Chapter 9 chapter eight

The Abbas Building was filled with children's laughter.Melora and Kim's children: The eldest is called Dick after his father, and he is ten years old now. He looks so much like Kim, and every time I see him, I feel a kind of heartache. I still live in the Tianzi Temple, and I go for a walk on the grass beside the Maiden Stone almost every day on weekdays.The mine there has been filled.King said that the St. Langston family hoped that the mine would be there forever, but now, the Kimber family didn't need it. They would work hard with their own hands for the prosperity of tomorrow.

Melora is an excellent hostess and deserves it all.She had forgotten old Mrs. Langston, the painful memories Justin had left her.She says past pain is a bright path to future happiness. I wish I could think like her too. If grandma is still alive now!If only I could talk to her!If only I had her wisdom! Karaine grew up day by day.He was tall, but not at all like John, yet one could tell he was a Langston.He is sixteen years old this year, and he is often with Joe, and he has many things in common with Joe—gentleness and love for animals.Sometimes I think he thinks of Joe as his father.Joe had no children of his own, and was more than happy to treat him as his own.

One day, when I was talking to Calane about his future, he said with a twinkle in his eyes, "I'll do it with Joe." I am a little unhappy.I told him that he was Sir Carlyon, looking for a brighter future, and a great fortune; and I told him that his fathers had been rich.He looked very sad, and I knew he didn't want to say anything to hurt me; he saw the disappointment in my eyes, but he still refused to give up his pursuit.So what can I say? In this way, there was a gap between my son and me, and this incomprehension deepened day by day.Joe is also aware of it, and he thinks that Carlain should be allowed to choose his own future.Joe still cared about me, but I thought he was a little afraid of me.He said he would never forget me and Kim for saving my life, but he rarely mentioned it.He had a very different view of life than I did, and it was difficult for him to understand me.Of course, he knew that I had great hopes for Callain, just like I had for him back then.

He talked to Carlain and made him understand that his uncle had little education and was content to be a country veterinarian, but he might become a knight, which is a completely different life. However, Carlain is firm, and I am not willing to compromise.He tries to avoid being alone with me.Faced with all this, and thinking about the Jin family living in Abbas, I couldn't help but ask myself: Can my well-organized life lead me to happiness? David Killigrew still writes to me; he is still a curate, and his mother is still alive.I wanted to write to him and tell him that I didn't want to be married anymore in my life, but I didn't.Let him have hope in me and wait for me, I feel that I can have some comfort in my heart, at least there are people in this world who care about me.

Both Kim and Melora said they valued and cared about me.Melora calls me her sister, and Kim calls me the same; God knows how I call him with all my heart!We should be destined, several times, I wanted to tell him this, but I still held back, he didn't seem to notice it at all. He told me once that he fell in love with Melora when she told him how to bring me home from the labor market. "She was so gentle," he said, "but she had the courage to do it, Cronza, and there was a perfect harmony of tenderness and hardness in her! She was my Melora! Then she took you Bring it to the ball! Don't be fooled by her gentle appearance, the gentle surface hides strength and will!"

I watched them pair up, and I had to pretend not to care.They already had two boys and two girls, and every time Melora gave birth, I stayed by her side.They will also have children.Biggest Dick will inherit the Abbas estate.Kim is exercising his hard-working character.Why am I pursuing it so deliberately and working so hard?But in the end, still haven't found happiness? I consoled myself that after all I still had Calaigne, who would be Ser Calaline someday.Now, Justin's body is not doing well.My Calaine is a knight, he will have a bright future!I'm going to work hard for Carleen.I couldn't let him be content with being a country veterinarian.

Sometimes, I sit by the window alone, looking at the roof of Abbas in a daze and weeping.But I can't let anyone see my pain and failure. Sometimes, I come to the Maiden's Stone, look at the stone, think of the characters in the legend, and feel that my fate is even more tragic than theirs.They danced to show their resistance and were turned into stone; I wish I could be turned into stone too.