Chapter 20 10. Shock

Yu Meilin's heart was very disturbed, she did not expect so many unexpected events to happen all of a sudden.And that girl Huang Minmin was so powerful, she took that photo and went to the principal again. This girl was born with a rebellious character, she dared to love and hate, like a raging fire. The school is a bit embarrassed, Huang Minmin's approach is essentially a "forced palace" and a showdown.For this group of high school students who are about to enter the college entrance examination reserve army, the principal naturally cannot tolerate any mistakes.The school finally took countermeasures: first, it announced that Yu Meilin would no longer serve as the acting head teacher of Class 2 (3) in senior high school, and the original head teacher who was about to expire her maternity leave would come to "take over" in advance; Go to his former high school, because the original school decided to let him come to "trial study" for half a year through the "relationship" lecture.

With such a result, Yu Meilin felt that there was no problem for her, but she was worried about whether Pei Xiaolong's emotions could bear it. The recent series of incidents might have dealt too much psychological blow to him, especially the death of his mother. But at the moment she couldn't think about these things anymore. Her thoughts were all about her father.When she learned of her father's condition, she couldn't sleep almost all night.She felt that she was so selfish, and she didn't pay attention to her father's white hair and heavy wrinkles on his face.She was always busy with her career, and she had little time to stay with her father and talk to him.Now she is on the long way to the hospital, and her heart hurts like being soaked in alcohol.

She longed for the smile on her father's face to be with her all the time.Now she can only touch God with piety, praying for her father to overcome this difficulty. My father was a famous professor, and he lived in a senior single ward of the city center hospital.My father fell down during a research project. He had a heart attack without any signs. Fortunately, he was rescued in time, but he only left some symptoms of a small stroke, and his speech became ineffective.In the past few days, his condition has been quite stable, so some colleagues and students began to visit him. The ward is a rectangular room with a white screen blocking the door, making the room look quieter.In the middle of the east and west walls is the father's hospital bed, and the books and research materials of the father are still placed on the desk next to the window, but they have been crowded into a corner by the flowers and fruits sent by colleagues and students, and there seems to be no way out.The walls and all the furnishings in the ward are white, and there is a uniform, faint disinfectant smell in the air.

As soon as she walked to the door of the room, she heard a person talking to her father about something important in front of the hospital bed. She thought not to disturb them, so she tiptoed in and stood quietly behind the screen.She was sensitive to the strangeness of the air in the room, and it seemed that someone was wiping tears.She didn't dare to make a sound, just pricked up her ears and listened quietly. "I didn't expect such a thing to happen to Xiaolong's mother. I know, she used to be your favorite student..." Yu Meilin's heart tightened, and when she looked through the gap in the screen, it turned out that Pei Xiaolong's father was sitting there. His eyes were bloodshot, and he seemed extremely emaciated.And her father was lying on the hospital bed with his eyes closed, and there were two old tears streaming down his wrinkled face... Yu Meilin thought to herself, this would make her father's condition worse, and she was about to go in and stop them from talking. She heard Xiaolong's father speak again, which made her even more frightened.

"I know, I shouldn't bother you, I should let you recover from your illness. But this matter weighs on my heart like a nightmare, and sometimes I can't breathe. I endured it for seventeen years. Now Xiaolong's mother has passed away, I feel like I can't hold it anymore, I just want to know the truth. I don't blame anyone or hate anyone, and it has been so many years, only when I know the truth can I calm down. And I will put this It's kept secret..." Yu Meilin felt strange in her heart, what happened?What is the "truth" that Xiaolong's father wants to know?She couldn't help listening intently and holding her breath.

"You know, Xiaolong's mother is the only woman I have ever loved in my life. Once she leaves, I will never love another woman in my life, nor will I have a marriage relationship with another woman. My love, my heart , from now on, it will only be on Xiaolong alone. So, I beg you, professor, to tell me the secret of Xiaolong's birth..." Yu Meilin felt that her heart was about to jump out. She wanted to move her feet, but there was no part of her body that could be controlled by her. "I know, Professor, you have to recover from your illness and cannot speak. I just want to ask you, you just need to nod and shake your head. What I want to ask is: Is Xiaolong really your biological child..."

The air in the ward was terribly quiet for an instant, so quiet that it seemed to burst, all flowing things were at a standstill at this moment, as if time no longer existed.Yu Meilin felt as if a heavy hammer had hit her eardrums, and the impact made her crumbling. She didn't dare to peek at her father's face, what kind of expression and behavior was on that tearful face.There was nothing but silence in the ward. "Well, I really shouldn't bother you at this time. I apologize again for my rudeness and offense to you. I hope you will recover from your illness and recover soon." Xiaolong's father stood up , and was about to leave, he suddenly remembered something and said: "Xiaolong has already had a deep affection for his teacher, the two of them can't meet again. Absolutely not! I have already asked the school that Xiaolong wants to change to another school... ..."

When Yu Meilin heard this, she couldn't stand it anymore.Her face was as pale as paper, and her eyes were full of sadness.Her consciousness began to sink, sinking, and her consciousness sank at an accelerated rate!She quietly ran out of the ward, ran into the empty bathroom, and silently shed hot tears facing the mirror on the wall... Pei Xiaolong is Yu Meilin's half-brother? !How inconceivable this is, what a trick of nature!If this is the case, then the father is too sorry for the deceased mother.Moreover, if this is the case, she feels that she has been living in deception for the past seventeen years!

She couldn't face herself in the mirror now, she couldn't lift her eyes, and there was a sharp, dull pain inside that not even tears could ease.A voice rang repeatedly in her ear: "The two of them can't meet again! Absolutely not! Absolutely not..." It was a terrible moment, every drop of water in the bathroom was like a plumb hammer hitting her heart.She thought of Xiaolong's mother, that beautiful middle-aged lady with a distinctive perfume smell. At first she thought her guard was an involuntary competition among beautiful women, jealousy. An innate hostility in the subconscious.

She felt an unprecedented feeling in her head, that feeling was biting her heart bit by bit, so her memory, her love, her soul abandoned her through this feeling, Like a wounded man who feels life draining from a bleeding wound... Suddenly Yu Meilin disappeared, Pei Xiaolong felt strange.She doesn't come to the class, and she no longer serves as the head teacher.The original class teacher quietly came back to take over.In the school's health room and psychological counseling room, she can't be seen busy.Really nothing, just like the layer of milk and sugar on top of the coffee, which suddenly melted into the coffee, leaving no trace.

The day after tomorrow is his mother's funeral memorial service. In addition to his inner sorrow, he now has an additional layer of loneliness, helplessness and loss.The planted wild lilies are already budding in the quiet early winter.Pei Xiaolong took it to Yu Meilin's house and knocked on the door for a long time, but there was no answer.An old lady from the neighbor next door ran out angrily and asked him what he was doing. The people in this room had already moved away. Just leave?Like a kite with a broken string, Xiaolong thought to himself what happened?Now he understood his attachment to her. He started calling her mobile phone, and each time the response was: "The person you dialed is out of service area, please try again later." This went on for a whole day, and Xiaolong was already feeling discouraged.Yu Meilin's boyfriend Cheng Yifen called him back, his tone was very gentle but somewhat gloomy.He told Pei Xiaolong not to look for her anymore, and she would never see him again.She is about to transfer to a new school to work, and hopes that he can continue to study hard and live a good life. He began to feel emotional turmoil.Now, trying to erase her from his memory is a very difficult thing, like being possessed, and the result of erasing will only burst into a more painful wound. Yu Meilin organizes her teaching materials and items in the psychological counseling room of the school.She was going to transfer to another middle school to teach, which was proposed by herself.She knew that if Xiaolong were to change to another school, it would be a blow to him too hard.Instead of letting Xiaolong go, it is better for her to bear everything, and use her departure in exchange for Xiaolong's inner peace.Because deep in her heart, for some reason, there was always a vague affection for Xiaolong. While she was arranging things and thinking, tears were about to flow down again unconsciously.At this time, a teacher ran in from the clinic in a panic and said to her: No, something happened!A student climbed onto the top floor of the sixth floor of the school teaching building, as if committing suicide. Yu Meilin was taken aback. As a psychological counselor, she is always the most sensitive at such moments.She ran to the school playground with that colleague, and saw that many teachers and students had surrounded the playground, shouting and dissuading them towards the top floor of the teaching building. The teaching building was newly built last year. The body of the building is yellow and white. It stands tall and surrounded by the playground surrounded by green shades. It is very beautiful and magnificent.As for the exit on the top floor of the sixth floor, in order to prevent mischievous students from climbing up, there were originally iron bars locked.For some unknown reason, the student who climbed to the top of the building was able to get it out of the way. Yu Meilin raised her head to look at the roof, and suddenly shrank back as if she had been shocked by an electric shock.She couldn't believe that it was Pei Xiaolong standing on the edge of the roof!At this moment, she felt as if her whole life was concentrated in those eyes. Surrounding the roof of the sixth floor of the school is a protective wall that is one meter high and one foot wide.Standing on the protective wall is like standing on a balance beam. You must concentrate and keep stable without too much wind speed.The building stretched like a razor-sharp cliff to the granite-brick walkway below, high enough to let out a long scream if you stumbled, and hit the ground like a ripe bird. The tomatoes are so split...Yu Meilin couldn't imagine it, and didn't dare to watch it. Pei Xiaolong walked slowly on the wall of the building. To the voices below, he just shouted: "Don't bother me, I don't want to die! I just want to be alone for a while." He raised his head, stared at the sky, stared at the endless clouds above, as if there was an invisible soul calling him. He walked a few steps along the edge of the wall, and the abyss lay beneath his feet. Whenever he gazed long into the deep sky, for some reason, his thoughts and feelings converged into a feeling of solitude, an irremediable solitude in which all that his ordinarily thought to be approachable and intimate became Infinite alienation has no value. He couldn't help shouting out: "Why should I be born? What am I living for? What is our study for? Is it really for ourselves... Apart from living like a learning machine, we have no Is there any other meaning of life?!" Some rescue police arrived, and someone had already climbed to the top of the building. Xiaolong threatened him: "Don't come close to me, I don't want to commit suicide! If you come close, I will really jump off!" He took a few more steps, swayed his body, and the people downstairs let out exclamations.The police began to lay inflatable valves downstairs to prepare for rescue. Xiaolong walked forward slowly without looking downstairs.He seemed to be looking at something in the sky, as if a vision there was attracting him. Perhaps what he saw from afar was the reflection of his mother's soul.He raised his hands high and said something unclear: "Freedom to fly...Happiness..." Xiaolong's body shook again, and there was another exclamation downstairs, and the people who climbed up to the top of the building to rescue him Just as he was about to get closer, he roared angrily, "I'm really going to jump off!" It was another moment of tense confrontation, the air was so heavy that it was hard to breathe.Yu Meilin had closed her eyes, and prayed secretly in her heart. Xiaolong looks at the sky, the sky and clouds are incomprehensible to people, and at the same time they are indifferent to people's short life. When people face to face with them and want to understand the meaning of their existence, they oppress people's emotions with silence. soul and emotion.So that kind of helpless loneliness came to people's hearts. Xiaolong took out his favorite picture book from his backpack, which was his collection of paintings.Suddenly a strange smile appeared on his face, and he tore off the paintings one by one, and then tore them into two pieces, and threw them into the sky, muttering "flying...freedom..." The torn drawing paper fluttered like a big butterfly and fell downstairs.Yu Meilin caught one of the fragments, but it was the painting named "Autumn Song". The principal was downstairs, and said anxiously: "He seems to have gone crazy, and he is going to save people..." At this moment, the rescuer on the top rushed forward to hug him.But Xiaolong slipped and fell off the roof like a shot bird. Only a muffled sound was heard, and Pei Xiaolong fell onto the air valve laid downstairs.This violent landing impact made him lose consciousness for a moment. Yu Meilin couldn't bear it anymore, she burst into tears, separated from the crowd, rushed forward and hugged Xiaolong tightly, crying and calling for him.But Xiaolong still closed his eyes tightly, appearing unconscious.Seeing this, the students around were all in tears. The ambulance from the hospital arrived, but Yu Meilin held Xiaolong in her arms and refused to let go. She knew clearly that this was like a farewell, and she would never have the chance to see him again from now on. This may be the last time the siblings meet, and they meet in this way and break up in this way. Paramedics managed to separate the two of them.Xiaolong was carried into the ambulance on a stretcher, and the door was closed.Yu Meilin felt that her heart was also closed heavily.She slammed on the car door and cried out in tears: "...Xiaolong, you have to...live well...live..." The ambulance starts.Yu Meilin ran after the car, she staggered and fell to the ground, but she got up with all her strength and chased after it again.She was crying and shouting, just wanted to tell him one thing: "...to live well,...to live..." Inside the car, Xiaolong opened his eyes, and he heard Yu Meilin's call.He wanted to get up and look at her, but there was a piercing pain somewhere in his body. He didn't get up.A string of scorching tears flowed involuntarily from the corner of his eyes...