Chapter 10 The first part

In the autumn of 1920, Xu Zhimo met Lin Changmin and his daughter Lin Huiyin.The appearance of the lively, bright and magnificent Lin Huiyin set off a turbulent wave in the depths of Xu Zhimo's emotions, and this lingering goddess deeply affected his short but colorful life. Lin Changmin, courtesy name Zongmeng, studied in Japan twice, specializing in politics and law.He is Liang Qichao's good friend in the political arena, and he has a very good personal relationship. Xu Zhimo has long admired him as a person. In 1920, Lin Changmin took his 16-year-old daughter, Lin Huiyin, his "only confidant", to travel in Europe as the representative of the Comrade Association of the Chinese League of Nations, and arrived in London in August.Lin Changmin is suave, sociable and good at speech. Although he is frustrated in the officialdom, his enthusiasm for politics has not diminished since he arrived in London.

At a speech meeting of the League of Nations Association, Chen Xiying, Zhang Shizhao and Xu Zhimo went to listen to Lin Changmin's speech together.The impassioned speech made Xu Zhimo mesmerized.He jumped at the chance and befriended the 44-year-old.Because of the same romantic temperament, the two hit it off and soon became friends.Xu Zhimo appreciates Lin Changmin's elegant taste and extraordinary talent, and is also very interested in his enlightened thinking and singing about the freedom of love.In Xu Zhimo's eyes, Lin Changmin is an eloquent and humorous "scholar".Lin Changmin has a good impression of Xu Zhimo, a clever and lively disciple of his good friend Liang Qichao.In this way, the two often sit down and talk heart to heart, never tired of it.They talked about poetry and calligraphy from politics and society, and even talked about the relationship between men and women.Lin Changmin also told Xu Zhimo about his personal emotional secrets in detail.

Lin Changmin once proudly declared: "When it comes to Chinese and Western literature and appearance, no woman in the world is better than her daughter." Lin Huiyin was favored by her father since she was a child, and she received a good education very early.She has a very good artistic talent. She loves poetry, music, painting, and drama, and she performs well.She not only has outstanding talent and elegant temperament, but also has amazing beauty.Such a young girl from a famous family who is in full bloom, generous and elegant, will naturally make the enthusiastic and beautiful Xu Zhimo's heart beat and passion explode.

Through Lin Changmin's introduction, Xu Zhimo met Dickinson, a famous writer and alumnus of Cambridge Royal Academy.Dickinson is a famous writer. He traveled to China for a long time from 1912 to 1913. He visited many places, climbed Mount Tai, and visited the Temple of Confucius. "A Chinese Correspondence" mentioned in "Cambridge I Know", which praises Chinese civilization.Dickinson is a scholar who is loved by young people. He is kind, generous, selfless, witty, and full of inspiring vitality. He is keen on political and social reforms, respects Lao Tzu in China, admires Goethe in Germany, loves Shelley and Prayer Lun and other Romantic poets; he loved human beings without racial and ethnic prejudices.All of this makes Xu Zhimo admire and practice.Moreover, Dickinson thought that he was a descendant of Yanhuang in his previous life, so he was very friendly to the Chinese, so Xu Zhimo became good friends with him.Introduced by Dickenson, Xu Zhimo obtained the qualification of special student in Cambridge.Entering Cambridge was a major turning point for Xu Zhimo to accept the baptism of Western culture and determine the direction of his life.

Wei Lei once said that once Xu Zhimo got acquainted with Dickinson, he regarded him as Liang Qichao of Britain, and admired him so much.The two formed a deep friendship.Whenever Dickenson was in the Royal Academy, Xu Zhimo chatted with him in the room; when he was not at home, Xu Zhimo would sometimes go to his dormitory, sit quietly and think deeply at the door of his house, it is said that This way he will also sit for hours.Out of admiration and admiration for Dickinson, Xu Zhimo not only diligently read his works, but also invited his painter friend Fu Laiyi to paint a large portrait of Dickinson, which was later brought back to China to be mounted and hung. In November 1921, in order to express his respect for Dickinson, Xu Zhimo presented Dickinson with a collection of "Tang Poetry Collection" in the fifty-sixth year of Kangxi's possession in his family, and wrote a dedication with a brush on the title page: "Book Although it is withered, it is in my family’s collection, and it is a great honor to live here. Mr. Sister accepts this, and I am deeply honored and favored. Xu Zhimo respects you.” After Xu Zhimo returned to China, on December 15, 1922, he represented Liang Qichao and Cai Yuanpei with a lecture club The name invited Dickinson to visit China and revisit the old place, but unfortunately Dickinson failed to do so due to some incidents. In 1928, when Xu Zhimo went to England for the third time and visited Dickinson in Cambridge, Dickinson happened to be away.Xu Zhimo, who was deeply regretful, had to go back to China by boat via Paris, Durham and Marseilles.In order to meet Dickinson, he kept telegraphing him along the way.Dickinson also had a deep affection for the past, so he pursued Xu Zhimo from stop to stop, and finally met his Chinese friend at the last stop in Marseille.Unforgettable meeting, hearty talk, tearful farewell.Who knows that this is the last time they meet.After the two broke up, they still communicated frequently and sent gifts from time to time.

Introduced by his friend Dickenson, Xu Zhimo became a lifelong friend with Fu Laiyi, a well-known painter of the British New School in the 1920s.The generous and gentle Fu Laiyi was a good friend of Dickinson. He led Xu Zhimo to the art palace of the new painters in Western Europe at that time, opened up new horizons for him, and encouraged him.He loves Chinese art and has a unique understanding of Chinese painting.He also sent two sketches to Xu Zhimo, which were later published by Xu Zhimo on "New Moon". Xu Zhimo wrote a passionate "To Fu Laiyi" on August 7, 1922: "Your letter shocked my whole being. Your sincere sympathy brought me a soulful and unique feeling this morning. Feeling; although I have tasted many kinds of joy, it is incomparable to this! I also have no way to convey to you the kind of gratitude that touches my deepest heartstrings." Xu Zhimo has always believed that he is the greatest in his life The best chance is to meet Mr. Dickinson.Because of him, Xu Zhimo was able to enter Cambridge to enjoy those happy days, and his interest in literature and art was thus fixed and formed.It was also because of him that Xu Zhimo met Fu Laiyi.And Fu Laiyi's generous and gentle personality opened up new horizons for him and encouraged him, enabling him to personally experience those broad, beautiful and noble thoughts and emotions.He really hoped to meet Fu Laiyi more and get close to him. Hearing his melodious voice was such a joy and comfort to Xu Zhimo!Thus life in England would never cause him any regrets.Someday he will look back on this time, and remember that he had the privilege of befriending them and being exposed to their enlightening influence, and he wonders if he will be moved to tears.

Xu Zhimo assured Fu Laiyi, who hoped to come to China to paint from life and develop his artistic talents, that his dream of taking a boat ride on the soft waves of the West Lake and playing with Danqing would come true sooner or later.Xu Zhimo had already lobbied Dickinson to invite him to visit China.Xu Zhimo promised that he would be a landlord in China, and suggested that Fu Laiyi and Dickinson go together!Then, the two representatives of their outstanding talents and achievements in art and literature can cooperate to introduce the true meaning and essence of Western culture to the young Chinese who are eager to learn and the older generation who are quiet and reserved.Such a grand event will undoubtedly usher in a new era in the communication between Chinese and Western civilizations.

In December 1922, Xu Zhimo also invited Fu Laiyi to give lectures and tours in China in the name of the Lecture Society, and asked Fu Laiyi to hold a joint art exhibition with the Lecture Society; Visit Japan in full bloom.He also introduced to Fu Laiyi the natural beauty of Beijing, and these beauties expected Fu Laiyi's art to give them a wise interpretation.Unfortunately, Fu Laiyi was unable to come to China due to illness. On June 5, 1923, Xu Zhimo invited Fu Laiyi to come to China to give lectures on art, but Fu Laiyi was too busy to make the trip.It was not until Xu Zhimo went to England for the third time that he met Fu Laiyi again in Beitan.A few days of hasty reunion, let each other have indescribable joy and comfort.

In London, Xu Zhimo soon fell in love with Lin Huiyin.Lin Huiyin, with bright eyes and white teeth, a pair of curved smiling eyes, full of autumn water; two rows of white and flawless pearls are shining brightly on the part of her crimson lips.Lin Huiyin, pure and pure, graceful, radiant, intelligent, and well-spoken.Lin Huiyin, with red clouds flying over her shy cheeks, was like the shyness of a water lotus that cannot withstand the cool breeze.Indescribably beautiful, bright, elegant and generous, indescribably high-spirited and talented.The flame of love suddenly ignited in Xu Zhimo's heart.The pure, elegant, handsome, lovely, elegant, and talented Xu Zhimo suddenly wrinkled the pool of spring water in Lin Huiyin's heart.The two fiery hearts got closer and closer, and finally lost their way.

How many times, Xu Zhimo hastily ran to Lin's house, sat down and chatted with the witty and witty old friend Lin Changmin, and had a heart-to-heart long talk with the delicate and talented girl Lin Huiyin.Xu Zhimo's heart is full of joy, and his soul is constantly soaring, pure and comfortable.Time always slips away unconsciously, taking away Xu Zhimo's silent satisfaction and longing.How many times has Xu Zhimo walked side by side with Lin Huiyin, the goddess of beauty, the ideal of love, and the incarnation of happiness, in the ancient streets of London and the paths of the Royal College of Cambridge, talking about ideals, life, and literature in literature? Wandering in the paradise of art.Their joy and sympathy spread across the land of England.Xu Zhimo, bathed in her sunshine, kept and cherished such fleeting years for a long time.How many times have you rubbed shoulders together, how many times you have learned from each other, how many times you have talked endlessly, and talked endlessly.From then on, Xu Zhimo's heart was branded with the slim figure of this young girl, and she could never get rid of that pure and holy figure.

Just as Xu Zhimo was deeply in love with Lin Huiyin and had frequent contacts with him, in the winter of 1920, Zhang Youyi arrived at the Marseille dock in France full of excitement and expectation.What she didn't know was that Xu Zhimo no longer had the worry of writing family letters.She came to England to be reunited and ended up separated. In the Port of Marseilles, when Zhang Youyi stood in front of Xu Zhimo, who was wearing a black wool coat and a white silk scarf around her neck, what she saw was her husband's disappointed and dull expression, without the enthusiasm and excitement of reuniting after a long absence.Seeing his wife still looking the same, Xu Zhimo felt a trace of deep disappointment in his heart.After picking up Zhang Youyi in Marseille, they took the train to Paris.Xu Zhimo hurriedly bought some clothes for Zhang Youyi, maybe because he disliked her attire, or maybe he wanted her to turn into a new-style woman as soon as possible.Then they fly to London.Zhang Youyi was flying for the first time, so she vomited due to airsickness, but she was not afraid, she knew it was just because the air was bad and the fuselage was tilted back and forth.What made her sad was that when she vomited, Xu Zhimo not only turned his head away, but also shook his head in disgust and said, "You are such a country bumpkin." Not long after he finished speaking, he also vomited, Zhang Youyi was not to be outdone , also with a little malice, blurted out softly: "I think you are also a country bumpkin." How can two people who cannot tolerate and accommodate each other cultivate the relationship between husband and wife and achieve mutual understanding?What makes Zhang Youyi feel even more heavy is that when Xu Zhimo saw the two friends who came to pick him up in London, he became lively and chatted with them in English happily. After arriving in London, Xu Zhimo and his wife temporarily lived in the Chinese Alumni Association.After staying in London for half a year, in April and May of 1921, after Xu Zhimo entered the Royal College of Cambridge University as a special student, he moved to Shaxton with Zhang Youyi.The rural poultry houses around Shaxton are quiet and elegant, full of natural appeal.Xu Zhimo went to school by bike in the morning and came back for dinner in the evening.In order to help Zhang Youyi become a new-style woman, Xu Zhimo also invited female teachers to teach her English and Western knowledge, and took his wife to watch boat races, movies or visit friends in his spare time. In the spring of 1921, Xu Zhimo's life was dull and boring, leaving early and returning late, and then staying with his wife.Without the excitement and excitement of interacting with celebrities, without the passion and brilliance of being with Lin Huiyin.There is no loneliness, and there is no light of life. At this time, Lin Huiyin was still living in London with Lin Changmin.After Zhang Youyi came, it was impossible for Xu Zhimo to meet her as often as before.But her swaying figure has been lingering in his mind.He loves her sincerely, obsessively, selflessly, and madly in love.The more he missed her, the more he felt the mediocrity and tediousness of his family life. How terrible and sad it was that the wife he slept with could not be his soul mate.Facing the family that hinders his soaring spirit and pursuing the perfection of love, he has only silence and melancholy.The virtuous Zhang Youyi obviously felt her husband's displeasure.Especially when friends come to visit, Xu Zhimo will become cheerful, eloquent, relaxed and happy.After his friend left, he returned to his melancholy look.The dull and tense family life made Zhang Youyi dissatisfied, jealous, sad and helpless.She blamed, blamed herself, and felt sad because she couldn't enter her husband's heart and light up the light in his heart.She keeps doing housework at home every day, silently watching the sunrise and sunset, and the alternation of morning and evening. Xu Zhimo, who was trapped by love, begged for fate to the sky melancholy.Because of this love, Xu Zhimo, a hard-working and lively young man who aspired to be Hamilton, became more interested in studying and gradually became less frequent in class, so that the registrar of the School of Economics and Political Science, University of London asked Professor Laski about his status. Disciple's whereabouts.Professor Lasky wrote a short letter to the Registrar very humorously, saying, "I see him from time to time, but it has nothing to do with studying." After Lin Changmin and Xu Zhimo became close friends, the two played a game of exchanging love letters.It was the romantic Lin Changmin's sudden whim, suggesting that the two pretend to send love letters to each other as lovers.They imagined a plot where Lin Changmin was a married man and Xu Zhimo was a married woman. The two communicated and complained to each other under the circumstances that they were not free, and shared the feeling that "there is no place for all kinds of customs, and Baixue in Liaoyuan buried Huadian". "Feelings.But in fact, they wrote their own love letters and expressed their own heart songs, because at that time, both parties had their own actual special likings.Lin Changmin wrote to his lover, and he regarded Xu Zhimo as a substitute object, the object of pouring out.To Lin Changmin's surprise, Xu Zhimo's fiery love letters were written to his beloved daughter, and all his amorous thoughts were on Lin Huiyin.He truly expressed his passionate love for Lin Huiyin in a love letter to her father.Xu Zhimo's bold confession of love, even Lin Changmin wrote to Xu Zhimo in December 1920: "The intensity of love with one step is horrifying, and Hui also panics and doesn't know what to answer. There is no mockery at all. I think I misunderstood." Xu Zhimo fell in love with Lin Huiyin, a beautiful and charming lady from a great family. Facing Xu Zhimo's active pursuit of Lin Huiyin, he was not unmoved.She was terrified, loved, shy, and happy, and gradually began to communicate with Xu Zhimo.When she and her father lived in London, and Xu Zhimo and his wife lived in Shaxton, she and Xu Zhimo continued to maintain correspondence, exchanging letters almost every day.Xu Zhimo used the grocery store across the street from the barber shop as his address. At that time, the mail between London and Shaxton was delivered very quickly, so they could go back and forth at least every day.Sometimes they write letters in English, in order to prevent being discovered.After Xu Zhimo had such a pure girl like Lin Huiyin in his heart, he didn't like his wife Zhang Youyi again.