Chapter 37 Chapter 18 The Secret World of Homosexuality

Homosexuality involves a secret world between two people. Even a psychiatrist, if he only understands homosexuality from book knowledge, there may be great deviations and deficiencies, and homosexuals usually do not describe them to others. Privacy of sex life.Although I have met many gay people, I still know very little about their sex lives. Regarding the origin of homosexuality, traditional clinical psychology regards homosexuality as a sexual psychopath.However, with the changes of the times and the deepening of clinical psychology research, modern clinical psychology no longer regards the category of homosexuality as abnormal psychology.On the contrary, homosexuals are actively fighting for the world to recognize that homosexuality and heterosexuality should have the same status. In order to prove that homosexuality and heterosexuality are equal, homosexuals must prove that homosexuality is not the result of acquired learning, but an innate instinct.In this way, the study of the nature of homosexuality has a political color and meaning.I was determined to clear up all my doubts in my conversations with homosexuals. Naturally, I met a patient who took the initiative to describe homosexual sex life to me. From him, I had a clear insight into the life style of homosexuality. .

"What was the origin of your initial homosexual impulses?" I asked the homosexual patient named Roger. "My mom shut out my first sexual urges," Roger grinned. "Your mother, and your first sex drive?" "My first ejaculation, I told my mother, she ignored me and asked me to go to my father to solve it. She refused my first sexual experience, and I can't forgive her." Roger casually used Such a strange logic to explain the cause of his homosexuality. "It seems to be a tradition for a mother to ignore her son's nocturnal emission. Don't you think it's a bit too much for her to reject you?"

"She turned me down more than once. When I was 15, I was playing pants off with some boys at home. We took off each other's pants, looked at those private parts, and touched each other. When we were having fun, I Mom was knocking on the door outside the room, yelling 'what the hell are you doing in there, why did you lock the door?' At that time, we were having a good time, so we quickly put on our pants and acted like nothing happened. My mother said: So nasty, always meddling in my sex life." "In my opinion, there is nothing wrong with your mother doing this." I expressed my opinion.

"My mother is a witch who does all kinds of evil. She is involved in cheating, stealing, prostitution, and drug use." Roger said fiercely.When Roger said this about his mother, he actually provided a strong evidence for the theory of acquired origin of homosexuality. The reason why a man becomes gay is because he transformed his hatred of his mother into a general hatred of women. To confirm this, I went on to ask, "Did you become gay because you hated your mother, or did you just have an innate dislike for women?" "I don't like women by nature. I have never liked women since I was a child." Roger's straightforward answer seemed to deny the acquired origin of homosexuality.

"So, when was the first time you had sex with a man?" "When I was 15 years old, I was raped by a grown man who I thought was my friend." Roger said with a smile on his face as he recounted the incident. "Rape? You say raped by a man?" "Yes, I was raped by a man." "Then why can't I see the look of anger on your face?" "Because that rape opened the door for me to know that men can do that with men." Roger was still smiling. "And after that?" I asked. "Later, a 17-year-old girl blatantly seduced me. No matter what she said, I was unmoved. Later, she simply took off her clothes and pants in front of me. She thought that I must be conquered by her now. Unexpectedly, I was still unmoved. I told her that I have no interest in women's bodies at all." Roger laughed triumphantly when he talked about this.

"After you were raped by a grown man, didn't you feel disgusted with men?" “During a tour, I shared a room with a man who taught me how to have gay sex games. I found it very fun and enjoyed it. I found that there is more love and understanding between men Communicate with feelings. What do women know?" Although Roger's discussion is a bit strange, it just reveals the unique logic of homosexuals.I know there are feminine and masculine genders in homosexuality, and I wonder how this is stereotyped. Roger saw that I was very interested in the knowledge of homosexuality, so he also cheered up and explained to me: "This yin and yang depends on my mood at the time. If I want to be more active that day, I will be a man in my sex life; If I'm not in the mood to be proactive that day, I'll turn myself into a woman and passively accept another man's sexual arrangements." Roger's explanation is concise and clear, and in just a few sentences, he has answered one of my homosexual questions. Unanswered questions for many years.

Roger kept talking more and more vigorously. I didn't ask him further, but he took the initiative to open the conversation: "Did you know? There are five ways of homosexuality, namely bandages, puddings, hoops, vegetables, and fists and elbows." I have always had a low self-esteem for my English, and suddenly I heard so many strange words, I couldn't turn around for a while, but I also knew that there must be very interesting content in it.Seeing my bright eyes, Roger explained to me the true meaning of these strange words even more proudly.It turns out that bandages refer to the fact that one party binds the other party up with bandages in sexual life, and there are many patterns of binding, and the bound person also has many postures, and each binding can take several hours.Bonding may appear to be one party abusing the other, but it is actually a form of cooperation.And if there is abuse, one is willing to hit and the other is willing to suffer.

As I was writing this, I saw a report on the Internet that a Taiwanese man accidentally smothered his gay friends to death while they were playing a game of bandages.It turns out that there is another method in the bandage, which is to suffocate the other party's mouth and nose with tape, and then obtain an orgasm when he is on the verge of suffocation.Human beings are willing to bet their lives in order to obtain that ecstasy moment. How should people feel about such a life?Interestingly, as soon as the report came out, some gay groups came forward to explain that the bandage game is not exclusive to gays, and it also exists among heterosexuals.In this way, the above tragedies cannot be blamed solely on homosexuality.

"The second kind is called pudding, and there is also called jelly, which actually refers to oral sex." Roger mentioned this sentence without further explanation.With a simple exercise of the imagination, it's not hard to see why oral sex is called pudding and jelly. "As the name suggests, the steel hoop refers to anal sex, and vegetables refer to anal sex games with cucumbers, bananas, and eggplants." The above is actually not difficult to understand, but I am a little confused about the last item. , I don't know what the real meaning of the word is. Seeing my confused look, Roger smiled smugly. "You can't understand this time, right? The meaning of fist and elbow is actually very clear, that is to use fists to carry out."

Seeing me in a daze, Roger said even more proudly: "You don't know, this kind of understanding is deep and inner." "Then have you ever been understood so deeply?" "A friend of mine wanted me to learn this method, but I declined." Roger laughed after he finished speaking. Seeing Roger's straightforwardness and trust in me, I think this is a good opportunity to learn about the real world of homosexuality from Roger.I told Roger very frankly that I wanted to learn about homosexuality through him. Roger was very happy with my humble attitude and was willing to discuss homosexuality issues with me.

"How are you guys dating now?" I wondered about the latest gay dating patterns. "Internet." Roger replied without hesitation: "On the Internet, you can meet gay friends all over the world. I have gay friends in Germany, Denmark, South Africa, Turkey, and my German friends want me to go to Germany on weekends Happy Spring Festival.” "Then who will issue the ticket?" I laughed. "I didn't ask, because I haven't decided whether to go or not. However, someone is willing to pay to invite the other party to the appointment." Roger replied. "If one party pays, will there be suspicion of prostitution?" "This possibility cannot be ruled out. In fact, there is a popular idea in our gay community that homosexuality can make people better understand people. Therefore, homosexuality is a kind of education, an education that unlocks the shackles of thought." "So, the party who pays is considered a student?" I felt the absurdity of this statement as soon as I heard it, so I asked deliberately. Roger ignored the sarcasm in my words. He continued to explain: "I now belong to a club called "Young vs. Old". The purpose of this club is to encourage old people to meet young people. pass on the experience to the young.” Roger is 50 years old, so in this Internet club should belong to the elders. "You're an old man in this club and it's your job to teach young people about gays?" I asked. "Yes, I now have two young people asking me about homosexuality online." "Will you demonstrate it in person?" "If everyone trusts it, of course it can." "Well, you teach them, do you want them to pay?" "Hey, 18-year-old hairy boy, what money can I have, I just do my duty." Roger said passionately and generously, giving people the impression that he is really doing a great and just thing. In the gay community, basically there are pros and cons, one faction trying to do all the weird and dangerous sexual behaviors, while the other faction tries to prove to the world that homosexuals and heterosexuals have nothing but differences in sexual identity Besides, there is no significant difference in any other respects. "You seem to be a decent homosexual." I smiled and positioned Roger, and Roger also laughed and acquiesced.To be honest, when I was in China, my understanding of homosexuality was very superficial.After arriving in the United States, I met a lot of homosexuals. Although I still feel a little weird, homosexuality is very different in my eyes.My current attitude towards homosexuality tends to accept it as a human sexual way of life besides heterosexuality.If in the past homosexuals gave people a strange appearance, I believe it was an overreaction of living under the pressure of heterosexuality.In fact, gay people I meet in America these days, you can't tell from the outside if they don't tell you. Homosexuality and heterosexuality are like the poles of a pendulum in the form of human life.Human beings have been living at the heterosexual pole for thousands of years, and in the 20th century, the homosexual pole showed clear signs of resurgence.It seems inconceivable today that homosexuality will be equal to heterosexuality, but logically, this possibility cannot be ruled out.However, from an overall point of view, heterosexuality should be the mainstream form of human sexual life. The reason is very simple. The communication mode of human sexual life is specially designed for the reproductive purpose of heterosexuality. After all, the sexual life of homosexuals is a kind of variation. patterns of sexual intercourse. Thus, an interesting question arises: Why can't human beings have both male and female sexual organs at the same time?If the original Creator designed it this way, it would save mankind a lot of trouble and pain.Readers thought I was talking nonsense again. It seems that Zhang Yuanxia, ​​a psychiatrist, is really a little abnormal.But readers, please wait a moment to put a hat on me. As a psychiatrist, I am really more knowledgeable than ordinary people.I have seen intersex people, that is, people who have both male and female sex organs at the same time.