Chapter 62 Chapter Thirteen I Hear a Voice

When you have something to worry about, imagine hearing a voice: "Just leave it to me, don't worry about it, I'll take care of it!" I have been a missionary in India for 40 years.When I first started, it was difficult for me to bear the extreme heat and the stress of the heavy responsibilities of the job.At the end of the first 8 years, I passed out more than once due to physical and mental exhaustion.I followed instructions and went to the United States to recuperate for a month.On the ship back to the United States, I passed out again while hosting a Sunday service on the ship.So throughout the entire journey, I had to follow the instructions of the ship's doctor and stay in bed.

After a full year of recuperation in the United States, I was preparing to return to India, stopping in Manila on the way to conduct several evangelistic meetings for college students.I passed out several more times under the stress of a string of crusades.The doctor warned me that if I went to India like this, I would die.But I didn't listen to their advice and insisted on going back to India, of course I went back with hidden worries.When I arrived in Mumbai, I was exhausted and had to go straight up the mountain to recuperate for a few months before returning to my job, but I couldn't work because I fell ill again and had to go back to the mountain to recuperate for a long time .When I went back, I just found out completely that I couldn't work.I am completely depleted, physically and mentally, and with no more energy to draw on, I worry that the rest of my life will be a waste.

If I didn't get help, I would have to give up my mission and return to America to work on the farm and recover my health.It was a really dark time in my life.While praying one night, something happened that changed my life.While praying—and I wasn't thinking of myself particularly at the time—I seemed to hear a voice say, "Are you yourself ready for the job I've given you?" I replied, "No, my lord! I have absolutely no strength." The voice said again, "If you give it to me, don't worry about it any more, I'll take care of it." I immediately replied: "My lord, let's do this!"

Immediately a sense of peace welled up in my heart, I was relieved, and I went home lightly that night, filled with the Holy Spirit.In the next few days, I almost forgot that I still had a physical body.I work from morning until night, and I go to bed wondering why I need to sleep because I'm not tired at all.Because Christ is in my heart, bringing life and peace. I've been hesitant to talk about it, but I did.Since that incident, I have worked hard for many years, but the old problem has never returned.In fact, I feel healthier than ever.But this is by no means physical therapy.My body, mind and spirit seemed to be infused with a new life.After that experience, life took me to a higher level, not because of anything I did, I just accepted it.

In the many years between then and now, I have traveled the world, usually have three lectures a day, and still have the time and energy to write a book, Jesus in India, and 11 other books.In that busy schedule, I never missed a thing, nor was I late.The worries that had crushed me back then have all disappeared, and I am 63 years old, full of vitality and joy in serving others. The experience that changed my life never stands up to rational or psychological explanation.But that has nothing to do with it, life itself is much greater than all the processes. One thing I know for sure, 31 years ago, in my weakest moment, when I heard "give it to me, don't worry about it, I'll take care of it" and I replied "God do it ’, my life completely changed.