Chapter 5 grandfather's death

The "Oriental" magazine of the Commercial Press resumed publication, renamed "Today's Oriental", and asked me to write a manuscript.In the second issue of "Today's East", there is "A Great Catastrophe--The Destruction of the Commercial Press". If you don't read this article, you will be fine. After reading this article, I have so many thoughts that I can't fall asleep all night.Everyone knows this historical fact: at about 11 o'clock in the evening on January 28, 1932, the Japanese Marine Corps suddenly invaded Shanghai Zhabei, and our 19th Route Army rose up to resist, which is the famous "January 28 Incident".The Japanese bombers took off from the aircraft carrier moored on the Huangpu River in the early morning of the next day, and first circled and demonstrated in the Zhabei area. After dawn, at about 10 o'clock, they deliberately selected the Commercial Press and a nearby hospital to drop bombs. A bomb was hit, which caused a fire, and the rolled up paper ash flew dozens of miles away. All the books in stock and the manuscripts to be printed were all burned in the fire.The nearby hospital was also blown into ruins, and all the patients and medical staff who failed to escape were killed.The bombs were deliberately dropped on the largest cultural institution in China, and on the medical institution that deserved the most immunity from war between the two countries. The anti-civilization and anti-humanity fascist arrogance of Japanese militarism has reached an unprecedented level. I still think about it. It also makes people can't help but make their canthus crack and hair stand on end!

For me personally, this period of historical fact is not only an unforgettable national hatred, but also an unforgettable family feud.  On that day, my grandfather Liu Yunmen was bombed to death in the hospital by a Japanese plane.He was hospitalized due to a stroke, and his body was basically paralyzed. It was impossible for him to try to escape the moment the Japanese plane was raging.After the bombing, only my aunt was in Shanghai, and she rushed to the hospital, only to see a piece of ruins smoldering with embers and smoke, scorched and hot air steaming out, and she and some men and women who were also looking for relatives went to the ruins crying and rummaging. Search, hoping to find the dead body of a loved one.From time to time, the searchers suddenly let out a shrill cry—that is, the remains of relatives who were still identifiable were finally found.But my aunt searched until her hands were bleeding, but she couldn't find my grandfather's body.later when there was a bombing

People who escaped from the hospital by chance came to support and comfort my aunt and other relatives who were dying of pain. They confirmed that until the sound of the plane was roaring overhead, they thought that they would never bomb the hospital anyway. There was an evacuation, but slowly, and then suddenly a bomb was dropped on the hospital, and they were able to escape because they happened not to be in the building.According to their confirmation, there is no possibility of survival for anyone in the building. Some wards were hit head-on by bombs, and the human body and furniture were turned into dust and burned in a fire, making it impossible to find the remains... My aunt fainted on the spot. Died in the arms of the Advocate. 

My grandfather was born around 1885, and he won the last Juren in the last imperial examination in the Qing Dynasty.At that time, the candidates who won the election had two choices. One was to wait for an official position, and the other was to study abroad at public expense. My grandfather chose the second option.He went to Japan to study, and it is said that he went to Waseda University and then to Tokyo Imperial University, and finally decided to major in medicine, which was also the choice of many Chinese intellectuals in that era—thinking that through this way, they could change their own nation The face of the "sick man of East Asia".When he was in Japan, my grandfather had a close relationship with Liao Zhongkai and He Xiangning. He also met Sun Yat-sen, joined the Tongmenghui, and his thinking tended to be radical.After returning to China, my grandfather opened up a new school in his hometown (Anyue County, Sichuan Province). He became a physical education teacher, compiled new gymnastics, wrote lyrics and composed tunes by himself, and led the students to sing new songs and do new exercises, which caused a sensation in the village.Later, my grandfather went to Beijing to serve as a Beijing official, and he worked in the Mengzangyuan (I was born too late in the late Qing Dynasty, so I don’t know if there was such an official position, but after the Republic of China, he was still in the Mengzangyuan, and his position was in the Mengzangyuan, so it should be correct. ).At the end of the Qing Dynasty, he conspired with Wang Jingwei, Huang Fusheng and others to plant a bomb on Yinding Bridge and assassinate the regent. After the incident, Wang was arrested.In that assassination, my grandfather used the "True Light Photo Studio" opened on Gulouqian Street as a cover. After the incident was leaked, neither Wang nor Huang mentioned him, nor did the Qing court detect him, so he kept the matter secret from now on. , but some of my closest friends, such as Li Zhenbai and Sun Bingwen, knew about it.

After the republic, Sun Yat-sen could not fully display his ambitions in the south, and Yuan Shikai, who pretended to support the republic, more and more clearly exposed his ambition to become emperor. His grandfather was very depressed, and he wrote poems many times to express his depressed feelings. Among the very few ink marks left by him, there are several poems, one of which is:  Dajiangdongxia Junior High School Branch, North and South Elegy and South Shangwen.  Gold powder Six Dynasties Yuyan atmosphere, Diaoguan generation Mu Fuyun.  Swimming to the bottom without Cuanfu fish,

Don't wait to burn soldiers and magpies to disperse.  Occupy Wu Shanren immediately, If a man is willing to join the army.  It can be seen that he was very afraid that some republicans in the south would become the "Diaoguan generation" and indulge in the "six dynasties gold powder". He said that if someone could lead the Northern Expedition, he would join the army and fight.Later, Yuan Shikai failed to proclaim himself emperor, but the north became more chaotic under the warlord regime. In 1924, Sun Yat-sen officially launched the National Revolution in Guangzhou, and his grandfather immediately went to Guangzhou to join it.He first worked as a professor at Sun Yat-Sen University in Guangzhou, and had a close relationship with Communist Party member Bi Lei.Later, the Northern Expeditionary Army advanced, and as a military doctor, he devoted himself to treating the wounded in the field hospital, and followed the large army to Wuhan.Unexpectedly, in 1927, the Kuomintang killed Communist Party members in the name of "clearing the party". Grandfather's close friend Sun Bingwen and young friend Bi Lei were both killed. ", pouring out a cavity of grief and indignation. In 1928, he came to Shanghai and established the "Shanghai Public School".In the 1930s, my grandfather devoted himself to sorting out his works over the years, and listed the bibliography of his compiled works from a copy of ink left by him:

Titles of Yushan Series Books Translated by Yushan Liu Zhengya Faculty of Letters with Political Economy "Confucius and Mozi's New Knowledge and Experience of Chinese Studies" consists of four volumes (the vernacular manuscript has been lost) Volume 1 of "Theory of Circulation of the Great Dao" (Classical Chinese) "On Rites and Music" Volume 1 (Classical Chinese) "On Ghosts and Gods" Volume One (Vernacular) "On Human Life" One Volume Two (Vernacular) "Busy Farming in China's Modern Economy" Volume 1 (Vernacular)

"Yishan Miscellaneous Works" Volume One (Poetry Collection) Department of Science "The Grand View of the Universe" consists of three volumes (classical Chinese) A New Edition of Physics (Vernacular) A New Edition of Chemistry (Vernacular) Department of Medicine "History of Han Medicine" consists of six volumes (in classical Chinese) Department of Engineering "Analytical Chemistry" consists of two volumes (classical Chinese translation) "Plant Analytical Chemistry" consists of one volume (classical Chinese translation) "Pharmaceutical Chemistry" consists of one volume (classical Chinese translation)

"Industrial Drug Manufacturing Law" consists of one volume (in classical Chinese and translation) "Xin Yao Bian" consists of one volume (classical Chinese translation) These translations, he handed over to the Commercial Press in 1931, were welcomed.The Commercial Press intends to publish "On Human Life" first, which is also the most valued work of my grandfather, which embodies his deep thinking from personal life experience and national suffering.Originally, these works, starting with "On Human Life", were successively published by the Commercial Press in 1932.I believe that once these works are published, at least some of them will leave traces in the history of Chinese culture and thought or in the history of publishing.Moreover, the "Shanghai Public School" had to be disbanded due to the assassination of its supporter Zhao Tieqiao. My grandfather suffered a stroke and was paralyzed financially.Unexpectedly, what my grandfather was waiting for on the sickbed was not a sample book of personal monograph exuding the fragrance of ink, but a bomb dropped by a Japanese bomber!

The hospital where my grandfather lived was bombed into ruins, and the Japanese invaders wiped out his body.What makes our descendants feel even more indignant is that all his manuscripts for translation, which were sent to the Commercial Press but not ready for printing, were also reduced to ashes under the bombardment of the Japanese invaders! When my grandfather and his books were destroyed by the Japanese invaders, my father was an employee of the customs. The grief and indignation between him and my aunt could not be calmed down for a long time.In the years that followed, they all took part in the anti-Japanese trend without hesitation. In 1934, after the mother gave birth to her sister Liu Xinlian, because there were already three boys before her sister, the parents felt that there was no need to have another child, no matter in terms of number or variety.After the all-out Anti-Japanese War in 1937, Chongqing, where my father worked, was often bombed by Japanese planes. For safety reasons, my father stayed in Chongqing, and let my mother take the children to hide first in the suburbs of Chengdu, and then in his hometown of Anyue.During this period, of course, the father also came to visit the mother and children from time to time.At that time, there were not many contraceptive methods. At the end of 1941, my mother felt that she was pregnant again. After my father knew about it, he insisted on trying to get rid of it.At that time, both parents were nearly 40 years old, and the youngest child (daughter) was almost 8 years old. It was also a time of national crisis, financial constraints, mental anxiety, and it was completely understandable not to want any more children.In order to abort the child in her stomach, the mother searched for folk remedies and took them actively, but for some reason, after taking the abortion pill, she would feel as if a pair of small hands were scratching her stomach after a while, and could only vomit as much as she could. It's easy to get out.In her desperation, she even imagined vicious abortion law that jumped off the desk.Later, she felt that she couldn't get rid of the birth of a new life, so she often stroked her swollen belly, feeling extremely cherished.She told her father about her decision to give birth to a child. It is said that his father also expressed his opinion amidst the noise of Japanese planes: "They blew up one! A little soldier against Japan!" In the early morning of April 4, I was born in Yuyingtang Street, Chengdu, and my aunt delivered the baby.My father named me Xinwu after I was born. "Xin" is the ranking, and "Wu" means to fight against the Japanese aggression with force. 

Since I was sensible when I was a child, my father often told me about my grandfather.He hoped that some of our children would become doctors, because grandfather was first a doctor and was once a military doctor in the Revolutionary Army; secondly, he encouraged us to write and publish personal monographs.As far as I am concerned, although I failed to become a doctor, I have become a writer after all. Several famous publishing houses in China have published my works, but it is the first time that the Commercial Press has invited me to write a manuscript. This is just an article in "Today's East" magazine, but for me personally, it has a very special significance.This proves that some chains of life are constantly exploding, and the spiritual inheritance of a nation cannot be cut off by turning the works of the older generation into paper ashes.  After the country implemented reform and opening up, I was invited to visit Japan twice in 1981 and 1997.When I set foot on the ground in Japan, my mood may be much more complicated than the average visitor.My grandfather, and many others of his generation, regarded Japan as an ideal place from which to acquire the ability to enrich and strengthen our nation.According to my father's recollection, my grandfather used to wear Japanese kimonos at home after returning from Japan.But then Japan pressed China step by step until in the "January 28 Incident" in 1932, it dropped a bomb and killed my grandfather and all his unpublished translations, preventing him from being published in China. At that stage of development, he left traces of his thought and culture that might have had even a major impact.And my life was born in the noise and flames of Japanese planes bombing Chongqing and Chengdu—as my father said, it was bombed out—but I finally set foot on Japanese soil to carry out the so-called literary access.What is even more difficult to explain is that since I entered the literary world in 1977, although some of my works have been translated into English, French, German, Italian, Russian, Swedish and other languages, in comparison, the Japanese translation most.  In Japan, my heart is particularly sensitive to the fact that I may be more difficult than the average person to tolerate militarism, even if it is only a little bit of that "smell".Whether it is an attempt to justify militarism that once existed, or an attempt to cheer up a militarism that is now revived, I am filled with righteous indignation.I have also read Yukio Mishima's, and that text may indeed have nothing to do with militarism directly, but I cannot calmly "discuss the facts" and appreciate that "beautiful text", because I cannot but remember that he is a fanatic. Militarists, this must remind me of my grandfather whose body and writings were blown to pieces by Japanese militarism on the same day.When I was in Tokyo and someone pointed me out to the Yasukuni Shrine from a distance, I not only gritted my teeth, but was sick to my stomach.However, my two visits to Japan brought me into contact with many Japanese cultural people who hated Japanese militarism as much as I did, as well as ordinary Japanese citizens and farmers from Tokyo to Hiroshima to Sapporo, Hokkaido. "Eight Events", when I talked about my grandfather and the annihilation of his writings, and about the origin of my life and name, what I got from the moist light and shadow in the eyes of the listeners was not only comfort, but also a kind of firmness. oath: Don't let the evil that has happened happen again!