Chapter 74 Chapter 25 Tension is tantamount to chronic suicide

I'm killing myself slowly because I don't know how to relax. 6 months ago, my life was hectic and busy.My nerves are tense every day, and I don't let myself relax for a moment.When I came home from get off work every night, I was depressed, worried, and exhausted.Why?Because no one ever said to me, "Paul, you're slow killing yourself. Why don't you take it slow? Why don't you take it easy?" Every morning I wake up in a hurry, eat a breakfast in a hurry, shave in a hurry, get dressed in a hurry, and drive to work in a hurry.I gripped the steering wheel as if it might fly out the window at any moment.I went to work quickly and nervously for the day, then hurried home, and at night, I even wanted to rush to sleep.

My intense life was so serious that I went to see a very famous psychiatrist in Detroit.He told me to unwind from a stressful life, and he advised me to think about relaxing at all times—before working, driving, eating, or falling asleep.He said I was killing myself slowly because I didn't know how to relax myself. Since then, I have practiced to relax myself.When going to bed every night, I don't rush to fall asleep, but first let my body relax completely, and my breathing tends to be stable.Now, when I wake up in the morning, I feel energized.This is a big improvement, because I always wake up in the morning feeling tired and nervous.Now, I feel much more relaxed when driving and eating.For safety, I drive more alertly, but not as nervously as I used to.Most importantly, I can also relax myself when I am at work.During the day, I always have to stop all work several times to check in detail whether I have completely relaxed.Now when the phone rings, I'm not as eager to answer it as I used to be.When someone talks to me, I lighten myself up like a sleeping baby.

My life has been relaxed and happy since then, and I am no longer troubled by excessive tension.