Chapter 23 2. Light Appears

In September 1982, Princess Grace of Monaco died in a car accident.When the bad news came, Diana was very sad.A year and a half ago, Princess Grace gave her comfort when she first appeared at a royal social occasion.She wanted to go to the funeral and eventually got the Queen's permission.It was the first time she traveled abroad on her own on behalf of the royal family.She performed dignifiedly and gracefully on such an emotional and impulsive occasion as a funeral, and she was well received by the public after returning home. In this tragic atmosphere, Diana gradually realized that she could also adapt to the new environment like Princess Grace, using her status to make contributions to the royal family and even the entire country.From Princess Grace, who was also born as a commoner, Diana vaguely saw her way out.But she failed to specify how.

The successful visit to Australia by the crown prince and his wife in 1983 was an important turning point in her life.She is no longer a naive girl, but a more mature woman.It's not a major change, but it shows that her spirit is slowly recovering.There was a long time when she couldn't control herself and adjust to royal life and her new role.Now, she has enhanced her self-confidence and accumulated some experience.This made her even more confident about the future.Although she will inevitably cry and be irritated in her future life, after all, the ice has been broken, the waterway has appeared, and she is sure of the next voyage.

A notable sign of her transformation was that she started connecting with her friends.For a long time, she didn't dare to contact her friends, and deliberately closed herself up.Living in the forbidden garden of the palace, she dare not imagine the happy life of her friends in the past.Back in the day, friends used to talk about fun holidays, hilarious dinner parties, and new jobs.It seemed mundane and trivial compared to her superstar life.For her, however, this small talk meant freedom, and she had lost it forever.Besides, she didn't want her friends to see such a bad look.She is like a wounded little animal who wants to hide in a secluded place alone to lick and heal her wounds.

After returning from a visit to Australia and Canada, she felt that she had enough courage and confidence to face her former friends.She wrote letter after letter, asking everyone about their health and life.She wrote to invite Adam Russell to meet at an Italian restaurant. After 3 years, Adam Russell found that the happy, lively girl on the ski slopes could no longer be found.It is undeniable that the Princess of Wales in front of her is beautiful and confident, but she cannot hide her loneliness and depression.At that time, her biggest luxury in life was eating toast with beans and tomato sauce while watching TV. "I think this is heaven." She once said to him so innocently.And now Adam Russell sees Diana, just like a prisoner in a prison.

In 1984, Diana gave birth to Prince Henry.As a princess, she felt that her task of bearing an heir was complete.And the relationship between her and Charles became colder and colder day by day.Charles abandoned his wife and children and went to the farm to seek a quiet life, while Diana devoted herself to material carnival.She invested a lot of time and money, swimming in Buckingham Palace's indoor swimming pool every day, and applying a beauty regimen at home in Kensington.She spends a lot of money on clothes, hairstyles, and packaging like a Hollywood star.Diana became more and more glamorous, and every ingenious little decoration of hers would cause women to imitate.

It cost Diana £4,000 to order an evening gown.Diana spent more than £800,000 on a complete set of clothes, not including £200,000 of home clothes.When she travels, she chooses 200 of her 4,200 outfits to bring and wears 50 of them.Before getting married, Diana had almost no jewellery. Charles gave her an engagement ring: a pair of huge oval sapphire rings set with 14 diamonds around it, worth £28,500. Matter cannot fill an empty heart.Diana leads a double life in confusion.On the one hand, she was warmly welcomed and admired by the public, but on the other hand, her husband and members of the royal family received no encouragement or advice.

She is still doubting her worth, still wandering. The emergence of Princess Sarah in 1986 brought fresh air to the royal family.For a while, all the praise in the royal family was given to the young, lively and energetic Duchess of York.Under such circumstances, coupled with the advice of her husband Charles, she once gave up on herself and tried her best to imitate her sister-in-law. The result is self-defeating.The public media thought she was frivolous, not to mention the conservative royal family.As for her husband, Charles, their relationship is still deteriorating and they have separated.

In 1987, she and Charles became strangers on a visit to south Wales, heralding a moment of soul-searching.Her imitation had failed utterly. That was the quietest period of time for Diana.She drove away from Kensington Palace, far away from the surveillance cameras and royal personnel, broke free from the walls that imprisoned her, and came to her favorite coast of Doucet, marching lonely on the beach. Only now did she understand that her hope of reconciling with Charles was completely gone.His callous contempt had crushed all her fantasies of reconciliation.She had tried to cater to all his demands, but instead of closing the distance between them, her efforts made her the focus of ridicule.

She finally realizes that if she wants to live a real life, she must find herself, the real Diana Spencer, the girl whose real personality has been abandoned and her talent has been buried for seven years. For a long time, she blindly obeyed the demands of her husband, the royal family and the media, suppressing her true self.Now, she has to calmly face all the challenges that life throws at her. She wants to start her own life.