Chapter 10 8 Literature Society (1962-1963, twenty-seven to twenty-eight years old)

On January 29, 1962, when the old year was approaching, Mr. Yao sent 1,000 yuan from my teacher, along with a letter.Two days later, another letter from Tao Xisheng, "Inviting Li Ao to participate in the literature editing work of the 'Fifty Years of the Republic of China' with a monthly subsidy of NT$1,000" was forwarded to me. Teacher Yao Congwu and Teacher Wu Xiangxiang sent me another letter, He told me to "work with peace of mind from now on", because this position "is not easy to get". On February 1, 1962, when I went to Wenhua to meet with Tao Xisheng, it was the same day that I published "A Divination for People Talking about Chinese and Western Cultures" in the fifty-second issue of "Wen Xing".Tao Xisheng has been named and attacked in this article.One month before the publication of this article, I published "Hu Shi the Sower" in the fifty-first issue of "Wen Xing", which has already attracted the attention of all walks of life. This kind of attention started from the forty-ninth issue of "Wen Xing" A consistent continuation of the publication of "The Old Man and the Rod".Teacher Yao Congwu told me in the letter that "if you are too presumptuous, you will not only make too many enemies, but you may also hinder your work"; Teacher Wu Xiangxiang asked me in the letter to "don't talk too much", all of which were their foresight.They advised me that "the past is over, and I should still devote myself to learning in the future" and "work with peace of mind from now on", obviously expecting me to continue to pursue the path of learning and not to write random articles.They put me in Tao Xisheng's place.The purpose is to hope that the position will enable me to make a living, and, "use this to study the history of the Republic of China, in order to achieve some concrete achievements."In retrospect, both teachers seem a little too naive.In fact, they don't know Tao Xisheng, and they don't know me either.What they don't understand about Tao Xisheng is: they think we just temporarily "deposit" Li Ao with you, Tao Xisheng. After all, Li Ao is our person and our student, but Tao Xisheng doesn't think so!Tao Xisheng knows people with his eyes and sees what kind of talent Li Ao is, so why not take it as his own and the KMT's?What didn't understand me was: they thought I would get along with Tao Xisheng reluctantly, but they didn't know that I didn't think so!

As soon as I went to the document meeting, I made up my mind to prevent being pulled by Tao Xisheng.Tao Xisheng really treated me very courteously.At that time, he was moving to a new house, leaving the old house as a dormitory for the staff of the Documentation Society, and appointed me to live in his bedroom, but I never went to wish him not to live in it when he saw me. room, let me live in one.Because being with the office is relatively simple, I moved back to Taipei from the new store and lived in the Hangzhou South Road Documentation Club.Luo Jialun and Tao Xisheng came upstairs to see me and visited my bedroom. I saw the large nude woman on the Playboy I hung on the wall. Their funny expressions are still unforgettable to this day. (I wrote in my diary on April 12, 1962: "In the morning, Luo Jialun and Tao Xisheng came to visit the bedroom. Luo Jin came back immediately. Tao didn't dare to enter the naked woman, and laughed so hard. Tao snorted, Luoha let out, really humming two Will.") Jiang Junzhang recalled in "Sorrows for the Dead": "The compilation of the 'Fifty Years of the Founding of the People's Republic of China' documents, on the one hand, commemorates the 50th anniversary of the founding of the Republic of China; International scholars of modern Chinese history have obtained the original materials of the Chinese revolution and founding of the country as a basis for their research reference." "The initiation of this committee was a decision of the Taiwan authorities, supported by the 'Executive Yuan' and the 'Legislative Yuan', and its budget was initially It was listed in the budget of the "National History Museum", and later changed to the budget of the "Ministry of Education". Mr. Tao Xisheng served as the chairman, and Mr. Luo Zhixi served as the deputy director. The two gentlemen thought highly of me and asked me to be the chief editor... The two gentlemen intend to cultivate young people, and the Institute of History, National Taiwan University seconded some graduate students as my assistants." Jiang Junzhang's book was published in 1979, and I didn't see it on the street until five years after it was published; Only in the end did I find out some truths that I didn't know back then.For example, I never knew that "the initiation of this committee is a decision of the authorities". I always thought that its budget only came from the "National History Museum". Know that I am Jiang Junzhang's assistant.In fact, what I feel today is that Tao Xisheng wants to establish his own yamen. On the surface, it is entrusted to the decision-making of the "authorities", the budget of the "National History Museum", and the budget of the "Ministry of Education".Jiang Junzhang said: "Some postgraduate students were seconded by the Institute of History of National Taiwan University to be my assistants." This made sense. I went to the Documentation Society. The situation of graduate students (Zhang Junhong did not enter the Documentation Society until long after I left).There were seven or eight people in the meeting, most of whom were fellow villagers and relatives of Tao Xisheng.Hubei people also rule the world.When I first came to the document meeting, I had never met Jiang Junzhang, and I had nothing to do all day long. During working hours, we played table tennis, and at noon and evening, seven or eight people gathered around a table for dinner, joking with each other, and it was quite comfortable.During the meeting, Gao Yinzu was the executive secretary. Gao Yinzu was a commissioner of the Fourth Group of the Central Committee of the Kuomintang. He edited the book "Memorabilia of the Republic of China".Sometimes there are words in the chat, I always pretend to be confused.I knew that they wanted to lure me into the Kuomintang, and I was determined not to do it, so I had no choice but to pretend to be confused.

Ever since I joined the Documentation Conference, I have not listened to Teacher Yao Congwu's instructions to stop writing "defensive articles", and I have been writing articles for "Wen Xing". "Mr. Hu Shi Walked into Hell" and "Returning the Old Accounts for "Hu Shi the Sower"" were published in the fifty-third issue (March 1, 1962) of "Wen Xing"; the fifty-fourth issue (April 1 Japan) published "I want to continue showing people. …Until the 60th issue (October 1) published "Hu Qiuyuan's True Face", "Clarifying the Misunderstanding of 'Personal Attacks'", etc., my articles, as pointed out by the pen, have been full of scenery and turmoil.Among the people I criticized, the most unbearable one was none other than Hu Qiuyuan.Hu Qiuyuan joined the CY of the Communist Party in his early years, and joined the KMT as a member of the Central Committee and ran a party newspaper during the Anti-Japanese War.Once sent out, he was punished by the Kuomintang party for "having contact with the Communist Party in Britain".He is a volatile person, and because of his volatile nature, he cannot be trusted again and again in politics.Therefore, psychologically, he has a kind of "fantasy persecution disorder".His arrogance and self-inflated, over-emphasis on himself, makes him always feel that someone wants to hit him, he can't understand Hu Qiuyuan at all?What is Hu Qiuyuan?Who wants to fight against such a person who is frustrated in his official career and in academia?But under this kind of heart disease, he always deliberately looks for the "fantasy persecutor".He publicly said that Wen Xing "self-confesses to have a strong backing, which is what I call the staff group, which includes professors, including one who teaches logic, our fellow journalists, and political authorities. The 'Strange Alliance' is unprincipled, but for some reason, perhaps because of an 'anti-Hu Qiuyuan Complex', an 'anti-Hu Qiuyuan united front' was formed".It also said that the members of the anti-Hu group are "behind the young people there are middle-aged, old people, and seniors older than me." He also said that the unit of the members "is composed of people from an educational institution, an academic institution, and a staff officer. The regiment, plus a logistics organization, kept gathering for three weeks.... These arrogance and self-inflated, overemphasized "fantasy persecution syndrome" made him not believe that criticism of him was just a matter of Li Ao at the beginning. He used all the words to attack me personally, such as "a slave", "a dog", "there are middle-aged and old people behind", "there are professors and plans", "organized attacks", "there are staff groups, consultants, etc. ", "dangerous thugs", "people behind the scenes", "hiring slanderers", "obtaining orders to scold people", "asking consultants" and so on. He insisted that many agencies and people used Li Ao to attack him. After Hu Shi's death, he first suspected Yes, it’s Yao Congwu. But he doesn’t look in the mirror. Why did Yao Congwu attack him? Yao Congwu is an “incumbent” in the academic world, a professor at National Taiwan University, and an academician of the “Academia Sinica”. Hu Qiuyuan didn’t make it at all. Who wants to hit him? But it’s useless. A person suffering from “fantasy persecution syndrome” is hopeless. On April 14, 1962, I have the following diary: “Mr. Yao said in class that he admired My contradictory tactics prevented Hu Qiuyuan from being too arrogant.He also said that he greeted Hu Qiuyuan in Nangang a few days ago, but Hu Qiuyuan ignored him because Yao and Li were angry. This means that Hu Qiuyuan recognized Yao coming from my head as early as April. On the other hand, Hu Qiuyuan recognized Tao Xisheng's head again, but he didn't look in the mirror. Why did Tao Xisheng beat him? Tao Xisheng is a politician Hu Qiuyuan is a member of the Standing Committee of the Kuomintang Central Committee and the top minister of literary servants. Hu Qiuyuan is a frustrated figure in officialdom. Who wants to attack him? But it is useless. There is no cure for the fantasies of being persecuted.” Tao Xisheng told me: “Hu Qiuyuan said I beat him, why should I beat him?When the mainland retreated, Hu Qiuyuan failed to vote for the Communist Party and arrived in Hong Kong.At that time he could not come to Taiwan, but I managed to get him to enter the country. ——I want to hit him, will I help him like this? "However, Hu Qiuyuan's "fantasy persecution syndrome" was already deep at that time, and he had to insist on it no matter what.

In order to counter Hu Qiuyuan's personal attack on me.In order to seek the truth of history, I published "Hu Qiuyuan's True Face" in the 60th issue of "Wenxing" on October 1, 1962.The next day, I have a diary as follows: Tao must be more careful in writing in the future, because Hu Qiuyuan and others may label Li Ao's thought as violating the Three People's Principles. This public case has the potential to drag Tao into the water.They always think that there is someone behind my writing.They used to think it was Hu Shi, then Yao Congwu, then Yin Haiguang, then Wu Xiangxiang, and then Tao Xisheng, it was fun! ... But I don't know that I, Li Ao, come and go alone, and Hu Yaoyin, Wu Tao and others can beat me!

On October 3, I have the following diary: In the afternoon, Gao Yinzu and Tao Xisheng came to talk to me respectively.Tao Shen's three thoughts: 1. Hu Qiuyuan is "unscrupulous" and must be careful when writing in the future. I have heard that he is now collecting sentences from my writing to constitute violations and The crime of "president's speech". 2. Hu has the tendency to lead Tao into this vortex. 3. Tao absolutely ignored the conspiracy of Hu et al. to expel me from the Literature Society.Searching for materials is done by me, not by me. On October 4, it was published in the newspaper that Hu Qiuyuan sued me. I have the following diary: Tao Xisheng told me: 1. He can introduce two lawyers (Duanmukai and Zhou Xuanguan). Both of them have a sense of justice. Word.

Second, you can rest assured that there will be no problems in filing a lawsuit. On the surface, Tao Xisheng is really interesting to me.But deep down, there is a lot to write about.It turned out that Tao Xisheng wanted to take the opportunity to lure me into the KMT!As early as July, Gao Yinzu no longer said anything, but asked me to join the party straight to the point.I have the following diary on July 11: "Secretary Gao in the afternoon used the reason that the Sun Yat-sen Scholarship Society selected me to study abroad at public expense, and pulled me into the party. I declined." On August 28, I had the following diary: "In the morning, Gao Yinzu said that the police always wanted to punish me, but He said that Mr. Tao supported me." Gao Yinzu revealed that all of this also required me to join the party, saying that joining the party was all convenient. After I was sued by Hu Qiu on October 4th, Tao Xisheng and Gao Yinzu reiterated their previous intentions and made it clear that they had to join the party to get things done. Joining the party became "one of my own people". It is justifiable for party members to party members and support Li Ao.The Police Headquarters wants to punish you, so you can talk about it.I declined all such offers.At this time, I had already moved away from the Documentation Association (on May 19, I moved to the third floor of No. 231, Andong Street, which is the apartment shared by Xiao Mengneng and me), and I felt that the time to leave the Documentation Association seemed to be getting closer. .

In March 1963, I took the initiative to suspend my studies at the research institute. This gave Tao Xisheng an excuse. He went to Japan on May 3, and wrote a letter to Gao Yinzu before leaving, saying that it is better to use graduate students for the literature review. Li Ao would suspend school without telling him, and he decided to ask Li Ao not to come to work for the time being by staying on the job and paying his salary. On May 4th, I have a diary as follows: In the afternoon, Gao Yinzu's executive secretary invited me to show him the letter Tao Xisheng had given him before he left. Obviously under the shadow of Hu Qiuyuan's political turmoil, Tao had no choice but to "get rid of" others.Gao Yinzu once again proposed to me to join the party, and said that Hu Qiuyuan and Ren Zhuoxuan opposed you, not that the Kuomintang opposed you, and the Kuomintang welcomes your cooperation.I rejected Gao Yinzu's suggestion, and at the same time declined the idea of ​​staying in the job and "paying" salary, declining "severance pay", and rejecting the idea of ​​finding another job for me.I said I was a straightforward person, and I was determined to go, I don’t need to be here, and we both made each other messy. He said that he must find Wu Xiangxiang, and asked Wu to come forward to keep me, and get my salary as usual. After the lawsuit is over, come again. work.But I know he is in vain.

One year, three months and four days of working as a poor boy, now it comes to an end in this way, which is lamentable and ridiculous.This gave me three major stimuli: 1. All the unhappiness is due to my being too poor. Before coming to this meeting, I was so poor that I was poor. Wu Xiangxiang and Yao Congwu jointly introduced me, and I got this place to make a living.Imagine if there was a second way to go (such as a middle school teacher) at that time, why would you have the regret of "mistakenly boarding a thief ship"?Although, in the past fifteen months, I promised myself that I would not be infected or bewitched, but I was not happy after all.If you had thousands of dollars in your pocket at that time, why would you go on a "boat" for a thousand dollars a month?2. Therefore, for the current plan, it seems necessary to get rid of everything and try to have a little bit of economic foundation. I hope it will be a deposit of 50,000 to 100,000 yuan. Two bags will not be empty. Naturally, I will stand upright and naturally feel less unhappy.3. What is a person in the political field? Think about it!

On May 14, I have a diary as follows: After finishing the handover in the afternoon, I was only willing to receive the three-day salary (120 yuan) from the 1st to the 3rd of this month. Gao Yinzu said that I was too hypocritical, and Yuan Yinghua said that the association had a precedent for "giving money", and I refused.Leave a letter at the end (attach the receipts of the three days' salary). [Secretary] Ruan Jiguang, [Worker] Xiang Zezhou and Lin Minggang saw each other off.Zezhou asked me to leave a note, and I wrote two words such as "seeing the flowers and branches here, and vowing not to return when the head is white".Wu Xiangxiang came to me again and visited me at night.Speaking of Gao Yinzu, he told him that Li Ao came to Nangang so many times in a year and three months, and he never reported a car fare!

After Tao Xisheng returned from Japan, on May 22, he sent me a tie and a pair of socks brought back from Japan, and left a business card to greet me, and gave me a sum of money.I took the tie, the socks, and got the money back. Li Fanggui, a linguist and academician of the "Academia Sinica" came to Taiwan. Teacher Yao Congwu invited him to dinner. He said that he admired Li Ao and hoped that he could have dinner with Li Ao. On May 8, I had a meal with them in Xinyuan. There were Mao Zishui, Wu Xiangxiang and others present.The two teachers, Yao Congwu and Wu Xiangxiang, never mentioned my meeting with literature, and neither did I. On May 26, Yu Guangzhong said to me: "Mr. Liang Shiqiu heard that you lost your job and wanted to find a job for you." I found out later that Liang Shiqiu didn't let me know, so he wrote directly to Wang Shijie, the director of the "Academia Sinica" and Wang Shijie. Li Ji, the director of the Institute of History and Linguistics, roughly said that Li Ao is such a talented person, it is a pity to let him wander, and Li Ao should be invited to their side.After Wang Shijie and Li Ji received the letter, they started their internal operations first. On August 19, I received a letter from Teacher Yao Congwu, which said: I stayed in Nangang for two nights on Tuesday, and Huang Zhangjian, Chen Ban'an, Xu Yunshu, and Liu Shichao all saw it.Generally, he said, you are welcome to come to Nangang and officially shine in research.Some people think that Mr. Hu's hair is also grey, and you have scolded him enough, and you can change it in another direction.There are only a few people who have other prejudices and oppose your coming to Nangang, but they are lonely and dare not speak out, so they can only shoot sniper shots secretly.Mr. and Mrs. Liu Zijian were invited by Mr. Shaw Rui last Friday.I sat with Mr. Ji Zhi.Talking about your matter: (1) He said: Shiqiu wrote to Mr. Xueting and me, very earnestly.He is not in charge, so we will of course consider accepting his suggestion.Mr. Shizhi often talked about Li Ao, and I also know some of them, and left an impression on him. (2) After a pause, he said again, you are also his student, although you scored 58 points in one test and 60 points in the other test, you finally passed.Back then, the scores were strict, and very few people got 60 or 80 points in the test. (3) But after a while, he said again: Someone said: "Li Ao pissed his father to death, what do you think?" I said: "This is the first time I heard such serious news today. Malicious slander! I remember that he once sent a long letter to Mr. Shizhi and sent me a copy. He only said that after his father died, someone forced him to wear sackcloth and mourning. Rumors. There is another point, Li Ao sends five hundred yuan to his mother every month, and I heard that he still sends it.” The cold arrow mentioned above, this rumor, is also an example.

After dinner today, Mr. Zishui came to talk.Said: "I chatted with brother Ji in the morning, and I also talked about your business.Li said: "Mr. Xueting read the newspaper and knew that the lawsuit between Li Ao and Hu Qiuyuan is going to be settled. Then it can be decided." Mr. Mao also said: "This is not a condition. I hope Mr. Li will not misunderstand."... There is a story about Yao Congwu's teacher's letter mentioning Mao Zishui and what "Mr. Xueting" (Xueting is Wang Shijie's word) said.After Liang Shiqiu wrote the letter, Teacher Yao Congwu dared to intervene.Wang Shijie said that he wanted to talk to me first, and hoped that Teacher Yao Congwu would accompany me.So I met this high-ranking official under the respect of Mr. Yao Congwu who called Wang Shijie "teacher".Wang Shijie and I talked a lot about Hu Shi.Finally, he said: "Mr. Li is now in a lawsuit with Hu Qiuyuan. I wonder if we can wait for the lawsuit to come to an end before coming to the 'Academia Sinica'?" "A communication researcher at the Institute of Modern History, he took the initiative to sue me for this lawsuit. Why can he sue from the inside to the outside? It doesn't affect his position; but if I sue from the outside to the inside, it will affect his position. What about it?" Wang Shijie listened, with a poker face on his face, speechless, Teacher Yao Congwu and I said goodbye. On August 20, I finally wrote this letter: A few days ago, Mr. Yao Yuxiang from the "National History Museum" told me: "Mr. Luo Jialun said that he can go to the "National History Museum" after the lawsuit"; yesterday afternoon, Mr. Gao Yinzu from the Documentation Association said to the judge: "In a few days ( Actually after the lawsuit), we asked Mr. Li Ao to help again." Teacher, look: before the lawsuit is gone, no one dares to "reward" me with a bowl of rice!I can say loudly: Anyone who hesitated to give me this bowl of rice before the lawsuit is over; after the lawsuit is over, I will never go back to eat this bowl of rice! ——This is the old saying that "the poor and humble are proud"!This is a little stinky airs of a stinky literati who some people scold and no one dares to invite! ... Perhaps, my "crimes" are many.However, I hope that those "guessing" animals in Zhang Jiuling's poems can really discover my "true face". ——If they suck my bone marrow and hit my "bad deeds", I will be resentful and convinced.But what are they provoking like gossiping women?Can it keep me from being secretly funny?Can I make an uncultivated person like me not go back on my word? Since the so-called cultural debate, that is, in terms of the two of us, the teacher and the student, the teacher thinks: how many people really understand the relationship between us?How many people really believe that Yao Congwu didn't play tricks from behind?Teacher, think again: Who would have thought that you have always opposed my scribbling articles?Who would have known that you were the one who was always trying to keep me from "making trouble"? ... There are so many rumors outside, but I still have more emotions in my heart!They rumored that an "educational institution" (National Taiwan University) supported me, but I saw with my own eyes in the court the trivial letter written by President Qian Siliang to Hu Qiuyuan's "legislator master"-a letter without the demeanor of a university sacrifice, ——This is the "support" of the "educational institution" to me!They also rumored that a "research institution" ("Academia Sinica") supported me. When they wrote this text, they were using the desk of the Institute of Modern History of the "Academia Sinica"!and I?If you want to get one-third of Hu Qiuyuan's salary in the "Academia Sinica", you can't get it! ——This is the "support" of the "research institution" to me!They also rumored about Yao Congwu, but deep down in my heart, I felt that even if Yao Congwu was not a fearful person, he was also a bad person.Such an old gentleman, not only would not be in the mood to instigate me; he would even wait for Mr. Liang Shiqiu to speak up for his student before he would help his husband to settle down. ... In the past year and a half, those who have been wronged because of me are called Hu Shi, Yao Congwu, Wu Xiangxiang, Yin Haiguang, and Tao Xisheng.These five gentlemen, who is a good person and who is a bad guy, the world has its own opinion, but it is completely false to say that they instigate this on my head!I am not willing to let these five people be slandered because of me, and I am not willing to be slandered by thugs personally. Therefore, I must find out the truth of this strange case! Nangang Academy is a place for some innocent scholars to raise their innocence. Because of their excessive innocence, they turned their backs on Li Ao, and naturally frowned, worried, or lured wolves into the house, which is not their blessing; but why don't they think about it: It is certainly not their blessing to lure wolves into the house, but is it their blessing to let the tiger go back to the mountain? Interesting things in the world, now we can add a chapter. This matter is like a dream in spring. When you wake up from a dream in Changchun and suddenly realize the internal history of scholars, it is still like a dream. ... I was invited out at the literature meeting. The "Academia Sinica" was not allowed to enter the door. The successive incidents made me feel deeply: I used to be a person who sticks to principles and does not join the Kuomintang; sticks to principles and goes to court with the Kuomintang; In the end, there will be no occupations, the occupations that have been obtained will be lost, and the occupations that have not been obtained will be lost.But what is this?Aren't all these things the inevitable result of seeking benevolence and gaining benevolence under the rule of the Kuomintang? The most interesting thing is that when Tao Xisheng failed to recruit me to join the Kuomintang, he became angry from embarrassment. When "Wenxing" became more and more troublesome, he finally turned against me and wrote a short article criticizing me in "Central Daily", the first party newspaper of the Kuomintang.He first wrote an article "Preserving the Reputation of National Taiwan University" (September 2, 1964), in which he said that National Taiwan University has good students, "but there are also unworthy students. For example, in recent months, a magazine has continuously published a graduate Students slander National Taiwan University's articles, betray teachers and destroy friends, and try their best to spread rumors, be vicious and vicious. Teachers and students of National Taiwan University and overseas teachers and friends who read such articles at least feel that they are ashamed of their alma mater and cannot be tolerated. "" Chinese people have always had the habit of not entering the government and not going to court. We don't want to encourage anyone to go to court. But we think that National Taiwan University should prosecute according to the law for such things that tarnish the reputation of the school, and there is nothing to do. "Four days later (September 6, 1964), he wrote another "Book of Slander", which said: "There is a book on the market called "Hu Shi's Commentary Biography". This book only published the first volume. That's all. In one volume, it is superficially praising Hu Shizhi, but in fact, from Hu Shizhi's predecessors to himself, there are sneers and sarcasm everywhere, making readers unbearable to read. Such a book, if such a It can be said that it is a shame for scholars to publish one volume at a time without any objection. We would like to express our objection with this short article today.” I am not surprised that Tao Xisheng attacked me from the standpoint of a party newspaper, because it was something I did not agree with. It is an inevitable development to cooperate with them and not to collude with them.It's just about timing, not personal reasons.At that time, Tao Xisheng wanted to send his son Tao Jinsheng and daughter-in-law Bao Jialin to teach in the history department of National Taiwan University, so he expressed his opinion to Shen Gangbo, the dean of the Faculty of Arts, and Shen Gangbo was the focus of my criticism; , so it seems to support Hu, and later supported Mrs. Hu Jiang Dongxiu's lawsuit against Wenxing.All these kinds of behaviors are actually the best things for people like Tao Xisheng.The funniest thing is that he is so shameless that he still talks about "the shame of Shilin". He is so wonderful! Tao Xisheng has small eyes and a square face, resembling Cao Cao in Beijing opera, and his speech is deep and full of foreshadowing.He is the deepest character in the city I have ever seen.Before he invited me away, he had always been kind to me. He invited me to his office on the second floor if he had some intractable diseases in history, hoping that I would solve them.On one occasion, the Documentation Association bought the original document of the Central Headquarters of the China Tongmenghui with a large sum of money. It was the signature book of the establishment of the secret meeting at that time, with the signatures of Song Jiaoren and others on it.Tao Xisheng was very happy, so he took it and asked Yu Youren to inscribe it.Yu Youyi saw that his name was not in the autograph book, and he was very unhappy. He said that he remembered that he had clearly participated in the revolution, so why was there no him?Wasn't he a "Founding Father"?How could such an important meeting not have his name?Tao Xisheng came back, found me, and asked me to carefully research and verify whether history was wrong or Yu Youren was wrong.After careful research, I concluded as follows: Yu Youren did not participate that time.In order to make Yu Youren speechless, I cited every piece of evidence to prove that the old man really did not participate.I don't know how Tao Xisheng replied at the end, I only know that Yu Youren "was sleepless for several days".I'm really sorry, with my knowledge, I really couldn't find out the history of his participation. This kind of apology lasted for a few days, and I didn't stop apologizing until I was kicked out of the Documentation Association. After I left the Documentation Society, Hu Qiuyuan filed a petition in court, asking Gao Yinzu, the executive secretary of the Documentation Society, to testify that I had stolen "state materials" from the Documentation Society to attack Hu Qiuyuan.So I wrote a letter to Gao Yinzu. The theme of the letter is obvious, which is to declare my firm position.Among the defendants in that lawsuit, Ju Haoran and Ye Mingxun were both reconciled and out. Xiao Mengneng tried to make peace several times under the pressure of his relatives, friends, and fathers, and Gao Yinzu, under the order of Tao Xisheng, also repeatedly persuaded him to make peace. I am writing this letter to persuade you to make peace. The mouth of the witnesses, and stimulate Gao Yinzu's conscience, do not give perjury.Later, Gao Yinzu appeared in court and showed the judge the original letter written by Tao Xisheng himself, proving that the letter he wrote to the court in the name of the executive secretary of the Documentation Association was not an act of persuasion, but was drafted by Tao Xisheng himself and asked him to copy and send it out. The original letter is: 1. Letter No. 20445 of Suixingchengzi dated June 28, 1963, respectfully. 2. Cha Xiao Mengneng has nothing to do with this association. Li Ao used to be a temporary staff member of this association and has almost resigned. 3. The association has never stored "state agency" archives, and the printed materials of newspapers and magazines that are stored in it can be read and used by the staff of the association.Those outside the meeting who ask for a copy of this printed material may also copy it.There is no so-called theft or embezzlement in all of these. 4. Please return the business license.Sincerely, Taipei District Court Gao Yinzu, executive secretary of the "Fifty Years of the Founding of the Republic of China Documentation Committee" July 4, 1962 The court also received a reply letter from Luo Jialun, curator of the "National History Museum": "National History Museum" letter dated July 2, 1963 ("May 2") Taiwan History Zongzi No. 172 Recipient: Taipei District Court 1, your court Suixingcheng Zi No. 20 on June 28 this year Thank you for your letter No. 445. 2. Check the historical materials and archives in the library. Xiao Mengneng and Li Ao did not and have no way of stealing or misappropriating them. Third, please return to Huicha. Curator Luo Jialun The above two replies confirmed what Hu Qiuyuan said was all paranoia. He "thought" that I had stolen and embezzled documents and documents from "state organs" to expose him. In fact, those materials were just old newspapers, and anyone in the academic circle could see them.Hu Qiuyuan also "thought" Li Ao's published photos of the traitors in Fujian were only owned by the intelligence and governance agencies, and they were provided by the intelligence and governance agencies to attack him. In fact, those photos had already been published in old Japanese and Chinese magazines, as long as they were knowledgeable and diligent. found out.However, his suspicion has an advantage for him: in order to avoid suspicion and attack literary stars, the intelligence agencies are happy to get closer to Hu Qiuyuan.His relationship with Wang Sheng and Cao Min of the General Political Department is not simple. From his close friend Xu Gaoruan, it can be seen that he has a black market with other intelligence and governance units. Xu Gaoruan, who was born on the left, is attacking Wen Xing On the day of his death, Wang Sheng, director of the General Political Department, Shen Zhiyue, director of the Investigation Bureau, and Ye Xiangzhi, director of the Intelligence Bureau, appeared in the funeral procession!His background, so it is! ——Xu Gaoruan's job is only an associate researcher at the Institute of History and Linguistics of the "Academia Sinica". The relationship is not simple, which proves it!As for Zheng Xuejia, who sued together with Hu Qiuyuan, he also committed the same paranoid praise. At the end of 1961, I published "Hu Shi the Sower" in "Wen Xing". This article brought big right and wrong and big troubles, and then led to a big pen fight. Later, this pen battle was divided into two circles, One circle is "controversy on Chinese and Western cultural issues"; the other circle is "controversy on Hu Shi, the sower". The main opponents of the former are Xu Daolin and Hu Qiuyuan; the main opponents of the latter are Ren Zhuoxuan and Zheng Xuejia. Group, very lively.At the time of the pen battle, Zheng Xuejia published "I Accused" and said: When I first read Mr. Li Ao's (Hu Shi the Sower), I thought he was very close to Hu Shi, otherwise I would not know these things that are not known to outsiders: Various celebrities in the Independent Review Agency advocated planting alone, only Hu Shi Objected; Hu closed the windows for the female students to show "considerateness"; He Hu refunded several dollars for the promotion fee. In fact, Zheng Xuejia's "thinking" is the same as Hu Qiuyuan's "thinking", completely wrong!In fact, what did I "get close to Hu Shi"?Regarding the controversy between the rule of the people and the dictatorship in the "Independent Review", it was clearly published in the "Independent Review", "Independent Review" No. 80, No. 81, No. No. 84, No. 86, No. 88, No. 130, and "Oriental Miscellaneous" Volume 31 No. 1 and Volume 32 No. 1, all with documents and evidence ; As for Hu Shi closing the windows for female students, the first issue of 1932, the "English China Review Weekly" in 1934, the third issue of "Human World" in 1934, and "Portrait of Literati" were also included. Documents and evidences are all there; as for Hu Shi's return of publicity fees, CurrentBio-graph in 1942 and Time Magazine of VOL.LXXIX No. 9 also have documents and evidences.Don’t try to understand it, but insist that this is my unique secret, Li Ao, isn’t that a big joke? He, Zheng Xuejia, read so little, but thinks that I, Li Ao, have such great supernatural powers that I “know things that are not known to outsiders.” Isn’t that a joke? Big joke?The documents and evidence are all there, and anyone who is willing to work hard can find them.However, this so-called scholar who has a close relationship with the General Political Department of the Kuomintang is so ignorant and ignorant. This kind of person would rather "think" about the "delicate relationship" between Hu Shi and me than to write too much in books. Kung fu, this kind of suspicion is really harmful to oneself and others.After Zheng Xuejia's death, Jiang Jingguo specially awarded the forehead of "Ji Xue Yi Hui", which was published by the military newspaper. I couldn't help laughing when I saw it, "Ji Xue Yi Hui"?Not necessarily not necessarily, if you don't study hard, you will be harmed, and you will have no shame!I cite these examples to illustrate that all the disputes that occurred at that time were caused by Hu Qiuyuan's mistake. They didn't believe that a young man who had just debuted was writing articles by himself, and they always suspected that there was someone behind the scenes. It's hitting them, if they really know that this young man has no background, no background, maybe they won't mind so much.Four hundred years ago, Li Zhuowu, a great maverick thinker, said: "I will benefit those who don't know me...you can achieve this life." Because of the suspiciousness of "those who don't know me", in the end, you will leave your name forever, and they will suffer forever. curse roundly.They work so hard to "destroy" people, but they are actually just some stepping stones for you to "make this life possible". "Destroying people and benefiting them" is not so pleasant! Many years later, Hu Qiuyuan recalled that Tao Xisheng and him were good friends again, and I laughed when I found out.I laughed at Tao Xi Shengkong who had a good dream on Li Ao's head, and finally dismissed Li Ao, thinking he had a plan, but he underestimated Li Ao too much.Li Ao is about to hold a final trial, and he cannot escape Li Ao's final words.Tao Xisheng died in 1988, twenty-five years after the resignation of Li Ao, and lived to be ninety-one years old.After his death, his son Tao Longsheng wrote an article "Mr. Tao Xisheng's Secret", which was published in the first party newspaper of the Kuomintang, "Central Daily", revealing Tao Xisheng's secret confession before his death.Tao Longsheng said: On April 5, "He said a lot to me that day, and he asked me to write it down and publish it at an appropriate time in the future. I will write one or two now." The content of "Write One or Two" turned out to be: Tao Xisheng became a traitor because Chiang Kai-shek secretly sent him to go undercover.In other words, he was secretly ordered to be a traitor, so when others become traitors, they would either die or be imprisoned or go into exile overseas; but Tao Xisheng was an exception, and he still had to be reused by Chiang Kai-shek.In fact, these arguments are untenable.Because in the secret documents we learned, it was found that it was not the case.例如陶希圣出走香港后，1940年1月15日，曾密函胡适，说：“希'圣'今后决心不再混政治舞台，但求速死耳，”，“此后希［圣］将去之海外，为人所忘以死矣。”可见他愧悔之情。如果他是钦命汉奸，则必欣然回中央讨赏领奖矣，又何必“但求速死、去之海外”哉？何况，陶希圣在《八十自序》中明说“脱离战地，背叛国家”，“希圣一心感激委员长不杀之恩”；在“总统蒋公”诔词中又明说“不杀之恩，愧无以报”，可见他惶恐之情。如果他是钦命汉奸，则必欣然因卧底功成而邀功矣，又何该杀之有哉？结论是：在翻云覆雨的政治斗争中，固然有的汉奸是钦命的，像殷汝耕、像唐生明，但陶希圣却不在此类。他死前犹欲以玄虚自清欺人，临终授命，教儿子扯谎，结果被我拆穿，适见其加倍无耻而已！ 因为陶希圣城府最深，所以同他办事，也得“阴险”一点。文献会同仁以夏天太热，想呈文陶希圣买电扇，我说你们呈文买电扇，陶老板是不会同意的，你们要高抬价码，呈文买冷气机才成。他舍不得买冷气机，觉得抱歉，就会给你们买电扇代替了。——这个故事，显示了我的“阴险”，可以智胜陶汉奸。他临终授命最后被我拆穿，真可谓“生诸葛走死仲达”了！ 至于胡秋原告我的官司，由于法院是国民党的，后果可想而知。这官司前后拖了十三年，枯燥中亦有趣闻。胡秋原有一次在法院不称我之名，而叫“李匪帮”，我提出异议。后来才弄清楚，原来他叫我“李诽谤”，可是他的黄陂土话发音成“李匪帮”，所以吓人倒怪。还有一次胡秋原加请法学家陈顾远做他律师，陈顾远不知是老糊涂了，还是装疯卖傻、两面做人，竟在法庭上说我好话，并代我辩护起来，气得胡秋原再也不请他了。这官司造成我跟胡秋原结了一辈子梁子，在他告我三十年后，我找到机会告他，他赔了我三十五万，我嫌少，坚持把他家贴上封条，至今封条犹在，而他已老得无力出庭了。曾祥铎劝我“得饶人处且饶人”，我说：“三十年前，胡秋原整殷海光、整我的时候，你为什么不向他说这句话？”——我为人好勇斗狠、有仇必报，并且没完没了！于胡秋原案上可见一斑。王企祥（李远哲的老师）说得有趣：“你不能得罪犹太人，得罪了犹太人一如得罪了李敖，他跟你没完没了。”我听了大笑，我说：“你终于学到了跟李敖做朋友的窍门了。”胡秋原正好相反，他学不到跟李敖做敌人的窍门，以致被我没完没了。1984年12月22日，我在百货公司碰到台大老同学卢华栋，十多年不见了。上次见他是他出狱后，我去看他，并小送金钱。此后“一别音容两渺茫”。卢华栋出狱第二年即已经结婚生子，洗手不涉及政治，对党外活动，亦所知茫然。我劝他写一点狱中回忆，他说他已专心从商了。我说：“就这样的不干了？”他苦笑了一下，说：“不干了。”我说：“这样被国民党欺负了，就算了？”他说：“就算了。”我在牢里听黄毅辛说，特务们整卢华栋，甚至把万金油涂在他眼珠上，其凶残可想，可是卢华栋统统“就算了”。我的人生观绝不如此，我从来不把恩仇“就算了”，我要“千刀万里追”，这一性格，最像犹太人。陶希圣、胡秋原这些湖北佬，如今死的死、老的老，仍难逃我们东北人的斧钺，惟我李敖，毋太犹乎？