Chapter 16 Records of Nankai Customs-Little Jaspers in Nankai Garden

Shen Qiangsheng When I was living in Nankai Garden, I never thought of describing the garden around me.Now that I have distanced myself from it, the men and women in the garden no longer walk around me, and I suddenly want to make their backs, together with their occasional smiles, a meaningful memory.And this memory needs to be carried by something specific, whether it is a black ponytail or a sweaty face.Everyone will have sweet or painful experiences when he is in college.As those days go by, this experience will become a symbol for us to remember in the middle of the night when no one is around.For me, the top of this symbol is the Xiaojiabiyu of Nankai Garden.

When Xiaojiabiyu walked into Nankai Garden with their father and brother carrying suitcases, they may not realize that in the next few years, they will become the most beautiful scenery in Nankai Garden.Their hometown is far away and slightly remote, and even when chatting, their friends don't know anything about it, but this does not make them shy and inferior.Instead, they thought, it was just making themselves more mysterious.Xiaojiabiyu are not ignorant of the world, they live calmly in such a strange city as Tianjin.They have all read a lot of books since they were young, and secretly fell in love with Zhang Ailing or Duras. Compared with their female companions from big cities, although they are also not from well-known families, they are more restrained and understand emotions better.This is a harbinger of their future happiness.

In the first two years of college, Xiaojiabiyu was calm, with a calm heart, insisting on their own little happiness.The origin of this happiness is nothing more than finding a good-looking dress, a small gift, or reading a book; in the evening or on weekends, with friends who can talk—most of them are Xiaojiabiyu like them— — Go shopping, or watch a movie.When they are more free, they simply sit at the table and write letters to their former friends. When they are done, they fold the letter paper into a flower shape. Sometimes the time for stacking is longer than the time for writing letters, but they are willing to do so.Many of them were originally pretty, but when they took off their high school girl appearance and put on the clothes they liked, they would look very beautiful.So in the classrooms they often go to, they will receive letters from boys with malicious intentions, and the contents of the letters make their faces hot.Sometimes, when walking on the road, some boys would come up to strike up a conversation with an excuse, and when they came out next time, there would be an extra fat girl by their side as a precautionary measure.The beautiful girls in Xiaojiabiyu would not be together if it were not for a coincidence. This proves that beauty is always mutually exclusive.In short, in the past two years, they have spent more time on self-care and study, and their lives are still like a quiet pool of water, calm and calm.

In the vegetable market in Southwest Village, many women are busy every day.They all have a tarnished face and a pair of cracked hands.Every morning, they and their men set up a stall at the gate of the vegetable market.Most of the stalls live in peace—except for those selling pancakes and eggs. They are always secretly wary of each other until their customers line up in a long line.Such a small community will also be bred with warmth. In the light of the afternoon, in addition to the owners of neighboring stalls sitting and chatting together, there will also be a situation where girls selling rice noodles and young people selling rice cakes go out for a walk together.Although there will be high-minded students passing by laughing at them for their rusticity, this does not contradict their self-positioning.Unlike some students from rural areas, unless they are poets and rock youths, most of them are afraid of being said that they have the face of migrant workers.

Girls from big cities always have a full psychological advantage in front of women from Southwest Village.However, this is not the case for Xiaojiabiyu. Treating people equally is the source of their temperament.They inherently know that these women are not easy, so when they buy things in front of their stalls, they don't scream exaggeratedly or raise their little fingers high.They bring joy into everything, most likely from a trinket or a new cookie.The joy is sincere and not theatrical, because they are not surrounded by boys but fat girls. Because of the love of their father and brother, Xiaojiabiyu has enough pocket money.Compared with careless boys, they are more sensitive about money issues. Money means many things, including glory in front of others.This is the shortcoming of Xiaojiabiyu, and it is also the true point of girls.Most of them don't have the habit of spending money randomly, and when they go out with their companions, they are very clear in their hearts, but if there is an imbalance, most of them will soon be relieved.Sometimes, there will be a small-scale treat between them, which is nothing more than buying snacks in Southwest Village, and each of them eats while walking on the road.No matter who you are, in the first few exchanges with them, you will often find that they are nothing special, they are the same gluttons, afraid of fat, romantic and fantasy.Only after many times of contact, you will find that these characters have a bottom line, which is firmly grasped by them.Therefore, they never act coquettishly or spend all their money to buy one thing. They already faintly look like a calm woman, letting the years go by without losing their youth.

A perfectionist, he must be willing to fix the image of Xiaojiabiyu in the first two years of college, whether they are wearing long skirts on the way to the water room, or appearing in sportswear on the dust-free playground in the early morning.However, the reason for the existence of reality is to give people hope and disappointment, and it will never forget its mission at any time.When the junior year begins, Xiaojiabiyu seems to have completely changed overnight.Their eyes are no longer clear, their steps become swagger.They are in their early 20s, and there is no need to stick to the barriers to resist the invasion of emotions.Speaking of feelings, they seem to have had it before, when they were sixteen or seventeen years old, wearing red jackets or ski jackets in winter, and dresses or white shirts in summer, they secretly liked a certain boy, but they There is an innate reserve—not so much reserve as shyness—that prevents them from expressing themselves.Without exception, they have an exquisite diary, which records their occasional moments of passion.This passion is so long-lasting that after a few years, when they sit in the dormitory and talk with their girlfriends, they will still clearly recall that moment while holding their chins.Objectively speaking, their mutual confides have another meaning: they seem to be trying to show that they have a healthy emotional experience through this kind of contentless recollection.However, being secretly in love with each other and unable to speak out clearly shows that they will never have strong and explicit feelings.

From this perspective, they are a contradictory and timid group. What makes them even more contradictory and timid is that everything around them is changing quietly. First of all, their female classmates from big cities threw themselves into the arms of boys downstairs in the dormitory.Most of these girls are open, enthusiastic, simple, and well-dressed, laughing and cursing in style.Although they are a little nervous, a little pampered, and a little domineering, they are much more lively than the sensitive and calm Xiaojiabiyu.If you don't remember your marriage, such a girl is a good candidate to be a girlfriend.

Then there are the fat girls around.Most of these fat girls are not from scholarly families, and their families are quite rich, and they have broad vision and modesty.For boys, although their fat bodies can offset the charm of their sex, their good character (almost bold) makes them look cute and real.If there is convenience in communication (such as borrowing books, sports, group activities, etc.), they will soon call each other brothers and become one.Of course, what cannot be ignored is the intentions of some boys—when there are fewer and fewer open-minded girls from big cities, their eyes are generally locked on Xiaojiabiyu.Based on this, the role of fat girls is extremely prominent.

At this time, Xiaojiabiyu couldn't see Eileen Chang and Duras anymore. What they circulated was "Goodbye Vivian".They discovered another way of life that made them curious and disturbed, and they were secretly ashamed of the nun-like lives they had once lived.This shame was intensified when they found themselves alone in the dormitory on the weekends.No matter from which point of view, they need a boy to accompany them to chat, take a walk, and then hug and be intimate.This desire made them sleepless all night, but how did they know that someone in the male dormitory building not far away was also dreaming of her as the protagonist.

It was the fat girls who broke the window paper, they were born matchmakers. When the fat girl put a few bouquets of flowers, a few letters, or a few movie tickets on the table, the Xiaojiabiyus felt ecstasy in their hearts, but almost instinctively, they regained their reserve.They showed a look of disdain, listening to the fat girl describe the owners of these objects, and at the same time secretly weighing in their hearts.Yet the range of their choices is so small: these boys are far from their ideal image, they have no compelling talent or handsome appearance.This made the Xiaojiabiyus fall into reality.However, the endless persuasion of the fat girls finally made them loose, and they shyly agreed to appear in the restaurant selected by a certain boy.Of course, this kind of communication is not a kind of meal. The telephone, the Internet and dance parties are all excellent media.No matter what, our Xiaojiabiyu finally walked out of their boudoir.Xiaojiabiyu are naturally sensitive to interpersonal relationships.Behind this sensitivity is their strong self-esteem.This stems from the pain in their hearts - their insignificant life experience or other.In the crowd, if there are words that touch these hidden pains, our talking and laughing Xiaojiabiyu will immediately remain silent, or force a laugh out of consideration for others.They don't need attention at this point, and it's doubly painful that their new pudgy, untalented boyfriends don't give them the same winks.

As I said earlier, Xiaojiabiyu had a deep understanding of the women in Southwest Village, but they lacked universal and true love.They may love animals, but they will not give affection.For them, keeping animals is more for another purpose-to shape their own image or to win the favor of boys.Their childhood life taught them that compared with the long and difficult life, animals are nothing.When they bury animals that accidentally died, it's not so much grief as relief. It seems cruel to expose these, but it is a real situation.Such unreal emotions will also be deeply felt by their boyfriends: our Xiaojiabiyu will never really like a man himself.The only thing they love is themselves, or what is behind a man. Therefore, it is not surprising that Xiaojiabiyu love "Meteor Garden": there is a wealthy, handsome, and domineering man who treats them exclusively, which is very similar to their original Cinderella dream!They stood by the computer and thought of Shancai as themselves; when Shancai rejected Daoming Temple, the Xiaojiabiyus became angry and angry; , poor girls!Sexual obscenity is not terrible, what is terrible is that our Xiaojiabiyu, who take self-portraits in the mirror, feel more and more charming and cute compared to Shancai, but there is only one ordinary boy with a bad image by his side. That's where the dispute started. When it comes to sex, our Xiaojiabiyu is eager and skilled at disguising.When their boyfriends are eager to ask for opportunities (such opportunities are always available but not available, location is a problem, and time is also a problem), they will always flatly refuse.It's not that they don't want to, but they really look down on the not handsome boy in front of them. They are determined to dedicate their first time to a man who doesn't exist or is out of reach. For the choice of clothes, Xiaojiabiyu tends to brand and appearance.Compared with the clothes themselves, they need a good and tasteful trademark to give them a little satisfaction, which can be expected to be enough to make their hands stretch into their purses.Correspondingly, those pampered girls from the city turn a blind eye to it. For them, the trademark is just a frequent return of boys on the side of the road, which is completely insignificant. They pay more attention to the choice of underwear.However, Xiaojiabiyu also read books like this, and it's not that they don't understand everything, but their profound vanity makes them hard to control. In their senior year, Xiaojiabiyu began to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination one after another. This was the most unbearable period for them in college.Boys who exercise in the morning will often find them with fluffy hair (this fluffy hair is not the kind of lovely fresh and lazy, but it is clear at a glance that they are negligent in grooming), carrying a water bottle on the road leading to the self-study building Run all the way.Accompanying them are their poor boyfriends.It's hard to say what's more important, but at the age of showing off their charm, being so overwhelmed with self-care finally makes the boy who had silently fallen in love with them heartbroken. In addition to studying, Xiaojiabiyu also has the mood to use their own time to sit by the computer in the dormitory and sort out their emotions.But the result is disappointing. Their pens no longer have the charming words when they read Zhang Ailing and Duras at the beginning. Moaning for no reason, meaningless text.They gradually learned to use phrases such as "mercury pouring down the ground", "washing away the lead", and "a beautiful face with a flick of a finger, a moment of youth".Xiaojiabiyu and the others don't know that at this time, they have degenerated into the most vulgar women, almost as good as fat housewives bickering in the street.The most painful thing is their boyfriend: what they hold on to is a talentless woman who is neither beautiful, refined, nor cute. Xiaojiabiyu also attended the party, and came to the party holding their boyfriends (in spirit, it may be the opposite).After their brief sit-down, we are surprised to find that the Xiaojiabiyu know how many games are played, and can drink a lot.They often take the initiative to toast with a wine glass, even if their bosom is wet with wine, they don't even realize it.What's even more unaware is that they are getting closer to fat girls, no matter in appearance or temperament. The hell-like last semester has finally passed, and Xiaojiabiyu gradually regained their original character, which is really amazing.They first got rid of their boyfriends who were neither attractive nor useful. For them, burying a relationship is as simple as burying a rabbit.Of course, this is not their fault, but because the slightly prolonged stay together can't collide with too many sparks.In any case, their actions watered the trees in front of the girl's building with tears, and also brought many more boys crying and howling with wine bottles in Jingye Square and Dazhong Road. They gradually joined the team of Nankai complaining boys.Don't think that the Xiaojiabiyu who hid in the small building are "unifying", they have no time to take care of it.There is not much time in college, and getting a passionate and undisciplined night is the top priority. Poor fat girls are still a bunch of singles, I don't know if they have thoughts.In fact, very few people pay attention to them.And those pampered girls have changed boyfriends one after another, and in their eyes, the boys are the kites they let out, coming wherever they want.This reveals that under their pretty good appearance, there is still a stupid mind hidden.One day, they will see their handsome kite being held by another girl and carefully playing with it.This girl is Xiaojiabiyu who has disappeared for a while. I don't intend to describe too much, but Xiaojiabiyu finally met a boy one night after suffering in pain.What happened to this boy is no longer important.They didn't even want to see his face, so they hastily offered the 300th kiss and their own passion.What a scene.The next day they found that the boy next to them didn't seem bad; not only wasn't bad, but he seemed to have a good figure;They fell in love with this boy.This love is because of the existence of these unexpected advantages, but also because of the pain and unwillingness that they have waited for a long time.After all, they are just sad girls, not moral women.And that boy, although he has a past of making kites, but Xiaojiabiyu beside him has a good face, humble and pitiful, this is the basis of mutual love.It's hard to say that there is absolute love, but both the boy and Xiaojiabiyu use their superimposed advantages to offset the fact that each takes a step back, and finally become a happy couple in Nankai Park who have their own concerns. What I mentioned above is not my favorite Xiaojiabiyu, but the group mentioned above who are getting closer to fat girls.And the ones I really love are those girls who are loved by their boyfriends in warm-colored rooms.They closed their eyes shyly, their bodies were not fat, their movements were soft, and their voices were slow.They cautiously placed their hopes for the future on the young man beside them.The next day and the days that followed, they completely became beautiful little women. Their eyes were all shrunk on their boyfriends, and they didn’t move a single bit. What was superimposed in their eyes was their mysterious and inhumane hometown, Zhang Ailing. The yellowed old photos and their braids... They resigned to their fate. Even if girls have shortcomings, they are not willing to hear others say it.So I try to write these as ambiguous as possible, which makes many girls see their own shadow in it, and in turn can find evidence to justify.It is undeniable that Xiaojia Biyu will never live by herself, care about other people's thoughts, and live a very tiring life.But they are a group of girls who need attention from others. Xiaojiabiyu, this is an unstandard reference.Many girls from big cities, because of inexplicable pride, think that they belong to the class of ladies, and believe that the article has nothing to do with them.Although I read the full text with an irrelevant mentality and found a convincing image of myself, I pretended to be reserved and secretly denied it. I mentioned three kinds of girls in the article: Xiaojiabiyu, fat girls and "girls from big cities".Fat girls generally won't be vying for it. Although some people already have fat on their belly, it's still early spring, and it can still be covered up. "Girls from big cities" is not a real reference, but it is used to refer to girls from good families who have no intentions.In fact, most of the girls who came to Nankai from big cities are also among Xiaojiabiyu. Needless to say, everyone must understand this. Girls are cute when they know themselves. May God bless them and give them a good home, a trustworthy man and a quiet and stable life! (Shen Qiangsheng, a 1996 student majoring in information and computer science at Nankai University)