Chapter 9 3. "Let go of your wheel of fortune, it needs oxygen!"

On the eve of the Spring Festival, Catherine held several salons in a row. Roger did not participate because of something. The rich second generations in the club always get together to discuss him when they have nothing to do, so the "Pope" has become a mysterious figure in their circle. After the Spring Festival, the salon came to an end temporarily, and the consultation of individual cases began to be carried out in full swing. Coco joined Catherine's PR team and insisted on meeting with me individually once a week.She is crazy about TAROT, and there are always endless questions every time. I insist on only using the Holy Grail deck for her analysis. From ace to queen, she still has a long way to go.

Jason seldom uses TAROT cards in his consultations. We just chat, talk about many past events, and only let TAROT intervene when necessary.Sometimes, Jason would have itchy hands, and I would tell him a little lie, telling him that it was a pity that I didn’t bring a card today. Over time, he successfully got rid of the halo effect of TAROT, and really saw the countless past " strange self". Mr. Wang actually likes to be late. He has never been late in the salon. After consulting alone, he found that his life is actually very lazy, in a state of unconscious leisure with a high degree of frivolity.The years of high salaries and high jobs have accumulated a lot of wealth for him. He described those years as the era of "business wars". He said he was tired, but TAROT told me that he still had nostalgia. Roger is quite right. To him, the so-called "retirement" is just an excuse for a "long vacation" made by a rich second-generation gifted student who doesn't understand the sufferings of the world.Occasionally mentioning the words Roger once said, Mr. Wang will change the subject intentionally or unintentionally. I hope to further discuss with him the views that Roger boldly raised. These latent factors influence his unknown destiny all the time. Before he figured it out, his life might be reversed unexpectedly at any time because of his rash actions.It's a pity that Mr. Wang has never been ready to face these problems, or he doesn't want to face them at all.The charity foundation is still hovering in Mr. Wang's mind, but he still can't find any specific direction for implementation. He finally began to realize that he is not as motivated as he imagined. This is Mr. Wang's own evaluation. He really wants to know Why exactly?

Accompanying these brave phoenixes on their way to burning, I am not without emotion. Miss Coco has just grasped her wheel of fortune and doesn't know how to use it yet; Jason is racking his brains to decipher the two sides of the gold coin, weighing is an exam he must pass; Mr. Wang accidentally lost his With the scepter in his hand, he is looking for direction on the road of getting lost. TAROT can always make people wake up from the chaos at a critical time, and that critical point is often the moment when luck turns around.Contact with TAROT, let the phoenixes realize that ignorance of fate itself is a kind of fate. Even if you are a phoenix, you can burn and rebirth countless times, but if you don’t know what fate is, that kind of burning is just a kind of fate. A form of rebellion, a repetition of the inefficiency of life.

The biggest obstacle to changing our destiny is always our ignorance of ourselves. This ignorance will cause our free will not to work for us normally. A brave and fearless phoenix, if he wants to change his destiny, he must first understand "Why should I do this?". Author J. Anouyi said frankly: "Everyone wants God to be on their side, but only those who are rich and powerful know which side God is on." The "wealth" and "power" that Anuyi refers to are by no means on the material level, which is more clearly shown in the seventy-eight TAROT cards.

In fact, during those days, I, like everyone else, would think of Roger from time to time. He's someone you have to think about. "The Pope" would never admit to being a loser under any circumstances. That card must have meant something unusual to Roger. Fortunately, there are many things at the end of the year, and TAROT activities are also very closely arranged. As time goes by, the entanglement will soon pass. After all, it is Roger's life, and TAROT and I can do nothing about things that the parties do not want to face. However, unexpectedly, just after the annual holiday, when we were planning to hold the first TAROT salon, Catherine accidentally received a call from Roger, saying that he wanted to invite me to his company for a meeting. Catherine confessed that since that group salon, she tried to call Roger to ask why he disappeared?Did something happen, but the phone either went unanswered or couldn't get through.

The night before the appointment, I decided to draw a card to see how Roger was doing these days. He really didn't look like someone who would just leave without saying goodbye.As a result, a reversed fair card appeared, and it seemed that he had indeed encountered some trouble, most likely related to legal proceedings. At ten o'clock the next morning, I arrived at Roger's company on time. The office was filled with the smell of decoration that had not yet dissipated. When I was standing at the reception desk to register, I heard loud scolding from inside. "Your boss seems to be very angry today." I couldn't help asking the front desk lady.

The lady looked at me helplessly, her expression was very stiff. "He has been like this since the first day I joined the company. He will get angry if he doesn't like it. It's like a time bomb. It's all trivial things." When Roger saw me coming in, he subconsciously wanted to stabilize his emotions. I made a calm gesture to him, which meant that if you didn't finish cursing, you can continue and don't care about my existence. Roger asked if I could sit in his office for a while, I said yes, and he asked his secretary to take me in. The office is transparent, the boss can see the movement outside at any time, but the sound insulation effect is very good.

About ten minutes later, Roger finally walked in. "Your anger value is very high today." I smiled and told him that he looked a little tired, but he was in good spirits, full of the domineering spirit of a phoenix. "What is the anger value?" "A thing that makes you get high blood pressure and cerebral thrombosis if you are not careful." "You are really unforgiving when you talk." He glanced at me haughtily. I shrugged nonchalantly at him. "You have your occupational disease, and I have mine." "Then my illness must be more serious than yours, and I will curse at people every now and then."

"Do you often do this?" "I can't stand it, they're all a bunch of trash!" He started again, "None of them are useful, and they run faster than each other when getting paid, and I don't even think about how much value I have created for the company!" "You are really the 'Pope'." I abruptly interrupted him. "What did you say?" He didn't respond for a while. "I said, you're really 'the Pope.'" Roger was silent, sat down on the boss chair, lit a cigarette, and smoked slowly. In the blue-gray smoke, he gradually regained his composure.

"Didn't you invite me to discuss this card with me?" "No." He looked at my face seriously. "I'm in a lawsuit with a client and I'm wondering if I'm going to win." Oh, it turned out that he asked me to "fortune telling". Something was wrong with Roger, and Phoenix would never evaluate things from that perspective unless he had completely lost faith in himself. "TAROT can't tell you that answer." "Didn't you say that TAROT can predict the future?" "TAROT's prediction is based on your current fate trajectory. Regarding a series of possibilities in the future, you don't even have a clear view of your own destiny trajectory, so you can't talk about predicting the future, because the result of the card draw It is definitely not an objective presentation, but just a reflection of your desired result on the TAROT card.”

"Then what can you do for me?" His tough tone made me uncomfortable. "It's not what I can do for you, but what do you need me to do for you?" "Didn't you say no?" He can barely control his emotions. At this moment, I suddenly understood that Roger is a phoenix holding the wheel of fate firmly in his hand, letting it burn along with him. He is sinking into some kind of obsessed self-struggle. A cycle of destruction.My task is to let him see clearly what is the nature of his obsession? I took out the TAROT card, cut and shuffled it casually, and unfolded it in front of him. "Don't think about anything, just draw one." Roger glanced down and quickly drew a card. I opened it in front of his face. Ten of Swords Reversed. Must "die" completely before being reborn, reversed, implying that he refuses to "die". "What's the meaning?" Roger looked anxious. "I just want to ask you one thing." Roger frowned, and I kept my eyes on his face, not letting his restlessness interfere with my train of thought. "The same encounter, the same betrayal, the same failure, how many times have you experienced it?" He froze suddenly, staring blankly at the cards on the table with a startled look that he didn't even realize. "How many times are you going to keep making the same mistake before admitting to yourself?" Silence does not mean I will give up. Roger's tense heartstrings snapped at last, and the pain spread quickly across his face. Admitting that he failed is already extremely painful for him. Now, he has to face the fact that it was all caused by himself. Even I can't bear it, but I must hit the core, because the current Roger Has reached the limit, success or benevolence. "No, I am different from them. I am more sober than them, more diligent than them, more capable and courageous than them, besides, I have always firmly grasped the wheel of my own destiny, never give up, why am I always Failed? Why?" "Because you held it so tightly that it couldn't breathe." I firmly pressed the back of his trembling hand.