Chapter 6 Divorce for Lin Huiyin
Spring is deep, and Xu Zhimo has been deeply attracted by Lin Huiyin.He himself couldn't explain why he was so emotionally infatuated with this girl.
He likes Huiyin's light eyebrows like spring mountains, he likes Huiyin's eyes like autumn water, he likes the pair of smile dimples on Huiyin's cheeks, and he prefers to talk with Huiyin freely.Huiyin's ethereal artistic feeling and her insights and conversations often inspire the inspiration and spark of his thinking.
What made his heart sway the most was walking in Cambridge with Huiyin in late spring.
They walked along the meandering creek, and the upstream of the creek was Byron Pond --- Byron used to play here.There is a small dam at the boundary between the upstream and downstream of the small river. The rushing water glistens with broken silver in the sun, the soft aquatic plants lazily brush the water surface, and the roots of dense bushes stretch out in the water beside the river.On the quiet path, densely covered with green grass, a milk truck disappeared at the end of the path with a crisp bell.In the green shade, the ancient stone walls are covered with moss, and the delicate roses are blooming quietly; thick fallen leaves are piled up in the forest, and the rays of light shoot in obliquely like clusters of golden arrows.At dusk, the brilliance of the setting sun enveloped the surrounding fields, and the sound of church bells in the distance hit people's hearts...
Five years later, Xu Zhimo wrote in "Kangqiao I Know": "I only have one spring in my life, which is pitiful, and I have never wasted it. It is only one spring, and my life is natural. What a joy! (Although it happened to be the period when I felt the most pain in my life)... Strange to say, it was like the first time that I recognized the brightness of the stars and the moon, the greenness of the grass, the fragrance of flowers, the hospitality of flowing water... "
Xu Zhimo expresses his feelings for Cambridge here, and also expresses his unforgettable feelings in love.For the first time in his life, he deeply felt the pain and sweetness of being in love with someone, even though he and his wife Zhang Youyi have been married for 6 years.
Six years ago, Xu Zhimo was still in high school in Hangzhou No. 1 Middle School.At that time, Zhang Jia, a celebrity in the political and financial circles, visited this famous school in Zhejiang Province.During the inspection, he saw Xu Zhimo's Chinese examination papers. After appreciating them, he asked someone to propose marriage to Xu Zhimo's father, Xu Shenru, and married him with his younger sister Zhang Youyi.Zhang Youyi is a lady of the family, and her two older brothers, Zhang Jia and Zhang Junmai, are important figures in the political circles. Xu Shenru readily agreed to the marriage.
When the two got married, Xu Zhimo was 18 years old and Zhang Youyi was 16 years old.
After Xu Zhimo came to the UK, Zhang Youyi and their son A Huan also came to the UK to study with them.During this period, Xu Zhimo fell in love with Lin Huiyin.
Xu Zhimo's feelings came quickly and strongly.He believes that his love for Lin Huiyin is the result of his spiritual awakening, and his pursuit of Lin Huiyin is the highest expression of the pursuit of love, beauty and freedom; his bold expression of this emotion is out of moral courage and humane spirit , The spirit of the new era.Therefore, he wants to end his loveless marriage with Zhang Youyi in order to obtain his true love.
In his letter to Zhang Youyi asking for a divorce, he said: "...True life must be found through struggle and self-seeking... Each other has the heart to improve society, and each other has the heart to benefit mankind. Respect each other's personality, divorce freely, end pain, and bring happiness, all of which are here."
In Xu Zhimo's view, the dissolution of this loveless marriage will relieve the pain.Without such courage, how can we talk about improving society and benefiting mankind.He is determined to "make a decisive decision" to fight for his true love, true happiness, and true life.