Chapter 48 Ling Shuhua's visit

Huiyin wanted to ask Ling Shuhua for Zhimo's "Cambridge Diary", and wanted to see what Zhimo wrote at that time.But she knew that it would be embarrassing to ask for it, so she worried and hesitated.During the hesitation, some ideas gradually gained the upper hand: other irrelevant people are passing around to read those diaries, why can’t the person involved read them? Although she also realizes that this kind of psychology is a bit feminine , but the desire to see this part of the diary related to myself has become stronger and stronger. She analyzed herself and said: "I will not be proud of the poet's flattery, nor will I be ashamed of being in love. I will always be me, and being complimented by the poet will not increase my beauty and energy. There has been an unfortunate twists and turns. I have nothing to be ashamed of in my old history, I just want to read that diary, it gives me a kind of satisfaction, the satisfaction of curiosity, reminiscing about this strange world, remembering old friends."

On the morning of December 7, the weather was dry and cold, the sun was yellow and yellow, and there was no warmth. Huiyin is reading the "Morning News".Today's "Morning News" is "Mourning Zhimo Special Issue". The "Special Issue" published the activities of colleagues in Beijing's cultural circles to mourn Xu Zhimo the day before, and also published an article by Lin Huiyin. Huiyin flipped through the newspaper, feeling very depressed.After the memorial service was held yesterday, her emotions have not recovered. Unexpectedly, Ling Shuhua came at this time.

Huiyin received her.Chatted for a while.Ling Shuhua explained his purpose. She told Huiyin that she was going to edit a book like "Zhimo Letters", and hoped to get some Zhimo's letters from Huiyin. Huiyin felt a little unhappy at once. She was emotionally resistant to Ling Shuhua's behavior of only considering her own needs and ignoring other people's feelings.Especially those two "Cambridge Diaries" stuck in her heart, which made her feel depressed.She told Ling Shuhua that in the past few years, she and Sicheng had been abroad for a while and in the Northeast for a while, so all their old letters were kept in Tianjin, and I'm afraid they couldn't get them out immediately.Moreover, these letters are almost all in English, and even if they are taken out, they must be translated and cannot be used immediately.

Huiyin also told Ling Shuhua that Shizhi had handed over Zhimo's small box to him and entrusted him to sort it out. In order to be worthy of Shizhi's trust, he tried to maintain a historical and objective attitude when sorting it out. Speaking of this, she said to Ling Shuhua as tactfully as possible: "I heard that you have Zhimo's 'Kangqiao Diary', can you let me have a look?" Ling Shuhua hesitated for a while, and replied very briefly: "Yes." Huiyin asked again: "How many copies do you have? Two?" Ling Shuhua's voice brought out emotions: "Two copies."

Huiyin wanted to break the atmosphere, so he seemed very relaxed and asked, "Are those two books the same cover as the one in the box?" Ling Shuhua became more and more impatient: "Yes! Oh, no! I can't tell." Seeing Ling Shuhua's extremely unhappy expression, Lin Huiyin was very embarrassed.But she still restrained her displeasure and said, "Then I'll pick it up at your house in the afternoon, okay?" Ling Shuhua refused straight away, "I'm going out this afternoon, I'm not at home." According to Huiyin's temper, she wanted to say at this moment: Then I will go get it with you now.But she didn't want to make things stiff, suppressed her unhappiness, swallowed the words that came to her lips, and only asked when was the right time to get them.

Finally, she made an agreement with Ling Shuhua that the day after tomorrow, December 9th, she would send her servants to fetch it from Ling Shuhua's house. On December 9th, Huiyin always felt a little uneasy when he thought of Ling Shuhua's attitude.She was afraid that sending someone else to go would cause extra trouble, so she decided it was better to go get it herself.