Chapter 2 2. "To be honest, compared with others, my life is really good."

Serena chose a secluded cafe in the city to meet me. We meet each other for about an hour and a half, and she's still so well dressed that I can't help but wonder how much time does she spend in front of the mirror every day?However, she is never late.Moreover, no matter how strange eyes others cast on her, she always feels extremely good about herself. Serena's psychological defenses are like a Trojan horse made of precious metals. It took a lot of work to train her to establish a spiritual connection with my TAROT. The initial cards were almost all projective, just showing her current mood and feelings, while most of the cards showed that her life was shrouded in an indescribable anxiety and anxiety, and her shopping complex was very serious. Probably from some level of catharsis.

Serena's husband is a successful businessman, and her son is studying in a prestigious private foreign language school with excellent academic performance. "To be honest, compared with others, my life is really good." She often talks about this sentence, especially when it comes to her partner who has endured her "shopping illness" for many years, the life of a full-time wife who has no worries about food and clothing, and her excellent and motivated son. Serena's husband is a very standard "Holy Grail King". He has a strong tolerance and tolerance towards his wife, and there is almost no bottom line.The King of Holy Grail is usually very "endurable", especially when he loves someone very much, he will not think about how long he can bear it, and whether there will be a day when he will be physically and mentally exhausted. If he unfortunately meets someone who does not know how to cherish People, that is undoubtedly an extreme consumption of happiness.

"Can you imagine that I can spend money to buy 500 items of the same style in different colors? Every time I regret it, I don't know what to do with it? But, that kind of desire is hard to restrain, I can't stop, I know I can't do it Arrived, so just let it go.” "What was that like?" "Happy, really happy." Her face would still glow, like an ignorant little girl longing to have the whole world. "Aside from shopping, what moment makes you happy?" She was silent for a while, and said a rambling answer. She has a happy family and an excellent son, but none of these can compare to the happiness brought to her by the moment of crazy shopping. This makes me have to question, what does the happiness in front of me mean to her?

I turned the topic to the time when she was growing up. She didn't want to say more, but only wanted to draw a card to see. Her curiosity about TAROT seemed to be limited to finding the "answer" she wanted. I couldn't tell her about TAROT. What is given is always "the answer you don't know", not "the answer you want". The face of the card is the upright position of the Three of Wands. "How do you feel when you see this card?" I asked her. She thought for a while, during this period, I didn't feel any field energy link between her and TAROT, it seemed that I was just thinking about myself through this card.

"satisfy." Here is her answer. "What about you?" she asked me back. "Lonely." At that moment, Serena's expression froze. "I was born in a fairly wealthy single-parent family. My mother is an out-and-out strong woman. Unfortunately, she always chooses the wrong man." Serena doesn't know if her biological father is her mother's ex-husband or later stepfather. A few years later, the stepfather also parted ways with the mother, and apart from leaving a rich family property, there is no news of it. "My mother is busy all day long. She inherited several ex-husbands' properties and needs to take care of them. In addition, she has to continue to pursue her so-called love. She is busy with work, dating and love. "However, since childhood, I have been very happy. Others have I have what others don't, and I have it too. "

The Three of Wands itself implies that she is a child who grew up under the material conditions created by her predecessors. Serena is a little princess living in a big mansion. In terms of material desires, everything her mother gave her is the best. From the beginning of her life, she didn't need to choose, and she didn't have the opportunity to choose until later. , met her current husband. "My mother didn't approve of me marrying him. At that time, he was just a poor boy from a humble background. She felt that I was wronged. However, I think he is different from those young men who pursued me. He loves me, it is true. Yes, emotionally, I admit that I am very fragile and cannot bear any possible betrayal. My husband is not that kind of man. Although he comes from a poor background, he is very sincere to others. I think he is the one who will truly love me for the rest of my life. people."

In the face of bread and love, she chose love without hesitation. I believe that was the first time she bravely grasped her own destiny.My husband only made me suffer for a few months. During that time, I really felt insecure, but my mother kept giving me money behind my back. My husband didn't know about it.Faced with my family background, my in-laws are naturally very stressed. They can't understand my habit of spending money lavishly. Therefore, the relationship between me and my in-laws has never been very good. They have always questioned my values. In the first few years of our marriage, several times, we almost got into a divorce because of his parents.However, my husband will always choose to stand by me in the end. He is very tolerant to me. I think it would be unbearable for any other man.After giving birth, I began to face the choice of being a full-time housewife or returning to the workplace. My husband hoped that I could go out to work, but my mother wanted me to take care of the children at home. She told me how much I was paid for working outside for a year, She just gave it to me, so I still live a carefree life with my natal family's money.When it comes to this matter, my husband is still very dissatisfied. He doesn't understand why I made such a choice.The reason is actually very simple. I always feel that accepting my mother’s wealth is only temporary. I am not afraid that he will not make money. Before I got married, I specially asked someone to do the calculation for me. Believe it or not, later on, I never expected that after my husband and I got married, our careers would flourish, and they would flourish even now.I think, I am probably the kind of person who is born with a good life as others say. "

When it comes to the topic of destiny, Serena will look particularly excited, and her smug self-satisfaction is like a fool dancing on the edge of a cliff. Blindness is fatal to a fool, but the "good fortune" embodied in Serena has become her natural "achievement". The high abundance of material desires has become a rusty spindle of Serena's fate. And I have no way to discuss this topic with her in depth. Her understanding of life lessons is still very shallow, so I can only try. "If I told you that the first of the three wands represents your parents, the second represents your husband, and the third represents a new kind of creativity, do you feel that, right now, it is holding In whose hands is it?"

Serena replied without hesitation that the third scepter must be in the hands of her son, and her son's future will be her biggest reliance for the rest of her life. It can be seen that relying on others has become the most important basis of her survival rules. "That is a scepter that belongs to you, why should you give it to your child?" "I don't know what you mean, you mean, is that mine? But what can I do with it?" "Use it to change your destiny." "Fate? My fate has always been very good. My mother, my husband and my children are all very good to me..."

"Since when did you decide to hand over your life to someone else?" I had to cut her off. Did it start from being willing to be a lonely little princess in a big mansion?Or did it start from enjoying the favor of the mother, which implies a strong desire for control?I really want to know.However, Serena looked at me incomparably surprised, with incomprehensible anger in her eyes. "My life has always been in my own hands. Today, even without my husband, I can still live a good life." Her voice trembled slightly when she deliberately raised her voice, and she said these words very bravely and without confidence.

"Draw another one." In order to ease the atmosphere, I smiled and pushed the cards in front of her. Dissatisfied, she randomly cut a piece and gave me a disdainful look. I began to realize that at this moment, she no longer believed that TAROT could give her a clear answer. However, I know that the card in front of me will become the calmest mirror, reflecting the truth in her heart without any concealment—— Turn over the cards. Serena was stunned by the picture, the woman locked tightly by the devil. She stopped talking. I don't think I have to explain what the meaning of the devil card is. In fact, she had felt exactly what TAROT was implying. A chaotic web of fate unfolded in front of my eyes with incomparable clarity. And she is just a moth that is unknowingly locked in the net of fate.