Chapter 31 Chapter Thirty-One

I live for success, not for failure. I am here for victory, not bowing to failure. I will celebrate, not weep. However, I don’t know when, all my dreams have faded, and unconsciously, I have also become mediocre, complimenting each other with the people around me, and being self-absorbed. People can see through the deceptions of others, but cannot escape their own lies.The coward thinks he is prudent, and the miser thinks he is thrifty.There is nothing easier than deceiving ourselves because we tend to believe what we wish.No one in my life has lied to me more than myself. Why am I always trying to cover up my insignificance with words, always trying to lighten the burden on myself, and always looking for excuses for my incompetence? The worst thing is, I seem to have believed the excuses I made up, and I feel at ease and let it go, Comfort yourself with "more than the top, more than the bottom".

Can't go on like this! When I finally began to reflect on myself, I realized that my worst enemy was myself.In that magical moment, the veil of self-deception faded from my eyes. I finally understood that there are three kinds of people in this world.The first type of people learn from their own experience - they are intelligent.The second type learns from the experience of others - they are happy.The third type of people neither learn from their own experience nor from the experience of others - they are stupid. I am not a fool, from now on I will move forward on my own feet, and forever abandon the crutches of self-pity and self-deprecation.

I will never feel sorry for myself again. I used to stand on the side of the road stupidly, watching the successful people pass by with their heads held high, and the rich people striding forward, and I felt a lot of longing in my heart.I have wondered more than once, whether these people have some gifts that I do not have, such as unique skills, rare talents, fearless courage, persistent ambition, and other superiorities? Do they score more points than I do every day? How many hours to complete those great plans?Are they more compassionate and loving than I am?No!God is no partiality, we are all made of the same clay.

I finally understood that my life was not filled with sadness and frustration.Even the smartest and most successful people suffer from a series of setbacks and failures.These people were different from me only in that they knew that there is no peace without trouble, no rest without strain, no joy without sorrow, no victory without struggle and that is the price we all pay for living.At first, I paid the price willingly and without hesitation, but the successive disappointments and blows eroded my confidence and destroyed my courage like water droplets piercing a stone.Now, I'm going to ignore all of this.I am no longer the walking dead, hiding in the shadows of others, letting time pass through countless excuses and excuses.

I will never feel sorry for myself again. I finally understand that patience and time are even more important than strength and passion.Year after year of setbacks will eventually usher in the season of harvest.All that has been done, or will be done, cannot do without the tireless, persistent, and indomitable struggle.This process is accumulation bit by bit, expansion step by step, and success step by step. Success is often fleeting.Just came last night, and went again this morning.I look forward to a lifetime of happiness, because I finally realize the secret hidden behind the rough fate.Every failure will make us more eager to seek the right thing; every experience and lesson learned from failure will make us more careful to avoid the mistakes ahead.In this sense, failure is the path to success.This road, though full of tears, is not a deserted road.

I will never feel sorry for myself again. Thank God for arranging all this for me, and for placing this precious parchment in my hands.I finally realized that when life is at its lowest point, the turning point will come. I no longer mourn the past, which will not come again.Inspired by these scrolls, I grasp the present and strive to move forward to meet the amazing future without fear, doubt or disappointment. God made me in his image.For me, where there is a will, there is a way. I will never feel sorry for myself again.