Chapter 88 Looking for Tsai Chin

A group of our friends once played a game, in those old movies, looking for those people who flashed by chance, such as Tsai Chin. In Edward Yang's "Childhood Sweetheart", she is the protagonist; in "Independent Era", she is just like the legend, as an artist; in Guan Jinpeng's "Underground Love", she is a supporting role.Not to mention many movie theme songs and many ending songs.What led her into the movie was her status as a "folk singer".It was the 1980s. Folk songs and romantic literary films created an atmosphere of "Beautiful Era". Such a time when everything was waiting to be done and a sigh of relief grew out of the chest, just like Ridon Stretcher in "Victoria" "The Queen's Biography" said: "Happiness gilded every day." In this gilded age, everything is new, and everything needs to be tried. From this, you can reach that.She is the mistress of the age from here to there.

However, after the "Thirty Years of Folk Songs" concert a few years ago, Sun Mengjin said: "Fortunately, Cai Qin did not participate. I really hate this woman's singing style these years. It looks nostalgic, but it is actually very vulgar. "At that time, my heart skipped a beat because he expressed my long-standing doubts.She is an evergreen tree who can judge the situation best. In the era when physical records died, she turned to nostalgic concerts, and she sang whatever the audience wanted to hear. Even if she released a record, she would just cover one song after another "The 1940s" Songs of the Age" - that low cost, sound effects and production requirements, must be close to "car music", this is probably the last oasis of physical records.She acknowledged the changes around her and tolerated her own fashion and reception.

She is just one of the specimens.Countless such specimen-like people and specimen-like things over the years have made my heart break when I read Paul Auster's "Book of Phantoms". The protagonist of "Book of Phantoms" is Hector Mann, a comedian in the silent film era. When the silent film era was about to end-and when the Great Depression was about to come, he suffered a severe blow-his fiancée killed his lover, After quietly disposing of the body, he chose to go into self-imposed exile in fear of being discovered.He goes incognito, he does drudgery, he puts on a mask and does pornography.During a bank robbery, he met his later partner. They built a manor in the desert, filmed movies there, and made a will asking the family to burn the films he made after his death.He realized that life had to be constantly beginning, born and then died, and died and then reborn; although it was already in turmoil, there was still greater turmoil waiting there.The turmoil one after another has accumulated into a heavy blow, making life like a phantom.Instead of letting time destroy the personal and physical evidence of his existence, it is better to take the initiative to enter this despair.

Therefore, Chateaubriand's words are quoted at the beginning of "Book of Phantoms": "Man does not have only one life. Man lives many times, and that is why life is miserable." Just like Tsai Chin, just like Many people, even if they have turned all beings upside down, they still haven't done it once and for all. They will always have to start again, re-enter the turmoil, re-find, and re-win the joy.In other places, it is still the same. Those who are difficult to let go must be let go, those who are difficult to adapt must be re-adapted, and the remaining temperature and strength must be used to warm up the newcomer in the arms and a new house.Even if the stability is still there, I know that it is only a moment, and I can't help but look forward with anxiety, not knowing what turmoil is coming, and what fate needs to be met with all my strength.

Now, we no longer play the game of "find someone". What we find is actually not that person.