Chapter 11 Chapter Eleven

The morning glory that was still blooming on the balcony a few days ago has withered now.Only the bamboo entwined with the vines is still standing upright in the flower pot. One day in early October, on the way home, Dongzi bought a branch of Yanlaihong at a flower shop. The owner of the flower shop told Dongzi, "Yan Lai Hong is just another name for it. Its real name is Caijitou. As the name implies, it is the most red when Yan Zi comes back." Recently, for some reason, Dongzi likes to collect red flowers.In the past, she always felt that red was too dazzling and fancy, so she liked navy blue and light brown very much.But recently her hobbies seem to have changed.

Women like red, one is to ignite the fire of their youth, and the other is to relieve loneliness. Which aspect it is, Dongzi can't figure it out.Thinking about it again, I seem to think everything is right. Indeed, the loneliness of celibacy deepens with age.My classmates in high school were all married, and when I saw them surrounded by their own children, I felt abandoned. The reason why Dongzi feels so deeply may be because he is in his thirties. Others may not notice that crow's feet appear in the corners of my eyes, which can tell people my age at once. I am no longer young, and my youth will pass away.

But amidst all kinds of anxiety, the reason why Dongzi lives tenaciously is because she always has the figure of Takashi in her heart. Regardless of the setbacks, it is true that the impact of 7+ years of intimacy is enormous.Even though the mind wants to separate, the body and the senses are inseparable. The increase or decrease of the body's enthusiasm, in the final analysis, also changes around Takashi. While Toko regained her physical enthusiasm, she fell in love with Takashi for the second time.Although youth is gone, with the arrival of new joy, Dongzi recently feels that life is beautiful.

What a withered flower of a woman has reopened. Fuyuko wanted her body to be slim, but she always felt that some part was strong and strong, so she was worried again. The red color of Yan Lai Hong, while making people feel gorgeous and vigorous, is also full of robustness and toughness, so she became worried again. The red color of Yan Lai Hong not only makes people feel gorgeous and vigorous, but also full of quiet loneliness. Red is where the vulnerable and the strong cohabit. Just like Dongzi's appearance. At dusk, when the sun was setting, Dongzi watched the geese come red for a while, and then closed the curtains. At this moment, he received a call from Guizhi.

"doing what?" "Nothing to do, just idle." "yes……" Guizhi nodded and said, "Tomorrow, do you have time?" Dongzi readily agreed to Guizhi's invitation. "Eight or nine tomorrow?" "8 o'clock." "So, let's eat in Akasaka, how about the 'Bestro' we've been to before?" "Okay." After talking about the location and time, Guizhi said, "Now I'm designing a new building." Things that haven't been completed, in short, things that are still under design, Dongzi is not very interested.

Guizhi said this because he wanted to tell Dongzi that he was working now. The mild-mannered Takashi might feel sorry for Toko if she knew that Saturday night was spent by herself. Dongzi is very aware of Guizhi's concern for her.Sometimes thinking too much can only add to the distress. Kishi is not the kind of person who can only have one woman.Although I know this, I still follow him until now because I have a sense of security and there will be no big mistakes. Even if he doesn't say anything, Takashi always thinks about Toko.Kishi is not the cold and heartless type of person.He is not very likable on the outside, and he does things very casually, but he is very warm inside, and sometimes this becomes a weakness and shows on his face.

Dongzi likes him for that.Prolonged contact between men and women will result in the intimacy of the two.As a result, what is shown is that the two are combined. Such a place to love and be loved may not be very good when you think about it, but if you only pay attention to superficial phenomena such as social status and economic strength, then it is easy to get together and disperse quickly.Even parting, there will be no trace left in my heart. Guizhi said that he plans to get married next year, will it really come true?Such a kind person would not persecute his wife. Marriage is not important to Dongzi.The body was once indifferent, and Dongzi pursued the entity more.It is better to be a real woman than to be a superficial wife.

In the past, Dongzi always wanted to be 30 years old, but when she was 30 years old, she unshakably wanted to be alone with Takashi, so she felt more at ease in her heart, and there was nothing to worry about. After regaining her sexual joy, Toko has a second love affair with the same person. The next day, when Toko came to "Bestro", Takashi hadn't come yet. After waiting for nearly 10 minutes, Guizhi went around the table and walked in. "Sorry, I'm late. What's the order?" "Not yet." Dongzi only drank juice. "Then we'll have beef boiled in wine, shall we?"

Guizhi ordered wine and soup again, then turned to look at Dongzi. "The necklace is so beautiful." Dongzi immediately put her hands on her chest. "It's from Funatsu." When Dongzi went out today, he took it with him without thinking about anything.On the thin sky blue dress, it was most suitable to wear a white jade necklace, and finally she chose the one given to her by Funatsu. "A Ming friend in the United States brought it back." "No wonder." Guizhi looked at it for a while, then took out a cigarette from his pocket. "He still likes you very much."

"No. He's already living with an American there." "yes?" "It's unbelievable that a prudish man like him could do that." "That wouldn't happen, would it?" Guizhi took a sip of the wine, wiped his mouth with a napkin and said, "Life without women is very lonely." "And so did his friends." "There is no way to do it abroad." "Whether it's at home or abroad, women don't want to be with someone they don't like. It's just because of loneliness and so on. Men are really too casual to do that."

"Maybe so." "A woman lives alone..." "Men are not that strong." "Women can fully fuel the fire of desire." "But there are also times when the fire of desire disappears." "It's gone. Fire is fire after all. Whenever there is a chance, it will ignite again." "It can't be said so simply." "That's what happened." "wrong." "I don't mean anything else." Dongzi suddenly felt that Guizhi was very pitiful. Among so many women, maybe he can only ignite their desires, and he is the same as Funatsu, Professor Zhongshan, and Takeda. "It's ridiculous." Dongzi said. "what." "It ignites and then disappears." Toko thought of Maki. Maki's desire disappears as she is violated.But Dongzi was ignited by the same thing.It's the same thing, one woman gets fired up and the other goes out. In insincerity and inauthenticity, the woman's lust is aroused. "Let's go to the hotel in front." Guizhi asked.Dongzi answered with only her eyes. After sitting in "Bestro" for 30 minutes, the two came out when it was raining lightly outside. The typhoon landed, and the aftermath was this light rain. The car stopped in front of the hotel, and Dongzi followed Guizhi to the hotel's underground nightclub. Under the dim light, tables are arranged around the venue, and a band sits in the middle of the venue. Most of the guests are relatively young people.Dongzi drank a little brandy and played with Guizhi. The dance music is slow, calm and not loud at all. When dancing the third piece, Guizhi whispered, "You don't care, do you?" "what?" "It's about the surgery." "Forget it." It was already 11 o'clock at night when I came out of the underground nightclub. The rain is still falling slowly. Guizhi wanted to book a room in the hotel, but Dongzi refused. "Then what to do?" "I want to go home." Guizhi agreed, and the two took a taxi. When she and Kishi broke up three years ago, Toko had made up her mind not to let anyone into her room.I plan to spend my whole life alone. But now it is tempting itself again, in order to forget that determination, Dongzi accepted Takashi's request. Dongzi felt that he had changed a lot now, and his vitality was beating desperately. She felt that it was important to put aside the reasonableness and decency of the world and enjoy the joys of life to the fullest. Now I seem to be repeating what I did before, but this time with love for myself. "It's better to be your own home." Guizhi walked into Dongzi's room, lit a cigarette, picked up a newspaper and began to read. This posture often appeared when they lived together a few years ago, so Dongzi felt very kind. "Let's make a cup of coffee." "Okay, give me a drink." As Kishi said, he took off his suit and tie.Dongzi habitually hung them on the hanger. "It's so quiet." "yes……" The two echoed each other while drinking coffee. We've been together like this before.Just thinking about it, Guizhi stood up and sat beside her. "It's been a long time." "what?" "So close together." As if she hadn't heard, Dongzi continued drinking her coffee. Kishi put his hand on her shoulder. "I think." The two kissed like this. The next day, when Dongzi woke up, it was already past 8 o'clock in the morning. The sunlight coming in through the cracks in the curtains was harsh.There was also the roar of cars in the distance. Last night, or rather this morning, it was already past 4 o'clock in the morning when Guizhi returned. The two are together at night.But in the early morning, Dongzi insisted on letting Guizhi go back. When Dongzi fell asleep again, it was too late.If it was normal, Dongzi would be in a hurry, but today is the rest day in the store. Although I woke up once in the middle, I still slept for 7 hours. After a night, until this morning, this feeling still has its aftermath, floating in my body. Every time it rains, it seems like autumn has taken a step forward, and Dongzi's joy is also deepening.Now it is just like the scene when Dongzi first met Takashi.But it's stronger now than it was then, and it's definitely felt. When Dongzi's body became frigid, her will almost collapsed.But now it is not the will, but the body is burning. It is endless, without boundaries. Repeating the same thing, what happened before.Dongzi was deeply disturbed, but at the same time, she really felt that she had regained her will. This sexual joy can no longer forget it.I have self-confidence, but what happened to the long-term frigidity? Why did I meet that kind of frigidity?Then why did it disappear like peeling off? During this period, is there something sneaking into Dongzi's body, and something disappearing... The reason, the engineer, Takashi, and even Dongzi himself can't figure it out. "That's weird." Dongzi was talking to herself in the soft sunlight. "Why?" He tilted his head and asked himself. It's useless to ask, but after asking, I seem to have a kind of satisfaction. "Get up." Dongzi stretched on the bed. The tiredness after waking up swirls on the bed. When he looked up, he saw the necklace that Funatsu had given him on the bedside table. For some reason, it looked a little faded in the morning sun. Dongzi picked up the comb and opened the balcony curtain. In an instant, the sun seemed to be unable to wait to shoot into the room. After the typhoon, the sun is very bright. Dongzi took a deep breath and combed her hair on the balcony. Probably because it is a rest day, there are many children playing on bicycles in the square downstairs. On the avenue opposite, teenagers with baseball bats were running. The Oda Express train passed the residential area with few sidewalks, and the roads, buildings, and the woods in front of the shrine were all bathed in autumn colors. At this time, Dongzi was humming a song while combing her hair slowly. After her body was satisfied, her hair looked so moist and soft. Dongzi used paper to remove a few strands of hair left on the comb, then looked down at Yan Laihong at his feet. This was bought two days ago.It is even redder now than when I first bought it, as if burning under the clear autumn sky. After thinking for a while, Dongzi remembered its name. The owner of the florist once told her that Yan Lai Hong is the most popular when the wild goose arrives. "More red..." Dongzi repeated in a low voice.All of a sudden, I had the illusion that I was also dyed red. I don't know why, but there is indeed a red core in my body. Now, that "safflower" is still burning. It would burn forever if possible. It's just that sometimes, its color is sometimes darkened. Red itself, there are scenes of burning, but also when it is dark. When and how it turned into a bright "safflower", when it became dim and faded, Dongzi still doesn't know. But now it can be said with certainty that the root of "safflower" remains in Dongzi's body.