Chapter 2 Section 1: Always happy

I opened the magazine full of anticipation, and there was my exclusive interview in it.Judging from the situation of taking pictures and interviewing that day, I believe this will be a very good report.When I turned to that article, I was dumbfounded. There was a very scary photo on it!I saw myself pulling a curtain to cover half of my face, squinting my eyes and hiding behind the curtain, with my hand positioned right next to my mouth, looking very much like half-biting my lip, it was horrible!Especially hypocritical! Isn't this giving people something to say?I am often accused of not being masculine because I am small, thin, handsome, and mild-mannered.

I pay special attention to my healthy image.I also once stopped working with a good magazine because of a morbid photo.Now there is such a thing?While I was annoyed that I would inexplicably express such an expression when taking pictures, I also resentfully thought how I offended the editor. I took so many normal photos that day, why did I post this one? "Why are you doing this to me?" I questioned with swords and guns. The editor who was also aggrieved said that this was a carefully selected picture, and it was a picture that the editor and the photographer agreed to. He felt that this kind of me is different. It aims to show my different angles, the contrast between light and dark, and the difference between rigidity and softness.Didn't think I would dislike it.

I was still furious, and my friend advised me that you should be satisfied with the design for you so carefully!Are you still not satisfied with a magazine with your column in the front and several pages of interviews with you?These days, several magazines have arranged large-scale reports on you by coincidence. Are you still secretly happy? Speechless.Although I still insist that changing the photo will be perfect, but I must also admit that my friend has a point. In fact, I still remember how happy I was when I was in the magazine for the first time.It was an interview at the magazine office, and there was no make-up. A reporter took a picture downstairs of the magazine office and published it.Isn't that like being a treasure and showing it to everyone?I also bought several copies to give away to relatives and friends, and secretly took them out to enjoy for myself at every turn, with a complacent smile on the corner of my mouth when no one was around.What now?Hurrying every day, I can't fully devote myself to everything, but I am extremely nervous about the result.There are many times when you don't know the heights of the sky and the depths of the earth, and often have nitpicking thoughts that don't know what is good or bad.They specially rented a shed, hired first-class photographers, stylists, and costumers, and senior reporters rushed to the shed to visit. In the end, I just felt annoyed.What made me change my mood in such a short period of time, where did the easy satisfaction and simple happiness at that time go?Is this the so-called "red"?Why is there less happiness?

As long as I am in Beijing, I stay with my partner every day.But she still uses E-mail to talk to me sometimes.Today someone told her on the Internet that she was trying every means to make herself happy every day. She was very touched and wrote me a long Email: "Are you happy? Is the life you want now? ?No time to tidy up the room, many things can’t be perfected according to your own ideas, no time to check the car, no time to check the body; hugs are also important to you, he is almost one and a half years old, you have time to take him out to play Ever? How many times have you seen him run wild on the grass during the day, when he was doing grooming, which time were you there? Make yourself very cramped, always being driven away by things, don't you think you Have you overlooked many things? How I wish you could calmly..."

We all seem to be like that.I rushed forward in a hurry, but often gradually changed my mood along the way and forgot my original intention.There are many times when we have done stupid things, and the worst thing is that when we realize these things and try to recover, we are already unable to stop, and it is too difficult to turn back. How can I be happy all the time? I am writing these words in the hotel in the middle of the night, and I want to say some constructive opinions, but I can't even convince myself.I'm a little dazed, and I have a vague direction of happiness. I don't know how to convey it to you who are looking at these words. Let me share with you the emotion that just happened.

I went to Wuhan to do record promotion, and met the youngest daughter of DJ Ma Ling.An elf a little over two years old.She can talk a lot, and she dresses up to meet me because she likes the "Baby Kitchen" I host on CCTV very much, and she even bought French fries for me. I took her by the hand as we went downstairs.She took my hand very formally, raised her small face and looked proudly at the others in the elevator.Her mother asked her tenderly, "Are you happy?" "I'm very happy," said the little baby. The mother said to the two-year-old boy seriously: "That's right. You must know happiness from an early age. And, you must always be happy."

Holding that little hand, I was suddenly greatly moved, as if I saw happiness vaguely.