Chapter 9 The third part rehearses life according to the script

This topic is really unreasonable, but it tells the truth. Anyone who has a little knowledge of the basics of literature and art theory knows that life is the only source of literature. This is a point of view that Mao Zedong emphasized in his "Speech at the Yan'an Forum on Literature and Art".I have always believed in this assertion, and I often promote it in the classroom, but unexpectedly, in real life, I encountered a completely opposite situation: not literature is created according to the actual situation of life, but life is demonstrated according to a fabricated script, And this script is a poor imitation.

Due to Mao Zedong's "nothing" instruction on the "bombardment" incident, Zhang Chunqiao was not easy to get angry after the second bombardment, but with his strong revenge, the matter will never be let go, " The accounts of the Red Leather Society must be settled." This is their internal consensus.However, in the "One Strike Three Antis" movement, it was not the "Red Leather Society" but the "Hu Shoujun Small Group" that he picked out to fight.This seems a bit strange, but it actually reflects the scheming of Zhang Chunqiao and his colleagues.After Gein's "Red Leather Society" was named by the Central Cultural Revolution Team's urgent telegram, it has become a well-known representative of the bombardment of Zhang Chunqiao. If they are grouped as a counter-revolutionary group, not only will there be a lot of discussion from the outside world, but it will also be bad in front of Mao Zedong. In fact, Hu Shoujun and his "Monkey King" battle group were the culprits of the "cannonball attack". People outside Shanghai don't know this, and Mao Zedong may not know it, so he chose "Hu Shoujun's small group" as the main culprit. It is most appropriate to focus on the target.What's more, the "Red Leather Society" has a large number of people, and the attack area is too large and it is not very strategic. Hu Shoujun's faction has the smallest number, and attacking them also meets the requirements of "attacking a small group".

However, it is not only too obvious to use the issue of bombarding Zhang Chunqiao to punish people for counter-revolutionary crimes, but it is also difficult to settle the case, and we must find another name.The most serious crimes at that time were opposition to Chairman Mao, opposition to Mao Zedong Thought, and usurping the party and power. The whole person admits that they are required to act out the stories in the script in their lives.It's a pity that this script is not original, but imitates the tone and scenes of criticizing the "Hu Feng counter-revolutionary clique" in 1955, except that the names of the people in it are changed, which looks extraordinarily funny.If there is any creation, it is nothing more than the transplantation of plots and characters from other scripts.For example, my role as a "diabolical black planner" was transferred from the "revolutionary model play" "Shajiabang", which was widely circulated at that time, but at the same time, I was also required to act as a "bearded character". It was added based on Zhang Chunqiao's request to catch the "black backstage". As for whether the combination of these two characters is in line with the logic of the character, it doesn't matter.So this imitation is too clumsy.

But we have no choice but to act according to the scripts they imitated and pieced together, not on the theater stage, but in political life.When I found that I was forced to play the drama of life according to the assigned role, I was a little indignant, but after a little dabble in the history of Chinese literature and Internet, I found that such stories are quite common.I originally wanted to make a panoramic description of this case, thinking that it might help people understand a certain social phenomenon and see how an unjust case was woven together, but many actors at that time had dispersed, and many had gone abroad Settling down, unable to search, so I had to use my personal experience as a clue to write about my own feelings.

Turkey in the Eyes of a Gold Digger In 1970, just after the Spring Festival, a new political storm suddenly hit Fudan Garden. The "One Hit Three Anti" campaign started. The leaders of the Shanghai Municipal Revolutionary Committee will carry out a pilot project at Fudan University to catch models and then promote it to the whole city.As a result, Fudan once again became the center of Shanghai's political movement and became the focus of the citizens' attention; the pressure on Fudan teachers, students and employees was also particularly high.The remaining warmth of the festival was swept away immediately, and the smile left during the New Year's greetings suddenly froze on the face, and instantly turned into a panicked expression.

What is "one attack, three antis"?It was a little vague at the time, and I still can't tell its full name.It doesn't matter.The most important thing is that the essence of this campaign and the direction of attack are very clear. At that time, Zhang Koufa, the leader of the Mao Zedong Thought Propaganda Team of the workers who held the power of life and death in Fudan, declared in clear language: This campaign is to attack the new counter-revolutionaries.He proudly showed off at the meeting: "I have at least a dozen counter-revolutionary groups at hand, not counting the sporadic counter-revolutionaries."

People can't help but wonder: Can there be so many counter-revolutionaries in a school with a total of only 10,000 students?And it's still new?However, most of those who have such question marks in their minds are nerds. They have made the mistake of knowing the past but not the present, and knowing the past but not changing.You know, class struggle was talked about every day and from time to time in those years, which made people dizzy. After class, they fought every year and every month, making everyone's eyes red. As long as Shangfeng pointed out, some people would have hallucinations. There are many counter-revolutionaries in front of my eyes, just like the famine gold digger in the movie "The Gold Rush" starring Chaplin. When his eyes blurred, he turned his partner into a turkey and wanted to kill him. Die to satisfy your hunger.As for the leaders of the Worker Propaganda Team, the Military Propaganda Team, and the Revolutionary Committee, because of their official career and their futures, they fought hard and enjoyed themselves.Their mood at the moment was like that of Ah Q who was competing with Wang Hu to catch lice. They only wanted to catch as many lice as possible. At least they couldn’t lose to the humble Wang Hu in catching the big ones, otherwise they would be a bit “too motherly”.Therefore, in this beautiful country where "heroes are everywhere", after the baptism of the "Great Proletarian Cultural Revolution", many new counter-revolutionaries emerged everywhere.

People often complain that the efficiency of our organization is too low, saying that it takes a dozen or even dozens of official seals to approve an official document, and it takes a year or so to handle a small matter.This statement is naturally in line with the truth, but everything cannot be generalized.According to my observations, it is generally possible to do something that is beneficial to the people, such as raising wages, promoting professional titles, distributing houses, or redressing unjust prisons, removing hats, and returning materials for ransacking homes, which are collectively referred to as "implementing policies." It is very slow, because we must be cautious and not act hastily, so that people are like hopeful clouds in a severe drought, but they have not been able to wait for a long time.However, when it comes to grasping class struggle, engaging in sports, and punishing people and other people, their efficiency is astonishingly fast. A huge movement was launched in an all-round way.

Since the "One Strike Three Antis" movement falls into the latter category, the progress is of course rapid.As soon as the Municipal Revolutionary Committee assigned the "glorious task", the leaders of Fudan immediately drew up a list of several small counter-revolutionary groups: Hu Shoujun's small group, the Anti-Revolutionary Society small group, Zou Wuli's small group... and A small group called the "Society for the Anti-Reversionary Society to overturn the verdict"—the people in this "small group" were originally members of the task force of the "Society for the Anti-Reversionary Society" during the movement to clean up the class ranks last year. A small counter-revolutionary group, but now I am labeled as a small counter-revolutionary group.This move is particularly powerful. It is tantamount to sending a warning to all the teachers, students and staff of the school: you cannot sympathize with anyone who is labeled as a counter-revolutionary by us, and you cannot object to our actions, otherwise, you will end up like them!

And catch people immediately.Hu Shoujun was arrested, Chen Xiuhui was arrested, Wang Zhihui was arrested, Wang Hua was arrested... Some students had graduated and were assigned to work in other places. The official letters of the meeting and the private letters of the leaders, day and night, to take action.So, Zhou Gusheng was arrested from Nanjing Radio Factory, Qiu Liou was arrested from Zhejiang Qiaosi Farm, Xiao Changxiong was arrested from Anhui Tiantong Army Farm... For them, some of them were outsmarted, lying that someone was looking for them outside, When he came out, he was escorted into the car and started to run; some were captured by force, and they were escorted out of the farm with five-flowered ties, just like dealing with gangsters.It's really a hundred flowers blooming, each showing its special skills.

As the movement deepened, more and more people were arrested and imprisoned. Almost every building in Fudan University was turned into a prison cell. Student dormitories, classrooms, offices, and laboratories were all imprisoned. — not even the radiological laboratory was empty.Although the Constitution and laws of the People's Republic of China do not allow any institution or school to set up private cells, it is not illegal for them to do so, because they did not announce detention or detention, they only said it was quarantine inspection, so it cannot be said that Fudan Private cells are nothing more than many temporary isolation rooms—although some isolation rooms are "temporary" for more than a year. It can be seen that China is indeed an ancient civilization, and the word games alone are far beyond the reach of foreign devils.As long as detention and detention are referred to as isolated inspections, and house raids are referred to as confidential inspections, they have nothing to do with the law; as long as unemployment is changed to waiting for work, and price increases are changed to price adjustments, the nature is completely different.What's more, those who have legal concepts in their minds are all intellectuals, and intellectuals are stinky hairs attached to the skin of the bourgeoisie. Freedom, equality, democracy, and law are all reactionary bourgeoisie. Thoughts are simply not necessary. Didn't the "May 16th" notice clearly point out that the slogan "everyone is equal before the truth" is a slogan of the bourgeoisie?At that time, it was about class struggle and the dictatorship of the proletariat. As long as the struggle and dictatorship required it, everything else could and should give way. It's a pity that I didn't understand these principles at that time. When I saw those things that had no basis in the law and were inconsistent with the law, I would inevitably slander them.And every time it is published as a discussion, it becomes a reactionary speech, and is eventually included in the ranks of counter-revolutionaries.Workers and military propaganda teams often say: "We just want to fight, and only by fighting hard can we fight over these people with granite heads!"One is that they are not surprised, and the other is that their brains are a little numb because of the fighting. I spent the Spring Festival in Nanjing in 1970.In the fall of the first year, his wife Gao Yun responded to the call of the Shanghai Municipal Party Committee and the Municipal Revolutionary Committee on "four orientations" and went to a commune in Aihui County, Heilongjiang to jump in and settle down with a group of middle school students.The so-called "four orientations", that is, oriented to the countryside, oriented to industry and mines, oriented to the frontier, and oriented to the grassroots, sounded nice to the ears. It was a revolutionary measure, so there were many applicants. The team chief had to mobilize until everyone signed up before giving up. It was only later discovered that this was a trick by Zhang Chunqiao. .But at that time, many people didn't see through this meaning, so Gao Yun happily rushed to the frontier, thinking he was responding to the call for revolution.The two-and-a-half-year-old daughter is temporarily placed at my grandmother's house in Nanjing, and I plan to take her with me when I join the second batch of "Four Faces" teams and go to Heilongjiang.At that time, I was alone in Shanghai, so I went to Nanjing to see my daughter during the Spring Festival.When we left before the Spring Festival, Fudan Garden was quite calm. When we came back after the Spring Festival, Fudan Garden was already full of wind and rain. I took the night train back to Shanghai, and I got back to Fudan in the morning. After sleeping for a while, it was already noon.While eating lunch, two workers' propaganda team members walked into my room with sullen faces. "Wu Zhongjie, the leader sent us to inspect you." Which organization's leadership sent it?Why check?Is there a search warrant? These were questions that could not be asked at the time.Asking is a confrontational movement, and the crime is aggravated. And I don't want to ask, I want to check you.Over the past few years, we have seen and suffered a lot about this kind of illegal action that hinders citizens' freedom of residence and personal freedom, and they are no longer as indignant as they were in the early days of the "Cultural Revolution".Especially in the summer of 1968, when the Worker Propaganda Team first entered the school, there was a "Ninth Five-Year Revolutionary Action", that is, a "secrecy inspection" was carried out on the whole school on September 5. Not only did they search every faculty member It is a worker's home, and they have tossed about every student's clothes and books, which gives people the feeling that they are treated equally.Perhaps the original intention of the Worker Propaganda Team was to give these stinky intellectuals a blow, but after the attack area was expanded to 100%, the pressure on everyone was reduced instead. However, this time is different, it is a key inspection, and of course it is sent out for something.I played it safe because confidence wasn't what they needed.Diaries, letters, etc., were burned as early as the beginning of the "Cultural Revolution", and then they were burned as soon as they received letters. Aren't many people convicted just because of the materials in the diaries and letters?Who knows how they will take it out of context and make it infinite?Simply burning it up will make it chaotic.Sure enough, the two labor propaganda team members searched all the things in my house, found nothing, and left angrily. But as soon as they left, I felt nervous inside.Being searched again at this time is undoubtedly a dangerous signal: in this new campaign, I have been listed as a target.But how serious is the problem, and what crimes will they charge me with?But there are countless in my heart.I went around the campus, trying to find out what was going on, but everyone was very nervous and refused to talk to me. Even my friends who were usually close to me just greeted me with a half-smile and left.I know that everyone is in danger at this moment, and they have adopted an evasive attitude towards me, a dangerous person.I don't want to implicate others, it's better not to get in touch with them. As the saying goes: "If you don't do anything wrong, you won't be surprised when you knock on the door in the middle of the night." Of course, this saying has its own truth, but it was not applicable at the time.Because if a person wants to know whether he has done something wrong, whether he has committed a crime, he must have a standard of right and wrong and a legal basis that can be measured. At that time, all norms were disrupted, and morality and law were trampled on. How can people know what rules they have violated, and what crimes will fly on their heads?Don’t you see that some people who were revolutionary leading cadres yesterday have become counter-revolutionary revisionists today; some words that were called revolutionary instructions yesterday have become reactionary speeches today?I actually believe in another saying, which is called "The good ones don't come, and the ones who come are not good".Since the Worker Propaganda Team came to ransack the house aggressively, there must be articles below, so we need to be very careful. For the first few days after the search, nothing happened.I know this is the temporary calm before the storm.Soon, I received a notice asking me to go to Luodian.At that time, the "Vice Chairman Lin's Circular No. 1" was being implemented throughout the country. It was said that war was imminent, and all major cities had to be evacuated. Fudan teachers and students were evacuated to the Luodian area.Although Luodian is just a major traffic hub, when the Japanese invaded Shanghai, one of them landed from the Liuhe River and marched through Luodian. Compared with the Wujiaochang area of ​​Jiangwan, where Fudan is located, Luodian was even less safe.But those involved seem to have no military acumen, and they don’t study history and geography. They just evacuate for the sake of evacuation, so the people in A place evacuate to B place, and the people in B place evacuate to A place. "Vice-Chairman Lin's order" is a serious crime. The atmosphere in Luodian was also very tense.Originally, going to the countryside to work was a good opportunity to rest your mind. Everyone talked and laughed, which was more relaxed, but at this time, people lost their smiles, and their faces were tense, ready to fight or fight.Within a few days, the Revolutionary Committee of Fudan University held a mobilization meeting for the "One Strike, Three Antis" movement in the Luodian Theater.He described Fudan as counter-revolutionaries hidden everywhere, and the situation was extremely serious, saying that we must mobilize the masses to dig out those counter-revolutionaries who have been buried deeply, and we must not be soft-hearted.He specifically pointed out the "Hu Shoujun Small Group", saying that this is a counter-revolutionary group with great energy, and that it should be cracked down on.Hu Shoujun once organized a "Monkey King" combat group in the early days of the "Cultural Revolution". It has penetrated into our Revolutionary Committee and the Communist Party. It is a time bomb and must be dug out. The purpose of the "One Strike Three Antis" campaign is to "remove hidden dangers and educate future generations."Zhang Koufa proudly announced: "We have captured the old monkeys, and we have to dig out a group of young monkeys one by one. We also want to dig out those people with wrinkles on their foreheads and beards on their mouths behind them. These Don't think that you are buried very deep, you cannot escape our eyes. There is a person sitting in the audience right now, he is a teacher of the Chinese Department, he is a diabolical character, and he is shaking a goose feather fan for the "Hu Shoujun Small Group" This person should not think that he is doing it very secretly. We have already mastered your materials. You and Hu Shoujun, Zhou Gusheng, Qiu Liou, and Wang Zhihui were discussing the establishment of a reactionary political party on a small boat in Yangcheng Lake. Others I have already explained, you should quickly disarm and surrender! Comrades! Class enemies are very cunning. A few days ago, we sent people to check his house, but found nothing. This guy has a very good sense of smell, and he can see that the situation is not right , He burned black materials the night before. In fact, we have already monitored his house. We saw him burning materials in the kitchen in the middle of the night the night before, but we couldn’t do anything because he didn’t receive a search order. Such a reactionary guy, the family How could there be no black material? I want to warn this guy, don't think that we can't punish you if we can't find black material, just wait and see!" This imminent character, which many people can hear, refers to me.Of course I knew it myself, knowing that they were going to put me in the "Hu Shoujun clique" this time.However, I was not too nervous, but felt a little funny.The two crimes mentioned by Zhang Koufa are all fabricated out of thin air, so how can I take them seriously! First of all, I have never been to Yangcheng Lake, so I can't row a boat on the lake, let alone discuss the establishment of the party on the boat.The meeting on the boat to build the party was something that the Chinese Communist Party did in Jiaxing Nanhu. Anyone who has read the history of the Chinese Communist Party knows this. Somehow this plot was transplanted to us.And I don't believe Hu Shoujun and the others would do such a thing.Wang Zhihui is a fun person, with him, it must be a trip to the mountains and rivers. Furthermore, to say that I burned black materials in the kitchen the night before the workers' propaganda team searched, that would be hell.I came back from Nanjing by night train the night before, got on the train in the middle of the night, and arrived in Shanghai at dawn.When the surveillance personnel he said saw me burning black materials, I was probably still in Nanjing, or on the train, and it was impossible for me to be in the Fudan dormitory. These two "criminal evidence" can be denied as soon as I open my mouth.What a whimsical idea to scare me with two fake ingredients!Zhang Kou made this speech, which made me see their bluff.I think that convicting someone must be based on the evidence. Without evidence, how can one prejudge that someone is a counter-revolutionary?Even if no criminal evidence can be found, it is also counted as the crime of the person being searched. Isn't this an upside-down logic? However, it does not matter whether it is true criminal evidence or false evidence, whether it is reversed logic or reversed logic, as long as it is conducive to class struggle and line struggle.In that era, truth was extremely weak in front of power, and people could not demand equality in front of truth. The saying "everyone is equal before the truth" has been judged to be a bourgeois slogan, and truth has lost its objectivity, and only has a class character, and whatever is useful to those in power is truth.Therefore, truth is subject to power, and power is truth.Although Zhang Koofa's speech is full of logical confusion, and his conclusions are based on false materials, but because he represents the will of those in power, his words have practical effect. After the meeting ended, as soon as I walked out of the venue, two students followed me behind me. I knew that I had lost my freedom.Back at the place of residence, these two students lived in the same room as me, followed me when I ate and went to the toilet, and paid attention to my attitude.I try to stay calm and not talk to people.I know that the Worker Propaganda Team wants to see me so nervous that I can’t eat, toss and turn, can’t sleep, and panic all day long, and then take the initiative to ask him to confess—just like what is described in literary works.But I don't.I still read, eat, and sleep soundly at night, as if nothing happened. Finally, Liu Jiaguo, the head of the Workers Propaganda Team who was in charge of our group, couldn't stand it any longer and came to talk to me the next day.Perhaps Zhang Koufa was waiting for him to report the situation, and he had to talk to me. Liu Jiaguo first asked me how I felt about yesterday's conference, and then got to the point and said: "Who do you think is the teacher of the Chinese Department who shakes the goose feather fan that Comrade Zhang Koufa pointed out yesterday?" Of course I didn't need to dodge, and said bluntly: "This person probably refers to me, but it's a little different. Among the teachers of the Chinese Department, if they say that they have contacts with Hu Shoujun and the others, of course they refer to me; but the two things that Comrade Zhang Koufa said have nothing to do with me. , so it’s not like me.” Then, I told the truth that I had never been to Yangcheng Lake and that I hadn’t returned to Shanghai the night before when the workers’ propaganda team came to check on my house. Team leader Liu Jiaguo found me guilty and did not believe what Zhang Koufa said was not true.I insisted that I had never been to Yangcheng Lake, so I had no way of discussing any issues on the lake.I asked to verify the materials and expressed my willingness to confront them face to face.The result was a stalemate for a long time and broke up unhappy. At the end of the conversation, Liu Jiaguo warned me sternly: "Wu Zhongjie, now that you have been caught by us, sophistry is useless, and you can't deny it if you want to deny it. There are only two paths in front of you: be lenient when you confess, and be strict when you resist. Don't think that you burn the materials If you drop it, we will have nothing to do with you. Once the masses mobilize, they may not be able to expose your materials! We can start from scratch, if you don’t believe me, just wait and see.” "Leniency for confession, strictness for resistance" is a consistent anti-counterfeiting policy, which was later expanded, and every object of review must be accounted for.This policy is probably indeed useful for those who really committed crimes, but it is really ineffective for those of us who have been punished without a crime.I have no sin, how can I confess it?Is it called resistance to present facts in defense?Should it be dealt with strictly?And if others admit what they expose, and then make up some crimes for themselves, even if they have a good attitude, they should be dealt with leniently?This reasoning is hardly convincing.I hope they can act in accordance with the principle of seeking truth from facts, start with investigation and research, and draw conclusions after investigation and research.Isn't this also the teaching of Chairman Mao Zedong, why didn't they implement it?Wouldn't it be absurd to borrow a method of "starting from scratch" from a table tennis player?Table tennis players talk about "starting from zero" in order to throw away the ideological burden of being a champion, go into battle lightly, and make persistent efforts to win new victories. This spirit is of course good and the way to win; "Beat it", that is to say, if there is no material, he can convict the person first, and then produce the "material". What kind of principle is this, what kind of law is this?Woohoo, they put on a posture to be reckless! In all fairness, not all members of the Workers Propaganda Team are reckless and reckless, and some members have a heart of seeking truth from facts.When they entered the school, of course they also came with colored glasses, but once they got in touch with the reality, their views changed.For example, they heard that university teachers are all high-salary workers. When they came in, most of the teachers only had a monthly salary of 60 yuan or 65.5 yuan, which was not higher than that of workers, so they had doubts about the "spiritual aristocracy"; they I thought that university teachers were doing counter-revolutionary activities after being fed by the people, but after getting in touch with them, they felt that they were not so bad, so their attitudes gradually eased.Master Fan Taihao, who originally led our group, was also infected by intellectuals and became very interested in cultural knowledge. After meetings, he often studied with books in his hands, and sometimes he was ashamed to ask students.Master Fan’s observation of the problem is also relatively calm. In the autumn of 1968, shortly after I was criticized in the "Anti-Day Study Class" hosted by the Workers Propaganda Team, he suddenly said to me: "Your criticism is blinded by factionism. You have to keep your eyes open, you have to know it yourself, and study hard.” He is obviously different from those workers propaganda team members who show their teeth and claws.However, he was not satisfied in the workers' propaganda team, and he was also criticized, saying that his study and study was a surrender to the bourgeois intellectuals, and his lack of fighting was criticized as not being firm in the class struggle and not having a high awareness of the line struggle.Finally, he was sent back to the factory.Liu Jiaguo, who replaced him, put on a fighting face all day long, serious and extremely principled.It seems that this is the meaning of the above. They have to choose some ruthless fighters in order to carry out their intention of fighting along the line. In those days, it was indeed difficult to maintain a realistic attitude.If you don't do it well, you will get burned.In the autumn of 1968, at the "Anti-Day Study Class", I personally tasted it.It was a study class to clean up the class ranks, and it was not for me, because I have no historical problems and no current crimes.After the class started, many teachers were called by name, Guo Shaoyu, Liu Dajie, Zhao Jingshen, Zhang Shilu... asked them to explain the problem.They come from the old society and have many upper-level connections, so it is easy to explain.This kind of explanation is called "washing your hands and taking a bath", and you can "go downstairs" after the explanation is clear.Because they are all old accounts, they have already explained it many times in the thought reform movement, so they cannot cause a sensation.Then, the leading group of the Qing team threw out a fake party member case, and it became lively.The whistleblower accused someone of being a fake party member, while the person who was exposed claimed that he was a real party member. When the two sides were arguing fiercely at the meeting, Zhou Moumou, a member of the clearing team, stood up and threw out several investigation materials, explaining that since someone did not After taking the oath, even who the introducer is is also a problem, so he was concluded as a fake party member.Then big-character posters were plastered all over the teaching buildings, and big slogans were painted all over the Fudan campus. This "fake party member" was found out in this way.But after listening to the materials read by Zhou XX, I felt that the case was difficult to determine.Because these materials only raise some doubts, and cannot prove that he is a fake party member. Of course, the defense of this party is also very weak, and there is no sufficient evidence to prove that he is a real party member.My opinion is: the procedures may not be complete, it may not be fake, further investigation is needed, and conclusions cannot be drawn based on these mediocre materials.But this kind of opinion could not be said casually at that time, if it was said, it would destroy the team clearing movement, and people might not accept it, because many people only believed what the leaders said, and did not think about the right and wrong. But I discussed my opinion with a teacher at lunch, because I think this person has an analytical mind, is more reliable, and usually has a good personal relationship.Unexpectedly, as soon as the meeting started in the afternoon, this man jumped out to expose me. Not only did he make public the doubts and judgments I had told him in private, but he also criticized them passionately and generously.This surprised and annoyed me, and I immediately defended myself, claiming that my views were reasonable.At this moment, the attention was focused on me, and I became the key target of the Chinese department's purge team. Many teachers and students who were close to me all came forward to expose me.The general charges are: opposing the Workers Propaganda Team and undermining the campaign to clear the team.What amazed me the most was that the "fake party member" whom I got into trouble for defending him also stood up and fiercely criticized me for covering up class enemies and sabotaging the movement to clear the team.This counterattack was very popular with the Workers Propaganda Team. Of course, he himself was relieved to some extent. After seeing many such incidents, who is wise is willing to stick to the principle of seeking truth from facts? There is a price to be paid for seeking truth from facts, and only by severely criticizing chaos can we gain the trust of leaders. But this time the movement was so violent that it made teachers, students and staff feel insecure, and people didn't dare to be too active all of a sudden. Moreover, being stationed in the countryside, the production teams were too scattered for the vigorous movement, so within a few days after the mobilization meeting, all the teachers and students in the school were transferred back to the school for the movement. With the order from the School Revolutionary Committee, everyone immediately packed up their bags and got into the car, not to mention a fighting atmosphere.No one dares to ask whether "Vice Chairman Lin's Circular No. 1" will still be implemented?How to implement the combat readiness measures to be ready to fight at any time?Fortunately, the teachers and students did not want to live in the countryside for a long time, and the leaders were only evacuated to carry out instructions. Now that there are more urgent tasks, of course they don't care about preparing for war. Every time I come back from the countryside, the first thing I do is to take a shower and change clothes, and then have a comfortable meal.But this time when I go back to school, I can't enjoy this little fun.Before getting on the bus, Liu Jiaguo informed me that I was not allowed to go home after arriving at the school and would live in a student dormitory.So, when the teachers were all carrying their luggage and went home for the reunion, I had no choice but to follow the students to the dormitory in Building No. 6.Our family of three is now divided into three places, and I am the only one left in Shanghai. It doesn't matter if I go home or not, but I am not allowed to go home now, so I really want to go back and have a look.I made the excuse of getting a change of clothes and needing to go home.Although Liu Jiaguo put on an ugly face, he had no reason to refuse, so he let me go back.Of course, he didn't forget to send someone to follow. The person following me is a first-year student. Although I have not taught his class, I have been with him for more than a year.After the workers' propaganda team entered the school, they said that the teachers could not do good things together, so they dismantled the teachers' study groups and assigned the teachers to the student groups in each class.This classmate is not only in a study group with me, but also in a labor group.Last summer when we went to Shanghai No. 2 Iron and Steel Plant to fight the high temperature, we worked together to remove steel slag under the converter.This is the most tiring and dangerous job. If you don't pay attention, you will be splashed by steel slag or even burn to death, so we have to take care of each other.He was very strict with me at first, and became more easy-going as the days went by.When the labor was about to end, one night after the middle shift, in the dead of night, only the two of us were walking on the road, and he suddenly called out: "Hey! My surname is Wu, walk slowly, I have something to tell you." At that time, the students were unwilling and unable to call us "teacher" anymore. They usually called me by their first names, and they called me "Old Wu" and "Old Wang" if they were more polite. This student was ingenious and kept calling me "surname Wu". of". I wasn't sure what he had to teach, so I had to listen attentively. He lowered his voice and said to me: "My surname is Wu, don't think that this labor is divided into random groups. I was specially sent by the workers' propaganda team to monitor you. They want to assign you to the most difficult and dangerous jobs. That's why I suffered. Liu Jiaguo told me that you are a bad person and asked me to spy on you secretly. I followed you for three months and found that you are not a bad person but a good person. I even admire you a little. Don't worry, I will never frame you, but you have to report something, and you have to know. When your problem is solved, we can make friends, but not now. The workers' propaganda team always wants to punish you, and I can't convince you. If they find out that I am close to you, they will immediately assign another person to monitor you, which is not good for you." Although I knew that the Worker Propaganda Team discriminated against me very much, I thought that since I had done it once and couldn't make a name for it, I should stop. I didn't expect them to value me so much that they even used secret agents.So after hearing these words, I was still slightly surprised.The student sent to monitor me was trusted because of his good family background, but he was a man of conscience who held his own views on things based on actual experience.Thanks to his trust in me, I am naturally very grateful to him, but I definitely don't want to hurt him, so I don't want to get close to him.In this way, he has been responsible for monitoring me.As I changed from being watched in the dark to being quarantined in the open, he also changed from a dark watcher to a light watcher. He followed me along the way, keeping a distance of a few steps, so that others could neither see that he was watching me nor suspect that he was my fellow traveler.When I got home, I closed the door casually and wanted to say a few words to him, but he opened the door immediately, looked outside the door vigilantly, and then said to me softly: "You can't close the door, there may be people watching , Maybe someone will inform you, saying that we are talking privately behind closed doors. You have to open the door to speak, so that there will be no suspicion." I admire his insights.At such a young age, it's hard for him to be thoughtful. I saw some letters on the floor that my neighbor had slipped through the door when I was away.I hastened to open it to read, and there were two letters from friends, nothing important, and one was written by Gao Yun from the edge of Heilongjiang, saying that they were fighting in the severe cold.She had a high revolutionary enthusiasm and asked me to try to go to Heilongjiang as soon as possible.How could she have expected that I was already a prisoner at this time, and others had long since denied that I was a revolutionary mass, and I was no longer wanted to be a revolutionist.I read the letter and wanted to tear it up as usual, but this classmate stopped me. “不能毁！刘家国特地要我看看有没有信，有信要交给他。” 虽然我们大家都学过宪法，知道人民有通信自由，但这时连人身自由、居住自由都不讲了，他们不通过任何法律手续就抄了我的家，限制了我的行动，还谈什么通信自由呢！何况这等事在“文革”中早已司空见惯，习以为常了。而且，淫威所在，谁敢抗议就罪加一等。事情颠倒到这个地步：捍卫宪法者有罪，践踏宪法者执法，复有何说！我只苦笑一声，把信交了出去。 他接过信去，说道：“这次运动来势凶猛，非同小可。胡守钧案子是全市重点大案，工宣队把你挂在这个案子里搞，是决心要把你整倒，使谁也不敢讲话，要逼得大家都揭发你，使你众叛亲离，在精神上压垮你。到时候你千万不能自杀。” “我干么要自杀？死了就搞不清问题了。我还得活着看看事情的结局呢！” “这样就好。我仍旧相信你是好人，但是随着你问题的升级，我也只得跟着骂你，以后我们也不会再有单独谈话的机会了，你自己珍重！” 在这样严峻的时刻，在我的脸上被随意涂上白粉的时候，居然还有人相信我是好人，而且这人又是工宣队依靠的对象，是监视、看管我的红卫兵，这使我感到莫大的安慰。人心自有公道在！ 家里不便多留，我简单地拣了几件衣物，就匆匆地跟他回学生宿舍了。