Chapter 14 2. "I've never felt so humbled in front of her."

Paul asked me what I thought of his wife. At first glance, this question sounds like an afterthought. I know, he wanted to ask me a long time ago, because of the friendship between us for many years, he was too embarrassed to ask, but now he suddenly remembered to ask, probably because he remembered that I was the first person who knew that he fell in love with her . "It's hard for me to answer you." The fact is that when I graduated from high school, I was recommended to enter the school and did not take the college entrance examination, so I did not have the opportunity to meet that girl. The impression of her was purely left by them when they met for the first time after marriage.

"Then tell me how you felt when you first met." He was very insistent, as if convinced that I had a certain judgment on her. "My words may be too subjective." "It's okay, I just want to know your intuition, the first intuition, remember?" Of course I do. "Are you a little surprised, she is not a beautiful woman." "There is no absolute relationship between whether a woman is beautiful or not and whether someone is willing to love her with heart." "It really doesn't matter. She is very smart and has tenacity in her bones. I like this kind of girl."

"It's really enviable that a woman can make a man love her deeply for ten years." "Sometimes, I feel like maybe that's not the case for her." "Are you referring to her insecurities and insecurities that have never been changed?" Paul was silent for a moment, then nodded. "I always thought it was a hangover from that past event." Paul was referring to the incident when his best friend betrayed her for another woman, and he lost contact with this best friend because of this. "It is very hard work to heal a person with wholehearted love, and it may not be successful."

I have to be honest. "I always believe that love is inclusive." Paul is still teetering on the edge of persistence, and I don't think his persistence is wrong. "It is true. But if what you are facing is a kind of innate karma, it is difficult to say." "What is karma?" I briefly explained to Paul about karma. "Have you ever mentioned to her about coming to me for a TAROT consultation?" "Yes. We had a fight about it. She was very upset and thought it was ignorant and stupid for me to use this method as a reference for my own life decisions."

"Oh." Paul was a little embarrassed, and I smiled at him indifferently, which just confirmed my guess as to why he never came to me again. "In the end, what's your decision?" "I didn't act according to the results of my observation that day." He directly cashed out the shares of his business for many years to repay the housing loan, which is tantamount to giving up a business that he has worked hard for many years. "My decision did not surprise you." Paul looked me in the eyes and said. "That incident has passed. I thought that the topic we discussed today was love."

"It's strange, I think I know love very well, but now, when you talk about love, I don't know where to start..." In Paul's sluggish expression, there was a strange sense of emptiness. "Just take one and have a look." I jumped at the chance of nothingness and encouraged him to draw a random card based on his instinct. A reversed death card. "Death means the end, the complete end, and then a new beginning, reversed, which means you can't accept this fact now." "The relationship between me and her has indeed entered a dead end. If I hadn't realized this, I wouldn't have come to you, but now, I really have no way to accept it."

Paul asked me to bring out the reversed Two of Cups from a year and a half ago. "Does this card imply that if I choose to accept her proposal, we will break up?" "The Reversed Two of Cups does imply the breakdown of a certain relationship, but the reason is not as simple as you imagine. The deeper meaning of this card is to symbolize an unequal relationship between the sexes. I know, something is wrong for you It’s hard to talk about it, if you don’t want to talk, you can continue to draw cards, let TAROT be the medium of communication between us, and the problem can also be clearly presented.”

Paul shook his head, as if he needed a complete catharsis. "I used to think that I was the person who knew her best in the world, but now, I doubt whether I really know her. In the past ten years, as lovers and partners, we have experienced many things together. In the early stage of entrepreneurship, without her I will not go to the present. I try very hard to give her a real, reliable, stable and happy life. I always thought that she supported me from the bottom of my heart to start a business and was full of confidence in my future. confidence." "As a result, you find that she still has no sense of security, she still feels that a house is more real than an uncertain future, and she is unwilling to let you take risks."

"It's not a question of whether to take risks. Any business has risks, and she knows that. What really made me uncomfortable about that incident was that I suddenly realized that she didn't think I would succeed at all." "She doesn't believe you." "Yeah, that's what makes me feel so bad." "I don't think you are a person without your own opinions. I didn't expect that in the face of love, you can compromise without principle. You even don't want to listen to anyone's advice. It can be seen that you really love her. "

"Frankly speaking, I regret that I didn't continue to observe it. I should understand her motivation for not wanting me to invest, and the impact of this matter on me." "Now, how big is the impact?" Paul glanced down at the death card, and then pushed the inverted Two of Cups in front of me. "I have to admit that TAROT is miraculous. I never imagined that this incident would ultimately affect my ten-year relationship with her." I never underestimated Paul's intuition. He felt that card at first sight, and he knew that the card implied a crisis. "I don't think the relationship of ten years will be shaken so easily."

"It's not easy. But there are some things you don't know." "Oh?" In retrospect, Paul often showed us his own dedication to love and his attitude towards marriage. We rarely had the opportunity to learn many details about his wife.There is no doubt that Paul is a man born with a strong ability to love. Paul told me a series of events that happened after the transfer of shares. Without shares, Paul became a standard "worker" in his company. Even if good projects were introduced, he lost his favorable voice. As expected, the company went from bad to worse, and finally had to close down.In the eyes of his wife, this is naturally expected. Paul had a hard time saying that if he hadn't sacrificed his shares to meet her request, the company wouldn't have gone downhill so quickly.Returning to the workplace is not Paul's goal in life. He still wants to start a business, and opportunities keep coming up.Funding was the only problem, so Paul discussed with his wife again whether he could use hundreds of thousands of dollars from his savings as his start-up fund.Unexpectedly, at this time, his wife suddenly told him that she was pregnant. "Have you discussed pregnancy?" "No, never. After the original company closed down, I have been busy looking for new opportunities and projects, planning to start from scratch. I always thought that we had reached a consensus on the child, so I have been very careful about contraception." "If I'm not mistaken, what she told you about being pregnant means that the current savings are for the future baby?" Paul nodded, his expression becoming more and more dignified. "This incident made me reflect on the relationship between me and her, and suddenly, I wanted to understand something. "I never told you, actually, my original career blueprint was not what it is now. After graduating from college, I was working while looking for suitable entrepreneurial opportunities. Of course, my wife also encouraged me to start my own business. She said her job was very good. Stable, can be my backing. Maybe it’s luck, there are always good business opportunities coming to me, and some of them have met many excellent partners, and many of them have been quite successful now .” "Why didn't you cooperate with them?" "because of her." "How to say?" "When the partner raised funds for the first time, she just got her driver's license and complained to me that it was too far to go to work and she wanted to buy a car. At that time, we had just started working and didn't have much savings. I wanted to invest, but in the end the money still changed. It became her car. The investment in the second project was bigger. At that time, we already had a lot of savings, and I wanted to invest most of them. However, she said, these savings were prepared for us to buy a house. I can only spend a maximum of 100,000 yuan. So, I have my first small company. In fact, it was my choice. Good opportunities are always fleeting. But I don’t regret it. Women need a sense of security, not to mention, I think I am still young, and there are many opportunities in the future, so we have a house, a car, and my small company. At that time, I had an in-depth talk with her , I told her very tactfully, I have my own dream, I believe that I have the ability to create a better life for us, and I hope to get her support, so, in the past few years, can we not have children first, wait until When my career stabilized and I thought about it, she agreed with me very much at the time, so we established a consistent tacit understanding.” "So, you think, this child is not born purely." "I love kids, I want our kids, but not in this way, you understand?" Paul's emotions rose uncontrollably. "I see." "The day I talked to you on QQ was the day I found out she was pregnant, and that night, I tossed and turned, unable to sleep, and kept looking back on my relationship journey of the past ten years. "From the beginning, I sincerely wanted to give her happiness. No matter whether she loves me or not, no matter what kind of harm she has suffered, I think that as long as we give each other sincerely, we will be able to be happy. However, at that moment I Suddenly, she didn't believe that I could give her happiness." "Or, she doesn't believe that she is qualified to be happy. If a person doesn't believe that he can be happy, then the first choice in life must be to protect himself first. This is a self-defense instinct." "Then, I discovered a truth that I have been reluctant to admit." Paul took a deep breath and I looked into his face in silence. "There's an underlying inequality in our relationship, and she makes me feel so humble. Maybe it's because I love her so much that it makes me feel so humbled by this love." "Or, the real humbleness is herself." "I don't know. I think she doesn't know either. She's not the kind of person who has a scheming heart. Even if she does, it's unconscious." "You just said that she repeatedly used this method to set up obstacles in your life because she didn't think you would succeed at all. I think it's very likely that you misunderstood." "What's the meaning?" Actually, I'm not sure, so I suggested that Paul draw another card. "How do I draw it?" "Think about the ten years you've had with her, let the details come to you naturally, then, focus on her, forget as much as possible about what we've just said about her, and just think about her. " Paul closed his eyes and thought for a long time. Then start shuffling. At this moment, his energy field is very stable, without any distracting thoughts. I can still feel his love for her, clean, as always. I put this card between the Death Card and the Two of Cups Reversed, and then, open it. Reversed strength cards. A woman full of fear and doubt and trying to control everything that scares her. I looked up at Paul. "In fact, on the contrary, she never felt that you would not succeed, but she was afraid from the bottom of her heart that you would succeed."