Chapter 57 miracle of life

Worry has completely defeated me.My mind was so confused, I felt that life was no fun, and my mind was too tense to sleep at night and rest during the day.All three of my daughters live with relatives and we live far apart.My husband, who recently retired from the military, is out of town trying to set up a law firm.The insecurities and bewilderment of the recovery period after the war, I was completely infected. My situation threatened my husband's career, as well as a normal and happy family life, while also seriously affecting my own.My husband couldn't find a house and the only solution was to build one himself.Everything is ready, just waiting for my recovery.The more I learned about the situation and the harder I tried, the greater my fear of failure became.So I gradually developed a deep sense of fear about everything.I felt like I could no longer trust myself and felt like a total failure.

In the darkest of times, my mother helped me in a way I will never forget and be forever grateful for.She encouraged me and scolded me for giving up on myself.She inspired me to do my best to fight for life.She said I compromised with life, was afraid to face the truth, and escaped from life. So, from that day on, I started cheering up.By the end of the week, I told my parents that they could go home because I was in charge of the house.That's when I accomplished something that seemed impossible.I am taking care of two young children on my own, I am sleeping well, my appetite has improved, and my spirits have improved.A week later, when they came to see me again, they found me ironing and humming.I feel rich and content because I've fought a battle and won.I will always remember this lesson...if the situation seems too hard to overcome, face it, start fighting and don't give up.

From then on, I forced myself to work and made myself addicted to work.In the end, I got all the kids back and moved in with my husband in our new house.I know that I can regain my health and make my lovely family a healthy, happy mother.I was preoccupied with our home, kids, husband, and everything but myself, making plans.I was too busy to think about myself at all.At this time, a real miracle happened: my body became stronger and stronger.I wake up every morning with joy in my heart: the joy of abundance, the joy of planning a new day, the joy of living, and despite the occasional depression—especially when I’m tired—I tell myself I don’t have to be there. Time to think.Gradually, these moments became less and less frequent, until they disappeared altogether.

One year later, I now have a very happy, successful husband, a beautiful home, and three healthy, happy children.For myself, I was happy and peaceful.