Chapter 36 Feelings in the twilight years of the sixth series

Feelings in the twilight years of the sixth series Chapter 72 When I get old, I recall that there are many things in this life that I didn't expect in my early years.For example, when I was young, I yearned for meritorious deeds, regarded knowledge as insufficient, and especially disliked philosophical talks, but now the result is just the opposite.When I was a child, I never recited the old Confucian books. When I was young, I regarded Chinese culture as nothing. I believed in it like the saying in "Thinking of Relatives" that "words and the way of life must belong to Tianzhu, and the management of the world is far away from the west." , it was unexpected that the middle-aged and later died with the work "The Essentials of Chinese Culture", which is profound and simple, incisive and comprehensive, and laid the foundation for this research in the academic circle.Another example is that when I was not yet crowned, I decided to be clean when I was born. Unexpectedly, when I was nearly thirty, I married a woman and had children, and after I lost my spouse, I remarried.At first glance, it seems that one is a person who is suddenly here and there, and acts accordingly, without knowing that it is my nature to think carefully, and those who decide from the heart are beyond the imagination of outsiders.Looking back on the past now, I can only sigh that fate plays tricks on people's ears.My ancestors traveled to the north for generations. I lived with my parents in Beijing since I was a child. I never tasted the taste of rural life, but I devoted myself to the rural movement. They only invaded with Japanese invaders, but failed to fulfill their ambitions.At the beginning, I called it "Xiangzhi", aiming at cultivating rural self-government. It is actually one of the political movements with lofty goals, and its ambition is to build a new China.At that time, although he realized that there must be a policy and a planned development of social production as the foundation, Gu did not realize that the starting point was to implement social education, and the focus was on adults.In the end, I wrote the "Draft of a Social-Based Education System", which is a specific plan for this life from a young man to a middle-aged man who thought about solving China's problems after several twists and turns. carry on.I am conscientious and meticulous in my life practice, and its development and changes step by step must be the same.

July 10, 1976 Feelings in the twilight years of the sixth series Chapter 73 The ancients had a lot of words, and earlier I thought I could understand their meaning, but my understanding was extremely superficial.After passing the eighties this year, I have a deeper understanding of the lessons of current affairs and the environment.This difference is only understood in my heart, and it is difficult to explain it to others.I will briefly record it below; how people understand it from what I said will depend on whether it is deep or shallow in practice in life. For example, the old book "Eastern and Western Cultures and Their Philosophy" 50 years ago compared "the wise do not confuse, the brave do not fear", pointing out that "the benevolent do not worry" should be paid attention to, and they claim to be able to understand its meaning; shallow.What I have realized today is only if there is any coincidence with the phrase in "Yi Xici" "I am happy to know my fate, so I don't worry about it".Optimizing one's fate is the root;

What is optimism?The word "destiny" should be understood from what Mencius said, "He who does not do what he does is heaven; what he does not cause is fate", that is: everything is the natural evolution of facts, and there is no supernatural master.Natural evolution has its laws, and some of us gradually know it, while others don't.But everything has a definite number, not random, not accidental.This seems to be determinism, but in fact it is the unity of the mechanical view and the purpose view, which is similar to Bergson's creation theory and does not contradict it.Our life and the universe and nature are completely unobstructed, and they are separated only for selfish purposes.If there is no selfishness, there will be no barriers, let the sky move, and the laws of heaven prevail, then you will be happy with your destiny.Those who are calm and not worried are here.However, it is not without worry, as the saying goes, "Worrying about Tao does not worry about poverty"; its worrying does not hinder its happiness.Those who worry without hindering their joy, the natural principles are clear and popular without stagnation.Confucius himself said, "As a human being, he forgets food when he is angry, forgets worries when he is happy, and does not know that old age is coming." The meaning can be seen.Confucius also said, "At fifty, one knows the destiny of heaven", almost saying to himself that by the age of fifty, his own life is connected with the great life of the universe.

As I said above when I was usually lacking in education, I could only vaguely see the speculative words from a distance.That is to say, based on what we have seen above, we have the following beliefs: to fully accept all misfortunes, blessings, honors and disgraces, gains and losses, without doubt, surprise, shock, or resentment.But those who believe in this must have their premise in daily life: "Trembling with trembling, as if facing an abyss, as if walking on thin ice". It has been a long time since I heard the teachings of the poor.Especially after being convinced by Mr. Wu Yongbo's words of anti-independence, the meaning became clearer.However, because of my generosity and pride (it is personal heroism, not the heroism of the proletarian revolution), I cannot implement it.Now I know that even though the conscience is eager to see it, it is not enough to say "Be cautious about what you don't see, and be afraid of what you don't hear", but it is necessary to restrain this heart and maintain an attitude as if you are facing the depths. necessary.This new experience also.

Believe that everything has a definite number (but not 100%), then you will not be greedy for anything, and you will not be afraid of anything.Respond to the feeling, do what it should do; pass without staying, stop where it rests.This is also a natural result of the attitude of facing the depths. Note that everything has a definite number, but it is not 100%, because people with high intelligence have strong creativity.Ordinary vulgar people mostly fall into fatalism.