Chapter 5 Pain and Solace

May 7, 1923 was an important day in the emotional history of Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng. It was Monday, with good sunshine. College students held up banners on the street and held a "May 7 National Humiliation Day" (May 7, 1915, the Japanese government proposed to Yuan Shikai 21 traitorous country) parades. Younger Liang Sicheng took his younger brother Liang Siyong to chase the parade from Nanchang Street, where Liang’s family lived, on a Harley Davidson motorcycle bought by his elder sister Liang Sishun (brother-in-law Zhou Xizhe is the Consul General in Manila) from the Philippines. When we arrived at Chang'an Avenue, a big car ran into us head-on, and in a flash, tragedy happened.The motorcycle was knocked over, heavily crushing Liang Sicheng, and his younger brother Liang Siyong was thrown far away.The official sitting in the car ordered the driver to move on. Liang Siyong stood up, bleeding from the wound. He found his brother Liang Sicheng lying there unconscious, and immediately ran home to call for help.A servant hurried to the scene of the accident and carried Liang Sicheng back.

Liang Sicheng's face was pale, almost bloodless, and his eyes stopped moving. The whole family cried out in fright.Liang Qichao, who had just rushed back from Xishan, tried his best to calm down, and hurried to send someone to find a doctor. Fortunately, the car he bought from Manila was parked at the door, and it took more than an hour before a young surgeon was brought in like a prisoner. .After careful examination by the doctor, it was discovered that Liang Sicheng's right leg was broken, and he was immediately sent to Xiehe Hospital. The two brothers lived in the same ward of the hospital. Liang Siyong was discharged in a week, while Liang Sicheng would stay here for eight weeks.

Lin Huiyin got the news a few hours later and rushed to Union Medical College Hospital. Almost all the Liang family members were crowded in the ward.Lin Huiyin's face was dripping with sweat, and his chest heaved violently.Liang Qichao asked Sizhong to hand her a towel, and said comfortingly, "Sicheng's injury is nothing serious. The doctor said it was just a broken right leg, and it will recover in seven or eight weeks. Don't worry." Afterwards, Lin Changmin and his wife also arrived in a hurry.The Liang family and the Lin family guarded the food from noon to evening. The food delivered was hot and cold, and no one took a bite.Lin Huiyin sat beside Liang Sicheng's bed blankly, and every moan of Liang Sicheng touched her heart.She furrowed her brows tightly, biting her lips with blood.

For a week, Huiyin took leave from school and stayed by Sicheng's hospital bed, feeding food and medicine diligently.Liang Sicheng had just finished the operation and couldn't move his body yet, but his expression recovered quickly. Huiyin often brought some newspapers to read to him.Once she opened a piece of "Morning News", leaned close to Liang Sicheng's ear, and whispered: "You have become a star!" Liang Sicheng took the newspaper, and seeing the news of his car crash on the front page, he smiled wryly, "I'm not interested in that. If you stay here with me, you will be blessed for three lifetimes."

Mrs. Li, who was sitting by the side, frowned. The weak Liang Sicheng was sweating profusely every time he turned his body with the help of Lin Huiyin.Huiyin didn't care to wipe his sweat, so he wrung the towel with warm water and gently wiped it on Liang Sicheng's forehead.At this time, Mrs. Li would grab the towel angrily. Liang Qichao was very happy.He is well aware of Mrs. Li's prejudice against modern women, and whenever this happens, he comes out to smooth things over: "These are Huiyin's affairs!" At this moment, Liang Qichao seemed to feel that the heart he had been hanging on for a long time fell to the ground like a stone.He knew very well that the relationship between his student Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin in England, Xu Zhimo dropped out of school and returned to China, made him feel uneasy.I was deeply afraid that Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin, who ran wild horses, would relapse into their old relationship. They would lose their own face and hurt their son's feelings.As a precautionary measure, he once wrote a long letter regarding his divorce with Zhang Youyi shortly after Xu Zhimo returned to China, severely criticizing Xu Zhimo as a teacher.

The letter reads: First, never allow the pain of others to change your own happiness.My brother's actions, whether I will get happiness in the future or not, are as uncertain as chasing after the wind, but they have already caused immeasurable pain to most people. Second, the sanctity of love is a favorite of today's teenagers. ... This is something that can be met but not sought. . . . For those who are sentimental and sentimental, their visions rise and fall, and it is extremely difficult to be satisfied.The sacred realm I dream of may not be attainable in the end, and I will end up with troubles all my life.

Woohoo Shima!Is there a perfect universe in the world? ... When you know that our life attitude is not to seek perfection, then you can appreciate the wonderful taste of life. ... If you are addicted to the dream that is not inevitable, you will suffer several setbacks, and your business will be exhausted. Yu Yu Tuoxi will die, and death will be nameless.Death is still possible, and the most feared person is immortal and degenerated to the point where he cannot extricate himself.Wuhu Zhimo, there is no fear!Don't be afraid! Unexpectedly, Xu Zhimo didn't buy it.His reply letter really made Liang Qichao feel like a thorn in his back.Xu Zhimo declared:

I am willing to risk the injustice of the world and fight with all my strength. I am not only seeking to avoid the terrible pain, but to seek the peace of mind, the establishment of personality, and the salvation of the soul. Who doesn't seek mediocrity?Anyone who is disturbed off-the-shelf?Who is not afraid of hardships and dangers?However, if there are those who break through the siege, how can the husband have to do it? I will visit my only soul mate in the vast crowd; if I get it, I am lucky; if I don’t, it’s my fate, that’s all. My husband and my teacher!I taste the essence of my soul to condense it into an ideal pearl, containing it with my passionate painstaking efforts, illuminating my profound spiritual palace.But vulgar and taboo are jealous, wanting to numb their souls, crush their ideals, kill their hopes, and defile their purity!I do not flow into depravity, into mediocrity, into lowliness, how little it is!

Such a Xu Zhimo, coupled with Lin Huiyin who has also been influenced by Western thought, how can he not worry him? This unexpected incident tested Lin Huiyin's feelings for Liang Sicheng, and Liang Qichao seemed relieved.He happily wrote a letter to his daughter Sishun, expressing his pride in his words: "This old man has good eyesight. Huiyin is my second success." The first success was that he chose his son-in-law, Zhou Xizhe, for his daughter Sishun, who later became the consul general of the embassies in the Philippines and Canada, which made him very proud for a while.

Liang Sicheng's injury was initially told by the hospital that there was no fracture and no surgery was needed, but later it was diagnosed as a compound fracture, and by the end of May three operations had been performed.Since then, Liang Sicheng's left leg was shorter than his right leg, resulting in lifelong lameness. His father, Liang Qichao, took advantage of this period of recuperation to let Liang Sicheng study ancient Chinese classics, starting with "Mencius", "Zuo Zhuan", "Warring States Policy", etc., to kill this period of pain and accumulate his memory. Knowledge.

Liang Sicheng's mother was furious at the official who injured her son. She went to the government's president, Li Yuanhong, and demanded that the official be punished. In the end, she said that the driver was at fault. The mother continued until Li Yuanhong apologized for the official. One and a half months later, Liang Sicheng recovered from his injuries and was discharged from the hospital.Lin Huiyin also graduated from Peihua Girls' High School, and received a semi-official fee to study abroad. On the day of picking him up, Lin Huiyin brought a bouquet of flowers. From that day on, Lin Huiyin understood that the things cherished by the soul may one day be abandoned by fate, but there is no fate that can surpass the soul. Because of this feeling, she walked into No. 7 Shihu Hutong in Xidan in the early spring of the following year. This is a secluded courtyard with two entrances and two exits.The courtyard is not big, but the layout is rigorous, with a front and hatchback, and sweeping eaves and brackets, which is very grand.In the warm and cold weather, the persimmon trees and locust trees in the yard still maintain the depth of winter, but there is a little greenness on the branches. , There are already yellow-green new leaves coming out, which makes the cold spring suddenly have the fear of the end of the battle.It was a weak season, yet a force to be reckoned with. The Foreign Language Department of the Songpa Library is located here.No. 7 Shihu Hutong, formerly the mansion of Qiu Yuexiu, a university scholar, and then the right-wing sect school. A generation of literary giant Cao Xueqin and his close friends Dun Min and Dun Cheng once settled in this small courtyard. Songpo Library is named after General Cai E. Not long ago, Liang Qichao presided over the relocation from Shanghai to Beijing. The main library is located in Beihai Kuaixue Hall.During Xu Zhimo’s stay in Kyoto, Liang Qichao had arranged for him to go to Shanghai to work as an editor of the supplement of “Current Affairs News”, but he did not go. With the help of Hu Shi and Jiang Baili, he served as the secretary of the Ministry of Foreign Languages ​​and Culture, and this was also his residence. Lin Huiyin pushed open the door of the north main hall, his eyes lit up, the walls had been repainted, a big red carpet was spread on the floor, sofas were placed around it, the windows were bright and clean, and several pots of "cyclamen" were lively. Blooming one after another, the tender petals are pink, white and purple, like a group of butterflies constantly flapping their wings. Xu Zhimo is busy.His eyes were bloodshot. Today is an important day. In order to prepare for the establishment of the New Moon Society, he has been restless for several days.This matter is really difficult for him, raising funds, hiring a chef, painting the house, he has to worry about it, thanks to a capable Huang Zimei, who ran before and after, and thanks to Mr. Xu Shenru and his son who let go of their previous suspicions and generously donated money , this Crescent Club, which was derived from the weekend dinner party, will not be stillborn. "It's so beautiful!" Lin Huiyin's Fujian-style Beijing accent was as lively as spring water. "It's not easy to be praised by Miss Lin!" Xu Zhimo smiled with interest, and moved a chair for Lin Huiyin. Lin Huiyin didn't sit down, she walked around the hall excitedly, and went to the yard to look at the vine, and called out in surprise: "Zhimo, look, this vine has new leaves, and it won't be long before it grows." When bunches of purple flowers bloom, this small courtyard will be even more beautiful." Zhimo's eyes also shined: "Xinyueshe is like this wisteria, where there are new leaves, there will be flowers. It looks so delicate, but it is growing. Our new moon will also have a full day. Do you agree?" Lin Huiyin nodded happily. "With our group of dreamers and our foolishness who refuses to admit defeat, we can't do anything! Back then, George Bernard Shaw and Weber and his wife opened a new way in the cultural and art circles. New Moon, new moon, is our new moon cut out of cardboard?" Huiyin said with emotion: "It's easy to grow taller if you plant the trees together!" "We have a lot of big things to do, we have to rehearse plays, we need to run publications, we need to cultivate a new atmosphere in China, restore human nature, and open up a new road." Xu Zhimo said, "The most important thing at present is, Don't forget to rehearse the poetic drama "Chitra" quickly, and you will play the daughter of King Manipur when Thion comes!" When it comes to acting, Lin Huiyin's emotions are soaring. Members came in twos and threes. The first one to come was Hu Shi, a well-known scholar at home and abroad, wearing a blue padded gown with sleeves and hands, like a Mr. Dong Hong from a rural school. As soon as he entered the door, he yelled at the cook in Huizhou dialect: "Old man, Come on!" Zhimo jokingly said, "Mr. Hu, how about I get you a first-class pot? The insurance is no worse than Mrs. Jiang's craftsmanship!" Lin Huiyin sneered and laughed.It was rare for her to see Dr. Hu, who was so serious, be so humorous. Then came Chen Tongbo and Ling Shuhua.The tall and thin Chen Tongbo is gentle and elegant, with the air of a wild crane; Ling Shuhua is as light as a chrysanthemum, with a pure smile on his oval-shaped face. The big Jin Yuelin walked in sideways like a camel.Huiyin said with a smile: "The house is shorter now that Lao Jin is here!" Everyone laughed. The belated ones are Liang Qichao and Lin Changmin.Liang Qichao, with a bald head and a wide chin, was wearing a fat long robe. He looked handsome, looked around, and repeatedly praised: "It's well cleaned up, you look good!" A group of people shouted: "Mr. Lin came late today, and punished him to sing Duan Ganlu Temple!" Lin Changmin clasped his fists over his head, and bowed his hands to the four: "Thank you for your praise, the old man's play has always been the finale, so I won't sing it now! I won't sing it now!" Perhaps no one realizes that this small society, named after the Indian poet Rabindranath Tagore, entered the history of China's New Culture Movement on this very day. It's as if none of them have noticed that the tall and straight persimmon tree in this quiet courtyard will unquestionably hold out the sweetness of Kazuki's innocence in the rippling autumn wind!