything I could ever hope for in a boyfriend when I was twenty-two. So, we are together.I gave up wandering in Beijing for him, and went back to the small town of his hometown with him, until now. When I left, Chenchen was very angry.Chenchen has been drifting in Beijing for three years, and has never had many friends, and I am the only girl she doesn't hate or be silly.She said that I am weird, how could I give up being tall, rich and handsome to be with a dick. A year after I left Beijing, I was living very poor with my boyfriend whom I loved very much.Once, we didn't even have two hundred dollars.I called Chenchen to borrow two hundred yuan.She said that if she didn't lend it to me, I would either go back to Beijing or ignore her. I never contacted Chenchen again.Those two hundred yuan hurt my self-esteem.So until now, I don't know what happened to Chenchen and that goldfish.When I left, the only one left was swimming happily.And the relationship between Chenchen and that person is slowly becoming flat. Recently, I always think of Su Yang, and always think, if I were with him then, what would happen now?are we marriedWill honeymoon go to Maldives?Will we have a son or a daughter?Can I go to his company for administrative work? Maybe it's me being stuck in life so there's always some anxious "what ifs" related to the past. I fell into all kinds of meaningless fantasies, until my handsome and hard-working boyfriend called me: Baby, I'm ready to cook, come and eat. I shouted in my mouth: come right away.Then go to the restaurant.When eating, my boyfriend would give me eggs and shredded pork, and I laughed while eating, forgetting all the stupid things about Suyang and me that year.