Chapter 60 lifelong love for her
I just mentioned the extreme happiness, the transparent and beautiful happiness of ectoplasm, I don’t know if you feel the same way.
I did, and I do not forget my happiness.I think the happiest thing is a flash of magic bursting out in a short period of time --- like two people who understand each other thoroughly: a sentence hits your heart and makes your mind and emotion feel tense. Full satisfaction; like being in love: at a time, you and another person other than yourself are extremely happy with each other; like falling in love, at that moment, what you see with your eyes, hear with your ears, and feel nothing with your heart It's not beautiful, emotions flow like poetry, like the fragrance of flowers.
These are all rare treasures in a lifetime.There are not many people in the world who have that opportunity, and not many who have the natural sensitivity and tenderness to savor the experience, so it is useless to have that opportunity.
... Between husband and wife, it is natural to suffer because of love disputes, but that kind of pain is also sandwiched with extremely rich happiness.The real tragedy is the marriage of indifference and indifference!
If I were to pick one of "Blooming Emotion" and "Broken Emotionlessness," I'd have no problem picking the top one, whether for myself or for someone else.The basic meaning of life is to be able to experience emotions.To experience emotion requires wisdom and thought to understand that emotion separately—one's own or another's! …
When she was about to end this letter, she remembered Shen Congwen's distress, so she wrote again:
Forget it! Second brother, don't abuse yourself too much, come to me when you have time, let's spend some time discussing it, and you can tell me some real situations.
All I have been thinking about for 24 hours is how I am so negative and so miserable, and the person who made me suffer so badly is also suffering so badly on the train to Shanghai, and has already sent me two telegrams. Letter, isn't this a tragedy of "human nature"? That person is the second brother Liang who said he doesn't like to care about human nature the most!
Huiyin and:
You have to talk to Lao Jin, he is really understanding and at the same time very objective and very compassionate and very understanding of human nature, although he himself does not necessarily mention his history.
Mr. Chen Zhongying and Chen Yuer from Fujian, in the process of editing Lin Huiyin's poems and essays in the early 1980s, visited Beijing many times to visit Jin Yuelin, who was over 80 years old.They noted some things as follows:
Jin Yuelin was full of affection for Lin Huiyin all his life.
After Lin Huiyin died, Jin Yuelin was still single.
In the interview with Jin Yuelin, Chen Yu said, "I really want to know the reasons behind this behavior on the level of consciousness. But this is purely private, unless he takes the initiative to say so, I can't be rude to ask. However, I learned something later, But not without gains.
"There was a student Jin Yuelin loved, who was suddenly hit by a setback in marriage and love, and had the idea of suicide. Jin Yuelin went to comfort him many times, and tried his best to enlighten the student, so that the student realized: Love is just a process, the end of love, marriage or not , It’s just a stage in the love process, and the happiness of love should be judged from the whole process of love, not just from the ending of love. In the end, this student was freed from the spiritual crisis that he couldn’t bear to live with.”
Because of this, I thought of Jin Yuelin, and I suddenly had a new understanding of his unmarried life.
One day many years after Lin Huiyin's death, Jin Yuelin solemnly invited some close friends to a banquet at the Beijing Hotel.Before the meeting, he said: "Today is Lin Huiyin's birthday!"