Chapter 8 Liang Qichao discouraged
Although Xu Zhimo's pursuit did not get Lin Huiyin's promise, he still insisted on divorcing Zhang Youyi despite the unanimous opposition of his family and relatives and friends.Xu Zhimo believes that what he does is not only to pursue Lin Huiyin, but also to pursue an ideal state of life.
Mr. Liang Qichao, his most respected teacher, heard the news and wrote to him specifically to persuade him to give up the idea of divorce:
...First, never allow the pain of others to change your own happiness.My brother's actions, whether it is related to my future happiness or not, are like chasing after the wind, and it has already caused immeasurable pain to most people.Second, the sanctity of love is something that today's young people like to say, so things can be met but not sought.For those who are sentimental and sentimental, their fantasies fluctuate, and it is extremely difficult to be satisfied. The sacred realm they imagine may not be attainable in the end, and they will just spend their lives in trouble.
Woohoo Shima!Is there a perfect universe in the world... We should take not seeking perfection as our attitude in life, so we can appreciate the wonderful taste of life... If you are addicted to unattainable dreams, and you have setbacks several times, your business will be exhausted, and you will die if you are worried. nameless.Death is still possible, the most feared one is neither death nor birth, but degenerates to the point where he cannot extricate himself. Woohoo Zhimo, there is nothing to be afraid of!There is nothing to be afraid of!
Liang Rengong's letter can be said to come from the heart. It is a heart-to-heart talk from a teacher to the younger students, and it is also an exhortation to the younger generation from a person who has experienced it.But at this time, Xu Zhimo had made up his mind. In his reply to Ren Gong, he confessed that he was not afraid of "the jealousy of mediocre desires" and did the opposite:
I am willing to risk the injustice of the world and fight with all my strength. I am not specifically seeking to avoid the terrible pain, but to seek the peace of mind, the establishment of personality, and the salvation of the soul.
Who doesn't seek mediocrity?Anyone who is disturbed off-the-shelf?Who is not afraid of hardships and dangers?However, if someone breaks out of the siege, how can the husband get there?
I will visit my only soul mate in the vast crowd. If I get it, I am lucky; if I don’t, it’s my fate, that’s all.
In February 1922, Zhang Youyi gave birth to her second son Desheng (also known as Peter) in Berlin. In March, Xu Zhimo and Zhang Youyi officially divorced in Berlin, as Wu Jingxiong and Jin Yuelin testified.
In August 1922, Xu Zhimo returned to China.
Some articles mentioned that before Xu Zhimo decided to divorce, he had received a letter from Lin Huiyin. In the letter, Lin Huiyin asked Xu Zhimo to choose between her and Zhang Youyi, which prompted Xu Zhimo to marry Zhang Youyi. Made up my mind to divorce.
This statement is just speculation and imagination.Xu Zhimo is used to saving all correspondence and texts between relatives and friends in his life. If there is such a letter, Xu Zhimo will not fail to keep it.In the existing materials about Xu Zhimo, no evidence related to this statement can be found.
After Lin Huiyin returned to China with his father, he continued to study at Peihua Girls' School.
Many years have passed, and Huiyin wrote a letter to Hu Shi in the grief of Xu Zhimo's plane crash, in which he talked about his feelings for Xu Zhimo.From it, we can see Lin Huiyin's true heart:
My education is old, I can't change any new person, I just want to "worthy" people --- parents, husband (a person who loves me and treats me very well), son, family, etc. , and later I have to be worthy of another person who loves me, my own sometimes heart, my temperament makes it very embarrassing...
I miss him a lot these days, but if he is still alive, I am afraid I will not be able to change him.Very unlikely in fact.Maybe that's why I don't love him enough, a proof that I love my present home above all else.Zhimo also admitted this.