Chapter 25 Chapter 15: Down and Out (1)

You have worked hard at every step, but there is always something waiting for you on the road ahead, making you suddenly feel that the previous encounters are nothing. In the past, according to the habit of the Seventh Steel Company, it was called a challenge, but this time is different, you can't call it a challenge this time, the life of others is not a tool for you to form a challenge. You can’t treat it as a challenge, which means you give up. In Wu Zhe’s words, it’s called personality collapse, and in the words everyone uses, it’s called downfall or downfall. I want to know how it was written in the old A's report, a piece of paperwork, not even an accident, first-class non-commissioned officer Xu Sanduo killed an enemy, and so on, so he would even consider my meritorious service award.

So the only thing left is me, replaying that scene in front of my eyes over and over again. When I am awake, I am relieved. I know that the tactical action completed by instinct is impeccable. There is really no other choice, but in Ruosan When I woke up, I was startled, I killed a person, aside from everything else, it's that simple. It's the kind of thing you just have to say aside from everything, when someone loses their life right in front of your eyes. Wu Zhe said that there is a downward gravitational force in life, and this time I believed it. During that time, I let myself be in a kind of half-asleep and half-awake every day, and then startled, I seemed to do it on purpose, hoping to find an explanation in which startle, and later I even hoped also gave up.

All the old A’s rules suddenly became worthless. I slept late and woke up late, and what I ate was ridiculed by Qi Huan as cat food, and I missed most of the daily training. They... I mean my comrades in arms, those old A's show tolerance, which makes me grateful, sometimes I think they show not only tolerance, but also understanding, which makes me startled again, doesn't it Did they all have the same experience? No matter, in the end, we will never talk about this kind of topic again, don’t talk about trauma, this is a practical rule, sometimes I think of Yuan Lang, many of the things he said are half-joking, so those can’t be taken as jokes What did you say?

What I can finally be sure of is that they have experienced more than me in this, so much experience that I don’t need to talk about it. Only people like me who have never seen anything are talking about their own stories here. ★Second Class Non-commissioned Officer Xu Sanduo Qi Huan's whistle sounded again. Xu Sanduo and Wu Zhe, three of them, packed their luggage in the house at a frantic speed, packing everything into a backpack.When Wu Zhe rushed out with a bag in one hand and a few books in the other, eleven people were already standing at the door of his house.Everyone carries their own luggage.

Wu Zhe was scolded by Qi Huan: procrastinating. Report, should have been notified in advance!Wu Zhe found the truth for himself. How big a deal?Just change the room, just move to the opposite side, and you need to notify in advance?stand at attention!Take it easy!Based on me, turn right in file formation!It only took one day to relax, and he couldn't even walk. How can there be soldiers in the world who can't adapt to the formation? In fact, the formation was not a big deal, he was used to lecturing, everyone was used to listening, and the queue walked towards the stairs. Xu Sanduo walked at the end of the line.

After three months of hard work, for the remaining people, isn't it just to move to the dormitory opposite? The veterans in the corridor laughed and talked, looking at the newcomer who had just passed the test standing at the door of every room. As long as he was not in the queue, most soldiers actually liked to watch the excitement more than ordinary people.The rookies are still lined up, and the veterans are scattered in a state of rest, which distinguishes the superior from the inferior. Qi Huan did not take their side. He said that you are newcomers, you know?Use the two words you least like to hear, rookie!stand at attention!

The eleven-striped man stood upright violently like a convulsion. Backpack!What does it look like half-towed and half-tagged? So all the people held the bag in their hands. Qi Huan was obviously prolonging the uncomfortable time, and only after half a day did he let them enter the house. Conditions have improved. There are only two beds in the room, and they are no longer bunk beds.There are also tape recorders and a repeater on the table.The table and the wall were covered with three-sided identification pictures of various weapons, which looked like Qi Huan, so cold and inhumane. Xu Sanduo and Qi Huan lived in the same house.

As night fell, Qi Huan came back from outside and saw Xu Sanduo still standing by the window in a daze, so he asked him, why didn't you turn on the lights when it was so dark?Xu Sanduo hurriedly got up and turned on the light.Qi Huan picked up a book, turned two pages, and glanced at Xu Sanduo again. Qi Huan said that they will be in the same room in the future.What do you like to do, I don't care about you. Xu Sanduo said yes. Whatever you want.Qi Huan continued to flip through his book. Xu Sanduo went to the window again. He was looking at the field airport covered by the jungle in the distance. A helicopter seemed to be frozen in mid-air, and several soldiers practicing helicopter landing were sliding down from the air.

During the three months in old A, Xu Sanduo often played a game with himself: close his eyes, thinking that he was still in the infantry regiment. Qi Huan raised his head from the pile of books: Don't be envious. Xu Sanduo returned to reality inexplicably: what? Don't you look at that helicopter and want to go up?I tell you not to be envious, you have to move recently. What move? The move is... Qi Huan thought for a while and became serious again: Don't ask what you shouldn't ask. He went back to his stack of books.The roar of the helicopter engine was getting louder and closer.

Qi Huan didn't talk nonsense. A few days later, they entered a real battlefield, the sound of helicopter engines roaring away overhead, and distant machine gun fire shook the valley.Qi Huan, Xu Sanduo and a teammate were speeding through the jungle when stray bullets whizzed past at close range, and a row of branches and leaves fell down in unison. Xu Sanduo soon knew what Qi Huan was talking about.It is no longer a drill. A drug cartel has been fighting the armed police on the border for three days. The weapons they bought in exchange for drugs are surprisingly sophisticated.The captain said that this is a real combat mission, which really means that the warheads flying in the air can really kill people.

The walkie-talkie on Xu Sanduo's shoulder was chattering, and there were intense gunshots and calls from inside. ... No. 1, Guerrilla No. 5 received fire at B4!complete! ... Guerrilla No. 7 F1 plane landed successfully!complete! ... Number four is too busy, and number three doesn't need your support!complete! Qi Huan suddenly threw Xu Sanduo down.Two figures rolled into the bushes, and the teammate also jumped into the bushes.Almost within a short distance, two armed men ran past with agility like apes.Xu Sanduo raised the gun subconsciously, but Qi Huan held it down with one hand.In an instant, the two had disappeared into the forest. Qi Huan didn't look back: What is our mission? Contact the informant, find out the drug den... Xu Sanduo is a little embarrassed: try to keep it hidden. Qi Huan looked too lazy to talk to him, took off the walkie-talkie, and said: No. 1, Guerrilla No. 2 sneaked into the C3 area and started the next step.complete. A bang explosion sounded from far away, and Xu Sanduo's body shook slightly. Qi Huan looked back at him and said, Comrade Sergeant, you won't be timid, will you? Xu Sanduo shook his head: They still have guns? Small 60 cannon, the small shell is not as big as a fist, small KS.Comrade non-commissioned officer, shooting lurking, defeating the enemy with one move, except that this bullet can really kill you, is this any different from usual training? ... report, no. Qi Huan nodded: You go to area C4 and get in touch with the person with the red bandage on his head, he is an informant, bring him back. ……Myself? The informant is unreliable, whoever insists on whom, after two days of fighting, I am afraid that he will lean back again.You can't fit all three people in. Qi Huan looked at Xu Sanduo's eyes with a bit of gloating, even a bit wicked, Xu Sanduo nodded dumbly: no. Never reveal our exact location. yes. Just as Xu Sanduo ran two steps away, Qi Huan remembered something again: the walkie-talkie was left behind.Xu Sanduo was taken aback: Then I lost contact with you?Qi Huan said that it is man-made, and it is the same as fighting without this thing.I don't want it to allow people to monitor our conversations after payment.Xu Sanduo had no choice but to unplug the walkie-talkie, hand it over to his teammates, get up and sneak into the jungle. When Xu Sanduo turned around, Qi Huan and the others were completely invisible. Only the gunshots still sounded in the distance. He suddenly took a few steps and rolled sideways into the jungle.A man holding an American gun suddenly appeared behind him.Xu Sanduo knew that someone was following him, but just as he raised his gun, the man's head shrank back as if he had eyes. The two then froze. Xu Sanduo's finger on the trigger trembled slightly, and finally he let go. On the man's head, a red cloth was tied.Xu Sanduo knew at a glance that it was the informant Qi Huan mentioned.The informant also let go of the trigger. He pouted at Xu Sanduo, beckoning Xu Sanduo to follow him, and followed him, walking into the depths of the jungle behind him. There were several shacks in the valley that seemed to have been abandoned long ago, Xu Sanduo followed the informant and vigilantly touched them.Walking to the front of the shack, the informant stopped.As soon as Xu Sanduo came over, he was pushed into the shack. The informant's Chinese seemed a bit blunt. He said that I agreed with the terms, did you agree? Xu Sanduo was a little dazed, he looked at him, he didn't know what condition he was talking about. The informant suddenly pulled the bolt of the gun and clubbed Xu Sanduo's chest with all his strength: I know, you have betrayed me! Xu Sanduo held the gun subconsciously, but he let it go immediately.He knew he couldn't fight back.He can only fool him.He said: Now you can come with me and kill me, you have nowhere to go, The informant hesitated for a moment, lowered the barrel of his gun, and said, "If you don't agree to the conditions, I won't go with you." Xu Sanduo agreed: I promise you. The informant looked at Xu Sanduo hard.He felt that Xu Sanduo in front of him would not lie, because Xu Sanduo's face was very sincere. But the informant hesitated for a moment, still a little suspicious, he said you lied to me!You are cunning! Xu Sanduo gestured vigorously, saying that the radio cannot be contacted, I am here to tell you, and I agree to your conditions! The informant thought for a while: How old are you?Do you mean what you say? Xu Sanduo said: Great official!I definitely mean what I say! How big is it?the informant asked. Xu Sanduo gritted his teeth and said: I am the commander, COMMAND! Lied to me!Not COMMAND, you are young! In desperation, Xu Sanduo hurriedly patted the shoulder badge of his second-level non-commissioned officer: Lieutenant Colonel!did you see it? TWO! TWO!I am Lieutenant Colonel! The informant took a serious look and seemed to get a huge assurance: the lieutenant colonel was big. Xu Sanduo finally breathed a sigh of relief: Come with me. Instead, the informant took a step back: I still have things to do, me.Still can't figure out where the drugs are hidden, they don't believe me. Xu Sanduo was stunned, this is really a terrible reason. The informant gestured and said: Tell me the location.I will find you later. We're around to protect you, and you'll find us when you come out. you do not believe me?If you don't believe me, I don't believe it either. I don't have a map. I have got.The informant took out a high-scale military waterproof map and placed it in front of Xu Sanduo. Xu Sanduo was a little dazed for a moment.The informant said, draw your locations.If you find drugs, they will come to you. Xu Sanduo looked into the informant's eyes from a very close distance, desperately trying to see something, but the other party's eyes that looked like a fool made him unable to see anything, he just felt ominous.Xu Sanduo drew a large area on the map. The informant immediately became angry: You don't understand what I mean, you don't understand what I mean at all! Xu Sanduo said calmly: We will not stay in one place, we will help you anytime! The informant is in a hurry: you sit down!don't come here!You know what I'm talking about?It is hundreds of kilograms of drugs, and in my country, hundreds of lives are exchanged for it! Xu Sanduo frowned.He said in my country doomed to be destroyed.I hate this kind of stuff. The informant stared at Xu Sanduo, his eyes instantly became very tough.He finally nodded: You wait, there is something, you will believe me after seeing it.As soon as he turned around, the trigger behind him rang softly. The informant looked back and saw that Xu Sanduo's gun was pointed at him, and immediately screamed, he said, what are you doing? Xu Sanduo said: Now I don't believe you anymore, I will take you back now, by force. The informant said why?Xu Sanduo said no why.Because you're lying to me, you started out negative and now you're positive, and my order was just to take you back.The informant froze for a moment, and finally smiled. At this moment, he could finally see that he was an extremely cunning person.The informant suddenly became fluent in Chinese, he said, aren't you also lying to me?Second Sergeant Mr. Xu Sanduo had already sensed something, the gun in his right hand was aimed tightly at the informant, and the second gun in his left hand was aimed at the thin wall of the shack: Tell them not to move around. The informant said it was useless.Now there are at least ten guns facing this small grass shed. His words were true, a few bayonets had lightly pierced through the thin wall of the shack, and it was conceivable that there were still a few dark muzzles behind.Xu Sanduo stood motionless until the informant took the gun from his hand confidently. The armed personnel in the tent are really well equipped, light and heavy weapons, and night vision equipment should be available. If you wear military uniforms, you will think they are soldiers.They covered Xu Sanduo's face with wet towels one after another.The two people next to him were holding Xu Sanduo hard, but to their surprise, Xu Sanduo didn't struggle much.The informant looked at the stopwatch next to him, and it had jumped to two minutes and thirty seconds.But from Xu Sanduo's tight body, it can be seen how much he has endured.The informant finally shook his head helplessly, and asked someone to remove the towel from Xu Sanduo's face.Xu Sanduo finally took a long breath, and then only his heavy breathing was heard in the whole tent. He glared at the informant, but there was no hatred in that. Xu Sanduo doesn't know much about hatred. The informant said that you have been tormenting us for two hours, if you just wanted to save face, you would have said it long ago. Xu Sanduo was also exhausted. Although the other party's torture did not hurt any limbs, it required extremely strong physical strength and will to resist. But the informant refused to give up: They...or in your words, where is your comrade-in-arms? Xu Sanduo looked at him and didn't reply. ... They don't treat you very well, or they wouldn't let you die alone. Xu Sanduo looked at him, but still didn't speak. ... I know that people like you are surprisingly tough and strong-willed, and I also know how you deal with torture. You can stand up for one minute, and then stand up for another minute. Persistence is victory. Persistence to the point where you don't even believe it .Why insist?Because it is not easy to be your soldier, and it is all done step by step with blood and sweat.Let me ask you now, your persistence is useless, do you still persist? The informant paced back and forth, he found a very close distance to look at Xu Sanduo, and said, I mean, if I kill you and put some drugs on you, you won't say no until you die Qing, all your efforts in this life are in vain, do you still persist? Xu Sanduo showed no expression at all, which greatly angered the interrogator. He picked up a pistol from the ammunition box, pointed it at Xu Sanduo's head and pulled the trigger. No shots were fired. Xu Sanduo opened his eyes again. The informant laughed and said I forgot to load the bullet. He slowly put a magazine into it, and pulled the bolt to reload, intending to let Xu Sanduo see it and let Xu Sanduo hear the soft sound of the bullet being loaded.Xu Sanduo kept staring. There was a bang... A wine bottle on the ground exploded. Now for real.Tell me, your...informant smiled sarcastically: Comrades, their positions. Xu Sanduo stared blankly at the black muzzle aimed at his head. You are only a second-class non-commissioned officer, and you are no more than twenty-two or three-year-old.What is spring breeze?You probably haven't tasted it in your life, have you?You probably haven't had a woman yet?You are probably a rural child, how many prosperous places have you been to?How much did you spend?Probably even me, a foreigner, has traveled all over your China, going in and out of five-star hotels.How about you?One hundred thousand dollars is a myth to you, right?Do you think it's fair?You are dying, what are you doing here?You may have many fantasies, and you also fantasize about your glorious sacrifice on the battlefield, but you promise that you never thought about being beaten to death like this. As he spoke, he was also putting pressure on his fingers.He seemed happy for Xu Sanduo to see this. Come with us.I'm sure you'll be ten times better off than you were before, and seriously, I was a trained soldier too. Xu Sanduo suddenly took the conversation, he said no matter which country you are a soldier from, you are really fucking ashamed of the army. The informant froze for a moment, then signaled to the person next to him: Hang up.I want him to kill himself. Then, the informant took his men and left, leaving Xu Sanduo alone, suspended in the air, with only a pair of toes touching the ground.A pistol was fixed on the ground, pointed at Xu Sanduo.A steel wire holding the trigger was connected to Xu Sanduo's hanging wrist, so that as long as he relaxed a little, the gun would be pulled. Xu Sanduo's sweat fell drop by drop. Xu Sanduo's eyes were fixed on the muzzle of the gun. As long as Xu Sanduo's toes trembled slightly, the trigger was tightened little by little. Xu Sanduo estimated the distance of the rope for the last time, gritted his teeth, he jumped suddenly, and the trigger was pulled tightly, but Xu Sanduo had already grabbed the rope.He swayed slightly in the air. He tried his best to stabilize himself, and then he hung the rope with one hand and slowly untied the knot with the other hand.Finally, Xu Sanduo completed this exhausting movement, and when he also released that hand, he fell heavily to the ground. He first took the gun in his hand, and lay down on the spot to take a breath. He wiped the blood on his bloody wrist, then got up and left the tent. The camp was empty, and those people didn't know where they went, like a ghost camp.All this is enough to confuse Xu Sanduo, but it cannot make him relax his vigilance.When he reached one of the tents in the camp, he flipped over and sprinted into the jungle. The torture from day to night had exhausted Xu Sanduo's strength. As he staggered through the jungle, he pulled some edible branches and leaves from the trees, sipped the dew on them, and chewed the bitter branches and leaves, to replenish your strength. He couldn't stand anymore, a branch protruding horizontally tripped him and fell three or four meters. Just when he was about to get up from the ground, Xu Sanduo stopped suddenly, and he heard someone's voice. He saw a few small figures, on the mountain road at the edge of the jungle, coming here.In the moonlight, he saw two people who had been shot in front of him, one was Qi Huan, and the other was his teammate.The next few people with live ammunition were the informant and his accomplices. Xu Sanduo lay down behind the tree with his breath held in peace, he waited for them to pass by him. He counted their steps one by one, and they quickly concluded that apart from Qi Huan and his teammates, there were only four enemies in total. Xu Sanduo checked the bullets in the gun, he was stunned, one round in the chamber and one round in the magazine, he only had two rounds in total. Xu Sanduo was thinking nervously, or rather, he was making a nervous decision. Just as Qi Huan's figure flashed past the bushes, Xu Sanduo suddenly jumped out. The first person Xu Sanduo knocked down was Qi Huan, who was sandwiched between that teammate and the drug dealer. His yelling was accompanied by gunshots, and he fired at the nearest one, then at the second, who he bumped into the informant, whom he was locking up. Throat, his hand was blocked by the informant with a gun.He followed with a smash with his elbow, and when the opponent staggered back, he wrapped his arms around the opponent's neck, and then with a flick of his hand, he broke the opponent's neck bone. However, at the same time, he was hugged by several people from behind. He just fell off one, and another rushed up...Suddenly, Xu Sanduo was stunned. The people who dragged him were Qi Huan and his teammate. The man he threw away was the first person who should have died under his gun. Qi Huan and his teammates laughed, and so did those few people.Xu Sanduo was confused by their laughter.In a daze, those people had already piled on him one by one like an arhat. Welcome new guy! Welcome to join us! Dead old A, the shot is too ruthless! I won't play a drug dealer next time! Xu Sanduo repeatedly beat and kicked those who were pressing on him, the pain caused them to dodge one by one. Qi Huan also slapped his feet hard. what happened?Xu Sanduo asked: What's going on? Qi Huan laughed unconsciously. In fact, we don't want to, the captain has to be like this.It's a test, Xu Sanduo, the last time, I promise it will be the last time. Xu Sanduo looked at the people around him one by one, and everyone he saw smiled embarrassingly. The informant was still rubbing his chest. Xu Sanduo jumped up suddenly, punched and kicked those people, they thought it was a joke at first, they couldn't stand the pain and had to dodge. Qi Huan had no choice but to stop him: "What are you doing?"What are you doing? The informant came up to stop him, but Xu Sanduo pushed him away with a palm. You made me kill someone!You make me think you're really going to kill someone!Xu Sanduo was frustrated and angry, almost crying. The people next to him were stunned, not knowing what to do.Qi Huan hugged him gently and said: I'm sorry.Only in this way can I trust you and put the life of the whole team in your hands. Those people came up and hugged Xu Sanduo one by one. They hugged into a ball under the moonlit night. The helicopter stopped right next to the woodland, its rotors turning slowly. Several people participating in this test exercise are sorting out their equipment and preparing to board the plane. Yuan Lang waited by the helicopter, surrounded by subordinates returning in twos and threes, some of them face sinking, obviously, they were guys who failed the test; those who were laughing and joking were all accomplished. When Xu Sanduo walked over with his head drooping, Yuan Lang was stunned. He asked Qi Huan, what happened to him? He thought he hadn't passed, and his face was filled with pity. Report!The sixth child almost died in his hands! Yuan Lang was taken aback again. What's wrong with him? He is...he blames us for deceiving him and causing him to prepare to kill people for us. Yuan Lang looked at Xu Sanduo, and almost sighed in relief. At this time, a proud and slightly angry guy came over to salute him: Report to the captain!You said not to lie to us anymore! This is Wu Zhe. Yuan Lang started to be a rascal again: soldiers cheat their families.You have been with me for three months, don't you understand my style? He looked strangely at the colleague behind Wu Zhe who was pretending to be a drug dealer, and they smiled wryly as they looked at each other. Hello, how are you doing there?Yuan Lang asked curiously. Report to the captain that we can't proceed with his torture at all.When he said I was Vietnamese, he spoke Vietnamese to me; when he said that I lived in Thailand for a long time, he immediately changed to Thai.Next time you have this kind of military foreign language major, you can assign it to someone else, I can't take this job! Yuan Lang looked at Wu Zhe and said: How do you say this?You can't pass the test, can you? Wu Zhe followed with a rogue smile, and he said to report to the captain that the mother mouse and the little mouse met a cat and let the cat hunt it down.The mouse mother turned her head and said to the cat: "Wow, woof!The cat was scared away, but the mouse returned safely. What are you talking about? Do you know what the mouse mother said to the little mouse, she said that this is the benefit of learning another foreign language. Yuan Lang burst into laughter unconsciously, and kicked Wu Zhe's ass: Get on the plane!Look later, I will clean you up! Wu Zhe and Xu Sanduo were slapped on the head and chest by a group of teammates and stuffed into the plane, Xu Sanduo suddenly saw Chengcai and the two teammates coming out of the jungle.The talented person was listless, and the two teammates were also listless. There was a long distance between the three of them, and it seemed that they were even more indifferent to each other than when they came here.The two teammates got on the plane straight away, only Cheng Cai was still in the open space next to the plane. Xu Sanduo waved at Cheng Cai, but Cheng Cai didn't see it. let's go.Yuan Lang shouted again when boarding the plane. When Chengcai boarded the plane, he almost avoided everyone's eyes, and then sat with his gun leaning on him. The ground receded farther and farther under the rotor, finally leaving the jungle behind. Railway, Yuan Lang, and several base officers sat at the table, evaluating and scoring the soldiers who participated in the test.Chengcai sat red-faced, obviously, the defense had reached a fever pitch. You mean you figured out it was just a drill, so you believed that the lives of a few captured teammates were not in danger, and you left the combat zone alone.do you mean this?Qi Huan's gunpowder is quite thick. Chengcai's answer is: yes. Is it allowed to abandon teammates during the exercise?Do you leave the combat zone during the exercise?What made you realize it was just a drill? Cheng Cai was a little speechless, he said: Nothing...just a feeling. Is it a feeling or a hint of luck?To put it bluntly, it is an escape.Qi Huan said. Chengcai said I don't know.I think... Even if it is true, someone should report back to the team. Your teammates walk in front of you under the enemy's guns, how do you return to the team to report their death?But they are not dead, what if they are being escorted to the execution ground by the enemy? Chengcai said that I didn't have time to think so much. Yes, I also believe that a person's character is doomed to what choice he will make. He looked at Chengcai's eyes, as if sentenced to death, and he looked at Yuan Lang, signaling the end of his questioning. Yuan Lang pondered for a moment, and it was his turn to ask questions.He said, Comrade non-commissioned officer, your performance has always been good, and your military skill score is very high. You performed well in this exercise, and you survived the torture that most people could not stand.Seriously, there's nothing surprising about getting cold feet, because this is your first time facing a real battlefield.But I don't like the reason you gave yourself. Chengcai couldn't stand Yuan Lang's gentle eyes. Chengcai said that I didn't find a reason, and I really didn't.I think I'm right!As you often say, fighting is survival and survival is fighting!I know this matter can't be solved!I saved my chance of survival for the next fight!Is there something wrong with this? Yuan Lang and Railway glanced at each other. Yuan Lang asked back: us?Are you not one of us? Cheng was a little embarrassed, he said of course. Yuan Lang shook his head. He said, Comrade non-commissioned officer, there is nothing wrong with what you said.As an army, of course we can't spend all our money at once.The railway went on to say: But as a soldier in the queue, I am always ready to block the bullets for my comrades, because I believe he will even block the shells for me.His words were a little firm. Yuan Lang was still calm, he said that as a civilian, you have nothing to blame, but as a soldier, you are out of the axis of this team. Chengcai has always refused to give in, and his eyes, like a trapped beast, point to the highest leadership railway. He said I am not convinced, I believe I am right!My responsibility to my life is my responsibility to the team! The railroad didn't answer.Yuan Lang on the side spoke again.He said that you are right, if this is really what you think, I will give you a big compliment.But Comrade Chengcai, tell me, why did you plan this highly realistic exercise? Of course it's for testing, although I didn't perform well, but... Don't rush to defend yourself, you have only stated a small part of your purpose.Comrade Chengcai, you should know that the heaviest casualties in any battle are always the recruits who joined the battle for the first time, but the veterans who killed the most enemies are born and died.We don't want you to face actual combat for the first time, so we have tried our best to design the first time for you.Because... people who have experienced life and death will understand many things.Now you tell me, Chengcai, what do you understand? From Chengcai's expression, it can be seen that he is thinking nervously. Yuan Lang said that every soldier who is defending today must answer this question.A thousand people have a thousand opinions, but those who give satisfactory answers are always those soldiers who intend to sacrifice for others.Don't think about becoming a talent, I'm asking about your personal feelings, but you have never experienced this matter at all, you escaped this test, and you are missing the most important experience for soldiers.You give up and you lose too. Chengcai stood up angrily: You don't need me, but you can't say I give up!I never knew what it meant to give up! Some people give up their ideals because of reality, and some people give up reality because of their ideals.To become a talent, you gave up your stupidity because of your cleverness. I can't say anything wrong with you.But to become a talent, who told you that people who put on this military uniform should make choices for themselves?You look at the people who succeeded this time because of stupidity, it was not a fluke.In all honesty, which one of them is not a person with more conviction than you? Cheng Cai licked his dry lips and muttered, speechless for a while. Yuan Lang looked at the railway beside him, and the railway nodded without hesitation. Yuan Lang hesitated instead: I feel very sorry.Actually you are one of the best snipers I have ever seen. After finishing speaking, he drew a cross behind Chengcai's name. Chengcai seemed helpless. The talented people who came out of the office building made great strides and were extremely depressed.Xu Sanduo, who had been waiting outside, quickly chased after him. What did he say, become a talent?Chengcai didn't stop, his mouth was full of anger. He told Xu Sanduo: Get back to your original shape! Xu Sanduo didn't understand for a moment and was stunned. What did he call back? Team A, it's over!I went back to the old team, red three consecutive five classes, once I fell to the end, I was solid! Xu Sanduo stopped chasing, Xu Sanduo didn't say anything, turned around and hurried away.Chengcai felt something, and suddenly stopped in his tracks. He looked at Xu Sanduo who was leaving in a hurry, and asked loudly: Xu Sanduo, what are you going to do?Xu Sanduo, stop! Xu Sanduo didn't stop.Xu Sanduo told him loudly: I will tell the captain! stop! Cheng Cai ran to catch up, he looked seriously at Xu Sanduo's sweaty face, and said: Don't go...it's useless.Xu Sanduo looked at Cheng Cai, a little at a loss, he said: He doesn't know how much you like this, how much effort you have put into this matter, and how much brains you have spent! Chengcai seemed to be pleased when he heard it, and he said that I probably spent too much time thinking about it, Xu Sanduo, don't go, I feel a little regretful now...Xu Sanduo looked at Chengcai in surprise.When he saw Chengcai's face, he was almost filled with guilt and guilt.He said tell me the truth, do you... usually trust me as a comrade-in-arms and fellow countryman? Chengcai said of course trust! Chengcai said, I always thought that your luck is better than mine, but it is not, it is you who trust people better than me.You are one with them, and I am alone...Xu Sanduo, I don't trust myself now.I fought with them all morning, exhausted and hoarse, but to be honest,...really, the moment I ran away from the battlefield, I knew one thing, I don't deserve to stay in this army , I am not worthy to stay in any army... Chengcai was about to cry, but he was so choked up several times that he couldn't speak anymore.After he finished speaking, he turned around and left, with a sad back, walking very heavily. Xu Sanduo turned around and called Chengcai!But Chengcai didn't look back, he just said don't tell the captain!don't say anything!He understands everything! Success is gone. The old A's who were training ran away from downstairs at the sound of the password.Cheng Cai waited until no one was around before coming out of the house.Those trainings had nothing to do with him anymore.He put on his backpack and left without looking back.When he walked to Xu Sanduo's door, the door opened and Xu Sanduo stood inside. Chengcai was a little surprised: why didn't you go to training? Xu Sanduo said: I asked for leave, I will see you off. Chengcai said: "It's impossible." Xu Sanduo said: Someone has to give it to me. Chengcai was excited, so he stopped insisting. Xu Sanduo handed him a long box in his hand, saying that this is for you. What? Sight.