Chapter 7 Chapter 2 Teratology: The 1970s

He is a youth.A young man in the "Cultural Revolution" era.The youngest member of the small county art troupe, just turned eighteen.It is said that a child is no longer a child, and it is not considered an adult if it is an adult. It is at a young age. No matter in any age, the characteristics of human puberty are the same—physiologically, the first hormones are secreted, and psychologically, they yearn for beauty. But he can suppress himself extremely. Because, he was originally a rural youth.She has a good image and a good voice, so she was lucky enough to be selected into the art troupe in a small county town.That a young man in the countryside should have such a good fate made him terrified.

On the day of reporting, the leader said to him: "You will only be 23 years old in five years, and you are not allowed to have a relationship within five years! It is not too late to fall in love after five years." He kept making noises. The leader said again: "You are already a revolutionary literary and art worker, do you understand how to be a revolutionary literary and artistic worker?" He couldn't answer immediately. The leader taught: "First, you must be strong in political thinking. For you, you must actively participate in all political learning activities. Second, you must have a strong life style. You must not make any fancy things about the relationship between men and women at a young age. Come on. Once something is wrong, then pack your bags and leave!"

He kept saying, "Don't dare, dare not..." Thanks to the leader's teaching first, within two years, this young man's words and deeds are always tight and well-behaved.Especially for the beautiful women around him, he avoids and restrains himself very much.He didn't say a word, and blushed when he spoke. The oldest member of the art troupe was only in his thirties.Then there are all married and unmarried men and women in their 25s, 27s and 20s.They and them are not strictly required.Usually, flirting and teasing each other are common things.It is not surprising that butterflies attract bees to make appointments, steal incense and jade, red apricots cheat out of the wall, throw themselves into arms, have secret pleasures, and have extramarital affairs.Even the first leader himself has excess hormones secretly, unwilling to be lonely, and can't live much.

It was actually a bad cultural troupe.Few people are innocent in the relationship between men and women.In terms of that aspect of innocence, that aspect of cleanliness and purity, he is really none other than him.It is precisely because of the bad atmosphere that the leaders often talk about the need to have a strong life style.After all, the leaders themselves are not too tough.The hard is also hard in other places. For two years, he has seen it all.He is twenty years old and has been self-repressed for two years.The more depressed, the more sensitive.The more sensitive you are, the more stories of men and women you see in your eyes.A man and a woman in the group walked towards each other, and when they passed by, what kind of glances they exchanged with each other, as long as they were in his sight, the details could not escape his sensitive eyes.

However, he still seems to be the youthful person he was two years ago, and it seems that he has not changed at all. Leaders often praise him for his invariability. Comrades also praised him for his commendable style and integrity at such a young age. Some people even take advantage of his "ignorance" to express their feelings and hope to achieve good things. When he was about to turn twenty years old, the whole of China began to respond to a "great" political call, called "fighting selfishness and criticizing revisionism", "fighting selfishness and criticizing revisionism", "fighting selfishness with a flash of thought", and "revolutionizing selfishness". One's own life" is called "deep in the soul, the bayonet sees red".Calling and calling, learning and learning, and fighting and fighting, the "private" is no longer the content of the interest level as opposed to the "public" in the literal sense, but generally refers to all "non-public" interests. The ideology of the proletariat does not conform to revolutionary morality.

The young man had always been particularly devout about politics. When politics called, he answered it with all his heart. So one day when the group was conducting the usual political study, he, who was always reticent, unfolded a few pages of paper with densely written handwriting, and made the most solemn and pious study speech in his life. In the words of the year, he was "really serious" with himself.Sure enough, he had "baoneered the red" with himself. He said, in fact, he is not worthy of leadership praise. He said that the honest impression he left on his comrades was an illusion he had disguised.

He said that deep in his soul, there are actually many dirty, shameful, indecent, shameful and ugly ideologies. He said that after a night of insomnia, he decided to shake them out and expose them in front of his comrades and leaders, in broad daylight. He said, after shaking off, exposing, and expelling the filth, isn't the depths of his soul clean from now on? He confessed frankly that he had dreamed of a certain actress in a model play many times, and had done unspeakable things with her in his dreams; Admitted that he had peeked at a certain actress in the group taking a shower several times;

Peeked at another actress changing clothes; When rehearsing a program with a third actress he liked, he had the heinous idea of ​​​​hoping to commit adultery with her; He also pointed out with evidence, time, place, plot, and details that, in fact, adultery among the male and female actors of the troupe, between the leaders and the actresses happened frequently; The ideology peeked at it. He hopes that the leaders and comrades can also be like him, "playing the truth" with himself, "seeing red with bayonets" with himself, and shaking off the shameful deeds we have done. Fall, thoroughly exposed.

He said that as a learning speech, he didn't want to take up too much of everyone's time.In order to prove his pious and serious attitude, he can hand over a secret diary of his own to the leader; about his own more obscene consciousness, as well as the various shameful deeds of others he has seen with his own eyes, all are recorded one by one. in the diary... There is one point that needs to be pointed out clearly—the things he peeped back then were not all shameful.There are deeds of giving and giving, but there may also be secret true love. When he told each other that "the bayonet saw the red", there was a dead silence in the conference room.It seemed that all the people held their breath and stopped panting.

When he finally closed his mouth, the dead silence continued for a few seconds, and all the people he mentioned, regardless of gender, almost all rushed towards him in an instant... They wished they could tear him alive... And this was something he definitely didn't expect. To him, that was confession.A public confession in the name of a holy revolution.What is extremely pious is also a confession made with a courage that has never been seen before.He originally thought that after he repented, his soul would become extremely holy, and he would move others. But he was met with a burst of cursing and beating.

He would have been lucky if things had come to an end; but this was not the end, it was just the beginning of another episode... Simply put, in the eyes of the leaders and comrades, he became a little hooligan.No, not just a little hooligan, but a young and big hooligan! His diary then became physical evidence that he was a "big" hooligan. It's in black and white, and the evidence is as solid as a mountain! All the people he mentioned and wrote in his diary protested with extreme indignation against his slander and slander, which slandered their personalities. Is it tolerable, which is unbearable? ! The diary was handed over to the county public security agency—because the incident not only involved people in the county art troupe, but also involved verbal insults to the personality of several actresses in revolutionary model plays, the nature of hooliganism was quite serious, so it was sent to To the provincial public security organ... In the era of the "Cultural Revolution", the public security bureau was controlled by the rebels, and the sentencing process was simplified. Hooliganism established. Defamation established. The crime of insulting the personality of others is established. In addition, a crime that only existed during the "Cultural Revolution" - the crime of corrupting a revolutionary model drama - was also established. So, like the old farmer mentioned in the next article, he was put on shiny handcuffs, pushed into the roaring police car, and taken to the provincial prison... He is not in the same prison as my friend Ma Yunlong.But soon after Ma Yunlong was imprisoned, he heard about him.Ma Yunlong can see him every time during the two-time wind release time every day.According to Ma Yunlong, he is indeed a young man with a pretty good image.In today's fashionable words, a handsome guy.However, his spirit has become somewhat abnormal.He learned to smoke in prison.His peasant parents thought his crime was too shameful, and they never visited him in prison.No one sent him cigarettes to the prison at all.The only thing he had to do during the rest time was to humbly beg for a cigarette from other prisoners, or stare blankly at the prison yard looking for cigarette butts.If he couldn't beg for cigarettes or pick up cigarette butts, he would sometimes snatch the cigarettes that other prisoners were smoking.Back then he was aggressive.The result can be imagined, will definitely be punched and kicked.Sometimes it was the prisoner who was robbed of his cigarettes, and sometimes it was the guards who beat him. No matter who hit him, they would scold him like this at the same time: "Stinky rascal!" Ma Yunlong took pity on him, as long as he had cigarettes, he would always bring two or three cigarettes with him and secretly stuff them for him in the yard. He will hang his arms down, with a pious face, and recite a quotation from "In Memory of Bethune" for Ma Yunlong in a serious manner, praising Ma Yunlong as "a noble person, a pure person, a moral person, a People who have escaped the vulgar interests..." After greedily taking a few puffs of cigarettes, he will often say a word to Ma Yunlong in a thinker-like tone: "Actually, people have no soul..." After saying that, he smiled faintly, unfathomably and profoundly... In the world, the past is the past.Most likely, it will always be smoke. The so-called non-smoke is nothing more than the thinking left to us-never forgetting the past, the teacher of the future. However, the common people are obviously weak, and what they can learn from the absurdity is only the cunning of being wise and protecting themselves.There is too much cunning in the world, and it is meaningless. But those powerful people should see taboos and black humor from the faint smoke...