Chapter 56 I'm killing myself slowly

Six months ago, my life was hectic and busy.I was always very nervous and never knew how to relax myself.Every night when I came home from get off work, I was depressed, worried, and exhausted.Why?Because no one ever said to me, "Paul, you're slow killing yourself. Why don't you take it slow? Why don't you take it easy?" Every morning I wake up in a hurry, eat a breakfast in a hurry, shave in a hurry, get dressed in a hurry, and drive to work in a hurry.I gripped the steering wheel as if it might fly out the window at any moment.I went to work quickly and nervously for the day, then hurried home, and at night, I even wanted to rush to sleep.

My intense life was so serious that I went to see a very famous psychiatrist in Detroit.He told me to unwind from a stressful life, and he advised me to think about relaxing at all times—before working, driving, eating, or falling asleep.He said I was killing myself slowly because I didn't know how to relax myself. Since then, I have practiced to relax myself.When I go to bed every day, I don't rush to fall asleep, but let my body relax completely first, and my breathing tends to be steady.Now, when I wake up in the morning, I feel well rested.This is a big improvement, because I always wake up in the morning feeling tired and nervous.Now, I feel much more relaxed when driving and eating.For safety, I drive more alertly, but not as nervously as I used to.Most importantly, I can also relax myself when I am at work.During the day, I always have to stop all work several times to check in detail whether I have completely relaxed.Now when the phone rings, I'm not as eager to answer it as I used to be.When someone talks to me, I lighten myself up like a sleeping baby.

The results of it?Life became more relaxed and happy, and I was completely free from stress and worry.